Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

Xue Dingbang thought for a long time before he figured out how to answer this question.

Maeda Chris stared straight at him, staring at him with nowhere to hide, as if he had been stripped naked and inspected from head to toe.

"Indeed...you sometimes look very pitiful, like an abandoned kitten." Xue Dingbang stroked his soft hair, and replied very sincerely, "But I will not love you out of sympathy."

"Dingbang..." Maeda Chris called out tremblingly, and held Xue Dingbang in his arms with open arms, "Even if I am a bad boy who is not worthy of love, will you still love me? You are all the same gentle, so you can say such things to me?"

"Chris, listen, I didn't say I like you to be with you in a deceitful way." Xue Dingbang patted him on the back comfortingly, and said every word very forcefully, "I I hope you will have confidence in yourself in the future. You are lovely and worthy of being loved. Whether you are with me or without me, you are lovely."

"You are totally worthy of being loved by this world and being treated tenderly by the whole world." Xue Dingbang kissed the tip of Chris Maeda's ear and whispered softly in his ear, "You have to believe in yourself, not only I can be charmed by you , I am overwhelmed by your cuteness. There are more people who like you and love you... It used to be, it is now, and it will be in the future."

Maeda Chris lowered his head sobbing, and put his head on Xue Dingbang's shoulder.He still held Xue Dingbang tightly with his hands, for fear that he would run away in fright because of what he said next: "Dingbangsang, these days, I wake up in the middle of the night every day. You are no longer by my side, I am so cold! I will I sneaked out of your house and looked at you sleeping there. I was going crazy, so crazy that I wanted to strangle you to death. In this way, you can stay by my side forever."

Chris Maeda was panting dangerously, his bright eyes were like a beast hunting in the forest, making people shudder.

"There will be no more Lawyer Yin! There will be no more Chamberlain! No one will bother us!" Chris Maeda cried, and the force that strangled Xue Dingbang's body became very strong, "My thoughts are ugly, right? ? Such an ugly me, will you still love me?"

Xue Dingbang let him hold him, and after a long time, he opened his mouth and said: "The beginning of life comes from numbers. How many weeks are mothers pregnant, how many days, months, and ages are born. Everyone's life is It's measured in numbers, and so is love."

"If a person lives to be 70 years old, at most it will be 560 eight days, 61 two hours, 630, 680 minutes, and 920 two hundred seconds." Xue Dingbang bowed his head and kissed the top of his hair, and continued, "We have known each other for more than half a year, about 22 million seconds. During these 5000 million seconds, I have been captured by you. In the present Every second, I belong to you."

Maeda Chris raised his head after hearing this, and gently pecked Xue Dingbang's chin: "More than 600 million, it sounds really much! I am also a rich man! Dingbangsang, hug me."

"Here?" Xue Dingbang hesitated, "This is in the cemetery. Let's pour the tombstone and leave!"

"Hold me! If you really love me!" Maeda Chris roared hoarsely, "Leave this dead old woman alone! If you didn't lie to me! Just hug me! Let her see - I am loved too! I'm not some bad kid nobody likes!"

"Chris?" Ever since getting off the car, Maeda Chris has been in trouble, Xue Dingbang looked at him worriedly, and comforted him, "Are you too tired today? Let's go back first!"

"No, that's not it!" Chris Maeda grabbed the tombstone and shouted at Xue Dingbang, "Don't you want to know what happened in my past? Well, I'll tell you——my mother is a bartender in Kabukicho Girl! Bitch!!! I'm the same as I, a bastard!!! I was born after she got together with a wild man who didn't know where it came from, so I don't even know who my father is! Even so, Dingbang, do you still want to help me find that client? Are you going?!"

Xue Dingbang was speechless, the discovery of Yusuke's death today was a great blow to Chris Maeda.Xue Dingbang thought he was finally willing to accept the fact, and came to Maeda Kiyoko's grave to accept his lost mother forever.

Xue Dingbang did not expect that Chris Maeda would become like this.

"This hateful stinky woman has always hated me! She hates me! Why did she give birth to me!" The tears that had just stopped began to flow down her face again.Chris Maeda wailed regardless of his image, scratching his chest in pain, "She always beat and scolded me, blaming me for holding her back and preventing her from finding a good man!"

"Her boyfriends look at me like poisonous snakes are crawling on my skin!" Chris Maeda was shaking with excitement, his eyes were red, "She always suspects that I have seduced her man! She always makes excuses Hit me! I was dumped by a man and beat me, cheated out of money, and beat me like crazy every time I got drunk!"

Xue Dingbang looked at Chris Maeda with a sad face, knelt down and hugged his trembling body.

