Let me have a drunken dream

Winter is dry and cold, but the occasional rain can always relieve the chill.Although it is not cold, the air pressure on the streets of Seoul is much lower than usual.Maybe it's because of the rainy weather, it's hard to relax.

Li Shengli and Han Xizhen sat drinking coffee in an unknown cafe on the side of the road in Seoul.Li Shengli stirred the coffee in front of him, and the hot air gradually rose along the silver coffee spoon, and gradually disappeared into the air.Seeing Li Shengli making this movement non-stop, Han Xi really couldn't bear it, so he opened his mouth first.

"Brother Shengli, have something to say. The coffee is getting cold."

Li Shengli, who kept his head down, took the coffee spoon out of the coffee cup, "Xizhen, you are 19 this year, right?"

"I'm 20, my birthday just passed last month. On that day, brother, you came." Han Xizhen immediately interrupted Li Shengli and corrected his mistake.

Li Shengli felt a little embarrassed. He touched his nose and smiled awkwardly, "I'm really sorry, brother was too busy a while ago, so I was confused."

He's not busy, he's not confused, he just doesn't care.Han Xi really knew that Li Shengli never cared about her, not even one-tenth of Chen Nianbei's.She was jealous of Chen Nianbei, and also blamed herself for not living up to expectations.She didn't know how she couldn't compare to Chen Nianbei, her family background, education background, and appearance were all good, but she didn't like Li Shengli. "I know, brother is busy with work, and it's only human to remember wrongly."

Li Shengli took a sip of coffee and got to the point. "Xizhen, you are 20 years old. You are still very young, and it is the flowering season. I think you should look outside more and expand your horizons. Is it too early to get married now?"

Last week, Han Xizhen's parents invited Li Shengli to their home for dinner.Father Han said that they have been engaged for a year, should they get married?To be honest, Li Shengli does not want to get married from the bottom of his heart.From the beginning of the engagement to the present "success" is forced.Because of the shortage of funds in Victory College, and his mother was seriously ill and required medical expenses, he had to find a backer, and at that time he had no clear understanding of the truth with Han Xi.He accidentally climbed along the pole, and Chen Nianbei walked away, and he was too hard to get off.

"Brother, it's because you don't want to get married." Han Xizhen directly broke Li Shengli's mind. "There are quite a few Korean women who get married at the age of 20, and I'm not an exception. You can also look outside and broaden your horizons after getting married. It's just that my brother doesn't want to marry me, so he said these polite words."

"Xizhen, don't say that." Even though Li Shengli had never loved Han Xizhen, he still felt guilty.

Han Xizhen smiled, "Brother, we haven't known each other for a long time, but it's not so short that we can't see a person clearly. Today, brother came to me to ask me to do something to stop this marriage." Han Xizhen knew him don't like her.It was her wishful thinking from the beginning.It just so happened that when the time came, he needed funds and needed help.There are some stories between them.Sometimes, she always thinks how wonderful it would be to simply have him and her without these beginnings.But thinking about it the other way around, without those, how could we have walked such a distance with him.

"Now that you've figured it out, let's stop here. A marriage without love is of no benefit to you or me. We still have to separate in the end. Since we are destined to separate, it's better not to let such a thing happen now, less If you’re not happy, at least you and I can still be friends.” Li Shengli paused, and stroked the pattern on the outside of the coffee cup with his fingers, “You don’t need to do anything, it’s my fault from the beginning to the end, and I’ll take the responsibility.” After that, He picked up the coffee cup and drank all the coffee in one gulp.

Han Xizhen nodded, she was always obedient in front of him, and she was willing to do whatever he asked her to do.At the beginning, he asked the best doctor in the hospital to treat his mother, and she listened to him and went to her father. Later, he asked for funds for the Victory Academy, and she asked her father for money, but unexpectedly got engaged.Finally, he asks her to leave him.Once, she thought that being able to be with him, she thought that everything was worth it, and she thought that she would have many, many futures with him.In the end, everything comes back to square one.

