worthless [rebirth]

The day when Jiang Chi locked him on a big carved bed in Yunhua Palace with an exquisite pure gold chain as thick as a little finger was also the day when Chen Ling was separated from the world without seeing the sun.

Ever since he was locked here, Chen Ling's sleep quality has been very poor, and he can't sleep for two hours even with the soothing incense on, and he still has nightmares one after another.

Before dawn, Chen Ling woke up from the nightmare. For the first time, he felt tired, physically and mentally exhausted. He was so tired that he couldn't open his eyes, and even breathing felt like a waste of energy.

Last night, while torturing him on the bed, Jiang Chi told him in a harsh and evil tone that Jiang Guo's army had already broken through the last gate of Li Guo, and their iron riders were Xiao Xiao. The lord Chu Xiao died for his country, and the empress and little prince Chu Yun were also buried with him.

After hearing the news, apart from the initial shock, Chen Ling didn't feel any distress at all.One is the father who loves him the most, the other is the mother who loves him the most, and the other is his beloved younger brother who is only ten years old.

However, it wasn't until he heard the bad news that Chen Ling realized that his heart had become too hard to be moved.

Or maybe it was because he was already numb, his body was tortured by Jiang Chi, his mind was so muddled that he couldn't tell the difference between day and night, how could he care about the heartache that almost broke his heart?What he had was just a little bit of clear water under the corner of his eyes, which quickly ran into his temples, and even he couldn't believe that he was crying, let alone Jiang Chi, whose eyes were already red and tortured him blindly?

Last night was undoubtedly Jiang Chi's hardest attack. He forced Chen Ling one by one without even untying the gold chain around his wrist, and let the chain draw red marks on his delicate flesh. The skin is torn apart and the meat is cut into the meat.

It hurts to move his body now, and he didn't need to look at Chen Ling to know that the whip marks added the day before yesterday must be covered with purple-blue hickey marks and deep and shallow tooth marks that were made last night.He felt that he was very dirty, because Jiang Chi had never been in the habit of washing him afterwards, and Jiang Chi, who was in a rage last night, naturally would not.

But in my impression...the other party seemed to be the only time when he showed kindness. Chen Ling closed his eyes, feeling ridiculous for himself.What time is this, and I still remember Jiang Chi's washing his body after finishing his work a long time ago.

That was two years ago, when Jiang Chi annexed a small neighboring country, and he was in a particularly good mood.At that time, Chen Ling was suffering from the wind and cold and was not very energetic, so it was rare that he didn't talk back to Jiang Chi, and just lay softly on the bed.

That night, Jiang Chi still made Chen Ling pass out, but later, perhaps because he found out that he had caught the cold, he hugged Chen Ling to take a bath together for the first time in history.

Chen Ling opened his eyes when he was half asleep, and met Jiang Chi's cold eyes, but there seemed to be some other feelings in them, and Chen Ling fell asleep again before he could see clearly.

That was the night that Jiang Chi was the most tolerant to him in memory, to this day Chen Ling still couldn't tell if it was a dream or real.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

Ever since Jiang Chi told him cruelly last night that he had lost his country and family and was alone, Chen Ling felt that nothing was important.What dignity, what arrogance, what honorable Prince Li?

When a person has let go of everything and is determined to die, nothing can hold him back.No one can keep a person who has no worries and only wants to die, so what is the use of golden chains?

In fact, Chen Ling thought about running away and dying more than once, but Jiang Chi stopped them all, in exchange for more brutal and crazy humiliation.

This is the last time, Chen Ling thought, if he doesn't succeed this time, he has no choice but to believe that everything is fate and God's will. He will force himself to stay in Yuanhua Palace peacefully until he dies of old age, and enjoy himself under Jiang Chi's body. Willing to fall down.

"Last time..." Chen Ling murmured, as if talking to himself.He opened his eyes, a pair of beautiful phoenix pupils were black and bright, and they turned out to be a look that he had never seen before, revealing a deep breath of despair.

"What's the last time?" The person who fell asleep beside him woke up at some point. In the darkness of dawn, Jiang Chi's voice was low and somewhat lazy, with a rising end: "Huh?"

Jiang Chi was like this. The previous one tortured Chen Ling like a mad beast, wanting to die, but when he woke up, it seemed like nothing had happened, and he talked to Chen Ling in a peaceful tone.

When Jiang Chi spoke, his breath sprayed against his ears, itching, Chen Ling endured the pain all over his body and moved to one side, avoiding, "It's nothing."

In the past few days, Chen Ling's body has been weak, and he doesn't have much strength to speak. Jiang Chi doesn't care if he is often so indifferent.Recalling the root cause of the dispute between the two yesterday, Jiang Chi turned over and pressed towards Chen Ling, and said in a low voice, "I want to run away after being tied up with a chain, but now that your country is ruined and your family is ruined, where can you run, it's better to live stay with me..."

"I won't run away again..." Chen Ling murmured, Jiang Chi's approach made him tremble instinctively, three years of physical torture was enough to make his body and nerves conditioned fear of Jiang Chi.

Jiang Chi saw that Chen Ling was clearly rejecting him, and the anger that subsided after sleeping was so angry that he rushed up again, but he heard what Chen Ling said clearly.

I will not run away again.

So he suppressed his anger, bit Chen Ling's earball lightly as a punishment, and breathed out ambiguously: "Yo? Why are you suddenly obedient?"

Chen Ling didn't hide either, and he couldn't see his expression clearly in the darkness, only he seemed to have a very low laugh, and said softly: "I'm tired, I can't run anymore..."

