miss you like crazy

"do not talk……"

Ji Nian interrupted Yun Ye, and pulled his hand out of Yun Ye's hand.

After half a minute, he got up and walked out.

Yun Ye looked at Ji Nian blankly, caught up with him, and grabbed Ji Nian's arm, "Boss, it's so late, where are you going?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Ji Nian frowned and tried to free his hand, but Yunye held on tightly and refused to let go.

"Is it because of what I just said?"

Ji Nian pursed his lips and said nothing, Yunye smiled, "You don't have to feel burdened, it's up to me to like you, it's up to you whether you like me or not. Just keep doing what you did before."

"Do you think it's possible?" Ji Nian retorted him.

When a person knows that another person likes him, how can he pretend to be indifferent.Moreover, it is still a person of the same gender as myself.

"It's getting late, I thought about it, I don't want to stay here tonight, or I'm afraid that the boss will run away from home, good night, boss, I'll come to see you another day."

Xu Shi has already expressed his heart to Ji Nian, Yunye showed his love for Ji Nian without embellishment, whether it was physically or in the tone of his conversation with Ji Nian.

The scorching eyes seemed to leave imprints on Ji Nian's body.

It wasn't until he heard the door closing that he was sure that Yun Ye had really left, that Ji Nian slowly came back to his senses.

That night, he couldn't sleep all night.

Early the next morning, he first called Milan back and told her that he would go to the party to reassure her, and then he contacted a friend who was a psychological counselor.

It was a senior of his in college. Although he hadn't contacted her for a long time, he had seen the achievements of that senior in psychology in his circle of friends.

However, what he didn't expect was that there would be a day when he needed psychological consultation.

An appointment was made, and it was seven o'clock in the evening.

When Ji Nian arrived at the clinic, the senior sister was still a high-end white-collar image as before.

"Sister, long time no see."

"I haven't seen you for a long time, so let's stop talking about polite words. You told me on WeChat that you wanted to ask me a question. Let me tell you. I'm very interested. I always think that you are such a reserved and sunny person, don't you?" There will be psychological barriers. Of course, it cannot be ruled out that it is indirectly caused by the person who can cause you psychological barriers..."

Ji Nian heaved a sigh of relief at the senior sister's directness. He actually was a little reserved and didn't know how to start. This saved a lot of trouble, and he said it directly to the senior sister: "That's it, I... encountered a problem and solved it routinely." I don’t know how to deal with such problems correctly, and I don’t know if looking for you can give me some clues, so I just want to ask you to try.”

"Let me guess? Well, judging by your reaction, could it be that you have met a fanatical suitor?" Ji Nian's ears were burning with the sharpness of the senior sister.

He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, "That's right."

"Look at your reaction, you don't hate that suitor, do you?"

Ji Nian froze for a moment at what the senior sister said, hate it?Not to mention, Ji Nian never knew what to do with Yun Ye.

As for the current situation, it was completely unexpected for him.

Shaking his head, "I don't hate him."

"If you don't tell me, I know you don't hate him. It's just that you are embarrassing your relationship with him, aren't you? That him, is he the same sex as you? "

Although studying psychology can easily grasp the psychology of the person being consulted, Ji Nian never expected that the other person would be sure that he had an emotional entanglement with the same sex without any hint from him.

Having to admire the senior sister's professionalism, Ji Nian hesitated for a moment, then nodded a little embarrassedly, "Senior sister is right, he, like me, is indeed a man."

"So? What is the crux of your entanglement? Because he is a man? You want to make a clean break with him? If he is a woman, do you think differently about him?"

"I……"

It is undeniable that Ji Nian had thought about that, if Yun Ye was a woman, it is certain that he would be moved.

However, there is no such if.

"Student, do you like him?"

The senior sister asked another direct question, and Ji Nian quickly denied it: "No, I don't like him, how could I like him..."

After a while of refutation, he felt that his tone was weak.

Even Ji Nian felt that his heart was so empty.

But, since you are telling the truth, why are you guilty?

"Student, do you know? In psychology, if a person is eager to use words to refute and explain, it is when he wants to hide his inner touch. For the question just now, your answer is obvious, not what you answered. If you really don't like someone, the answer should be very flat, yes or no.

But your answer... Sorry, I seem to have strayed a bit. The problem you encountered today is not a problem, because you and your suitor are in love with each other, and there is no such thing as a problem. Whoever entangles whoever, as long as your relationship is reached, you will naturally be together with the flow. "

Feeling in love with each other...?

