kill a detective

"Mr. Amuro, do you want to ask me why I killed him?" Kaoru Nishikujo stopped, and the thin moonlight drew a very faint light and shadow along her body, hazy and far away.Toru Amuro also stopped a few steps behind her.There are only a few steps between the two, but it seems that the world is so close, and no one can step over the gap.

"Then I also want to ask Mr. Amuro, why did you hide it for me?"

She looked back into his eyes, and said slowly: "We are not relatives, not even friends, what reason does Mr. Amuro have to hide for a stranger who has only met twice?"

She approached him slowly. "Mr. Amuro, you have written all your thoughts on your face—" She stretched out her pale fingers to vaguely trace his cheeks, that pretty face was lingering under the moonlight like a dream that did not want to be awakened. "You're wondering—why did she kill someone and not seem at all flustered?"

Amuro smiled lightly.When the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, there was a taste of youthful spirit.Kaoru Nishikujo likes to see him smile like this the most. "Miss Nishikujo, can you tell me?"

"I'm willing to hide it for you because I know that person has done a lot of evil. Taking a step back, it's reasonable to call Miss Nishi Kujo's behavior self-defense. So it's okay to hide it for you."

To say such things, he really has changed a lot from before.

"But as Miss Nishi Kujo's secret-keeper, I think it's necessary for me to understand why you did that - at that time he will no longer threaten your life, even if you don't care about him, go ashore and find someone It may be too late to come to rescue, why, you must let yourself be stained with blood?"

He asked in a very soft voice, rather than questioning, it was more like comforting words. I was afraid that if the words were too harsh, she would be sad.Kaoru Nishikujo was soft and not hard, she couldn't help but answer his question.

"Five years ago, my boyfriend suddenly disappeared." Kaoru Nishikujo mentioned this past incident in front of Toru Amuro for the first time, his tone was so calm that he was surprised, as if what he said had nothing to do with her.

"Just a few days ago, we were still toasting to him for realizing his dream, but one morning, he suddenly disappeared. I was worried that something happened to him, and I looked for him from morning till night. Expecting to hear from the police and terrified of hearing about him."

"I even thought, if one day I receive news of his death, I will go with him... Isn't it ridiculous? The innocent little girl doesn't know the value of life, thinking that if she loses love, she loses everything."

Toru Amuro pursed his lips and said nothing, and the expression on that face was also hard to see.

"But at that time, I really loved him very much. I lost my parents since I was a child, and I was brought up by my adoptive parents. I always had to be obedient in front of them, because I was very timid and afraid of being abused again. Leave it behind. But in front of him, I don't have to hide myself. He loves me so much, I don't need words, as long as I see him, I know that this person, he loves me. Even if I show a thousand and one things in front of him A bad temper, bad habits, he will not abandon me."

"Because I believed that he would not abandon me, I also thought... I also wanted to be with him regardless of life or death. At that time, I had such a naive idea."

"When I couldn't find him, I thought he was really dead. Although I felt that it was futile, I still insisted on looking for him alone. I thought, even if it was just a corpse, I would still find it." Him, die with him."

"However, one night, with a moonlight like tonight, I was harassed by several men, and I accidentally fell into the river while escaping. Struggling in the water, when I was on the verge of suffocation, I suddenly didn't want to die. Mr. Amuro , do you know what it's like to drown?"

Kaoru Nishikujo took a few steps closer to him. Although the sky was dim, she was close enough that she could already see a tear slowly and slowly accumulating in those blue-gray eyes.But it didn't flow out in the end, and disappeared under the moonlight like a hallucination.

They are all grown-ups now, and grown-ups won't cry easily anymore.

But her heart still curled up as if scalded by this drop of fantasy.

"I'm sorry." He said softly.

Why are you apologizing?Kaoru Nishikujo couldn't figure it out.

His sadness was so real, as if he had caused her to fall like that.Kaoru Nishikujo didn't blame him for this matter, neither Furutani Rei nor Amuro Toru.

There is nothing wrong with love, what makes it twisted must be something else.

Even if her death was calculated to be caused by him, it shouldn't fall on him.

