rest of life 22

Nights are always tough, especially when you can't sleep.Evening self-study is from seven o'clock to ten o'clock, and we need to stay in the classroom, in that narrow seating space, for three full hours.Of course, there will be a 10-minute toilet break in between.This may be the most humane arrangement, after all, going to the toilet is a very basic need.During this period, teachers will not be in class, but they will monitor us in the classroom, or secretly monitor us through the outer windows.However, these can't suppress our active nature, at least they can't control our mouths.As a result, chattering voices came out one after another.It's like a cat and a mouse, each carrying out their own strategies, one catches and the other hides.Occasionally catch a few unlucky ghosts, and then they will be criticized and educated.However, most of the time, it is safe.And I have a lot of experience in hiding, so after several years, I haven't been caught once.This is indeed something to be proud of.

It was in such an evening self-study, but the teacher did not supervise or supervise that night.It seems like they didn't perform their duties because there was a group meeting.As his deskmate, I silently heard his story.

"This afternoon, she suddenly asked me, what is the relationship between us?" He was a little choked up, speaking slowly, as if all his strength had been exhausted, and he was weak.

"What is our relationship? Hehe, how do I answer this? Doesn't she know? Doesn't she know what I think in my heart? I don't believe it. I know she understands it very well. But why would she want to Ask me this way, tell me, how should I answer?" He asked a lot of questions in a row, but it seemed like he was talking to himself, and I knew he wasn't asking me.He is at a loss.In fact, I don't understand either, I don't understand the state of couples they usually show, why they collapse completely after a sentence, are they wrong?Does this kind of relationship have to be stated directly and clearly, and then either maintain or directly cut off the contact?Yes, what he thought was not what he thought, but it was precisely this thought that made people even more unexpectedly scarred.

"I asked her back, what do you think? She said, we are friends, right? Hehe, we are indeed friends, aren't we?" He said in a self-deprecating tone, the most crucial and last sentence in this vague love .

Even the dullest person should be able to understand at this moment, what a tactful rejection it is!Is she wrong?But if she doesn't, is she going to let this stupid thing go on?I seem to understand something, yes, there is no right or wrong.They just did what they thought they should do most in a relationship with no right or wrong and no measure.But, should he be like this, heartbroken?Should he be crying like this?I don't know because I'm just an outsider.

"I like her. I liked her the first time I saw her. Love at first sight may be superficial, but we have been good friends, almost lovers, for several years .I still like her." He told me, as if he wanted to find a little comfort in the memories, as if he wanted to prove himself with those faded photos, as if he wanted to tell me, or tell himself, that he liked her.

I also recognize her, her name is Shen Li.How should I describe her? Liu Ming is my good buddy, I really don't want to see him in his current state, so I should really hate the person who directly caused him to be like this.In fact, I really don't have much affection for her.However, she is indeed a very attractive woman.She has wheat-colored skin, which is very similar to Liu Ming.She wasn't particularly beautiful, but Zhou Zheng's appearance was something that people would never tire of seeing.When she walks, she always holds her chest up and holds her head up, and she strides with a very sassy posture.The slender and tall figure makes it difficult for people to have the slightest idea of ​​beauty, but it makes people think of her all the time, and they become more and more infatuated with her.I stared at her specifically, and she really is something that people can't help but admire.

When a man likes a woman, the most direct, or the closest to animal instinct, is naturally liking her body.This is a very beastly idea, but it is indeed the most primitive, and it is unavoidable for anyone.However, liking doesn't stop there. Perhaps this is an obvious and important manifestation of the difference between humans and ordinary animals.It was a kind of love and sympathy from the heart, as if loving one's own body, as if God had taken the rib from Adam.In this case, loss really hurts.I think that's how he felt that night!

naive?Ridiculous?Or, is it worth it?How he thinks, I don't know.However, I feel very naive, very ridiculous, very unworthy.That was my thought at the time.As she said, I only love myself.

Youthful heart, I like this word very much.This is a very connotative word that can sum up many things.For example, the boy's lovelorn, under the influence of this boy's heart, the pain will soon disappear without a trace, at least on the surface, it will no longer exist.

When a person likes a person, some of them run over to confess directly, some of them bury it deep in their hearts, and some of them silently follow and communicate with each other as ordinary friends, but they always follow each other like a shadow.Her name is Zheng Xiaomi, a petite and lovely girl.She always speaks slowly, but she is extremely cheerful and sunny, smiling all day long, so that all people who get along with her are also influenced by her, and then forget the so-called so-called haze that is extremely boring in life.Every time get out of class is over, she will appear at the door of our classroom, waiting quietly.Or poke her head in occasionally, say a few words to us, and at the same time let him know she's outside.I like her very much, of course, not involved in love.I like her cute look, so sometimes I go over to pat her braided head and make each other laugh.

