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After You Chenxing changed his shoes, he directly carried his slippers and entered Yunwan's apartment barefoot.

Walking like this makes no sound.

Yunwan's state...

You Chenxing was afraid that the slightest disturbance would irritate the other party, and he was also afraid that Yun Wan would think that Shen Li had returned, and then there would really be a fire accident.

When a person is emotionally excited, anything can happen.

When we arrived at the door of the study room, the door was half-closed, You Chenxing said first, "Yun Wan."

Her and Shen Li's voices are very different, and the other party should be able to recognize her when she speaks, but even so, You Chenxing still announced her name in the last sentence.

"I am You Chenxing."

After thinking about it, he added, "It's just me."

After finishing these three sentences, he knocked on the door, leaving enough time for the other party to react.

There was little movement inside, and despite being so careful, You Chenxing pushed open the door and saw Yun Wan. Her first reaction was to close the dismantled magazine with a bang, and then hold the gun and take a shooting posture...

squeak-

The wooden door was pushed open slowly.

During this period, You Chenxing didn't move other parts of his body except his hands. When the door opened, Yun Wan could see You Chenxing clearly through the light, and You Chenxing could also clearly see Yun Wan's eyes that let go of his guard. before proceeding to the second action.

You Chenxing put the shoes on the ground and put on the slippers.

Only then did I enter the study.

Yun Wan's nerves were tense for a moment, and she realized that it was You Chenxing. Looking at the other person's calm face, she let go of her strength, and with a bang, the pistol hit the floor with her arm falling.

Yun Wan lowered her head, looking sleepy, the focus of her eyes lost again, she let go of her hand, and threw the gun to the ground again.

In the silence, You Chenxing walked up to Yun Wan, and Yun Wan sat on the floor with her legs crossed.

You Chenxing didn't speak, Yun Wan didn't know where to look, and didn't move.

After being speechless for a long time, Yun Wan asked out loudly with a lot of exhaustion, "Why are you back?"

"I don't worry about you."

You Chenxing's answer was very soft, without any exaggerated tone, just plain, like every word she said every day.

But caring is often more simple and casual, and more touching.

In the midst of the disturbance of noisy emotions in her head, Yun Wan's heart seemed to be touched by something vaguely, and the feeling was not real, but she didn't hate it.

You Chenxing squatted down slowly, and within Yun Wan's sight, he reached out to grab the gun.

The movement was very slow, Yun Wan's eyeballs moved slightly, seeing it, and didn't stop it, You Chenxing couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief.

When you touch the gun and hold it in your hand, the first action is to unload the magazine.

But Yun Wan was more in place, not only unloading the magazine, but also pouring out all the bullets.

Ladies pistol, small and compact, mainly for self-defense, the magazine can only hold 12 bullets.

If so, You Chenxing counted the number of bullets that were dismantled, eleven, and counting the ones that have already been shot, to restore the scene, Yun Wan came out to find Shen Li with a full magazine...

You can imagine what mood she was in at that time, how angry she was.

"Where's the safe?"

It will be issued with a gun, and a new material polymer metal safe for storage will be issued at the same time.

Yun Wan quietly watched You Chenxing's movements, "The bedroom."

You Chenxing got up and went to her bedroom, but didn't take the gun away, took the safe, disassembled the gun in front of Yun Wan, put it back bit by bit, and counted the bullets for her by the way, said in surprise , "Only 33 rounds?"

The standard configuration is three magazines of bullets, and 36 rounds is the initial quantity.

Except for today's one, there are still two missing.

"Yeah." Facing You Chenxing's gaze, Yun Wan didn't hide it, "I used two rounds on missions before, but they were empty guns, for warning purposes."

"Those two rounds have already been registered."

Afraid that You Chenxing would want to ask, Yun Wan added.

You Chenxing nodded, and helped Yunwan put back the parts of the gun one by one neatly, and when they were all neatly stacked, he looked at Yunwan and signaled, "I'm closing the box."

It is for Yun Wan to confirm that it is correct.

