Dazai's girlfriend Natsume

"..."

The surrounding sounds seemed to disappear for an instant.Only the girl's gentle and gentle "curse", every word and every word is serious.

Osamu Dazai was silent for a long time before he took a deep breath: "It really is a terrible curse, Chiya-chan!"

"Does Mr. Dazai still think about committing suicide?" Natsume Chiaya asked.

"Hmm..." Osamu Dazai was slightly dazed.Probably because my mind is full of thinking about how to hold on to the people around me tightly, and I have much less time for those messy thoughts.

But he didn't say that, he just said in dissatisfaction: "Have been to Huangquan Biliangban,? Why does this make me think about suicide?"

"And,?" Dazai Osamu's tone was sour, with grievances in it: "If I die, Izanami will be very happy. She covets Chiya-chan, so I don't want to give her a chance!"

Natsume Chiaya couldn't help laughing: "Mr. Dazai, what are you thinking? Izanami and I are friends, but you are my boyfriend. What is the comparison between the two?"

"Then will Qianya-chan be willing to die in love with me now?" Osamu Dazai asked without answering.

"Well," Natsume Chiya pondered for a moment, then shook her head honestly: "I think, I still won't. Not because I don't like Mr. Dazai,? But because I also like life."

"Qianya-chan likes life? What is there to like about this illusory existence?" Dazai Osamu's face was pure doubt.

Natsume Chiya was silent for a moment, raised her eyes and looked into the distance, the crowd was crowded.The flow of people coming and going is like a long river.And she and Osamu Dazai are also in it, walking in such a transitional time between the old and the new.

She thought of the summer when she was 15 years old.

She thought she would never see rainbows again,? couldn't see the sea,? couldn't see flowers, couldn't see all the beautiful things.

"Because there are many things worth liking in life." Natsume Chiaya smiled slightly, and said, "The gorgeous mountains,? The beautiful valleys,? I want to see them all. To be honest,? ,? I might be on a graduation trip with my brother."

"Of course, there are everyone around me. Whether it's for myself, or for my brother, Aunt Tazi, and Uncle Zi, I have to live a good life."

"That's great." Natsume Chiya heard Osamu Dazai sigh: "Because of the bondage, I don't want to leave this world. In this way, even if I encounter painful things, as long as I think about them, I can continue walking. Chiya-chan has her own The meaning of life is really good."

"Mr. Dazai..." Natsume Chiya couldn't help but tilt her head, and saw that under the bright lights, his side face was immersed in the hazy night, and the curled eyelashes cast a faint shadow.

She asked gently: "Mr. Dazai has not found the meaning of his existence?"

"I don't know." Osamu Dazai also replied softly, "Probably still looking for it."

"Then you have to search hard. If you die, won't you have no way to continue searching?"

"But, Qian Ling-chan, it's so hard to find." I don't know if it's an illusion, Natsume Chi Ling heard a bit of childlike grievance and confusion: "Sometimes, it will be very painful, it's better to die refreshingly. "

"Then, Mr. Dazai, can you let me accompany you to look for it?" Natsume Chiaya sped up her speech a little, and explained: "I know this request is a bit out of bounds, but it might be better if someone accompanied me?"

Osamu Dazai was quiet for a while, then suddenly asked: "If I regard Qianya-chan as the meaning of life, will Qianya-chan be by my side forever?"

"No one lives for others, Mr. Dazai." Natsume Chiaya said: "Mr. Dazai's meaning of life should be for yourself. If you regard me as the meaning of life, it is very lazy."

Osamu Dazai avoided talking about it, and said coquettishly: "Qian Ling-chan, don't change the subject, answer me quickly~ You will always be with me, right?"

"Actually, even if it wasn't like this, I would be with Dazai-san."

"I'm sorry, Dazai-san, but that sounds a little out of hand. I once said to Dazai-san, 'I shouldn't interfere,' but I changed my mind."

Natsume Chiaya stopped, looked straight into Dazai Osamu's eyes, and asked earnestly——

"I want to see those beautiful scenery with Mr. Dazai. There are so many scenery, it takes a lifetime to set foot. Are you ready?"

Such straightforward words made Osamu Dazai's fingers curled up unconsciously.

He murmured: "But there are so many people around Qian Lingchan, it's very unfair, Qian Lingchan."

"There are also many people around Mr. Dazai." Natsume Chiaya's amber eyes were clear but penetrating: "Actually, Mr. Dazai knows it too, right?"

"Mr. Kunikida trusts Mr. Dazai, Mr. Ranpo recognizes Mr. Dazai, and Dr. Yosano will think about how to use her superpowers to deal with Mr. Dazai's unexpected situation. Atsushi-kun and Mr. Akutagawa who met that day respect Mr. Dazai... These, It is the bond Dazai-san has."

"Mr. Dazai is not alone. Everyone cares about Mr. Dazai."

It's just that, regarding Dazai Osamu's choice, everyone is the same and respects his decision.

Natsume Chiya didn't know if her change of mind was correct, but she... wanted to try.

Osamu Dazai blinked, and deliberately misinterpreted: "Is Chiya-chan trying to push me to other people?"

