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Yun Wan drove to the National Security Bureau, and You Chenxing was already standing at the door.

Opened the passenger door, made a gesture, Yun Wan switched to the passenger seat, and You Chenxing took the driver's seat.

After brushing her face at the door and entering, the woman drove the car directly to the parking lot and parked it, and the two went to three places side by side.

He brought Yun Wan a paper cup and a cup of warm water. Yun Wan had just taken a sip when You Chenxing found another job.

Yun Wan could see that You Chenxing was really busy.

"You don't need to talk to me, I'm just here on the sofa, just playing with my phone."

The first employee left the office, Yun Wan seized the gap and made a statement.

Immediately, she took out her earphones, and without You Chenxing answering her, hugged the pillow by herself, nestled on the reception sofa in You Chenxing's office, quietly.

You Chenxing was indeed busy, at first he wanted to finish his work and then talk to Yun Wan, but when he buried his head in reading the documents, the work came one after another like snowflakes, without any interruption at all.

After reviewing a batch of materials in the department, I went to the bureau chief's office. Xiao Wang's team needed a relatively private file of two dead employees. It was obviously inappropriate for them to come forward. The bureau started here, and asked Chen Bureau to talk to the director of the first department.

In the afternoon, Zhu Sui just started to take the newcomers for physical training, and there were some entanglements. You Chenxing ran to the training room worried. The process of human training.

"If you want to make a fuss, come and tell me, just train according to the strictest standards, it's okay to suffer a little bit in the bureau, I'm afraid..."

When leaving, You Chenxing told Zhu Sui like this.

Wearing training clothes, Zhu Sui nodded and said in a deep voice, "I know, I won't release water."

It doesn't matter if you suffer a little in the bureau, I'm afraid that these alphas will go outside and their physical fitness will not be able to keep up at critical times.

The worst thing to do in the bureau is to be punished, and if you go outside, it will be a matter of death.

This truth is understood by everyone. You Chenxing has been the director for two years, and the training of the newcomers has always been in his own hands. He has never been divided before, and it is also because of this reason.

Giving it to others is always not as reassuring as teaching it yourself.

After busying around outside like this before returning to the office, Yun Wan leaned on the sofa and fell asleep at some point.

Glancing at his watch, he still had some time to get off work, and You Chenxing's name was not Yun Wan, and he was busy with work again.

When she realized that Yun Wan was waking up, it was Yun Wan who went to the tea and indirect water, and made another cup of coffee for You Chenxing, and put it on the table for her.

"Thank you." You Chenxing took it and took a sip.

"It's okay." Yun Wan's voice was soft and waxy, she just woke up, and her articulate words were not very clear.

"Are you going to see Professor Yun? The director has given special approval. He can move freely within the bureau."

After thinking for a while, Yun Wan shook her head, "Next time, it's getting cold, if the time of his return home next week is still uncertain, I'll see him when I deliver his clothes, today, let's not."

No matter what Professor Yun said, he was Yun Wan's father. What You Chenxing could see would only be more familiar to his relatives. Yun Wan hadn't told Father Yun about the divorce. Before Father Yun left the National Security Bureau, he didn't want to Her father saw something and worried about her.

You Chenxing nodded and continued to work.

Yun Wan swiped her phone again, and after she helped the two of them drink how many glasses of water, You Chenxing put on the cap of the pen and said she was off work.

Leaving the National Security Bureau and sitting in the reserved box, it was completely dark.

Yun Wan, who was originally very quiet in the National Security Bureau, came to the restaurant, as if she had opened up some chatterbox, chattering endlessly, without taking a breath.

"You don't know how exaggerated it is. I went to the Discipline Inspection Commission in the morning, ten people saw me, and ten people greeted me."

"I have been employed for six years, and I have never seen such a battle."

"Even the interns from other places called me Sister Yun when they saw me, I...please, do I know him?!"

"Not to mention the atmosphere in the office, do you know that everyone is looking at you, hesitating to speak, the kind of eyes that are full of pity and fear of hurting you, I have seen it today, and my scalp is numb just thinking about it ..."

"However, the people in my office are okay. People from other offices came halfway, and there is another one who wants to introduce me. My cousin, who is five years older than me, is sick. From my eyesight, he deserves to be underappreciated. , I can’t get a job title for several years!”

"Fortunately, our Liu Department came later, and asked these people to hand in the report in the afternoon. I don't know if it can be handed in. The report was discussed in our work group on the weekend. It was still about ideology and morality. It was difficult to write, so I wish them work overtime today. If it can be finished, it is better to do more work if you are forced to do so."

"I'm so angry, you don't even know how far I drove at noon, just to have a quiet lunch..."