"Since she said that and doubted that, but I didn't do anything, isn't it too uneconomical? She found out and said that my heart was dirty and my thoughts were vicious, but she never cared about the fact that I was bullied and discriminated against." Reason!" Chris Maeda cried hoarsely, "I once swore to leave that purgatory. When I was 12 years old, I packed my luggage and wanted to escape. But she caught me back and threw me into the washing machine. Wash the dirty clothes together! Yell at me—to wash the dirt out of my bones!"

"But, those dirty things are all given to me by her!" Maeda Chris cried and grabbed Xue Dingbang's wrist, as if he was trying to grasp the last straw, "Living in such an environment, I It's her dirty blood!" He lifted up his cuffs and showed the shocking scar on his wrist, "Do you know how this scar came about?"

He looked up to the sky and laughed loudly: "This scar is ugly! Just like me! I hate her blood, this is the price I paid for resisting!"

Xue Dingbang grabbed his wrist and pressed a kiss lightly on it: "It's not ugly, this is your medal against fate."

"Dingbang, hurry up and hug me!" A simple compliment made Chris Maeda's heart tremble. His originally confused and empty eyes suddenly burned, "Hold me hard! Dingbang! Let this dead old woman Look! Prove her wrong!"

"Chris..." Xue Dingbang frowned in embarrassment, "Don't do this."

Chris Maeda tore off his coat, pulled down his trousers quickly, and shouted to Xue Dingbang: "Before I left home, she cursed me, saying that I was a vicious child, and I would never be happy in my life! She said that I would not be cherished by others." And love, because I am not worthy! You come to prove her wrong! Dingbang! You love me, love me more! Let her see that I am also a child worthy of being loved, and I can also be happy, even if Only these few minutes! Even just this second! Hug me! Dingbang!"

"Is it okay to go back?" Xue Dingbang was so distressed that his heart was trembling, he gently hugged Chris Maeda's thin body, and comforted him softly, "It's very cold here, and there is no lubricant."

"Never mind the fucking lube! Come in like this!" Maeda Chris yelled, "I like rough and I like pain! I'm a bitch! You hurt me! Dingbang! Come love me!"

Xue Dingbang hugged Chris Maeda, pressed him on the tombstone, and gagged his mouth.Xue Dingbang felt unbearable for every syllable that came out of his mouth.

It is difficult for those who have not experienced it to imagine what the parties have experienced.

However, just hearing those words from his mouth was sad enough.

Xue Dingbang couldn't empathize with him. He had never encountered the real malice and injustice that Chris Maeda had suffered.But seeing such a sad Maeda Chris, he couldn't help feeling sorry and sad for the other party's past.

The sufferings of childhood will take a lifetime to make up for, and the scars of childhood will take a lifetime to heal.

"Don't cry, I will love you very much." Xue Dingbang put his fingers into Chris Maeda's mouth and pressed his tongue, "Chris, you deserve to be cherished, loved, and popular. You are great , very well behaved, you are a good boy."

Chris Maeda's sobs turned into soft sobs.

【Holy Light Technique】

He said sweetly, "Dingbangsang, please love me more."

At that moment, Xue Dingbang felt his scalp tighten.He couldn't help but grabbed Chris Maeda's ear, bit it lightly, and warned softly, "Siren Siren, you tempted me."

Xue Dingbang's hoarse and sexy panting sound reached Chris Maeda's ears, making his legs go limp for a moment.

【Holy Light Technique】

Maeda Chris raised his neck, turned his head to the side, and his little face was full of obsession with crying: "I am so happy... Mom... I am... very happy..."

【Holy Light Technique】

"You are so cute." Xue Dingbang kissed Chris Maeda's bright red lips, "Ah Fu..."

Maeda Chris, who was suddenly called by his real name, trembled. He lowered his head and buried his face in the shadows.

"Do you like that name more?" Chris Maeda said, "Dingbangsang, do you prefer my name is Ah Fu?"

"It's good enough for you to be what you are." Xue Dingbang took out the handkerchief in his vest pocket and wiped it carefully for Maeda Chris, "You don't need to be that Maeda Chris who is always pleasing, you can be willful and act like a baby Maeda Fuku is cute enough."

Chris Maeda turned around, regardless of his messy appearance, hugged Xue Dingbang vigorously, and buried his head deeply in his solid and reliable chest.

Xue Dingbang's intense heartbeat that had not yet calmed down made him feel at ease.

"Let's also visit the grave in the future." Chris Maeda said.

His restrained voice, slightly shaking shoulders, and suppressed emotions made Xue Dingbang kiss his red eyes from crying, and said softly: "Okay."