season sakura story

The matter of Oda Kogen was quickly resolved - he surrendered himself.The result can be guessed, but it is always a bit unreal, and feels lost.He disappeared suddenly while I was in school.When I came home from the weekend vacation, I found the letter he had left for me.The content of the letter is as follows:

Dear daughter:

I have already surrendered, and I believe you already know the reason why I surrendered.

You must be ashamed of such a father.In fact, a long time ago, I was ashamed of myself, ashamed of my cowardice, not being strong, my shoulders could not bear such a heavy burden, but I still gritted my teeth and persisted numbly.You and Hoshino are my strength and all my warmth. In you, I see my own value.No matter what, I am still a father, and this belief kept me from having a premature psychological breakdown.I dare not think at night, nor dare to sleep deeply.I am not heinous, I will feel guilty and loathe myself.Please look at me like this, let me... save a little bit of decency and thought.

Ji Ying, you must hate me very much. For a long time in the past, I have not treated you with warmth.A long time ago, I saw my own shadow in you. I knew how failed I was, and I was terrified. I didn’t want my daughter to be like me, powerless to reality, but unable to produce strong power to change and resist.I treat you very complicated, I think, I impose my own ideals on you, trying to elevate you to a high place, but drag you into hell.Sorry for exposing my dear daughter to the darkness and psychological trauma caused by your closest loved ones at such an early age.Glad you made it through that dark time, glad you're as strong as you are now.

I am also very fortunate.

Go your own way in the future, and my dark cloud that brought you the haze will dissipate.Please stay as tough and kind as you are now.I think, needless to say, you will take care of Hoshino, so I won't repeat myself.

May my dear daughter be well.

After I finished reading, my hands were shaking involuntarily.I pressed my right hand with my left hand, "What's the big deal, he's not worth it, he's not worth it..." I raised my head and covered the corners of my eyes with my arms.

After a while, I took out my mobile phone from my schoolbag, dialed the number, and a lazy voice came from the mobile phone, "Ji Ying."

"Well, it's me." My voice was a little shaky.

The opposite party paused for a while before asking normally, "Why did you call me?"

"It's nothing." I suppressed the words that I almost blurted out, "It's just...just..."

"Miss me?" The voice from the phone was a little teasing. .

The words lingered on the tip of the tongue a few times, and finally said resignedly: "Yes."

A cheerful laugh came from the opposite side, "Next time, I will do the same, and call your fiancé often."

I sat down cross-legged on the ground with my back leaning against the table, "Atobe, can you tell me about your family?"

"Huh?" The voice from the opposite side was a little confused at first, and then replied clearly, "Okay."

The voice of Atobe gives people a sense of stability, "My family, in fact, there is nothing to say. What I remember the most is the schedule and the completion rate. When I was very young, I longed for my parents to accompany me all the time, and hoped that they would face me. When I was born, I didn’t have a serious face, and I hope they can hug me often, just like other children have.” Atobe paused before continuing, “For a while, I was very resentful to them, why did you give birth to me, but Not warm at all? I have vowed to myself many times not to care about them, not to be confused by their occasional care. At the most negative time, I even feel that they just want to have a child who is perfect and excellent in everything, anyone can do it Kind of."

"Hmm." I listened quietly.

"Later, I gradually discovered that their concern was in a place I couldn't see. They were afraid that they would spoil their children too much and raise me to be indecisive and careless. I couldn't bear the burden of the family. You know, the best in the world There are tens of thousands of people. When someone goes down, there are thousands of people scrambling to come up behind them. The same is true in the family. When I was very young, there was a rebellion. The answer to me was not the colder faces of my parents. , but their original mountain-like stalwarts suddenly squatted down and shortened their bodies, and said earnestly, "Do you know something?"

Atobe paused for a while, as if he was sorting out his emotions, "Look, the occasional softness exposed under the toughness makes people so defeated. Since then, I have said to myself, if you surrender, you should surrender. There is no shame in being a prisoner of family affection. of."

I repeated the following sentence, "A prisoner of family affection, there is nothing to be ashamed of." It seems that all emotions have an outlet.

"Besides, I am really grateful to myself who worked hard and refused to admit defeat at that time, and also thanked myself for having such parents, who have made me what I am now." Atobe seems to be brewing some words, "I am now able to have the greatest autonomy. Quan, you can choose the person you like, you should be passionate about the age, and you have time to pursue the sports you love." Finally, Atobe added, "So, you should be the same, you have become the current Ji Ying."

I began to feel relieved, "Atobe, this is probably the most provocative thing you said, and it doesn't fit your personality at all."

Atobe smiled softly, "Well, it's good that the goal has been achieved."

"Thank you, Atobe." I said sincerely.

"Then open the door for me?" Atobe said.

As soon as he heard these words, the doorbell rang outside the door.I walked towards the door suspiciously, opened the door and saw Atobe standing outside the door, he hung up the phone, "I'll take you to a place."

I put away my surprise, "I'll go clean up first, you can wait for me in the car."

"Would you like me to come in and sit for a while?" Atobe took a step forward.I glanced at the living room behind me, and opened the door after a moment of hesitation, "Then come in and sit down."

Atobe followed me, and he closed the door behind him. "I'll get you a glass of water." I went to the kitchen.

"Yeah." Atobe sat down on the sofa.

When I came out with the cup, Atobe pushed me a box, "Did you see this?"

I put the cup on the tea table in front of Atobe, and sat down beside him, "I haven't had time to look at it yet."

"Would you like to take a look now?" Atobe pushed the box towards me again.I stared at the box in a daze for a while, then shook my head, "No, I'll look at it when I come back."

Atobe suddenly sat closer to me, and stroked the corners of my eyes, "When will you be able to laugh and cry in front of me? Don't hide yourself."

I was stunned for a moment, "Hmm." Feelings welled up in my heart, and I replied affirmatively, "Hmm."