"Someone asked me to go to the cafeteria. I thank her. The office can become like that. When I go to the cafeteria, it won't be like a city surrounded by zombies. They all stare at me like a rare animal!"

"Huh - it's annoying to say it, don't think about it!"

After such a pass, Yun Wan looked up abruptly, seeing You Chenxing's expression, and Yun Wan was startled.

"What are you... laughing at, is it funny?"

You Chenxing said, "The content isn't funny, but it's rare to see you so angry, and I think it's quite funny."

"..."

Yun Wan: "Thank you too!"

"No thanks~" You Chenxing rolled his lips.

Ah bah, he is also a shameless person!

Yun Wan rolled her eyes, and without arguing with You Chenxing, took a sip of tea angrily.

Complaining is still beneficial, at least the depression that has been accumulated in the heart for a day is much smoother, and people feel a little more relaxed.

After babbling about what I most want to complain about, the rest of the words are quite smooth.

You Chenxing was always silent, just listening, unless Yun Wan looked to her for a response, he would not comment easily.

Yun Wan just likes You Chenxing.

She didn't really need comfort, she just wanted someone to listen to her complain about.

You Chenxing is undoubtedly the most qualified person among the people she knows.

When Yun Wan's speech became slower and more rational, You Chenxing felt that it was almost done, and asked her, "Didn't it mean that Liu Chu found you? What's the matter?"

Yun Wan's expression froze, obviously she was asked the key point.

Stretching out her fingers to hook her hair, Yun Wan lowered her head, "It's not a big deal, it's just..."

"that is?"

"It's just that I never thought about it. He suddenly mentioned it, and I didn't know what to do."

There is nothing you can't say, Yun Wan is open and honest, "Liu Chu asked me about my life situation, the public announcement... I also asked a few questions, but it wasn't gossip about why I got divorced, that is, he said he looked at me and didn't care about it. It doesn’t look like he’s prepared to make an announcement in his heart.”

Liu Chu talked with Yun Wan in the tone of an elder.

His judgment was also correct. Yun Wan was just a court-martial with her eyes closed and her heart turned away. She didn't think much about the impact on the follow-up, and she didn't dare to think about it. Determination, on the other hand.

At that time, after knowing that Shen Li had told Tang Xing about her family...

Yun Wan feels suffocated whenever she thinks about this marriage.

She felt that if she didn't earn it, she would drown in this hopeless relationship.

At that time, she just wanted to end it quickly, and she only had this idea, and she couldn't care about the follow-up.

In short, Yunwan has never been prepared for such a situation, nor does she have the corresponding psychological quality to expose her private life to the public.

She is not a strong person.

Subconsciously glanced at You Chenxing.

Yun Wan thought, compared to women, she is not very tough herself, strong enough to make people around her think she is invincible.

She is no different from most people.

She is just an ordinary person.

With long eyelashes hanging down, Yun Wan let out a light breath, and her voice also lowered.

"Before, I took all my annual leave at once, and then chased you back to my hometown. Before the announcement, I also took a week off each. I can't look at my salary, but I don't live on that..."

"You Liu Chu said you?" You Chenxing's voice was still calm, very steady.

Not only her voice, but she is very stable and reliable.

This kind of stability was perceived by Yun Wan, and under the influence of the woman, the anxiety in her heart was suppressed again, and she shook her head.

"No, he didn't say anything."

You Chenxing: "I don't think so either, his family is very close to the Kong family, looking at you should be like looking at a junior."

Yun Wan was surprised, "You know all about this relationship?"

You Chenxing shrugged, "If I wasn't familiar with all the intricate relationships in Shangjing, I wouldn't be called the head of intelligence by the brats below."

Yun Wan laughed, "This title suits you."

The smile was fleeting, and thinking of what Liu Chu said, Yun Wan returned to the main topic and said, "I didn't talk about me, but rather understood me."

"It is said that something happened at home, my father is still in the National Security Bureau, and the marriage has become like this again. The pressure should be great."

"he ask me……"

"Ask me if I want to stay without pay."

Liu Chu's words were very gentle, without any coercive meaning.

She has been employed for six years, and Yun Wan has always been under Liu Chu, and she knows what kind of person the other party is.

It can be said that this suggestion is purely from her point of view and has no other meanings.

"As you know, I'm not very keen on work. It's okay to rely on the old and sell the old to get promoted after getting the qualifications. It's okay to work at the grassroots for a lifetime."

"I don't rely on this job to live. The money I invest every month is not comparable to my salary. I don't know which card bag I put in my salary card. will come out..."

