forced to whitewash [rebirth]

The car drove aimlessly, it seemed that the only purpose was to stay away from the military headquarters, Mo Dingxuan kept silent, he drove the car himself, but Bai Yu didn't see where he wanted to go.

He thought for a while: "When will Simon arrive tomorrow?"

"do not know."

"..." Bai Yu really doesn't want to maintain such a mental state anymore. If he has a body, even if Mo Dingxuan doesn't want to talk to him, he can still hug him, "My body will be ready tomorrow, you go see Can he let me get the body first?"

Mo Dingxuan was silent for a while: "Are you persistent?"

Bai Yu didn't like his tone as if he was forcing others: "I won't force you to do something you don't want to do, if you don't want to do it, forget it."

But in the end, he still couldn't help feeling a little wronged: "Anyway, it's better to be by your side than to be alone."

Mo Dingxuan didn't say a word to respond to him, the two were relatively silent, the man kept driving, turning around until it got dark, he couldn't see the destination, and he didn't know how long after they entered the city, at this time It's quite deep, but when the urban area just entered the bustling time, the noise of the crowd came in through the car window, which made Bai Yu feel that the silence between him and Mo Dingxuan was very difficult.

He tried to show softness: "...you haven't eaten dinner yet, it's not good for your health."

Mo Dingxuan still didn't speak, just got out of the car and bought a few bottles of wine when he was driving a certain store, Bai Yuxin frowned:

"Are you going to eat this at night? You can't drink on an empty stomach..."

He talked non-stop by himself but still got no response. After all, he felt self-indulgent and fell silent again. Mo Dingxuan drove out of the bustling urban area, and the surroundings became quiet again, and Bai Yu didn't know what to do anymore. He opened his mouth, but the other party had no intention of communicating with him, and the atmosphere was even more awkward than before. Bai Yu had never been treated so coldly by this person, and he was a little annoyed for a while, but then he thought that he shouldn't be treated like this with the current Mo Dingxuan Angry, after much deliberation, the irritability and anger finally dissipated, he began to rack his brains to think of some new topics that could break the silence and Mo Dingxuan was willing to chat further.

The man drove all the way in another direction, and at the end point, Bai Yu was somewhat familiar—it was the special hospital where he left Bai Yu'an's body and had a new body. When he found this, he froze for a moment...Mo Dingxuan brought him here do what?

Mo Dingxuan didn't explain either, he got out of the car with his bag and walked in, turned around the corridors and entered a cubicle, Bai Yu silently looked at the male body sleeping peacefully in the growth fluid, looking through Mo Dingxuan's eyes. Xuan's eyes looking at him made him feel a little weird.

Mo Dingxuan sat on the operating table and watched like this, Bai Yu couldn't even look away, the two were silent for a while, the man put the bag beside him, took out a bottle of wine and pried open the lid:

"Your body has seven hours to mature."

"..." Bai Yu didn't know what to say for a while, "Are you going to watch it mature?"

"There's nothing else to do anyway," Mo Dingxuan said in a low voice, "It's almost ten o'clock now, and I'll be back at the military headquarters in seven hours."

He paused for a moment: "You... I know you are thinking about me, and you hope to comfort me, but it's hard for me to think about how to deal with so many things properly, which makes you sad too."

Bai Yu was a little annoyed when he heard it: "Communication with me is not something that requires repeated thinking."

He and Mo Dingxuan had no interests or gaps at all before, they were intimate, what exactly did Mo Dingxuan want to think about?

"...I really need to think about it," Mo Dingxuan looked up at the opposite growth cabin, "After all, this is something I should handle alone."

"Is there anything between us that you have to do alone and I can't help you?"

"It shouldn't exist logically," Mo Dingxuan said, "so it's my fault."

Bai Yu simply didn't know what to say about him. The man turned so many corners and just didn't say what he wanted to know. Is there any practical significance to apologizing?

He was a little angry and didn't want to open his mouth, Mo Dingxuan didn't continue, the man was still staring at the young body in the growth cabin opposite, seeing the smooth ankles from the silver-white hair, the unconscious body looked as quiet and docile as if it had fallen into a deep sleep, It makes people want to touch his handsome side face and kiss his eyelashes.

Mo Dingxuan looked at it so intently for a long time, Bai Yu couldn't hold back his breath: "What's so interesting, are you a pervert?"

"Sometimes I think Tiantian is too beautiful, should such beauty really appear on human beings?" Mo Dingxuan didn't look away, "So beautiful and powerful at the same time, no matter what kind of Such an existence in the story must be transcendent.”

Bai Yu: "..."

Bai Yu: "I didn't see that I was so powerful in your eyes before."

"What are you talking about? From the first time I saw you, I have been to you—" Mo Dingxuan paused, "I am in awe."

Bai Yu was stunned for a moment, this person shouldn't have said these words, there are too many people who admire and fear him, but Mo Dingxuan never belonged to this range, he was never afraid of his blade, and even kept his Even if I put myself in the position of an elder, I still refuse to give up the initiative.

How could it be possible for Mo Dingxuan to be in awe of him?

"People in the world are always used to looking up at the things they are in awe of, but if such a dazzling existence steps down from the altar and approaches them, it may instead have the tendency to take it as their own." delusion,"

Mo Dingxuan shook the bottle, "Tiantian is so special to me that I didn't understand where your interest in me came from at first. How long can the desire in your body last? After your interest I have to find another way to trap you before it subsides."

Bai Yu: "..."

