forced to whitewash [rebirth]

In fact, Bai Yu is in a very complicated mood now, he is a little confused, although he often has such a mood after meeting Mo Dingxuan, but now it is still a little different.

Before, it was only at the level of whether to accept Mo Dingxuan's approach, but now it has begun to show the past to others.

He didn't think much before the illusion of memory, and he became a little vigilant after the illusion was completed. Bai Yu felt that it seemed too natural for him to do so, because Mo Dingxuan wanted to know his past life, so he shared the memory with him... It seems like he shouldn't be so light.

In any case, this is the depth of his memory that he doesn't want to be touched by others. He buried it carefully and even refused to reveal it himself. He even diverted his attention to avoid the key points that might recall the past.

Perhaps Mo Dingxuan said too much about his past before this, so that he had the illusion that exchanging secrets was natural.

Bai Yu was in a daze, had he already gotten so close to Mo Dingxuan?

But since I have already made a vow never to leave and I plan to try new relationships and build intimacy with others, it shouldn't matter if I get closer...

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Mo Dingxuan fiddled with the freshly broken flower branch in his hand, the tiny petals fell one after another, and the pure white color was set off by the disgusting color of the ground even brighter.

He bent over the flower branches to form a circle: "What about after that?"

"This military region was the only military region left in the last days. After it was destroyed, there would be no countries in the world, only major bases." Bai Yu whispered, "The base began to develop... I was rescued and I also participated in it."

He can't remember how their company was completely wiped out. The remaining memory only tells him that he survived alone, and then he was picked up in a coma and revived.

Mo Dingxuan saw the scene around him change, it seemed to be transformed into a simple house, a black-haired boy was standing by the bed, and another young man was standing beside him as if trying to persuade him.

The young man was tall and straight, and Mo Dingxuan took a few steps to the side to see his face, but the front was blurred, giving a vaguely handsome and gentle feeling.

He was a little surprised, and then he heard Bai Yu's hesitant voice: "This is the person who saved me, but I don't remember what he looks like."

"..." Mo Dingxuan frowned, he couldn't hear the young man's advice very clearly, maybe Bai Yu's memory of this passage was also very vague, but fortunately, Bai Yu's language in his previous life was similar to his current language, Mo Ding Xuan vaguely discerned the words "base", "Did he invite you to build a base?"

"Yes, he is the son of a general in my previous military region. After the military region was breached, he led his men to rebuild a base. He had heard about me before and saved me," Bai Yu said, Mo Dingxuan Then he saw another young man walking in from the door. To his surprise, this person's face was very clear, and the contrast with the previous one was really strong.

The second young man was also handsome and gentle, and he seemed to be here to persuade the young man to join, Mo Dingxuan raised his eyebrows: "Who is this?"

"His friend, the person who plans to build the base together, has a similar background," Bai Yu said with a cold expression, "he has a lot of scheming and ambition. After the base was built, he had conflicts with me because he was fighting for power with other bases. He betrayed me and wanted to kill me. "

Mo Dingxuan looked at the first young man, his face was still blurred, and now he seemed to be joking with the young man with a clear face: "What about him?"

"..." Bai Yu frowned, "I don't remember."

This is really abnormal. Bai Yu's blurred memory does not mean that he didn't notice this person. When the military vehicle came over, Mo Dingxuan took a special look at it. The faces of every soldier on the military vehicle were very clear. The expression changes in the most corners are very clear. Bai Yu's lack of attention does not mean that his memory will not include certain content. At this time, sharing it directly with him will not cause unclear details.

So his memory is blurred, it is only possible that he subjectively blurred his memory.

Don't Bai Yu want to remember the process of the entire company being wiped out and that person just now?

But he can say lightly and doesn't care about another person's betrayal and pursuit. It can be seen that Bai Yu doesn't care about being hurt by others, so what made him choose to forget and blur?

Mo Dingxuan recalled what Bai Yu said he didn't remember, the details of his parents' death, the details of his company's destruction, and everything about that young man just now.

What do these have in common?

He thought about it for a while and felt that his parents and the company should be very important to Bai Yu. Their death made Bai Yu very painful. At least this person chose to forget for this reason. Then connect, just now Is that person very important to Bai Yu?

Mo Dingxuan had a vague guess but was not sure yet, so he put it aside for now: "How old were you then?"

"I was 19 years old, I stayed in the base for three years, and left after being betrayed," Bai Yu shrugged, "At this time, I was old enough to understand almost everything, and I didn't want to join any other forces, so I just wandered around by myself Bar."

His figure has grown a bit taller, almost the same height as in the future. Due to the good life in the past few years, his physique has also become stronger. Can't move his eyes, the boy at this time already has the familiar look of Mo Dingxuan, the sharp brows and eyes are beginning to be careless, but there is no cynicism accumulated in the last time.

Mo Dingxuan has some estimates of his character formation, and he feels a little less unexpected that this person may look completely different, but Bai Yu is not bad now, he will help him make up for what he lacks .

The surrounding houses turned into a high mountain, they stood on the steep cliff, Mo Dingxuan looked down, and in the distance was a base surrounded by high walls.

Although it is far less advanced than the world he lives in, and may not be as advanced as Shiraohara's pre-apocalyptic level of development, it can be regarded as a very safe pure land with clear divisions and everything available.

Human beings are always actively living.

But living is nothing more than an instinct. Taking this kind of thing as the greatest pursuit in life and putting in all the effort, but still struggling on the precarious line of life and death, it really makes people like him who stand on the sidelines feel pity involuntarily. with regret.