"Liu Chu...Liu Chu just saw that my condition is really not good, and the public announcement has been discussed a lot. I'm afraid I can't stand the suggestion..."

"I'm not in the promotion assessment period either. There is no such thing as saying that he asked me to stay to make room for someone else. He is purely... out of kindness."

You Chenxing: "I didn't doubt your superior's intentions."

Yun Wan lowered her head and said in frustration, "I'm afraid you don't know, it's better to speak clearly."

"Ah."

You Chenxing: "So, what are you struggling with? Do you want to stay without pay?"

Yun Wan thought for a while, "Yes, and no."

You Chenxing raised his eyebrows.

Yun Wan was silent for a moment, and spoke slowly, thinking while speaking.

"I don't know whether to suspend my job without pay, but the entanglement is not the root of the problem."

"You say, I listen."

With a few simple words, calm and peaceful, You Chenxing's calm voice calmed Yun Wan's emotional frizz.

Yun Wan's eyes lost focus for a moment, and she looked up at You Chenxing.

The light in the box was not on, it was difficult for You Chenxing to describe the feeling of being stared at by Yun Wan like this, but this image had existed in her mind for several years and was indelible.

Everything is dim and dim, except Yun Wan's eyes, those eyes are wet and shiny.

Staring at her, the soft eyes seemed to pinch her heart.

"When I graduated, my dad said that one cannot live without a job."

"Actually, I don't know what I like. At that time, except for Shen Li in the future life plan, everything else was ambiguous."

"My grades have always been relatively average. I don't like those omegas who say that I am a stupid beauty. My studies are not a burden to me. If I put in a little effort, I can still watch it..."

"But it seems that there is no job that can make me forget to sleep and eat, and I feel that I must do something."

"My dad said that the Military Disciplinary Committee is relatively easy and suitable for Omega. It just so happens that Liu Chu is related to the Kong family, so I followed my dad's arrangement and joined the current unit, and I'm here now."

Like Yun Wan's eyes, her voice was also full of confusion.

Slower and slower.

Eyelashes lowered, he said with great uncertainty, "After the announcement, I really don't want to go to work, and I also know that my condition is no longer suitable for work."

"Liu Chu asked me to rest for a few months to half a year before going back. I would like to agree, but..."

You Chenxing: "But?"

Yun Wan wiped her face, frowned, and muttered: "But, I don't have a family anymore, and I don't have a job anymore, I don't know... I don't know what I want to do in a day?"

"I have a job and I am busy. The previous family relationship has been emptied. If I don't work again, I will feel... feel..."

"My life seems to have become meaningless."

Yun Wan raised her head to look at You Chenxing, her eyes were sparkling and full of confusion.

Unexpectedly by Yun Wan, You Chenxing replied, "Life is meaningless."

"The so-called meaning is given by people."

"Not something essential, or something that occurs naturally."

"Yes, of course it is very good, no, and there is no need to be demanding."

Yun Wan frowned, "Really?"

There is an unshakable peace in You Chenxing's eyes, and when people look at each other, they feel peace in their hearts.

"Instead of discussing these philosophical issues, I would like to ask you, why do you suddenly think about the meaning of life?"

Yun Wan thought for a while, and said, "I feel that, except for me, everyone seems to be quite clear about life."

"Xiamen is an interpreter, has a child, and lives a full and busy life; needless to say, your goals have always been clear, and your work is also very busy; I went to the scientific research institute a few days ago, and saw Zuo Tian. I feel that marriage plays an important role in her life. The proportion in Li is not very high, even with Major Xu, she still has a clear sense of her position and cognition."

"In comparison, I feel like I'm shallow and boring."

Although You Chenxing didn't want to say it, but at this point, she seemed to have to point it out, "Because marriage took up too much of your life before."

But Yunwan's marriage fell apart.

The past life state is broken, and there is no going back.

And new life...

Obviously, it will take some time for Yunwan to get used to it.

All the meanings of this sentence were tacitly understood by the two of them, and Yun Wan lowered her head again, feeling very depressed.

After a while, he admitted softly, "Yes, I know."

In fact, Yun Wan is a very easy to satisfy person.

She is not demanding.

It's just that this request is not like You Chenxing and Zuo Tian, ​​who can be supported by one person. A family is composed of people. She has done her own part, and the other part is composed of others, which is beyond her control. up.

This is very realistic, but also very helpless.

But the fact is that in a marriage, no matter which party makes a mistake, it must be two people who pay the bill in the end.

But You Chenxing didn't want to preach.

The rationale is vague and lacks practical meaning.

Knowing is just knowing, and it can't help Yunwan solve her current entanglement.