Yun Wan rolled her eyes slowly to confirm, and tapped her chin lightly.

click.

The safe was closed, and the dangerous weapon was finally stored in a safe place.

Someone put the safe back in the bedroom, You Chenxing went back to the study, dialed an internal number, and reported that the firearm had misfired.

Listening to the woman's phone call, Yun Wan was surprised to find that not only did she remember her job title and ID number, but she didn't even report an error in the gun distribution number just now.

"Yeah, okay, let her take it to the unit and hand it in tomorrow, and it will be checked by the military supply center."

"Yes, no casualties, confirmed."

"Thank you."

After hanging up the phone and exhaling lightly, You Chenxing squatted down and looked at Yun Wan at the same level.

With four eyes facing each other, You Chenxing's voice couldn't help but become gentle when he looked at the eyes that had lost their luster nearby, "I have already reported to you that the firearm went off, and you heard it too. Take it to the unit and hand it in when you go to work. They will check After that, I will return it no problem.”

Yun Wan nodded numbly.

He didn't seem to want to talk at all.

You Chenxing didn't stare at her, got up and poured two glasses of warm water, and handed one to Yun Wan.

Yun Wan took it, as if her soul had been sucked out, and when the water glass was given to her, she lowered her head and took a sip.

There was a long silence, and while waiting, You Chenxing also changed from a squatting position to sitting on the floor, with long legs that had no place to rest crossed, and his back was straight.

"Is there anything else you want to say to me?" Yun Wan said suddenly.

"Why do you think so?"

"Feeling." Putting the cup beside her, Yun Wan pressed her chin against her knee, and gently closed her eyes.

I checked with Shen Li about Tang Xing's situation.

Yun Wan subconsciously felt that there should be something on Tang Xing's side, which You Chenxing wanted to say, and told her.

"Originally there was." When asked, You Chenxing didn't shy away from it, "But...it's like this, let's forget about it today, it's not a big deal."

She didn't want to provoke Yun Wan anymore.

She didn't say anything, Yun Wan didn't urge her, she said it wasn't a big deal, Yun Wan believed it was nothing serious.

You Chenxing has always been a very reliable person.

Besides, she really didn't have the energy to take care of those.

"Aren't you going?"

After being quiet for too long, Yun Wan wanted to say something, but when she opened her mouth, she chased people away.

"Not urgent."

After a pause, You Chenxing rarely confided in his heart, "I want to accompany you."

"I think you should have a lot to say."

Yun Wan did, but, "I don't know where to say it."

"Whatever, if you want to say it, you can do it from anywhere, and you can say it wherever you want, don't hold back."

Some things are more comfortable to say.

It will be much better to vent your emotions.

I don't know where to look, the time is pulled by the warm light to create a wonderful feeling, in a trance, chaotic, Yun Wan said, "Did you guess it a long time ago?"

"what?"

You Chenxing's voice also became hazy.

Yun Wan: "Tang Xing, Shen Li, and my father's case, did you guess it when you were in your hometown?"

"Otherwise, why are you going to school, Tang Xingyuan's relative's house?"

"Oh, and, Yu Xi is a prosecutor, so that's what you asked her for, right?"

You Chenxing lowered his eyes, "You can't say that either."

"I have rich experience in handling cases. When I feel something is wrong, I only vaguely feel that it is related, but if there is no evidence, it cannot be taken seriously. I have to come back and continue to look for it."

Looking at the back, You Chenxing was surprised by Tang Xing's leak-free situation.

When Yunwan realized that there was something wrong with the formula, there was another thunderstorm, and then she went to Yu Xi, and the overall outline of the incident slowly appeared in front of You Chenxing.

Yun Wan: "But you didn't tell me before."

For some reason, she just wanted to say this, and she really said it.

This sentence finally has emotional fluctuations, a little grievance.

You didn't say it, but You Chenxing heard it.

Flicking his hair, You Chenxing lowered his voice a little, "Before you have a certainty, if you say it, it will only make you feel negative. It's not necessary. What if I made a mistake?"

