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On the hillside not far from the place of residence, drinking fruit juice and playing with the phone, looking very comfortable.Yan Zheng pushed him, and while he was looking up at him, he took the phone from his hand and stuffed it into his pocket naturally.

"Grab something face to face?"

"Brother, you are not allowed to play anymore. Now that you are out, let's have a look at the scenery and chat."

The night is getting darker, the wind that comes and goes freely in the air is also cooling down, softening, the grass waves are gently churning, each layer is greener with each layer, and the grass waves of different shades change, although they are moving, but in the vast sky Between the ground and the ground, it seemed to be set off and stilled.

Yan Zheng took out toilet water and sprayed it around, the smell of mint overflowed, and it became more and more cool. Shi Fangman put his arms on his knees, and tilted his head to watch the young man grow from the young and ignorant appearance when he first met him. It's like this: Tall and handsome, careful and prudent, the school you took the exam is very good, the major you chose is very good, you are in the prime of life, and the road ahead is open and bright.

"Can I get you some medicine?"

Shi Fangman followed Yan Zheng's gaze, and there were several mosquito bags neatly arranged on his exposed wrist, his eyes were swollen, and the edges were scratched. Yan Zheng, on the other hand, was wearing short sleeves and shorts, with his naked body The place wasn't bitten much.

"Give it to me, I wipe it myself, it's strange, why only bite me..."

He complained angrily, and stretched out his hand, wanting to take the anti-itch ointment.Yan Zhengben had already avoided to wipe it off for him, but suddenly changed his mind, and put the thing in his palm readily, freed his hand, supported Shi Fangman's wrist, rolled up the sleeves layer by layer against the skin, and Go up and roll.

Shi Fangman didn't move much, and when Yan Zheng's warm palm left him, he immediately prescribed the ointment without incident, dug out some with his fingertips and applied it on.

Yan Zheng propped himself up with his arms and looked up at the sky.The night is deep and there are thousands of stars. The stars in the past show a very short moment in his long life, but they can already set off the brevity and insignificance of the viewers. In front of the vast and magnificent stars, they no longer speak. The silence lasted for a long time, and suddenly there was a noise. Yan Zheng stretched his slender limbs, lay on his back among the grass, and turned his head sideways: "Brother, can you tell me about your affairs?"

"I've known you for so long, and I haven't heard from you yet?"

Shi Fangman followed his example and lay down too. It was different from the expected very soft feeling. When lying down, the grass bent down, and the bones could clearly touch the undulating land.

"What do you want to hear?"

"Family, friends, or whatever." Yan Zheng looked at him steadfastly, even though Shi Fangman was lying on his back and closed his eyes, unable to respond to his burning gaze.

"I don't have much family. My parents passed away early, and I don't have much contact with other relatives. I don't have many friends. I didn't go to school here for a long time. My friends in school days are not in this city. Now I know them at work. Those, just those few."

"I can't think of anything else, just ask me what you want to know."

"Where's that girlfriend you were talking about?"

"Cough, cough, cough..." Shi Fangman turned over and sat up, the person who was choked by his own saliva coughed frantically, and looked at Yan Zheng with a red face: "You still ask this now? I..."

His voice lowered unconsciously: "You know I'm like this, it's impossible to fall in love..."

"So you lied to me in the first place? Those photos, those stories about falling in love, those words about the pain and suffering after breaking up with love, and the words of quitting drinking to relieve your sorrows are all lying to me?"

Yan Zheng also sat up, and said narrowly: "Brother, you are quite good at making up stories."

Full of shame, Shi Fang scratched his hair, and quickly tangled his soft hair. He shook his head, and a few strands of hair fell apart again, hanging down on his forehead, pressing against his fair skin.

Yan Zheng was a little distracted, and didn't restrain himself. He stretched out his hand and peeled off the strand of hair, but he stripped it very slowly, and explained to others: "I'm sweaty, my hair is sticking to my body."

Shi Fangman believed it, and let him do it with his face up, but urged: "Hurry up, if it's not easy to do it, don't do it."

He looked at people from under the glasses. His eyelashes were not long and slender, but rather thick. His pupils were a natural brown color, accounting for half the size of his eyes. Yan Zheng thought that other people's eyes were not like this, because the whites of other people's eyes Duo, looking cold, only Shi Fangman has such gentle eyes.

It's the first time in my life that I like someone, and that's how it is, that person is good in every way and unique.Not to mention that Yan Zheng's liking is more complicated and persistent, and Shi Fangman is more special in his eyes, as if everyone else in the world is black and white, but he is the only one with a bad color.

