worthless [rebirth]

That day, Jiang Chi told him many things about the past, little by little about Mo Ziling.Chen Ling listened carefully, as if he saw the past from Jiang Chi's mouth.

Mo Ziling from the past, Jiang Chi from the past.

Jiang Chi said that although he had never been in love with Mo Ziling, the other party had indeed brought him the only comfort in the long years in this smoky palace like a big sauce jar.

Mo Ziling's mind is pure, immature like a child, and he doesn't know the slightest bit of scheming.When I'm with him, I feel...my heart becomes as clean as he is.

Jiang Chi said so.

Chen Ling stared, listening to Jiang Chi's tone, Mo Ziling held a very important place in his heart.The only existence that makes the other party feel clean and pure, and relaxes his mind, I'm afraid... I can't do it myself, Chen Ling thought.

"Since he is so important to you, how can you be sure it's not because of love?" Chen Ling said lightly.

Jiang Chi smiled at Chen Ling, recalling, "I thought about keeping him by my side, but then something happened."

"He's gone?" Chen Ling said.

Jiang Chi nodded and said, "Well, it's gone."

After Mo Ziling left, Jiang Chi painted many paintings and was on the verge of collapse.The first emperor couldn't stand it, and finally ordered all Jiang Chi's paintings to be burned, but he didn't expect to leave one, and it happened that Chen Ling accidentally saw it.

Chen Ling didn't know whether he should trust Jiang Chi again, but he had been lied to so many times, even if he wanted to, he wouldn't have the strength to trust him.

Or, what Jiang Chi said was true, but he didn't even know that the one he really loved was Mo Ziling.

"I've said so much, Chen Ling...do you understand?" Jiang Chi said, cautiously, as if he was afraid that Chen Ling would say "no".

"Understood." Chen Ling said lightly, "I understand what happened between the two of you, but I don't understand your feelings for me. Just based on a dream, I believe that I am the person you are looking for. Don't say that I don't believe you. Will you believe it yourself?"

"Dream?" Jiang Chi looked at Chen Ling with some hurt, and said, "After going through so much together, do you now think that I recognized you because of a dream? Although I brought you back because of a dream, I fell in love with you." ...But because of getting along with each other bit by bit."

"..." Chen Ling was taken aback.

Jiang Chi grabbed Chen Ling's wrist at the right time, and said softly: "Who blocked an arrow for me, and who was willing to wash his hands and make soup for me? He clearly resented me in his heart, but he was still willing to help me with advice on state affairs ...You don't have to care about these things, but I can't forget them."

"You..." Chen Ling unnaturally turned his head away from looking at Jiang Chi, and pulled his hand back.

"Ling'er, I've already explained everything that can be explained. If..." Jiang Chi said, "If you still refuse to believe me, I really..."

"..."

Should he believe it?Can he believe it?

Chen Ling was silent, not knowing how to answer, recalling all kinds of uncertainties in the past in his heart.

……

"Close your eyes." Jiang Chi gently held the egg to apply to his swollen eyes.

"Zi Ling, don't sleep, it's time to get out of the car." When his leg was injured, the other party had been holding him carefully and walking all the way.

Jiang Chi will remember the promise of "fill the whole room with sugar figures".

He would also hug himself and sit with himself all night after he was poisoned and unconscious, and finally his hands and feet became numb and unable to move.

In Zhang San's house, I just cooked a meal, and let the other party be as happy as a child.

Even, Jiang Chi told himself his birthday so expectantly, and the gift he asked for was just to think that he would be willing to move to his Chengqian Palace.

……

Jiang Chi had said "I love you" to him countless times, why... this time, he suddenly didn't want to believe it?

After waiting for Chen Ling's answer for a long time, Jiang Chi was a little disappointed. He smiled self-deprecatingly, got up and said, "Forget it, I was the one who provoked you first. If you really can't convince yourself to accept me, I won't force it. It's just that I didn't expect that the trust between us would be so fragile..."

"Jiang Chi!" Looking at Jiang Chi's lonely back, Chen Ling subconsciously shouted, and then stood up.

"!" After a pause, Jiang Chi turned his head.

Frightened by the sudden brilliance in the other party's eyes, Chen Ling subconsciously took a small step back, "I... Mmm!"

Embracing Chen Ling tightly, Jiang Chi sealed his lips.