"It's good to be tired." Jiang Chi buried his head and arched Chu Ling's scarred shoulders like a kitten, gently wrapped his arms around his shoulders, and said in a low voice: "Zi Ling, if you're tired, just stay by my side for the rest of your life." .”

Ziling was the name Jiang Chi bestowed upon Chen Ling in front of the courtiers at the Golden Luan Hall when Chen Ling came to Jiang Guo as a hostage. Although Chen Ling didn't like it at all, Jiang Chi always called him "Zi Ling", and It's a joy to cry.

Man is really a very strange animal, he will love his house, and he will hate a person because he really hates him, even the way he calls himself is extremely disgusting.

Listening to Jiang Chi calling "Zi Ling" and promising him "forever", Chen Ling resisted showing a sneer at the corner of his lips.

Ridiculous, isn't it?Jiang Chi ruined his country and family, how could they have a life together?

In fact, Jiang Chi told him more than once for a lifetime, but a lifetime is too long...Chen Ling couldn't even survive the three years with Jiang Chi, and a lifetime was even more ethereal.

Chen Ling's gaze fell blankly into the night, and he hoarsely said in a nasal voice, "Ah Chi, is it almost time for morning?"

In fact, it's not that Chen Ling doesn't know how to pretend to be weak, he just disdains it, and now he calls "Ah Chi" in a soft voice, which makes Jiang Chi stunned for a moment.

Every time Jiang Chi was in bed, he tried his best to force Chen Ling to call him "Achi", but Chen Ling never let go. It was the first time that he called him so proactively now.

After regaining consciousness, Jiang Chi's voice trembled for some reason, and he said, "There is still a quarter of an hour until the fifth watch..."

Chen Ling said quietly: "Well, let's go. I want to have dinner with you when you come back."

Jiang Chi's spine trembled almost imperceptibly, he turned his head and touched the corner of Chen Ling's mouth, and said, "Okay, let me come over and have dinner together."

Chen Ling nodded, said nothing, and closed his eyes gently.

Jiang Chi curled his lips, touched Chen Ling's waist a few times, and couldn't help giving Chen Ling a deep, almost suffocating kiss before changing his clothes and facing up.

In winter, at five o'clock, the sky is still very dark.

Ever since Chen Ling came to Jianguo, he has been afraid of light at night, so as long as it is the place where Chen Ling sleeps, the lights are not lit at night.

Chen Ling suddenly discovered that Jiang Chi was still a little considerate. For example, even though he was living in a cold palace, the bed was not hard, the food was good, and he never lit candles at night.

But Jiang Chi didn't know that Chen Ling wasn't really afraid of light, he just suffered from severe insomnia and didn't want others to see him keep his eyes open all night.

But what does it matter?

"Jiang Chi..." Chen Ling had a strange blush on his face, and his eyes were golden even in the dark, "My name is Chen Ling...you are Jiang Chi...the two of us together are Ling Chi...every inch of flesh and blood In this life, I will go one step ahead of you... If there is a next life, I will avoid you, because the life you talk about is too painful, too painful, I can't stand it..."

As Chen Ling spoke, he slowly wrapped a piece of gold chain connecting his wrist and the head of the bed around his neck, and slowly tightened it.

In fact, this annoying chain is not useless at all, Chen Ling thought.After Jiang Chi cleared away any daggers, scissors, hairpins that Chen Ling could touch by the bed... and all the lethal things, there was still a chain more than a foot long. I don't know if it was Jiang Chi's negligence Or he never thought that Chen Ling was really determined to die instead of being angry. He actually ignored the function of a chain.

When the icy cold metal wrapped around his neck, and the suffocation slowly came up, Chen Ling hooked the corners of his mouth and smiled.

"Jiang Chi, never...goodbye."

The bone-cold metal wrapped around his neck, pulling Chen Ling's consciousness and strength out of his body little by little, but the pain in his body seemed to have disappeared, and it felt light and floating, like being in a cloud.

At the last moment of his life, many things that Chen Ling had forgotten and did not want to remember became strangely clear in his mind.Father Emperor, Mother Empress, Yun'er...and Jiang Chi.

He knew very well that the palpitation in his heart when he thought of Jiang Chi was not love, but hate and fear.Jiang Chi's cruelty, Jiang Chi's cruelty, Jiang Chi's rape, Jiang Chi's harsh words, and the whip soaked in salt water... Those memories were like a sharp knife, bit by bit cutting his self-esteem and pride into pieces. , also put his feelings to death.

From the first glance on the city wall to the clash of swords on the battlefield, from the humiliating signing of the surrender letter to being a hostage in Chu State, from the initial house arrest to the current imprisonment without the freedom to get out of bed, from loneliness From the noble to the humble, from the noble prince who left the country to the worthless who ruined the country... These are all thanks to Jiang Chi!

Chen Ling, how can you not hate?How not to hate?

How ruthless one must be to forget the hatred of the country and the family, to forget the humiliation one has suffered, and to fall in love with that person?

Jiang Chi often said "Zi Ling" to him, how about "forever" with me?Chen Ling would feel great sorrow for Jiang Chi.

A lifetime is too long... I can't wait, and you can't give it... What I want, you will never know, and you will never know.

"Heh -" Chen Ling let out a final sigh, and finally fell into darkness.There was a crystal tear in the corner of his eye, I don't know if it was because he thought of something, or it was purely because of the tears that people shed before death.

But it doesn't matter anymore, when Jiang Chi sees it, those tears will probably dry up long ago.

That's great, Chen Ling left Jiang Chi with the same haughty and cold look as before.

The Chen Ling that Jiang Chi knew didn't know how to cry.

Chen Ling, I won't cry...

The author has something to say: no h, no lock