Kaoru Nishikujo softly said to him as if to comfort him: "When I fell to the bottom of the river, a piece of moonlight just fell on top of my head. In the pale despair of dying, I finally understood the meaning of life at that moment. I think the person I love, the me he loves, must also be full of yearning for life. A person who easily gives up the beauty of life is not worthy of his love. Because he worked so hard when he was by my side So even if he is no longer by my side, I have to live a good and happy life."

It's a pity that she, who understood all this, was one step too late after all, and she could no longer know what it was like to be alive.

She looked at Toru Amuro and smiled slightly.

"Mr. Amuro may think I'm cruel, but I don't regret it. That person deserves to die. I know too well how good it is to live, so I can't watch such a person, after cruelly taking so many passionate lives, I can still enjoy every day." One day's sun. If he survives, even if there is a one in ten thousand chance, I will feel sorry for the pain of the girls who died under his hands."

"If you want to expose the truth to the police, please do so."

The hour near dawn is magical.The clear sky seems bright and dark, the clouds wandering thousands of miles are high and low, everything is silent, and it seems that everything in the world is quietly waiting to wake up.Under such a sky, Amuro revealed a very strange expression, as if he had kneaded his sadness, remorse and pain into a ball, crushed them, and sprinkled them on the corners of his brows and eyes.Kaoru Nishikujo couldn't see through him at all, and couldn't figure out what this expression meant, so he simply gave up guessing.

"Don't worry, I won't tell the police. I... just hope that you can live a relaxed and happy life, that you don't have to carry such a heavy burden, and that it is enough to be happy and smiling forever. The death of that man is not entirely to blame--I As I said, he was entangled in aquatic plants under the condition of extreme hypoxia, and the possibility of him being able to persist until I return to rescue him is very low. So the one who chooses to give up on him is me, and you don’t have to carry his death on your back ..."

He wanted her to smile happily, but he didn't know that what she did was far more than that.

"Mr. Amuro, you are the one who asked me why I did that, and you were the one who told me not to bear it—I just ask you, in what capacity are you speaking to me? A detective? A lifesaver? A stranger? Or...or what else?"

Kaoru Nishikujo was frightened by the look in his eyes, which flickered so gently that she almost mistakenly thought that this man still loved her so deeply.

"Xiao Xun—" he suddenly called softly.

Kaoru Nishikujo stared at him with wide eyes.

"Thank you for surviving," he said.

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"Little Kaoru—"

After inexplicably confirming the couple's relationship at night at the bar, Furutani Rei changed his very intimate name to Kaoru Nishikujo.Kaoru Nishikujo was not used to it at first - because the two were not even acquaintances when they became a couple.Jiang Gu Ling had his own words about this: "That's why I want to get acquainted with Xiao Xun quickly."

He always has his reasons.

"And isn't the name Xiaoxun very good? It sounds like spring has arrived, it's very warm and happy—"

No matter what her name was, he had a way of explaining it so hard to refute.

"Xiao Xun" "Xiao Xun" "Xiao Xun" -- whatever.Kaoru Nishi Kujo gradually called Fuguya Rei from "Mr. Furuya" to "Zero-kun", and finally became "Zero".

She later saw a sentence in a love novel: Our love is hidden in the name.

Kaoru Nishikujo, who has no love experience, understands that a title can also become a confession.After that, every sentence of "Xiao Xun" became "I like you" in my ears.

She was a little shy at that time, and she liked to put it in her eyes and keep it in her heart, but she couldn't say it out loud.Jiang Gu Ling didn't care at all, he was always gentle and sunny in front of her, with his eyebrows and eyes curved, and his bright smile could dispel all the haze.

It's completely different from the shy and cute look when they first met in the bar.Kaoru Nishikujo occasionally feels cheated.

But no matter which kind of Gu Ling, she likes it very much.

It is also said in the love novel: If you like someone, you must tell him and let him know.The love that is known will not have regrets.

Kaoru Nishikujo felt that the book was very reasonable, so she found a sunny spring afternoon, took the tram to find his school, stood in front of him, and said to him in the bright cherry blossom rain: "I like it so much." You, Zero."

That was the first time Kaoru Nishikujo said he liked him.A word lights up the galaxy-like light in his eyes.

Then they held hands and kissed under the cherry blossom tree.

The sun is hot and his lips are soft.