I have never talked much, so I should be the quietest among men.Of course, I just don't like to say silly things.However, it seems that almost everything that can be said is extremely boring, and even most of it is nonsense.So, I was judged as an introverted personality because of this.And my quiet personality just gave me the perfect qualification to be a "light bulb", just like the tungsten filament that Edison found out after thousands of experiments when he invented the light bulb, which can be used as a filament.And they often invite me to go out together, probably to ease the embarrassing relationship that each of them already knew but didn't know what to do.And I am also alone, and I really like to have someone to accompany me for a walk in my spare time.This may be immoral, but I know what they think, maybe this is the best way to communicate!Therefore, each has what he needs, and each can only get what he needs.

Their relationship has slowly grown closer since that night.Of course, they were very close before, but it was just the closeness of real friends.

I asked him, "Do you like her?" He replied, "It seems, it can't be regarded as the kind of love between couples! It's like a sister." I said, "You will be separated in the future, and the common topics between you will also be separated." It will decrease. If it’s not that kind of liking, you need to grasp it yourself.” He replied, “Yeah!”

They are together, and the relationship should be determined after that fateful exam.They are indeed, as I said, separated, and separated by a long distance.I don't know exactly how this love affair was carried out.However, when I saw him again a year later, they had broken up.He said, "She has changed! It feels like she can't talk together, and sometimes she quarrels without saying a few words. I don't know why she gets angry, but it's really hard to maintain. She proposed to break up!" I Not mocking them, nor boasting of my own accurate conjectures.Who can say for sure about love? If people are afraid of the unprovable speculation about the future and then stop moving forward, then life is meaningless.I just need to make it clear that he will not deceive his feelings, he is a very emotional person, and he is my good friend, so that's fine.

There is a saying that tragedy is the destruction of good things for others to see.So, is death necessarily a tragedy? It is undeniable that death is indeed destroying things that everyone cherishes, indeed destroying beauty.No one likes death.However, Zhuangzi sang loudly after his wife died.Can it be said that Zhuangzi is a heartless and heartless person because of this?Everyone has their own unique ideas, and what everyone should do is to stick to and improve their own ideas, and not impose their own ideas on others.I think this is a kind of human morality.Chuang Tzu just regards death as ashes to ashes, dust to dust.Started from the starting point, walked for a long time, and returned to the starting point.And what we think of as tragedy of death is only because we understand death from the perspective of death itself.There are many kinds of death, and dying is the most acceptable way of death for ordinary people, so they often say "he passed away very happily!".However, even so, a series of tears and roars are still inevitable. As for whether it is sincere, there is no need to study it carefully.However, death caused by reasons such as suicide, homicide, accidents, sudden illness, etc., is hard not to be regarded as a tragedy.It boils down to the fact that these deaths are caused by interventional factors and cannot be attributed to nature.However, death is death.Just like Su Hui, she just completed the important task of "living a lifetime" ahead of schedule.

Zhao Zijun said, "Third brother, I want to chase after a sister, what do you think I should do?" He leaned over his head, and suddenly said such a sentence that surprised me very much.He is a person with great personality, yes, he usually speaks honestly to most girls.As for the reason, according to his explanation, it was idleness and fear of trouble.I also admire him very much, because even an old-fashioned person like me will often fantasize about some romantic things, and often fight with a few little girls.For example, I really like playing with Yue Shan. Although she doesn't talk much and speaks slowly, she is very playful.She is not tall, but her skin is very fair and tender. Every morning, she always likes to stand blankly under the outer window of the classroom, with her arms folded, as if she is a little afraid of the cold. She is waiting for the arrival of the morning sun.She is very "cute", with a small round face, her face is full when she smiles, and her two round eyes are like murine animals, shining brightly, which makes people can't help admiring and playing some.So, I often couldn't help walking over to pat her little head, or tugging at her little hands.Then, in her fierce defiance, she laughed and started the dull day.

"Ah? Who is it? Tell me quickly!" I asked curiously.He really ticked off my long-suppressed curiosity. "Did you tell Liu Ming? Although he failed in love, he still has practical experience." I suggested in a joking tone.In fact, I was a little worried, worried that it would be difficult for me, who currently only has love theory, to help him effectively.If because of my fault, his cycad tree, which blooms only for ten thousand years, has experienced frost just after blooming, then I will feel very sorry for him.

