After the resurrection, I send warmth every day

Hoshimi Haruka knew that her feelings for Hibari Kyoya might not be defined by love, but she didn't care.

It's as if she doesn't care at all, what kind of feelings Hibari Kyouya has for her.

For her, as long as she is an important existence in that person's heart, it is enough, as long as the appointment will always be together, and it will be fine.

She just simply wants that person to be with her forever.

As for in what name and in what way, it doesn't matter.

Therefore, after the other party utters words like "marriage", she will feel very happy, because this is a proof of being together.

but……

She gradually discovered that the person's feelings for her may be more noteworthy than what she didn't care about at first. He liked her. After knowing this, the first thing that emerged in her heart was still, In his heart, she will be more important.

Since liking is already very important, then, if she loves, will she become that more important existence?

The answer is no.

She knows Hibari Kyouya too well.

In his heart filled with so many things, he has given her as much as possible, that important position.

It seemed that no matter how hard she tried, she would never become the most important person to him.

In this situation……

Is she in love with that person?

If yes, when did it start?At the beginning, it seemed that there was no such thing. At the beginning, she was just pure, wanting to be with him like before, waiting for his death.

It seemed that it was the night when he put on her favorite blue diamond ring with his own hands. She clutched her uncontrollably beating heart and was so dazed that she didn't know the reason for that feeling, and thought she was going to fall ill.

It also seemed to be that day, the night he carried her home, the moment she realized that she had been deliberately indulged, her heart was churning.

When she really gradually realized it, it should be when she gradually integrated into his world and learned about his past, the past that she had been participating in all the time, but she didn't know anything about it.

At that time, she suddenly discovered that she had been pampered by him since so long ago.

When he went to see her, he would take off the blood-stained clothes from the battle, and go to see her clean and tidy.

In order not to let her find out, he would cover his wound tightly, even if it was touched by her, he would not cry out the pain to make her worry.

His preference for her is reflected in every little thing, such as not avoiding her on the phone, talking about everything in front of her face, and not letting her feel that she is being guarded.

He never deliberately concealed anything.

It's just that at that time, she couldn't understand.

I can't understand what the words in their mouths, which are a bit like technical terms, mean.

So that day, when he saw her counting the money, he asked that sentence in a complicated tone, "Do you really not know?"

He always thought she knew, because he never concealed it.

The only thing to hide from her should be when she is hurt.

Because he doesn't want her treatment, even if her body is healthy, he doesn't want her to use that power so casually, although she didn't understand it for a while.

Then she understood.

He was just a little worried that she would disappear after her strength was exhausted.

Just as she was afraid that Hibari Kyouya would not be with her forever, that person was also afraid that she would die like ten years ago.

...realized.

But, don't want to realize it.

Because I don't want to love him.

If...he is also willing to love her, then she will tell him directly that she loves him.

If he also just likes her, then she will pretend that she didn't realize it, and just make up her mind!

After the weather got warmer, Xing Jianyao seldom shut herself in the room. She preferred to sit in the yard and enjoy the cool breeze on the lukewarm nights in April and May, looking up at the whole area. starry sky.

Like the sky that Hibari Kyoya sent her off that day, surrounded by the blue ocean current.

Xingjian Haruka ran back to the room and found the two small boxes that were placed deep in the drawer. One contained the dolphin, and the other contained the blue flame that could call out the dolphin.

When the person gave it to her, he said that the flames in the box were stored by people of the rain attribute, and it didn't matter for her to use them casually. When they were used up, new flames would be replenished for her.

This thing was done experimentally in his base.

At first, his purpose was just to give her a gift that she would like.

Of course, she knew that the dolphin was actually a weapon, but she hadn't considered it at all.

It's as if she never told Hibari Kyouya that she actually...has the ability to protect herself.

It's not that I deliberately concealed it, I just forgot.

Because that is not something that is particularly worth showing off, she is not strong at all, and she can't even learn the most basic physical skills, because her strength is too small and her body is too weak.

Compared with the chaotic and dangerous world he stepped into, the power she used to protect herself was really insignificant.

