Everyone is urging me

An imperfect ending is suitable as the end of a novel to fill in holes.

But for Jiang Chao, who is used to pursuing beauty, she, who has the ability to rewrite, is more willing to fill in the holes and then make those difficult feelings into perfection with her own hands.

After staying in the relatively peaceful world for enough time and seeing off his friends, Jiang Chao thought of the novel world he had been to before.

She decides to reclaim her past identity.

And the first thing she thought of was Angel who was surrounded to death.

It is impossible for the dead Angel to be resurrected for no reason.

However, as the creator, Jiang Chao can add new settings as he likes to achieve an effect similar to the resurrection of the dead—for example, using the world-renowned strongest prop, the "book".

The text was written by the author, and the impossible became possible.

Anyway, Angel's setting is the gods of another world, and the gods are spiritually immortal.Even if a person dies in a certain world, as long as he is summoned reasonably again, he can return to that world again.

Just as Angel used to "respond to his self in another world", now he is "being called by others".

Using the fragments of the book, Jiang Chao returned to the completed novel as Angel.

It is the place where it landed, with a slight deviation.

Isn't it the distance from Japan to Russia?

No problem, no problem!

……All right.

Maybe there are some innocuous questions.

After thinking for a long time, Jiang Chao finally realized that the reason why she felt familiar with the person who summoned him was that when Angel was alive, she met him once in Leibo Street.

It was also at that time that she heard that the other party reported her family name, and she was shocked to know that the person she bumped into was actually Fei Jia.

Yes.

Because his name was too long, Jiang Chao felt that Fyodor was not friendly enough to pronounce it, so after a few days of toil, she was finally given the nickname "Feijia" by himself.

When Jiang Chao also knew that he was Fei Jia, he belatedly thought that he was lucky that he was not killed by his ability when he bumped into him.

But it is.

Leaving aside Angel's identity for now, Jiang Chao himself will not be killed by supernatural powers casually.

Perhaps it was because Fei Jia really tried to test Angel with supernatural powers, and Jiang Chao was not interrogated or treated coldly by him after he summoned him.

On the contrary, Jiang Chao could see that Fei Jia was very tolerant towards her, or Angel.

Letting Jiang Chao think about the reason, she could only come to the simple conclusion that "Anjieer was acquitted by his supernatural ability, so he did this".

In fact, this reason does account for the bulk.

At least Fyodor tolerated Angel calling him "Feiya", and after she was summoned by him, he prepared extra food and clothing for her without saying much, because of this.

In other words, he temporarily retained the respect that she died generously for the awakening of others.

Of course Jiang Chao didn't know this.

She didn't even know that on the day she died as Angel, Fyodor paid her respects.

But this respect is not enough to make Fyodor completely trust Angel.

and so--

"Back then, An Jie, why didn't she resist and choose to die?"

—On the second week after Angel was summoned, Fyodor began the real temptation.

Maybe it's a common problem among bigwigs.

Obviously the relationship is not close, and they are also used to calling the relatively intimate names of those who can be used.

I'm afraid it's for the purpose of letting the target relax their vigilance so that they can listen to intelligence.

It's a pity that it was Jiang Chao who was wearing Angel skin.

She replied, "Because that's the best choice."

Actually not.

At that point, Angel could choose to escape.

She has a reputation that is rarely invincible, a brother with superior force, a playmate who is too smart, and even a doctor she knows has a unique double identity.

As long as she obeys the arrangement of the people beside her and hides behind the scenes, she can survive until the news of the old leader's death.

So in the eyes of others, Angel chose to die for only one reason.

She is telling those persecuted by the old leader that they should raise the banner of resistance.

She turned her own death into the last straw on the camel's back, smashing the only remaining unrealistic fantasies in people's hearts, pushing them to face the urgent reality, so as to save themselves.

This is a "secret" that everyone knows.

It was precisely because Fyodor saw this that he recognized Angel's title of "angel".

Because of this, he didn't ask her about her so-called "best choice".

but--

What if Angel knew at that time that he was a god and would not die in essence?

The pure white he once thought was no longer pure.