"That's fine with him! Let's find him together and discuss it." He thought about it for a while, and he probably felt that what I said made sense, so he agreed.I don't know why he came to me directly, because I can be sure that the relationship between us is not different.Then the reason why he came to me in the first place is worth exploring.Perhaps, it was accidental.Perhaps, it was because I usually behaved like an adult, which made him feel that I was more trustworthy.Or maybe it was because he knew Liu Ming's failure in love, so he felt embarrassed to ask him these questions, after all, this thing is still taboo.Of course, I agree with another reason: failure will never be recognized.

Liu Ming is quite a studious person, but for some reason, he still fails in the exams for someone who is not very studious.Of course, I'm not showing off, it's just a fact.What's more, being eager to learn is excellent in itself. A studious person is appreciated no matter what.He was reading a book, and didn't put down the book until the two of us walked over and surrounded him in our seats.

"Look at the cheap expressions of the two of you, and say, is there something wrong? Come on, tell me, brother, I will solve it for you." He smiled in a tone that made him want to punch him a few times asked.The style of a big brother seems to really treat me and Zhao Zijun as younger brothers.However, we are very used to his style. For a shameless person like him, we don't know how to dispel his "big" thoughts.So, I can only let it go, and even tacitly agree.

"You're quite self-conscious. Okay, if you can't solve it, it's up to you to see us in the future." I can only respond to him in this way, and at the same time, introduce him into this problem and let him share "provide suggestions" "risks of.Before I do something, I always think about the risk issue. Although I feel a bit like a bird, it is more rigorous.Moreover, I think there is no problem with this way of thinking.

"I seem to like a girl, tell me, what should I do?" Zhao Zijun didn't hide or coyly, he said it directly.And, he said it seriously.This is very different from his usual way of speaking.In this way, it can be seen that he takes this matter seriously.

"Ah? What are you talking about! You old ghost has actually taken a liking to you, yes! Yes, yes, brother, I am no longer worried that our old Zhao family will have no heirs." Liu Ming cried out in surprise come out.Fortunately, there were not many people in the classroom at that time, and most of those who stayed in the classroom were either gossiping or sleeping, so his loud noise did not attract the attention of others.After all, students are very adaptable to this kind of "noise", and when they get used to it, they automatically ignore it.However, a large part of his astonishment was pretentious.He used the tone of an elderly man with yin and yang, and made fun of it with sincerity, as if it was a trivial thing to solve, but the incident itself was definitely something to make people happy, and a surprising and lifelong event.However, there is really nothing wrong with his understanding.This is really not a difficult task.At least for someone like me who doesn't care about the result, that's true.

"Okay! Stop messing around and talk about business." I simply suppressed his urge to continue teasing, because I have already seen that he definitely wants to continue endless nonsense on this issue Go on gibberish.He is like this sometimes, and the word "crazy" is the best way to describe it. "Tell me specifically, what's going on?" I said to Zhao Zijun.Liu Ming also seemed to realize that we needed to talk about serious matters, and he suddenly returned to the state when he was holding the book. The solemn attitude made people feel that there seemed to be no noise with Ben just now, and he seemed to be born with a not-so-good attitude. Like people who love to laugh.

"Well... this, what do you think, who is it, how is Xiaoqing?" He tentatively asked.

"Xiaoqing, you mean, you like her" we both asked in surprise in unison, or confirmed.

This is really an astonishing thing.

"That's right! Is there a problem?" He seemed to suddenly gain confidence, or he was awakened by our skeptical attitude.

"Ah, it's okay, it's okay!" This is really big news, absolutely unexpected, absolutely beyond our surprise.Shi Xiaoqing, she seems to be very familiar with us, or quite close.She is tall and not very good-looking. This is a very pertinent evaluation, and I think everyone, including herself, thinks so.However, her figure is very good.Plump, somewhat like Concubine Yang.The breasts are full, the legs are long, and the buttocks are very upturned. Under such circumstances, even if she is not tall enough to attract people's hearts, a person with a sound physiology, just looking at her body will trigger some unspeakable things. Reaction.

So, we often stare at her on weekdays.Or, to be more precise, sneaking admiration at certain parts of her.She has a good personality and is very forthright.I don't know why I came up with the word "bold" to describe a girl.But that's how she feels to me.Just like when I was at the same table with her, we often fight and fight.Or bickering and sarcasm, or I patted her plump thighs, and he punched me in the chest a few times.In the images, there seems to be such a violent scene.However, she never seemed to be angry, and she was the kind of person who opened up to each of us.

And because of this, we were even more surprised.Because he, Zhao Zijun, should be the only one who doesn't covet her beautiful body very much, and also the only one who doesn't tease her much.We really can't think of these two irrelevant people, why can there be such a connection? It's intriguing!

Another day of sunset will fall, another day of youth will disappear.Just like when I was young looking at the setting sun, is that joy, or something else