forced to whitewash [rebirth]

"What kind of person does Xuan like?"

"like?"

"The one you want to marry and spend the rest of your life with?"

Every time Mo Dingxuan recalled the question that Ya Sijia asked him, he couldn't help feeling that the world was impermanent.

In fact, he is not very interested in love, which can be regarded as sex, indifference, and indifference in some aspects. He seldom thought about the issue of a partner. When he was lonely in his youth, he only thought about wanting an ordinary and stable family.

The other party is probably a templated gentle and considerate image, which is in line with his fantasy understanding of a happy and peaceful family. They will live peacefully together, respect each other as guests, take care of the elderly and raise children, and there seems to be no special requirements. Whether the other party is good-looking or excellent it is not important.

Ya Sijia said that he was not thinking about his partner at all, he just wanted a home in the literal sense, but the partner itself is for the existence of a family, not for the warmth brought by home, why bother? Looking for a partner?

Mo Dingxuan never kept up with Ya Sijia's train of thought, and it took many, many years for him to meet another person before he suddenly realized his mistake.

When meeting another person, it was snowing all over the sky, and the silver-haired boy descended from the sky in front of him, the moment Mo Dingxuan looked at each other, he felt the throbbing that suddenly jumped up from the bottom of his heart.

I see the stars go by, he thought.

I'm going to catch him, he thought.

From a certain point of view, Bai Yu is indeed a fleeting meteor, but it is inappropriate to compare him with a star. The other party has never been such a lonely and inaccessible existence. Bai Yu is the little mermaid sitting under the moonlight, so beautiful. Dazzled, obviously he sang a song to trick the sailor into drowning, but when the other party really fell into the water, he sent the other party ashore angrily.

Mo Dingxuan has spent many years learning the skills of interacting with people, but Bai Yu may be a natural master of manipulating people's hearts, so he refuses when he wants to greet him, showing his concern but expressing that he is not pastime, giving without leaving any room is also alienating without leaving any room Mo Dingxuan felt that the people who met him in the past must love and hate him at the same time, love him to the point of tossing and turning and hating him until he could not sleep at night.

But he doesn't know anything by himself, and in turn thinks you are self-righteous.

But from a certain point of view, Mo Dingxuan felt that he was indeed self-righteous, and he was self-righteous and wanted to further develop with the other party.

Bai Yu didn't fit all his fantasies about a partner, but before he realized this, he simply didn't even want a stable family life, and blurted out that he wanted to wander the world with Bai Yu.

But he even thought about the name of Bai Yu's child in the future, the other party is still in a state of not even admitting that he cares about him, Bai Yu's ignorance and stubbornness are all Mo Dingxuan has seen in his life, and he has worked hard for it At first, he was very determined to catch him, but the more we got along, the more hesitant he became.

This person...is it supposed to be him who turned the mermaid into a human?

Mo Dingxuan is very aware of his personality flaws, he is prone to excessive attachment to others, this kind of attachment is accompanied by wholehearted devotion and obedience, that is, giving up himself and everything only for the other party.

But Bai Yu is different, the other party has a strong personality and strength, and when he appears, he considers himself a protector. Mo Dingxuan really enjoys his protection. Bai Yu is a very reliable person. When he is present, Mo Dingxuan will do anything The question of whether it is dangerous or not has never been considered.

The other party should know this. After all, he said that it is good that he is doing what you want, but Bai Yu may not know that Mo Dingxuan also likes his tone of giving orders or conclusions without discussing with others. At this time, he would complain that Tiantian was really too much and rude, but in fact, Bai Yu's tone would make him extremely excited.

But it's all about the love between them, Mo Dingxuan knew very well that his feelings for Bai Yu were not this kind of attachment from the very beginning to the time when he got deeply involved.

He knew very early on that Bai Yu was different from Ya Sijia or Andrews to him. From the first moment Mo Dingxuan knew that the other party was a beautiful weapon, he didn't know where the love came from. , perhaps beautiful and easy to break items can cause such emotions, Bai Yu is even very young - he is only in his 20s, to give an inappropriate example, if Mo Dingxuan gets married on time according to his normal age, he His child should be about the same age as Bai Yu, and Bai Yu is indeed about the same age as the child of his comrade-in-arms.

Such a young and ignorant, sharp and fragile beauty, with tenderness in his bones, Mo Dingxuan was once secretly lucky that Bai Yu used to defend himself against others, and he was even more fortunate that he was also for Bai Yu from the very beginning. The difference is that fate created an opportunity for him to meet this person and occupy the other person's life.

He wants to protect Bai Yu, heal the scars on his body and give him a new life, so that he can regain what he once lost. This is Mo Dingxuan's thinking from the beginning to the present, and it overshadows the problems brought about by his character flaws. Subconscious obedience, just accepting protection is not enough, he always feels that he should be in the position of a guide to guide Bai Yu back to a normal person.