You Chenxing just wanted to say something practical that could help the other party, so after thinking about it, she said: "As you said, work is not something you choose, and the work you complete is more like a task than self-realization .”

"So I don't think it will change at all whether you continue or not when the work itself doesn't give you any meaning."

"Maybe you will feel that you have nothing to do when you are free."

"But continuing, it's just a busy dazed state."

"What you need to do, perhaps later, is to give yourself a meaning in life."

Yun Wan raised her head again, and looked at You Chenxing from afar, her fragile expression made You Chenxing feel soft inside.

You Chenxing also lowered his voice very softly, as if afraid of scaring her, he asked, "What do you think?"

Yun Wan can't say that You Chenxing is wrong, but...

"I don't know how to find it." Yun Wan heard that her own voice was light and ethereal, just like the content, completely illusory.

"It's ok."

The woman's response was tolerant and gentle, taking over all Yun Wan's turmoil.

"We didn't find it in a day or two."

"You're still young."

"Life is just beginning, Yun Wan."

"Take your time if you don't know, it's nothing, and no one is forcing you."

Yun Wan felt that she should say something more, a promise, a guarantee, or a vision for the future.

Said these to show that she heard You Chenxing's encouragement, to show that she knows what to do, that's right.

but……

But in the woman's amber eyes, she didn't feel that the other party needed any response from her.

she can feel,

It can only be felt.

Just a piece of sincere care.

It's just the most basic and rarest unconditional care.

Looking at each other for a while, Yun Wan finally didn't say anything, just nodded and replied with one word, "Okay."

After finishing speaking, I saw You Chenxing laughing.

It confirmed her feelings.

Having said so much, a woman doesn't need her to promise anything, she just hopes that she will be fine.

This feeling is subtle and unstoppable.

It made Yun Wan feel in a trance that she had fallen into a psychedelic feeling of being loved.

With You Chenxing around, this night, as if to vent all the unhappiness during the day, Yun Wan also ordered fruit wine to drink.

The capacity for alcohol is not good, and after dinner, the whole person is in a daze.

The return trip was driven by You Chenxing. Yun Wan was half drunk and unconscious. When she arrived at the downstairs of her house, You Chenxing couldn't stand upright even with the help of her. Finally, he let out a sigh of relief. On the last stretch of the journey, he resigned to his fate and carried her back home.

"I won't go to work tomorrow. They can say whatever they like. Gossip won't kill them."

"I want to go back in half a year. If you don't believe me, they can remember this matter for half a year."

"Humph!"

Lying on You Chenxing's back, Yun Wan did not forget to mutter.

You Chenxing laughed, "Okay, miss, you can do whatever you want."

After making a sound, Yun Wan felt You Chenxing was there in a daze.

Holding the opponent's neck, the next moment, he buried his face in You Chenxing's shoulder.

The moisture of her breath sprayed on You Chenxing's body through her clothes, and the woman stopped in her footsteps.

"You Chenxing."

Omega's voice was so soft that it made people's ears itch.

"It's so kind of you."

Whispering, uttering unclear words, Yun Wan chewed them very seriously.

"real."

Also emphasized it again.

You Chenxing shook his head helplessly, "You're enough, I'll stay with you all night, not to listen to your good card."

He said so on the lips, but in his heart he felt that Yun Wan is very cute now, You Chenxing couldn't hold back, and stretched his hand back, wanting to pat Yun Wan's head.

"Then what do you want to hear?"

The person who had drunk was startled, and suddenly raised his head.

You Chenxing didn't have eyes behind his back, and the hand that was about to fall on Yun Wan's hair was caught by the sudden movement of the eldest lady, and he couldn't restrain it in time, and finally wiped the other's face with his fingers.

Fingertips feel too soft.

After a second or two, You Chenxing felt belatedly, and touched Yun Wan's lips in a misplaced position.

The movements of the two people are stagnant.

After a moment of silence, You Chenxing's finger that wanted to recover changed direction again.

Slowly, very slowly, rubbing the long finger on the corner of Yun Wan's lips, stroking along the edge of the lower lip line, pressing the fingerprints on the red lips, from one side, inch by inch, to the end of the other lip ...

The touch is gentle and does not exceed the rules...

But the meaning contained in this action made Yun Wan's already confused mind even more unable to turn.

I felt that it was wrong to continue, and I wanted to stop, but I also felt that the reaction was too intense.

After hesitating for a moment, You Chenxing's fingertips stroked back from the other side as before.

This time the force was heavier, as if rubbing her lips.

Touching Yunwan made her breathing tight.

The woman's voice was also hoarse, "What do I want to hear..."

"You know it yourself."