Correct use of working cell No. U-4869

It’s really not a dream now (Natsume No.1 claims)

I have lived in Yokohama for about three months, and the things I encountered were not big, and they were basically trivial.

It takes time and energy to think about, do, and summarize a lot of minutiae things—for example, urging Edogawa to go to work, for example, when he was walking, his knee hit the railing on the side of the road, for example He finished his snacks, such as what new products will be released recently, and there are many, many things that seem insignificant compared to the past.

But how to put it, it is probably because I am also a person who can't take time off by nature, and I don't think there is anything to be irritated about, and when I can worry about these small things, I also feel quite peaceful.When I’m bored, I build Lego, put together puzzles, break them up when I’m done, and do it again next time.

What I enjoy is not the result, but the process. It seems to be like this for everything. I don't pursue a perfect result, but enjoy everything that can kill my spirit.

At 08:30 in the evening, I was keeping a diary in the house, and suddenly received a call from Osamu Dazai after a long absence.I thought the call would come sooner or later, maybe I saw Osamu Dazai himself before I received the call.

He will be taller than he used to be, and his hair will be longer than when he was younger.

He may be more lazy than in the past, or he may become cold and stern.

I have thought about meeting each other many times, and I have seen him many times in my dreams. Once he rolled up his trousers and sleeves, and threw his black coat on the edge of the beach, treading water back and forth over and over again, sometimes the waves He is relatively big, and he still has a bit of an awkward figure.However, he seemed to know that I was behind him.

Every time he turns his head, I can't see his face.Even if it feels like I'm looking at him, I can't see it.Then when I woke up, I would feel a little bit inexplicable.

However, this is a dream.

It's normal to be weird.

When I picked up the phone, I hadn't had time to speak.Dazai Osamu's voice rose.He drank, and his voice was a little vain.

"You haven't recorded me for a long time."

There was no emotion in the voice, it seemed to be looking for a topic, and it seemed to be complaining.But the answer to this question is straightforward, and you don't need to think too much about it.I said, "Because I have been in Yokohama and haven't gone anywhere."

Of course, I haven't finished talking yet, and said, "Where I go, I will definitely bring it to you."

I heard the sound of ocean waves coming from his voice on the phone, and the air was very quiet. I suddenly felt like I was dreaming, but I felt even more like he was dreaming.

"It turns out that there are gifts only when you are far away?"

I didn't know that Osamu Dazai still missed this little thing, and said, "If you want, I can give it to you every day."

"It's so disingenuous." Osamu Dazai said, "It's meaningless for me to say something unique."

I can't answer for a while, this is indeed the truth.Just when I was still thinking about how to reply, Osamu Dazai laughed and said, "Hahahaha, you idiot, I was joking." At this moment, I was suddenly stunned by Dazai's words.

This timing is really weird, so strange that I didn't dissect every thread and every thread clearly and clearly like analyzing a case.I thought about asking a question, but I also understood that this question left people without an answer.

My head seemed to be a little blank, and I said "I'm sorry" by accident.

Dazai said quietly, "What are you sorry for?"

I don't know either.Sometimes people speak without thinking, and I also feel that what I said just now was without thinking.But this kind of thing, I don't want to think about why.

I said, I don't know.

Dazai opened his mouth and asked, "Do you like..."

"Ok?"

Dazai was silent for a while, then his voice disappeared.I waited for a long time and didn't hear any sound. If it wasn't for the sound of the waves, I thought the silence would be over.I sat by the side and waited for a long time, thinking about when Dazai would speak. After waiting for about an hour, I was afraid that Dazai would faint from drunk, so I said, "I'll go find you."

As soon as I finished speaking, Osamu Dazai hung up the phone.

My first instinct was to go to him.

There are so many waterfronts in Yokohama, but I think I can find them.

When I found it, before I could speak, Osamu Dazai looked back at me as if he had eyes behind him, and said, "My phone fell into the sea." After he finished speaking, he laughed, as if we hadn't seen each other for several years. Change, nothing at all.

As I approached him, I took off my shoes and said, "I'll pick them up for you."

"What did you pick it up for?" Osamu Dazai asked with his waist in his hand, "It's not a big deal."

"..."

That was the mobile phone I gave him a few years ago, and there are seven or eight hundred recordings alone.

If you fall into the sea, you will never come back.

Inexplicably, I feel a little sad.

I have heard before that there will be a crack in the stone, and flowers will bloom in the crack. The flower is called Lithops, beautiful and tough.I don't know how beautiful it will be, but when the stone cracks, I must feel cold, I don't know if I have lost protection, or I feel that the outside world I saw is not as good as I imagined, but Disappointed, lost, frustrated.

I don't know if Osamu Dazai couldn't understand my silence, he asked again: "Why are you here?"

"I'm coming to see you."

"..."

"But I want to go."

I don't think it's interesting to stay, it's boring.

"…………"

Dazai didn't stop me either, and I wouldn't be surprised whether he stopped me or not.But after I walked four or five steps, he raised his voice and said, "I can't find my phone, can you help me find it?"

"help."

I just entered the sea and imitated him bending over to touch in the sea water. Osamu Dazai splashed a handful of sea water on my neck. Seeing me trembling, he couldn't stop laughing alone.

"..."

I suddenly realized that I saw what he looked like.

It's really not a dream now.