Is it too dangerous to be full of charms in the world of conjuration?

You stand in front of his grave in a daze, but you can't shed tears. This is the first time you feel the distance between death and life is so far away.

You are standing outside his grave, while he is lying quietly on the ground, obviously the distance is no more than two meters, but if you want to exchange photos with Hui Yuan, or stay up all night chatting and blowing Xia Youjie together, you can’t do it anymore. Things to do.

I like Haibara very much, and I also like everyone in Kako very much.

But just thinking that you will be separated like this in the future, you are so sad that you can hardly breathe. For the first time, you have doubts about the value of your own existence.

Everyone praised me for being great, why did Haibara still die?Is it because I'm not good enough?That's why Huiyuan will be separated from everyone?

A pair of warm palms supported your arms, and you realized that you had already knelt down in front of his tombstone. You looked up at Glass, saw her reddish eyes, and finally couldn't help crying.

But apart from your slight choking sound, there is only the sound of water dripping on the slate.

The kitten that has not yet grown up is also shrunk into the arms of the kitten that has not yet grown up.

It began to rain lightly, then gradually became larger, and finally turned into fine raindrops, drenching you who were already in a mess.

You start to like rainy days.

Because this way you won't be able to hear your own weak crying, and you can start whimpering with confidence.

Don't cry, you scold yourself in your heart, the strong don't cry casually, Jie never cried!

But he also refuted himself in his heart.

But, but me.

But I'm not as good as Jay... I've always been a useless, stupid--weak.

You feel that you have recognized your position and started to learn Xia Youjie hard, but no matter what you do, it seems that you can't become a person like him.

Finally, after busy tasks, you and Xia Youjie are rarely alone together.

You couldn't help but tugged at his cuff, and poured out your confusion to Xia Youjie: "How can I become someone like you?" You tried to meet Xia Youjie's gaze, then raised your head and stared at him intently s face.

"I also want to be a person like Jie, who can save others and choose his own path firmly."

Xia Youjie didn't stare into your eyes, but looked up at the dark night sky, the dark clouds covered the moonlight, because today was a rainy day, even though the rain had passed, the moonlight still didn't shine in front of his eyes.

"Does Chana think so?" He didn't answer your question directly, but instead asked you: "Why does Chana want to be like me?"

"Because I like everyone, I like everyone." You said without hesitation: "Jie will maintain his righteousness when he meets bad people who make people angry, just like I want to do." You again Take a step forward.

"No matter who it is, I want to save their pain."

Xia Youjie looked down at you, and said out of nowhere: "You are already such a person..." And me.

"No, I haven't been able to be like Jie yet!" You looked at him without fear, and said firmly, "Jie is my lighthouse."

Xia Youjie didn't speak any more, but turned around and left.You stood there, staring blankly at his leaving back, a strange fear hit your heart, this feeling is just like when Huiyuan left.

It seems that you can no longer keep up with the way he walked.

You try to talk to Xia Youjie again, but he seems to avoid you on purpose, you can't help but feel a little sad because you always don't see each other because of various missions or other reasons.

What happened to Jay...

But fortunately, you can chat with Nitro. After you blurted out your question, Nitro smoked silently, then met your eyes, and said in a tone of helplessness that he couldn't even detect: "Maybe he feels a little tired."

"Is it because of me?" You asked anxiously, worried that it was because of yourself that Xia Youjie was wrong.

"No." Nitzi stood up and opened the window of the infirmary. The white smoke slowly disappeared with the blowing wind, and you heard her say word by word: "I don't understand, but I think if there is someone who can If he is better—only enlightenment.”

You seem to understand something: "Is it true that they are special to each other, just like only Nitro can understand what I think?"

"Yes." Nitro turned his head to look at you, smiled, and calmed all your uneasiness: "Just like only Chanel can make me calm, they are also each other's only true friends."

best friend.

It's the first time you've heard the word from Glass.

You also seem to know where to start, so you find Gojo Satoru who doesn't have a particularly good relationship, and try to tell him what's wrong with Xia Youjie recently.

"Ah?" Wujo Wu's face was a little blank: "Isn't Jie Kuxia?"

Bitter summer?You tilt your head in doubt.

So that's the case, Gojo Satoru, who is the only close friend, said so, so it must be so!

You feel a little relieved.

The days continued to be busy and dull, as if everything was fine.

You gradually let go of your heart.

It's just that Xia Youjie is still avoiding you.

After another busy task, you happily took the nitro to bring a new flavor of women's cigarettes, and ran quickly to give the nitro, and excitedly opened the door of the infirmary, only to see her in a strange state.

You understood the meaning of Nitro's expression almost instantly, and asked nervously: "Who happened?"

"..." She kept silent, just trembling her hands slightly, took a deep puff of the cigarette, and you threw away the things in your hand, snacks, drinks, and some wine. Red all over the place.

And no one cares.

You hugged each other tightly, and Nizi trembled, telling you a sentence that was like a bolt from the blue.

"Jie defected. He killed people in a village, and then killed his parents."

You won't doubt Nitro's words.

Huge dazedness and helplessness hit you, and it stunned you all at once. After a while, you clumsily and slowly hugged Nitro.

The lighthouse goes out.

You are plunged into the darkness of missing hands and feet again.

Why is that?

Why is this happening?

You want to ask Xia Youjie yourself, why did you do this?And I feel like I can't ask.

It is obvious that something is wrong, why is it so natural to ignore it?

You thought about it for a long time, and you never went out on missions again, but stayed with Nitro, and healed others non-stop.

About a year?Or two years?Or longer.

A child in the second grade asked you curiously, how does it feel to be a classmate with the strongest?

You blurted out immediately: "I'm very happy, I like everyone very much." You didn't recover until you finished speaking.He scratched his head in embarrassment, and then fooled her.

And inexplicably, the student at the high school admired you very much, and often secretly took photos of you from time to time, blowing rainbow farts on you with excited faces and indifferent classmates.

In a trance, you seem to see yourself back then, and sometimes you yourself feel that what she said is not you at all.

You know exactly what you are like.

After reluctantly rejecting another invitation to a party, you didn't turn on the light, but sat quietly at your desk, flipping through a photo album you haven't seen for a long time.

The first page is everyone who was cursed high back then. Rubbing this photo with some nostalgia, you seem to suddenly understand something in a trance, like a window that has been dusty for a long time is pushed open, and the moonlight clearly illuminates every room in your heart. a corner.

So this is ah.

Vision is the furthest distance from understanding.