That's why she let him send someone to protect her every time.

Probably, there is one more important thing...

When she told him about current affairs and the past about her and the swords, she only briefly mentioned it, because deep down in her heart, she didn't want him to find out that in fact, Haruka Hoshimi was different from what he thought.

Xing Jianyao is not so good, nor so gentle, and will not bring him any warmth.

She also watched the death of others with cold eyes, and even took the life of others.

In fact, she is very selfish and indifferent, and doesn't care about irrelevant people at all.

She cared about Mori Ran because that was her friend, and she cared about Osamu Dazai at first because that was an important friend mentioned by Mr. Oda.

She cares about everyone who interacts with her and is willing to smile at her.

But in the same way, she can also look indifferently at everyone who has nothing to do with her, and die alone.

She likes this world only because she hasn't been in touch with it well in the past, she hasn't been able to feel it with her heart, and she hasn't been able to see every scenery she has never seen before. This is a very beautiful world, so she wants to see it. look.

That's it.

It's not because of how many people in this world are worthy of her attachment.

Everyone will die, just like her in the past, but because of her special nature, she has obtained some privileges.

Those who do not have privileges become lonely ghosts in hell, tortured by various punishments day after day, and can only stay in that abyss forever.

But... so what?

Because they have done excessive things to other people, they have to accept punishment, because they killed people, so they also have to experience the despair and pain of the killed.

This is the truth, and it is the price that should be paid.

Life cannot be measured by the word value, even if it can, then the only thing that can be exchanged for equivalent value is another life.

Therefore, she couldn't understand the cry and remorse of the murderer at the moment when the truth was revealed.

For taking another's life, one should pay one's own.

She has seen such scenes many times. When she was with Mao Lilan, there would always be cases where Kudo Shinichi appeared, and every murderer would kneel down and cry bitterly at the end. In her opinion, it was just like a farce.

but……

She never said these words once.

Because Mao Lilan's heart is gentle, because Suzuki Sonoko is kind, they are different from her.

They will sincerely feel sorry for the prisoner who regrets it and mourn for the dead.

At this time, if she uttered her true thoughts, the two of them would definitely be disappointed in her, right?

Therefore, she is always silent and always makes them think that she is the same as them, so that they can always be friends together.

Look, she's really so vile.

She didn't want Hibari Kyouya to know all of this.

Because she knew that Haruka Hoshimi in Hibari Kyoya's eyes was simple, innocent, ignorant of worldly affairs, stupid enough to smile at everyone, and seemed like a synonym for beauty.

But only she knows that she is not.

...don't want to spoil it.

Because the Hoshimi Haruka that Hibari Kyoya cares about is that kind of Hoshimi Haruka, not a mean, selfish and willful Hoshimi Haruka.

It's like now, she obviously can say anything, but chooses not to say anything, enjoys all the preferences he gives, and selfishly wants him to regard her as the most important person.

——It's really annoying.

She had already started to miss him even though he had only been away for such a short few days.

What I think now is not a kind of worry, worrying that my mask will be torn off, and worrying that the long-term separation will change their current relationship.

Xing Jianyao opened the two boxes in his hand, and released the dolphin wrapped in the blue current in the yard.

Watching it hover in the mid-air of the yard, flying around the wide grass in front of her eyes.

He would even lower his head obediently, as if he wanted her to touch his head.

She watched her white fingertips dip into the flames little by little, and finally landed lightly on the dolphin's head, and stroked it lightly a few times.

Then, it seemed happier.

She flew up into the sky suddenly, and the flames scattered under the starry sky were like a grand meteor shower, and the sporadic falling sparks landed at her feet.

Although it is also a kind of weapon... but this dolphin, as expected, wants her to be happier when she sees it.

because……

Such a beautiful scenery, every time I see it, I will feel the hard work of the people who made it.

When he comes back, together, let's choose a name for this child.

So decided.

During this long night, Xingjian Haruka seemed to be spending in the deep sea, but also in the galaxy. I only remember that when I finally opened my eyes, it seemed to be a new day.