But the more this happened, the more he realized his own shortcomings. It was okay that everything was under his control before, and it hadn't affected his decision-making. In other words, he hadn't realized how important Bai Yu was to him at that time. Mo Dingxuan realized that his emotions had lost control when he was defeated by Bi Laisi, and he really couldn't accept Bai Yu leaving him, even if it was only temporarily, it made him very restless.

Not to mention Bai Yu's death... He didn't even dare to think about it, the explosion at the military headquarters that night was a scene he still dare not recall.

Once he finds that he is out of control, he often really can't control it. Mo Dingxuan feels that he has lost his temper. Maybe his mental body has reached the point where he can't leave the other party for a day. However, this also makes him more and more aware of his own personality. The seriousness of the defect has not improved at all after so many years.

Sometimes Mo Dingxuan will give up on himself and think that he is such an emotional person who can't distinguish between priorities and priorities. No one likes such a person, and neither will Bai Yu.

If Bai Yu likes him, he also likes him who is as calm as before and seems to be able to control everything with ease, rather than him who can easily lose himself and give everything for another person. How can such a person guide and change others?Does he really have the ability to heal the scars on Bai Yu's body and turn him back to a normal person?

...What if Bai Yu meets someone more suitable?

Thinking of these is meaningless except to increase melancholy. Could it be that such a person really appeared and he could let go of Bai Yu again?He couldn't watch Bai Yu with others, the more Chu Xin mentioned the agreement between him and Bai Yu, it made him irritated until now, not to mention the so-called only enemy of Bi Lai LaiSi, at that time he wanted to kill him .

Mo Dingxuan was very contemptuous of his entanglement, he didn't want to show it at first, but then he couldn't bear the successive blows of the truth. In fact, Mo Dingxuan was not angry or sad for Andrews, but just something in his heart. These obsessions were destroyed after all, at that moment he felt that he only had Bai Yu, but Bai Yu would not like him like this, and he would definitely leave him if he found out.

But maybe the young man's hug was too gentle, Bai Yu was such a gentle person in the first place - this gave him inexplicable confidence, so he finally said it out, and the result was...unexpected?

Mo Dingxuan felt that he really liked Bai Yu's tone of giving orders or conclusions without discussing with him. The young man said it was normal, so of course it was normal. Bai Yu loved him, and Bai Yu liked him in any way. What's wrong with two people who are in love with only each other, Bai Yuming only revolves around him.

People are different, and the way of getting along with each other is also different. He and Bai Yu have their own favorite way of getting along, which makes them both happy.

It was as if his friend's straightforward words in his repressed youth unraveled his many years of knots. Mo Dingxuan was relieved after being expressed that he was happy to have only two people. In personal life, no one needs only one person. This is not right or wrong. Andrews also has countless subordinates, Simon, whose status is always closer than him, but since Bai Yu said that this is normal, it is good, that is Very good, because now Bai Yu alone is enough for him.

Perhaps for so many years, he has been suffering from this and cannot restrain his personality flaws. It is just that he has never gained a sense of security that finally makes him feel at ease. Therefore, Bai Yu asked him about his decision after saying that it was enough to have each other and not care about other things. Instead, I was able to wake up and find my true desire.

Bai Yu will not leave him, nor will he go out with others, they will do anything together, whatever he wants to do, Bai Yu will be by his side, and what Bai Yu wants to do, of course, he will also be by Bai Yu's side.

At least Mo Dingxuan thought so at the time, he didn't think there was anything Bai Yu had to do and he couldn't accompany him, the appearance of zombies was beyond his expectation, and Bai Yu's reaction surprised him even more.

The young man was too flustered, the influence of his previous life was almost engraved in his bones, so that he knew there was a trap, but he still had to go and see it alone. Mo Dingxuan was unwilling to agree at first, on the one hand, he thought it should be nothing serious, on the other hand, he I am very worried about Bai Yu.

But in the end he agreed, the other party's heart disease must be solved after all, the only thing that makes Mo Dingxuan fidgety is that he can't go together, the young man is going to deal with zombies, he is an ordinary person, but he is a hindrance, and now Ge Dan has not solved him You can't enter the opponent's star field either.

Mo Dingxuan could only make an empty door sign for him to make it easier for him to escape, but this still made him feel uneasy.

in case……

When Mo Dingxuan received Dinan's message, he broke a cup. He hadn't seen the content of the message, but his intuition told him that Bai Yu had an accident. Mo Dingxuan felt his fingers tremble, and he could hardly click on the message. , opened it with great difficulty, and just one glance made him feel like falling into an ice cave:

——Bai Yu was caught and taken away by Biles

The author has something to say: You are the only one who can abuse you and sweeten yourself, but Biles can’t do anything to him