Suddenly, Mo Dingxuan felt unwilling to read any more. He suddenly realized that Bai Yu might not live as well as ordinary people in this apocalypse. As long as the apocalypse has progressed to this stage, as long as he is in the base, he will have basic security, food and clothing, and relatives and friends. Support, although because of their weak strength, they are always restless and do not know whether they can see tomorrow, but they have a chance to see the future after all.

Bai Yu wandered alone in the wilderness, day and night against zombies that didn't need to eat or rest. He was rejected by all forces and refused to approach them. He was obviously the strongest existence in the last days, but he made himself so miserable look.

Mo Dingxuan looked away: "...What should you do if you are really hungry and can't find food?"

"I won't feel hungry," Bai Yu said, "I cut off the sense of hunger a long time ago, so it won't affect my actions."

"..." Mo Dingxuan was silent for a while, "What about the cold? What about the pain?"

"The cold is also cut off, and part of the pain is kept. After all, sometimes you get hurt unintentionally, and you can't feel it without pain." Bai Yu's tone did not fluctuate, "I also cut off a lot of senses. I."

Mo Dingxuan: "..."

If you can't feel anything, what is left of this person?

He has no desire for food to fill his hunger, is indifferent to a warm environment, has no pursuit of a stable place to rest, can't be emotional or love, doesn't seek fame or profit, why does Bai Yu continue to live like this?

Is he just to eliminate all zombies?So when the human compatriots decided to counterattack in one fell swoop, they happily died with the zombie king?

As for the others, it's okay to offend various organizations, but it's just fun while waiting?

Even if he got a new life and came to a world without zombies, it was meaningless. This person had given up everything before and still had at least one goal. Now that he didn't even have a goal, everything he gave up could not be recovered in a short while.

When Mo Dingxuan saw Bai Yu, he felt that this person was a beautiful weapon. He didn't want anything, as if he was only willing to give for others. He had always wanted to know this person's past and guess what kind of past it would be to make people feel happy. Becoming like this, the result is that Bai Yu himself turned himself into this.

"Hey Tiantian," he said suddenly, "Have you ever thought about the end of your previous life?"

"I think the sun will come out again, and the plants will grow again." Bai Yu seemed to like this topic very much. He laughed, "The same flowers as in this world will bloom, and it will snow in winter."

"Then do you want to see it for yourself?"

"..." The young man froze for a moment, then lowered his eyes, "It's not necessary."

"Aren't you looking forward to it?"

"...But no one expects me to go back alive." He said, "It is the best result for me to die with the Zombie King."

"Whether it's for me or someone else," Bai Yu frowned, "what else can I do without the zombies? My relationship with them is so stiff that I can't stop dying, and I don't want to build another base myself."

"Besides, for things like human beings, when there are no foreign enemies, they will start fighting internally. In fact, they will also fight internally when the external enemies are still there. I am really not interested in this and I am bored, and I have no one to help and support."

The young man seemed to have thought about it a lot, Mo Dingxuan looked at his frowning and said nothing, he walked over to him, Bai Yu stopped and looked up at him.

Mo Dingxuan actually prefers his black hair and black eyes. Although he has the same face, the current Bai Yu looks more approachable than the silver-haired one, and his dark eyes are not as eye-catching as the ice blue pupils before. The sense of distance that cannot be approached, reveals a trace of confusion at this time, which makes Mo Dingxuan feel that it is so vivid that it is really pitiful.

He chuckled lightly, and put the wreath in his hand on the person's head. The white flowers set against the black hair, Bai Yu's frown deepened, but when he wanted to ask, his lips were sealed.

Mo Dingxuan finds it strange that Bai Yu is now 19 years old and is as tall as him or even a little shorter, but this is an illusion after all, his real body obviously needs Mo Dingxuan to raise his head to kiss him.

But now he leaned forward directly, but still touched the soft ground, Mo Dingxuan stretched out his hand to embrace the person in front of him and kissed deeply, Bai Yu soon regained his senses and threw himself into it.

"Bai Yu," after the kiss was over, Mo Dingxuan still held his embrace and touched the forehead of the person in front of him. There was no ambiguous atmosphere at such a confusing distance. He is calm now, and the person in front of him is also very calm. "When everything is over, let's leave and travel."

The young man's eyelashes trembled, but the expression in his pitch-black eyes remained unchanged. He looked at him, as if he was examining him but also seemed indifferent.

"I have been to many places and learned about the landscapes and cultures of various places, as well as myths and folklore stories," Mo Dingxuan continued, "I can speak many languages, from the northern dialect of Deidalar to the Gedangu language, Know the traditions and rules of most places."

The boy was still looking at him, without blinking his black eyes.

"I'll take you to see the maple forest in Guda. It's a red ocean that stretches across a city, and there's also the aurora that looks like the northern star. Its position is very subtle and you can see two total solar eclipses a day," Mo Dingxuan kissed again His lips said, "We will first do sledge fishing in Scalada, and then immediately take a flight to Chia to visit the midsummer flower festival there."

In fact, Mo Dingxuan still had a lot to say, but in the end he didn't say any more. He looked at Bai Yu fixedly:

"Do you want to come with me?"

The young man raised his eyebrows, and then everything around him changed again. The cruel apocalypse disappeared, and they were still in a sea of ​​flowers in early spring. The warm sunlight passed through the branches and left mottled circle marks on the ground. floral fragrance.

The handsome and unparalleled young man in front of him regained his tall figure, pure white petals fell from the wreath on his head, slid across his silver-white hair and fell on his shoulders, Bai Yu snorted and brushed off the petals, but his blue eyes were no longer as cold as before sharp:

"Don't wear such things to me casually in the future."

The author has something to say: Don’t wear this kind of thing to me casually in the future

In the future, don't wear this kind of thing casually for me when viewing flowers.

Don't wear this kind of thing for me when I go out to travel and enjoy flowers in the future