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At noon on Monday, there was no rain in the sky, but it was still very gloomy. It was clearly noon, but there was not a trace of the sun.

The students walked towards the cafeteria in twos and threes, seeming to be excited about the upcoming winter vacation.

Tao Shuran didn't go to the cafeteria, she was so bored that she even forgot that she was hungry.

She went around to the small garden behind the laboratory building, and there was a small secluded gazebo inside. She never ran out of the teaching building to play during school before, but the surroundings were too noisy, and she needed a quiet place.

After approaching the gazebo, Tao Shuran raised his head and saw Jiang Hanqi who straightened his back and put his hands on his sides to look at the scenery.

Jiang Hanqi deserves to be the number one person in the whole district. She has a strong ability to draw key points. Although there are not many test points listed, they all cover the final test paper. Unfortunately, she herself didn't listen to it in her dream. I understand, plus the memory in the dream will be blurred, there are still many questions that have not been solved in the examination room.

The feeling of almost remembering it but not being able to remember it in the end made her very uncomfortable, and she rushed to one question after another until her mentality collapsed.

After finishing the comprehensive science exam on Thursday afternoon, she happened to dream that Ruirui was preparing for the final exam that night, so she hugged Jiang Hanqi and cried a lot.

I thought I was slowing down, but when I took the language test on Friday morning, I misremembered the familiar things, and forgot the things I had memorized several times. Answering the questions made my mentality burst, and I got into the horns. Too much time wasted and the final composition was not finished. She forcibly finished the ending 3 minutes before the teacher collected the paper, and then wrote the topic of the composition tremblingly one second before the paper was taken away.

After the exam, she knew that she was finished.

Although the ranking was announced today, she actually knew the final grades yesterday, and the homeroom teacher called her mother to report it in an urgent tone.

Four words, a mess.

At that time, Tao's mother was so angry that her face was livid, and she was coaxed by Tao's father, saying that it must be because this year's topic is difficult, and the score is not important, only the ranking is counted.

This is good, this ranking is much more exciting than the score.

Tao Shuran hesitated for a while whether to give Jiang Hanxi a quiet place, but after thinking about it carefully, she had no other place to go. A few days ago, she studied in the same classroom with the boss, and the boss gave her materials, so She just sat by and stared blankly for a while, she should be fine.

In fact, Jiang Hanqi had already discovered it when Tao Shuran walked around the laboratory building on the path. This is also thanks to the inheritance from the doctor's parents. Her eyesight and hearing are excellent.

She closed the German book in her hand, and her posture changed from reclining to sitting upright, like a well-behaved elementary school student listening to a class, waiting for Tao Shuran to approach, while thinking about what to say.

Today, when the school announced the results, Jiang Hanqi went to see it for the first time.

Jiang Hanxi was the only one downstairs in the first grade teaching building at [-]:[-] in the morning. Sure enough, she took the initiative to study on her own three days before the exam just to prepare for the exam.

92 people.

Almost fell out of the top [-] list.

Jiang Hanqi felt a little headache.

In the first semester of high school, she learned very little content, and she estimated that the topics in the papers were almost the same. Why is this so.

In the first class, the head teacher handed out the grade slip, and when he read Tao Shuran's name, he had a serious face and eyes full of reproaches.

The little girl lowered her head and received the grade slip in silence. When she turned around and returned to her seat, she still noticed the pair of red eye sockets.

When Jiang Han lingered, Tao Shuran had already noticed it.

Jiang Hanqi had already glanced towards her twice. She picked up and put down the book at her side, as if she wanted to say something.

Tao Shuran raised her eyelids, and said hello slowly: "Congratulations, it's the first place again."

"..." Jiang Hanqi was silent for a while, "It's not important."

She didn't know how to comfort others, and she never cared about rankings, she just really felt that nothing else was important compared to Tao Shuran's happiness.

"Yes, of course you don't think it's important." Tao Shuran felt a thorn in her heart pierce her heart, and she grabbed the railing of the gazebo with her right hand, trying to keep her voice as steady as possible.

"?" Jiang Hanxi froze for a moment, she sensed the oppression in Tao Shuran's words, and tried to explain, "I mean..."