Han Xizhen nodded, making Li Shengli suddenly unable to turn the corner.He thought she would question him, or scold him and beat him without hesitation, or cry a lot.In this way, he might be able to feel better, and then comfort her as a matter of course, accepting all her abuse and venting.But none of these, he didn't know what to say.It turns out that it only takes one action to make a person feel stagnant and guilty.

There was a long silence between them, thinking about each other.In the end, Li Shengli paid the bill and left before Han Xizhen.

Between them, Li Shengli has always walked in front, and Han Xizhen has always walked behind.It can also be said that Han Xizhen is chasing after her. She may be bruised and exhausted from chasing, but as long as she can still chase, she will not stop.But after chasing for too long, people will get tired and reflect on whether it is right or wrong.She hesitated, but it was only for a moment, and she still did not give up.She always thought that she could catch up if she chased after him, but she didn't know that there was a huge disparity in strength between them.

Han Xizhen watched Li Shengli walk out of the cafe, he was still the man she fell in love with, his back was tall and straight, and he was still as handsome as she loved.It's a pity that if he doesn't love her, no matter how much she pays, she will be at a loss.She should see clearly, she should understand, but she just doesn't want to think about it.In fact, they are not inappropriate, but there is no love.

Li Shengli walked out of the cafe and tightened his coat, the weather was getting colder.He thought he would be free, but there are always some things that he can't let go of.However, it's all over.

Although the winter at the end of December is cold, the sunshine is always excellent.Cui Shengxian, who was rarely free, took Chen Nianbei's hand and walked slowly on the sunny grass with his arms around her.From time to time, he tightened her clothes for fear that she would be slightly chilled.Chen Nianbei laughed at his cautiousness, saying that she was no longer a child and would not get cold.Cui Shengxian nodded Chen Nianbei's nose, and said with a smile that she still had a child in her belly, which was the key protection object, and she couldn't be careless.

Chen Nianbei showed jealousy, pouted his lips, and said with a little disappointment: "So you are worried about the baby, not me. I can't even compare to the baby in your heart now."

Cui Shengxian burst out laughing, he was amused by Chen Nianbei's.He rubbed her hair affectionately, "You, it's great to be jealous with the baby." He held Chen Nianbei's hand tightly, kissed her forehead, and continued: "I love you and the baby, There is no distinction between high and low, you are all the most important in my life."

Chen Nianbei, with infinite sweetness in his heart, leaned on Cui Shengxian's shoulder without saying a word.The happiness at this moment is indescribable, it seems that as long as he is there, and then listen to simple or even vulgar sweet words, it doesn't need much, just one or two sentences seems to be enough for this whole life.She doesn't want much, as long as she has him.Forever and ever is a matter of a moment.What is often satisfied is not the words "forever", but this feeling.That is an irreplaceable eternity.

Chen Nianbei's drowsiness became more and more serious. Cui Shengxian took her for a short walk in the park and drove home.After taking care of her to sleep, Cui Shengxian lit a cigarette alone in the small garden at the bottom of the building.

He hasn't smoked for a while, and he quit smoking before, but he doesn't know whether it's work pressure or quitting smoking is a difficult thing, and he didn't succeed.On the contrary, I smoked more and more frequently later on.It wasn't until this time that he found out that he had never smoked a cigarette, even in the company.He was afraid that the smell of cigarettes on his body would be brought home, which would be bad for Chen Nianbei and the baby.

He sat on the recliner in the small garden, took a deep puff of the cigarette, and then slowly exhaled one smoke ring after another from his mouth.He squinted his eyes, thinking that Chen Nianbei's stomach could no longer be hidden, and now it was already showing.He didn't know how to explain to his father, or how to avoid letting his father know.It's been three months, no kidding.Moreover, he is not young and has to serve in the military.Once he decides to serve in the military, it will probably be a matter of one or two years. If it is soon, he will go after the new year.He didn't know if he should let Chen Nianbei stay by his side, he had the idea of ​​letting Chen Nianbei return to S city.It's just that he doesn't know whether Chen Nianbei's parents can accept him.

When one cigarette was exhausted, he immediately took another one.