The heating was turned on in the physiotherapy clinic, and the temperature was above 25 degrees, but Ji Nian was covered in a layer of cold sweat.

How could they be in love with Yunye?

What is the possibility between myself and him?

"I can't be with him..."

Ji Nian shook his head.

The senior sister poured Ji Nian a cup of coffee, "So, it's not that you don't want to be with him, but that you feel that you will not be able to be together due to some obstacles, so you subconsciously shrink back. "

"I……"

Although I always feel that it is not what the senior sister said, but the senior sister's words make Ji Nian feel irrefutable.

"People, in this life, don't look at decades. But, you are already in your 30s, how many light years are left in the future?

And you know what?How likely is it that a person will meet a person who truly loves each other and loves each other in his life?Junior brother, don't wait until it is irreparable to regret it. "

"But, he and I are both men? Don't you think it's strange? No one will approve of such a love that goes against the laws of nature..."

"So, do you want to follow the steps and live your own life according to what others approve? If you are really willing to do that, I don't think you will come here to consult me."

"I just don't know what to do, I just try to end this conflict... He is still 20 years old, I'm so much older than him, I shouldn't waste his time..."

The senior sister disagreed with Ji Nian's words, "How can this be a waste of time? It's not a waste of time to fall in love. If gender and age are factors, do you think you and him will still have feelings for each other?

Brother, think about it carefully, what do you want in the future, do you want to live for the approval of others, or live for yourself, there is only one time in a person's life, I hope you can make a choice that you will not regret...

Perhaps for the sake of immediate recognition, your relationship will be hit by everyone.However, God will not give people a difficult test, you should believe that you can overcome it. "

When I left the psychological clinic, it was raining and snowing outside.

Ji Nian's mind is still in a daze.

Unprecedented chaos, like it or not, is not something people can control casually.But, why can't a stable life coexist with liking?

He squatted on the side of the road blankly, like a person abandoned by the world.

His hair was frozen because of the rain and snow, but he didn't seem to feel cold at all, he just squatted there stupidly until the phone in his pocket rang.

He took out the phone with his numb hand, and looked at the phone number jumping on the phone screen, but his eyes were blurry.

He swiped the screen by accident. When he was in such a mess, he shouldn't have answered his call, but for some reason, he just wanted to hear his voice, even if it was childish sarcasm.

Perhaps, after tomorrow, when his mind returns to clarity, it will be time to make a clean break.

He is destined to be a person who pursues stability more than sacrifices everything for unstable love.

A person who knows it's a fool and still does it is hopeless, and he doesn't want to be that hopeless fool.

It's not that I lack courage, but that I don't want to make mistakes on an inherently wrong path.

"Boss? Where are you? Why haven't you come home after this time?"

On the phone, Yunye's concerned voice was very anxious, but it made him feel warm in his heart inexplicably.

Ji Nian didn't speak, just held the phone stupidly, he thought, if he didn't speak, maybe Yun Ye hung up the phone, so be it, just like this hung up phone, just stop here .

However, Yun Ye's voice sounded immediately: "Boss, I have made some new dishes for you, waiting for you to come back and try them. When are you going to come back? If you don't come back, the dishes will be cold..."

It happened that there was a couple passing by on the side of the road, and Ji Nian's eyes were attracted unconsciously. The boy peeled a candy for the girl, and said sincerely, "Are you tired from working overtime so late? I'll make some for you when I get home later." Delicious and good for you..."

Unconsciously, he associated the picture in front of him with himself and Yunye.

It just so happened that at this time, Yunye also cooked a table of meals for him to go back.

Yunye, Yunye...

Just thinking of this name seems to have warmed my heart.

"Yunye, if you can find me within half an hour, let's be together."

Ji Nian's voice was a bit hoarse when he spoke, and even after he finished speaking, his mind was still covered.

"boss??"

"Boss, don't hang up the phone. Is what you said true? You really didn't lie to me?"

"Boss, I'm so happy. So, do you like me too? Do you have feelings for me?"

Yun Ye on the other end of the phone was probably so happy that he forgot that there was a half-hour time limit.

But that's fine, I'll find him within half an hour...

This should have been impossible.

Letting this budding love, accompanied by the impossible half an hour, become impossible forever, seems to be a good ending.