Although You Chenxing's intuition has not made any mistakes so far, the reason is as follows.

Yun Wan didn't speak, her cheeks swelled up, then disappeared, swelled up, then disappeared again.

Looking at his expression, he reluctantly accepted the explanation, nodded and said, "Okay."

Reluctantly, it was acceptable.

The only question she wanted to ask You Chenxing was finished, and the rest was about her own family, Yun Wan thought, her mind was full of chaos, memories and reality were intertwined, what happened a few years ago and what happened recently , conflicting left and right in her mind, they were inseparable.

Yun Wan felt suffocated, and subconsciously buried her face between her knees again. From You Chenxing's perspective, she could only see her long hair slipping down with luster, completely covering Yun Wan's side face .

"Am I a failure?" Yun Wan asked suddenly.

Before You Chenxing could answer, Yun Wan said again, "I feel like a failure."

"It feels like the past many years have all become wrong all of a sudden."

"I feel like I'm ridiculous."

With her long eyelashes trembling, Yun Wan said with difficulty, "My marriage is ridiculous."

Now she felt exactly the same as when she discovered Tang Xing existed. She couldn't figure out why things turned out like this...

Their family did not feel sorry for Shen Li.

Not at all.

"My dad never disliked her."

"Even when we quarreled, my dad said that I was too extreme. He said that I was still young. If there is anything I can't do, just teach me slowly. Don't be so anxious and quarrel..."

"My dad also chose the location of her parents' house for a long time. Her family moved to Shangjing. My dad was busy with work at that time, but no matter how busy he was, he still drove out to help deliver things..."

"I have chosen all the furniture."

"She is going to be promoted, and she is always afraid that she will be squeezed out, so she will say hello to Uncle Zhou in advance."

"..."

"My family has never been sorry to her." Yun Wan murmured, and finally said these words.

"So why did it end up like this?"

"I can't figure it out."

"Did I make a mistake from the beginning, maybe, I should choose the path of all aristocratic families, maybe..."

"Yunwan." You Chenxing interrupted her chaotic words of self-blame, and said forcefully, "You are a victim."

"The perpetrator has the statement of the perpetrator. For the victim, don't look for the reason from yourself, because the reason is not on you at all."

After a pause, You Chenxing slowed down and calmed down again.

"A plane crash, is it because someone on the plane chose this flight? Car accidents can't be blamed on which party was too observant of traffic rules, right?"

"In the same way, the failure of your marriage should not be blamed on you, a person who did nothing."

"You're fine, don't think so."

Yun Wan raised her head with a painful expression on her face. After a while, she raised her head to force back her tears and murmured, "I'm fine, so why does she still treat me like this? To my family?"

When Yun Wan asked this question, she actually became paranoid.

You Chenxing looked at her with flickering eyes for a while, then said quietly.

"It's her fault."

"She's not good enough for you."

"Really?" Yun Wan's voice was very soft.

"Yes." You Chenxing's answer was forceful.

The woman actually didn't say anything special, but maybe her attitude was too firm. In a puddle of mud, Yun Wan suddenly felt that she was just a person who was unfortunately stained with mud, not the one who was dripping in it and could not extricate herself. .

"What do you think success looks like?" You Chenxing asked suddenly.

"Huh?" Yun Wan was taken aback.

"You just said that you feel like a failure. What does success look like in your eyes?"

Some hesitation, Yun Wan looked at You Chenxing for a while, thought for a long time, and said, "You and Zhou Ding are like this?"

"What? Have a successful career?"

Feeling vague, Yun Wan nodded, thought for a while, and added, "It seems that you can completely control your life without any interference."

"I don't know what you think of me. Zhou Ding is not such a person. To be exact, he is not a member of the aristocratic family."

For people of aristocratic families, the family is a weakness, and it is impossible not to be disturbed by anything.

On the contrary, in private, they are actually more seriously disturbed by various relationships.

"That's what you are." Yun Wan took a step back.