Tao Shuran interrupted her with a calm tone and a very slow speaking speed, but her slightly trembling voice revealed the sourness in the speaker's heart: "Jiang Hanqi, you are a genius, and you don't need to think about the problems of ordinary people. Others You can understand a topic that you can’t understand after doing it repeatedly, do you know how many people can’t reach this talent?”

"Is it because the topic I chose was too difficult? I'm sorry, I meant..." Jiang Hanxi frowned slightly. She actually wanted to take the opportunity to tell Tao Shuran from the beginning, but due to various reasons, after being rejected He didn't say anything.

"Isn't it funny?" Tao Shuran smiled wryly, raised her head, and felt her eyes moistened, "You scored so accurately on the exam, and I failed it? Even though you explained it to me in such detail, I still didn't do it." Come out, what am I doing, how can I be so bad."

"No, don't pay too much attention to things like grades..." Jiang Hanqi suddenly became flustered when she heard her choking sobs, she sat closer to Tao Shuran, and her powerless words were interrupted again.

"It's not important, is it? Since the grades are not important, why does there still exist such a thing as ranking?" Tao Shuran couldn't hold back after all, her voice turned into tears, "Do you know how much effort I put in when I took the fifth middle school exam last year?" [-] days of the high school entrance examination, I get up at six o'clock every day to read in the morning, go to bed on time at eleven o'clock in the evening, and dare not relax a bit during holidays. I am tense for a whole hundred days and dare not take a breath. Are you saying that ranking is not important? If I hadn’t been in the same class as you because I got into the top [-] in the senior high school entrance examination, you wouldn’t even know who I am, Tao Shuran!”

"What about you, you are the same. You said that being number one is not important, but if you don't have this No.1, do you think you can still be as free as you are in school?"

The scenes in front of her eyes flashed one after another, the oppressive, painful, exhausting, difficult, overwhelming sea of ​​questions, the expectations of her elders, and the comparisons of her classmates made her almost out of breath.

Tao Shuran's tears began to flow out uncontrollably, she turned her back to Jiang Hanqi, covered her face tightly, her voice was shaking so badly, she didn't want to say another word.

After communicating with the head teacher yesterday, my mother asked her why she had to go to school early in the morning when there was no class.

"Are you thinking about studying?"

"Do you think you can get good grades by pretending to work hard?"

"Why do you never listen to your parents, will your parents still harm you?"

"If you go on like this, you won't even be able to enter the experimental class. The teachers are not as good as others. What else do you want to compare with others?"

"You think the name of the related household is very nice, so you have to make it a joke for others, don't you?"

For the sake of ranking, the parents who say they love her can hurt her with ugly words, isn't the ranking important?

Why did they take the first place with an understatement and a look of indifference? It was so easy, making them look like a joke when they were left far behind.

Why do you want to come to her dream inexplicably, she is such a distant person, but I just admire her a little, and never thought of getting close to her.

There is so much sweetness in the dream, so much happiness, peace and tenderness, but after waking up from the dream and slapping the mother in the face, it will only appear to be more painful and bitter.

She has never been someone who relies on fantasies, why make her dream about those again and again?

"...I'm sorry." Jiang Hanqi frowned, staring at the girl who was curled up in front of him, he felt a sour feeling in his heart.

Tao Shuran's hands were wet, and she wiped away her tears indiscriminately, but she couldn't wipe them clean. She shook her head vigorously, and said, "No, it's not your responsibility." After all, dreaming about her was always just her wishful thinking. .

"No, it's my responsibility." While speaking, Jiang Hanqi had already made a decision. She stepped forward and sat beside Tao Shuran, her voice softened and said, "Ranran, look at me."

Jiang Hanqi's voice was already clear, and she usually spoke fast and forcefully, making her even more alienated; but now, she sat very close to Tao Shuran, her voice was sincere and soft, overlapping in trance and dream, Tao Shuran seemed to be Bewitched, he turned around in a daze, raised a pair of red peach eyes, and looked at Jiang Hanqi.