In fact, he is not very clear about his thoughts on Mo Dingxuan. Bai Yu only knows that this person is special to him from the very beginning, maybe it started with sex. Desire, but the possibility. Desire is only for him. It's just a reason to go and see this person, Bai Yu still knows that since he went to that speech and saw Mo Dingxuan himself, it was not sexual desire that made him want to get close to this person, but he hadn't thought about it clearly before. I don't even want to think about it.

But who can say clearly about feelings, Mo Dingxuan was planning to trap him the first time they met.

"I'm not close to you because of sex," Bai Yu said, "I'm special to you because you are special to me, and it's only natural to have a special attitude towards special people."

"Tiantian's words will make me get carried away," Bai Yu thought he might be a little drunk, although Mo Dingxuan said that he has a good drinking capacity, "Although I have always relied on this special behavior, if If you don’t know that Tiantian is special to me, how could I ask for a relationship change with such a strong attitude? After all, I’m still asking you to back down.”

"You originally... didn't have to change to this extent for anyone. I don't mean that such a change is bad, but..." Mo Dingxuan paused when he opened the third bottle of wine, and he whispered as if Say to yourself, "Can I really be this person?"

Bai Yu was stunned for a moment, he finally confirmed that this person was probably really drunk, it was hard for him to imagine that Mo Dingxuan, who was sober, could say such a thing, but maybe the other party could barely tell the truth at this time, Bai Yu couldn't help it. I know why Mo Dingxuan has such an idea.

"There can be no one else but you," he said. "It's all right with you, and it can only be you."

"..."

Bai Yu thought for a while: "Don't drink so much, you should sleep for a while, seven hours is still early."

"It's because of you, how could there be no one else," Mo Dingxuan said after a while of silence, "There will always be people who want to get close to you, and there will always be people who want to possess you... just like me, sweet How do you know that you won’t meet the next special person.”

"..." Bai Yu felt that he shouldn't reason with drunks, "Do you think I'm that kind of person?"

"Of course you are not, Tiantian is fine everywhere," the man finally lay down, lying flat on the operating table, motionless like a dying patient, "but... maybe I'm not what you think Too much the same."

"It's normal to be different, I don't really know you very well." When he mentioned this Bai Yu, he became angry, but thinking of Mo Dingxuan's state now, he softened his tone, "You didn't let me understand you." chance, but no matter what you are, I like it very much."

Forget it, he and Mo Dingxuan will have a long time to come, and they will just grind it out slowly in the future.

"...You are so sure of what you said, even I am convinced," the other party laughed a few times without a smile, "Although I like to say that you are willful, you have always been so considerate."

"You are really drunk," Bai Yu said, "Go to sleep."

However, Mo Dingxuan opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling for a long time, but he was unwilling to close his eyes:

"...When I was young, I only played with Scarlett, thinking that we would always live together like relatives, live in adjacent places and start families, and our children would get along like brothers in the future," he suddenly said softly, "But after graduating from compulsory education, I planned to find a job and settle down. He suddenly told me that he wanted to go out to make a living. I wanted to be with him but was rejected. Scarlett said that we all have our own lives, and he said so What else can I say, and then I went to military school—do I enter society alone?"

Bai Yu was taken aback for a moment. It's not that Mo Dingxuan hadn't told him about this, but he didn't go into such detail at that time.

"There's nothing wrong with joining the army. If I don't join the army, I won't meet Mr. He really...is exactly like my ideal father," Mo Dingxuan didn't know if he was talking to him, or maybe he was just talking to himself , "No matter what purpose he is for, he was really good to me, very good, and the year I knew his child died happened to be when I was born... I even thought about such a ridiculous thing as reincarnation, I I thought I could follow him like this all the time and take care of my aging father like all the children in the world, but before I had enough strength and before he got old, he was already dead."

"..." Bai Yu was silent for a while, "There will always be many separations in life."

He wasn't alone from the very beginning, it's just... maybe even the previous him didn't really want a companion, otherwise Mo Dingxuan would not be so moved when he said that he would travel with him for the rest of his life.

"I know, in fact, I'm not too sad, just take Tiantian who likes to slander me, and I will definitely accept it if I say it out, they all have their own lives, I just got along with them for a short time, maybe irreplaceable , but not invincible,"

Mo Dingxuan turned over to the direction of the growth cabin, he might be looking at Bai Yu's new body again, or he might just be distracted,

"But...you are different."

He curled up, maybe he was really drunk:

"I didn't feel it at first, no, maybe I just didn't notice it at first, but some things are out of my control... I actually hate anything that is out of my control, it makes me feel that I am not capable I can't grab what I want."

Bai Yu: "..."

What kind of nonsense is Mo Dingxuan talking about?

"But can I really...? Can I catch it? Do I really have this ability?" The other party closed his eyes, but still chattered to himself, "I have thought about this question for a long time, but really If someone more capable and suitable than me appears, can I let go? Can I be willing to fail?"

Bai Yu coaxed him: "No matter who wants to steal something from you, I will help you deal with him. How could you fail with me around?"

"..." Mo Dingxuan raised his hand subconsciously, probably out of habit, he wanted to hug the people around him, but after all, he couldn't touch anything and put it back where he was, "What if you want to help him too? But even if you want to Everything has changed, and now I can’t let go.”

Bai Yufu has always had a lot of thoughts on slandering Mo Dingxuan, and when he was drunk, he would go back to not knowing what he meant:

"This is impossible, don't think about it, sleep well now."

The other party was quiet for a while, and Bai Yu thought he was really asleep, but he heard the man's voice suppressed in his throat again:

"Bai Yu..."

Or maybe it's just sleepwalking,

"I can not lose you……"