"But my family is dead, my mother and I are not close, we don't get in touch, I look good, but it just looks, Yun Wan, no one has an easy life."

You Chenxing: "To be alive is not an easy task."

"You think I have more control over you, and perhaps you are more envious of you, your family, and people you can care about."

"There are no two identical leaves in the world, nor are there identical people and lives."

"The lives of two people cannot be compared."

"You feel like a failure, but when it comes to talking about it, you're better than most people."

After thinking about it, You Chenxing said emphatically, "It's much better."

"Recently, you are better than Tang Xing and we grew up in a better environment. Even if it was a failed marriage, yours is much happier than hers."

"If you resent this example, I can change it."

After a pause, You Chenxing said suddenly, "Have you ever seen people in the war-torn zone?"

Yun Wan froze for a moment, shook her head, looked at You Chenxing, and asked uncertainly, "Have you seen it?"

"I have seen."

It was difficult for You Chenxing to describe the scene with Yun Wan in detail.

After going there, people's understanding of the word "cruel" will be much deeper.

"At the front line, education is shut down, guns are privatized seriously, and gun battles break out in the streets from time to time. Most of the children's faces are dirty, and there is...no hope in their eyes."

"You live in a peaceful environment. It may not be appropriate for me to make such a comparison, but you are still young and have unlimited possibilities in the future. What you are experiencing now may seem painful to you, but no one can help you bear it. It's the way you must go."

"In the face of pain, my only experience is to get over it, and then it will be fine."

Yun Wan thought about these words for a long time, and then asked back, "Will it be all right?"

"meeting."

You Chenxing: "Growing up is always painful and inescapable."

Exhaling foul breath, Yun Wan buried her face down again, feeling her eye sockets burning.

You Chenxing: "If you feel uncomfortable, cry if you want to."

To her surprise, Yun Wan shook her head this time.

It is a firm refusal.

"Don't cry."

Yun Wan muttered and repeated, "I can't cry anymore."

"It's been so long, I should be stronger."

After a pause, he added in a low voice, "My dad still needs me."

When it was confirmed that the child was Shen Li, Yun Wan collapsed, and tonight, she also collapsed.

But it may be that she has experienced the collapse of her worldview once, and when she was hit by the same person the second time, she actually felt that she could not bear it anymore.

pain.

But not uncontrollable pain.

sad.

But it's not unbearable sadness.

You Chenxing sat a little closer, helped Yun Wan pick up the hair on the side of her ears, and patted her back lightly.

Hearing the eldest lady talking to herself alone, she muttered, "It's difficult and difficult, Yu Ru will succeed."

You Chenxing suddenly couldn't bear it.

Although she knew that Yunwan should go through these things, and only after she had experienced them herself, could she grow up and see through them, but the emotions in her heart were out of control, and she just felt distressed.

"Do you want a hug?" You Chenxing said suddenly.

"People are social animals, hugging can make you feel supported, and it should be better."

Afraid that Yunwan might be mistaken, You Chenxing added in a teasing tone, "Anyway, when you sat on my lap to stimulate Shen Li just now, you have already been a tool person once, and now, I don't mind being a second time."

"At least, can you relieve your emotions?"

Yun Wan raised her head, and the dark red pupils at the end of her eyes looked at You Chenxing, with an inexplicable sense of vulnerability, which made You Chenxing's heart skip a beat.

Yun Wan muttered, unhappy, "You don't need to emphasize that I use you as a tool, don't keep teasing me."

"Be serious."

Be nice to her.

Finally opened his hand to You Chenxing.

Feeling the softness of omega again, Yunwan's warm breath sprayed You Chenxing's collarbone.

Even knowing that there is no ambiguity in the current atmosphere, You Chenxing still tightened his breathing.

Her nostrils are filled with the rose fragrance of Yunwan pheromone, which is very light, and only her special alpha can smell it.

"I didn't play tricks on you."

Unable to see the other party's face, You Chenxing's voice was dreamy and hazy.