"Mr. Dazai knows that I don't mean it." Chiya Natsume sighed softly, reciting in a low voice: "'I know someone loves me, but I seem to lack the ability to love.'[Note 1]"

She thought of those dangerous thoughts that Osamu Dazai confided when she discovered the invasion of privacy earlier.Although there are more that are just brewing in his mind and have not really taken action, is it not the evidence of this sentence?

Because of his anxiety, the way he expresses his love is extreme and fiery.

Osamu Dazai remembered that he had read this sentence when he read "No Place in the World" to Chiaya Natsume.

However, when it was said from Natsume Chiaya's mouth at this time, it was more like she was slowly opening something hidden, making it impossible to hide.

Natsume Chiya raised her eyes again, stretched out a hand, and wrapped his cold fingertips: "Mr. Dazai, if I like someone, I hope that the people around me will like him too—because he deserves to be loved by so many people." .”

"If Mr. Dazai is afraid, I will accompany you. It doesn't matter if you lack the ability to love, or you don't know how to express love."

"Monsters, gods and ghosts, humans, whatever Mr. Dazai is afraid of, I will accompany you."

"..."

Osamu Dazai was silent for a long time, and then he said as if complaining: "Speaking of Chiya-chan, why do you always make fouls like this?"

Natsume Chiya bent the corners of her lips: "It's not my foul, it's Mr. Dazai himself who is too timid."

"Aren't you worried that you won't be able to realize what Chiya-chan said? What if one day you find out that I'm not what you imagined?" Osamu Dazai's words seemed to have a deep meaning.

"That's the direction I will work towards and fulfill my promise. Besides," Natsume Chiya nodded her heart: "I believe this place will not deceive people."

"So, Mr. Dazai still didn't answer me, are you ready to spend your whole life with me to see the beautiful scenery in the world?"

"Before then," Osamu Dazai asked, "Shouldn't Chiya-chan take me home first?"

"Huh?" Natsume Chiya was slightly stunned, and nodded with a smile: "Indeed. So, when the world fusion is completed, will Mr. Dazai be willing to accompany me back to Yahara?"

Osamu Dazai responded briskly, "Of course."

"Okay, it's getting late." Chiya Natsume glanced at the phone, and pulled Osamu Dazai to speed up her pace: "Dr. Yosano is urging you, if you go later, the best viewing spot will be taken away by others. Let's hurry."

"..."

When they arrived at the watching position, other members of the Armed Detective Agency were already waiting.There are quite a few people here, and Yosano Akiko is waving at Natsume Chiaya from afar.

"It's so slow, Dazai, Chiya." Edogawa Ranpo's mouth was bulging, and he said vaguely: "Everyone is waiting for you."

"Sorry, Mr. Ranpo." Natsume Chiaya looked at the time: "There is one minute left, and it will be midnight."

"Actually, the most beautiful fireworks every year are released by Mafia at the port." Ranpo Edogawa said, "I almost won't see them this year."

Atsushi Nakajima asked suspiciously: "Why can't I almost see it?"

"Because it was almost requisitioned by someone." Edogawa Ranpo replied.

Natsume Chiaya: "..."

For some reason, when she heard Edogawa Ranpo's words, she suddenly remembered that Osamu Dazai had told her before that he asked Koyo Ozaki to ask for fireworks from Mafia at the port...

"boom!"

At midnight, along with the one hundred and eighth ringing of the new year's bell, fireworks rose into the sky, interrupting Natsume Chiaya's thoughts.

She looked up and saw that the vast night was illuminated by fireworks of various colors, and the lights of the whole city were shrouded in such brilliance.The lively celebration sounded from far to near, making people unable to think of anything other than admiration.

Suddenly her shoulders sank, Natsume Chiya turned her head, and saw Osamu Dazai resting his head on her shoulder, leaning close to her ear.The warm breath scratched the sensitive earlobe, along with his words.

"Qianya-chan, do you remember the song you sang to me before?"

"As the fusion progress increased, I found it."

"There is still a paragraph behind, right?"

He didn't wait for Natsume Chiaya to answer, and he opened his mouth, his voice was as clear as the beating notes between the black and white keys of a piano, occupying her hearing bit by bit, even covering the huge roar of fireworks——

"I once thought about it too, because I haven't met you yet."

"Because there are people like you, I feel a little better about the world."

"Because there are people like you living in this world, I have a little hope for the world. [Note 2]"

Natsume Chiya stared at him blankly.His iris eyes were reflected brilliantly.And the tune he sang was more accurate than her original one, like a well-thought-out promise.

"Then make an agreement, Mr. Dazai." Natsume Chiaya couldn't help laughing, her little finger hooked Dazai Osamu's little finger: "Shall we pull the hook?"

Osamu Dazai clumsily and awkwardly bent his thumb: "What is the agreement?"

"I will take Dazai-san home when the world is merged. After that, I will invite Dazai-san to go with me to see the gorgeous mountains and beautiful valleys."

Hook the little fingers together and seal the thumbs together.

Above the gorgeous fireworks in the sky, two love horses are drawn to the red line.