"Uh... Let go... Ah, Ah Chi, uh..." Chen Ling pushed but failed to push away, and only regained his breath when he was kissed so badly that he lost all strength.

"No, I'm never allowed to think wildly by myself again." Holding Chen Ling's face, Jiang Chi was a little frustrated but still helpless, "Why are you so stupid? You don't ask me a single question, you just feel sad."

"..." Chen Ling lowered his eyes. Originally, his heart was full of resentment, but now that he had spoken, he felt that he was really stupid.

He didn't know what happened to him in the past three months. When he thought of Jiang Chi using himself as a substitute, he couldn't think rationally. He was angry at why he still fell in love with Jiang Chi after going through his previous life. , but never even gave the other party a chance to explain.

Perhaps, he has always been afraid in his heart.

Because he felt that Jiang Chi's goodness in this life was unrealistic, that's why he always had a sense of unreality.Because he was afraid that the sincerity he handed over would be thrown to the ground, he threw himself from the sky into the mud before Jiang Chi could fall.

After all, it was because he was not confident in himself.He felt that he did not deserve the love of the other party.It was he himself who made up a cruel nightmare for himself.

Chen Ling suddenly felt aggrieved. During the three months he saw that painting, he didn't cry, but at this moment, Jiang Chi's eyes warmed up amidst Jiang Chi's soft, half-blaming, half-distressed chatter.

"Do you know how worried I was when the imperial doctor said that you were angry and depressed? Seeing you in front of my eyes, losing weight a little bit... No matter how you say it, you can't make things difficult for your body." Jiang Chi Nao Chen Ling had no choice but to tell him over and over again not to do this again next time.

As he was talking, he saw Chen Ling lowering his head and weeping softly. He thought he was speaking too seriously, so he hurriedly wiped away his tears for Chen Ling, "Fool, why are you crying? I don't mean to reprimand you sincerely , It’s just too urgent, be good, don’t cry.”

"Ah Chi..." Chen Ling buried her head in Jiang Chi's arms, and said sullenly, "I'm sorry, I... I don't know what's wrong with me. When I saw that painting, I lost my mind. I'm afraid you just I am a substitute. During this time, I really hate you. But I hate myself even more, why I like you, why I fall in love with you again... I am afraid that my heart will be thrown to the ground, Ah Chi, do you know? I hate you so much, my heart hurts..."

"Silly Ling'er, stop talking, stop talking." Gently rubbing the back of Chen Ling's head, Jiang Chi comforted him, "Whatever happens in the future, don't keep it to yourself, no matter how much you suspect me, Please give me a chance to explain, okay? Because I only recognize you in this life."

"...Okay..." Chen Ling raised his head, and said with red eyes: "Then what if you meet another person who is more suitable for the boy in your dream than me? Will you choose him and forget me? "

Jiang Chi froze for a moment, looked at Chen Ling's eyes that were swollen like peach pits, and couldn't help but smile bitterly.He stretched out his hand and pinched the tip of Chen Ling's nose, and said, "What are you thinking about? Don't say there is no such a person, even if there is, I won't take a second look. I told you, my feelings for you It has nothing to do with dreams, what I want is you, not a phantom in a dream."

"I just asked casually, why are you nervous?" Chen Ling said sullenly, but his cheeks turned red.

"Heh—" Jiang Chi smiled lowly, and whispered in Chen Ling's ear, "I said it casually, why are you blushing?"

"You!" Chen Ling blew his beard and glared at Jiang Chi, before hitting Jiang Chi's chest with his fist.

"Hmm!" Jiang Chimeng snorted, staggered back two or three steps before regaining his footing, his face suddenly turned pale.

"Ah Chi!" Unexpectedly, his punch would be so heavy, Chen Ling was taken aback, and quickly supported Jiang Chi's arm, saying: "It's okay, I didn't think I would really hit you."

"It's okay, I can bear this little strength." Jiang Chi smiled, and lightly patted the back of Chen Ling's hand to signal him not to be too nervous.

"You pretended to lie to me again!" Chen Ling reacted, glared at Jiang Chi angrily, turned around and ignored him.

"I just want you to care about me. You have been lukewarm to me these past few months, so you can't make it up?" Jiang Chi said with a smile, but frowned slightly where Chen Ling couldn't see He lowered his eyebrows.

The author has something to say: Friends, I am finally back!I was so upset by a lot of class papers before, and Kawen got stuck seriously (crying), and now I finally remember what I should write (cover my face)