"Brother, then you will never fall in love again, right? If the people in your unit introduce you to girlfriends, you will continue to lie to them, right?"

Yan Zheng reluctantly withdrew his hand, and when he saw Fang Man nodded, he was in a good mood, so he boldly asked him: "Brother, if you have never been in a relationship, do you know whether you like boys or girls?"

"You're enough..." Shi Fangman held his forehead helplessly: "I haven't talked about it, and I'm not a fool."

"If so what do you like?"

He got too close, Shi Fang subconsciously pushed away the face that looked like spring flowers, his handsome facial features were crushed by his own hands, and suddenly became funny, but one eye was still looking at it persistently through the fingers, So much so that Shi Fangman held back his laughter and had to answer him seriously: "I like girls!"

Yan Zheng's eyes were right and wrong, and he stared at him steadfastly.

"Isn't it normal?"

For an abnormal body, Shi Fangman may be gratified that he has always been very sure about his gender perception. It is not that his body cannot be operated on, but the problem is that as a true hermaphrodite, he has The body of the two gonads is relatively masculine in appearance, but the female gonads are more fully developed.His penis is hard to get erection, his testicles are small, he doesn't have spermatorrhea, but he has ovaries, vagina, and uterus, but he has never had menstrual cramps because of the dysplasia of the uterus.So based on that, all the advice for surgery is to remove the masculinity, take estrogen and progesterone to stimulate development, and live as a woman.

Shi Fangman was reluctant to undergo such an operation from the very beginning, but when he reached the right age, he was dragged onto the operating table. This was not a decision he could make. The head of the Shi family, wandering around the world as a pervert.

The family ugliness cannot be publicized, and the Shi family can no longer be ashamed.Shi Fangman understood what they did, but that time he still cried until he couldn't breathe, cried until he passed out, the knife rested on his neck, and the fire burned his body, his brain eroded by anesthesia suddenly burst into a rumbling thunder, Suddenly, I remembered a certain rainy night, a certain woman once faced such a perverted body and shouted happily: "Full!"

"Full of men, not afraid of thunder, not afraid of rain!"

The child lying on the ground wanted to stand up but couldn't stand up. The woman's encouraging voice quickly walked to his side, and the thunder and lightning illuminated his gray hair and the corners of his smiling mouth. How he picked up the child and rubbed against his forehead.

"Manman, Dad protects you!"

Shi Fangman likes his mother more, because his mother is young and beautiful, like all mothers in the world, but his father is old and rotten, and is different from all fathers in the world, but he still doesn't know anything, only Knowing how to gently hit the man with his head, climb up the wrinkled forehead, and call him: "Dad, I'm afraid!"

There were three things that the Shi family couldn't put on the table, two of which were missing, and the remaining one was about to become normal, but suddenly they didn't want to.The head of the Shi family never cared about such embarrassing things, his wife Zhou Yumei was so determined that she would not give up even if she died on the operating table, and it was Shi Hao who saved him in the end.

Shi Hao asked him to go to school in another place, and Shi Fangman went there gratefully. When Shi Hao asked him to come back when he graduated, he also came back, even though he could never go back to Shi's house after so many years, and couldn't see any... family members , is the price of his reluctance to undergo the operation.

Both his mother and that person said that he is a man, and as a man, he naturally likes girls as a matter of course, so one more thing that is normal to him is a comfort.

"It's normal, everything you do is normal."

The heartbeat seemed to go away, and only an empty body was pressed against the young man's warm cheek, Yan Zheng pulled his hand away: "I just hope you can think about it more, don't be so sure."

Shi Fangman shook his head subconsciously, but Yan Zheng pressed his hand tightly on his chest. Through the thin clothes, the vigorous heartbeat even made his fingers numb, making him suspect that Yan Zheng had stolen it. His heart, that's why his chest is so empty, but Yan Zheng's heartbeat is so powerful.

"Brother, you can't accept any girl, and you can't accept other boys."

"You can't explain it, and you can't make them like you."

Yan Zheng spoke slowly, as if repeating some theorems that no need to prove: "You should not be an angel in the world, but only I know this fact."

This body was already floating in the air empty, but after hearing this, he drifted away even more dizzy, holding his breath, waiting for Yan Zheng to continue.

But the young man stopped talking, he pursed his lips without smiling, and his appearance seemed to be the same as usual, but he didn't say a word, and looked at the other party with those beautiful eyes open without blinking.

After being silent for too long, the dangling people all hit the ground, pushing up the glasses frame that had slumped slightly, with a puzzled look on their faces: "What exactly are you trying to say?"

Yan Zheng wanted to break his thin glasses frame, just like when he heard Shi Fangman's answer without hesitation