"Ranran, listen to me," Jiang Hanqi raised his hands to hold Tao Shuran's face, and wiped away her tears with his thumbs little by little. Sweeping, exerting a little force with four fingers, let Tao Shuran's eyes look at hers, and her eyes were full of waves, and there was firm affection in her dark eyes, "It is the problem with the question I gave you that caused you to fail to take the exam." Well, then, now is the time for me to take responsibility, will you give me a chance to actively remedy it?"

Tao Shuran listened to Jiang Hanqi's words in a daze, and subconsciously nodded.

She actually didn't quite understand what Jiang Hanqi meant, but other people's comfort was always good intentions, and as for herself, she would be fine after crying and venting, and she had to live her life as she wanted.

This winter vacation, she must make up for the missed homework. She, Tao Shuran, will never be knocked down.

In the afternoon class, only the teachers of other subjects came to hand out the answer sheets and left. The correct answers will be posted in the class group later, and the students can correct them by themselves. up.

Therefore, when Tao Shuran came home from school in the afternoon, her parents were not off work.

She put down her schoolbag, sneaked to the study, and turned on the desktop computer at home.

What she said to Jiang Hanqi at noon, she actually regretted it as soon as she said it.

In the end, Jiang Hanqi was just a classmate she didn't know well, but because she occupied the gazebo she had chosen in advance, she was disturbed at noon, not to mention that she intended to comfort others, but in the end she was scolded.

There was nothing wrong with Jiang Hanqi, the one with the problem was himself.

Probably because, in the dream, the relationship between the two I imagined was too close, and I even let her into reality from time to time, thinking that Jiang Hanqi was the person in the dream who would hug her and pamper her, so I just Will be extraordinarily willful.

This is so disturbing.

Tao Shuran bit her lip, opened the browser and started searching.

It is said that dreams are the product of people's subconscious mind. To put it bluntly, what is dreamed is what people are thinking about.

But most of the dreams are very easy to be forgotten. Tao Shuran didn't often dream in the past. Even if she dreamed of something, she couldn't remember it shortly after waking up. It wouldn't be as real as it is now.

She remembered it so clearly, those emotions and touches were like experiencing it personally.

What's even more frightening is that when she cried bitterly in front of Jiang Hanqi today, she held her face and gently wiped her tears. Shuttle between.

However, after searching for more than an hour of dream-related information to no avail, she felt that she still needed to seek professional help.

She wanted to find a psychiatrist who was reliable and confidential, otherwise it would be a disaster if her parents found out.

While picking on the webpage, the door of the study was suddenly opened, Mother Tao was wearing formal clothes, Father Tao was carrying Mother Tao's bag, and the two walked in one after the other, apparently just got home from get off work.

Tao Shuran could tell from her mother's expression that the other party already knew her ranking.

She frantically closed the webpage, stood up timidly, and was interrupted just as she was about to admit her mistake.

"..." The anger on Tao's mother's face when she first entered the door disappeared for some reason, and her tone was a little tired, "Xiao Ran, mom bought you some fruit, go to the living room and pick something you like to eat Bar."

Tao Shuran nodded obediently, and then trotted all the way to the living room.

In the study room, the case was still heating up, Mother Tao gave Father Tao a wink, and the two of them moved closer to the computer together.

Open the browser and check the historical records. There is a row of "how to see a psychiatrist" and "reliable psychiatrist contact information in Shanghai". Mother Tao's face is a little stiff, and she did not read it wrong when she just came in.

Father Tao made the dinner that day, and Mother Tao locked herself on the balcony, separated by a double glass door, and made a phone call for over an hour.

He was probably asking the head teacher about the situation, but Tao Shuran didn't care.

Mom has always cared about her studies, and this time she did so poorly in the exam, it's already very good that she didn't continue to scold her.

So, after eating, Tao Shuran planned to go back to the room to read two papers, but was stopped by Tao's father. He didn't wash the dishes, and he just sat down after eating. When he saw Tao Shuran get up, he immediately stood up: "Daughter , Er, do you want to watch TV together?"

"I don't have anything I like to watch." Tao Shuran shook her head and entered the room. Dad either watched spy movies, science and education movies or football games, not to mention, she hadn't watched TV for two years.

That night, there was no dream.