So Fyodor changed the subject and asked, "Isn't Anjie afraid?"

Knowing that death is ahead, isn't she afraid?

Fyodor observed the girl who had been obedient since she was summoned.

He is waiting for her answer.

He wanted to judge whether her behavior was self-sacrifice, or was it mixed with the arrogance of the gods.

Jiang Chao intuited that this question was the key.

If he was asking Jiang Chao, if she was afraid at the time, Jiang Chao could say no without hesitation.

Jiang Chao disdains to lie.

She knew that she would not die, so she chose such a way to guide the people to save themselves.

She wrote for Angel a grand but peaceful death that best suits her personality, and the confidence that allows her to perfectly display the sacrifice is immortality.

But so what?

The people awakened and the former leader was overthrown.

Everything on Leibo Street became better because of Angel's death.

Just like the moment the rescuer saves someone, he has little time to think about whether he will die because of it.

Jiang Chao felt that she might also have a bit of "heroism" in her heart, which is why she thought of such a script at the beginning.

Jiang Chao may not be lofty enough, but Angel is worth remembering.

"Recalling what I did back then, maybe I still hesitated."

"But if it were now, I would say 'not afraid'."

"I once told Rintaro—ah, a doctor in Yokohama—that if my death can make him gain the trust of the old chief, and make the people in Saibo Street realize that they can no longer be meek, it will make me feel better. They found real peace, and that's the best solution I can make."

Jiang Chao did not express his thoughts truthfully.

If it is Chuya, Dazai, or anyone who knows her true nature, Jiang Chao can express her thoughts without reservation—she wants to quell the chaos in the most efficient way.

But what she needs to deal with now is people from the "hostile camp", Fyodor who thinks about how to kill the supernatural being every day.

She can't tell the truth.

And she wants to guide Fyodor to find out the so-called truth by himself.

- Of course Angel is afraid of death.

——But Angel, who has recovered her memory and knows her god identity, will not be afraid.

Jiang Chao couldn't tell the news, because smart people wouldn't trust such simple information.

But Jiang Chao is sure that he will find a way to collect Angel's information.

She bet on this poor information.

The flawless angel was suspected, and finally he cleared the doubt with his own hands.

Once the process of change occurs, even Fyodor will be more tolerant of Angel's existence, even if she is proved to be a god from another world.

"Is An Jie a god?"

"Yes, Fei Jia." Hearing him ask this, Jiang Chao just showed Angel's angelic smile, pretending not to understand the indifference hidden under his eyes.

She admitted her identity without hesitation in front of young people who hated supernatural powers and rejected gods, and added with a little pride in an ignorant brisk tone, "Using the title of this world, I am 'Aragami' oh."

Is it a flawless girl who sacrificed for her ideal?

Or an arrogant and unaware god?

At the moment Angel recognized his godhood, Fyodor chose his answer.

--look.

The already fragile respect disappeared so simply.

It doesn't matter though.

Jiang Chao thought.

The respect that was broken and recast was the one she needed.

Take it easy.

She still has a long time, enough to deal with him.

……

After that question and answer, Fyodor rarely talked with Jiang Chao.

Jiang Chao was not surprised by this.

Anyway, she didn't have to worry about food and clothing, and Fyodor didn't care about her life or death just because of her status as a god. It was just a little cold treatment, and Jiang Chao could still accept it.

After all, she came into this world because of books.

Even if it was to explore the secrets of the book, Fyodor would not let her get into trouble easily.

Without Fyodor, Jiang Chao, who was locked in the house every day, would not feel bored.

If you want to ask why...

Well, although Fyodor is not coming, his collaborators have come over him.

That's right.

Jiang Chao's new chat partner is Nikolai Vasilyevich Gogol, known as the "clown".

Their names were too long, so Jiang Chao ended up calling him Gogol just like he did to Fyodor.

...why not an extra nickname too?

The main reason is that she dare not push her boundaries.

Because she felt that if she was asked to pick a nickname, she would definitely blurt out the word civet.

It's so smooth!As Chinese!

cough cough.

Back to topic.

Since they are called chat partners, the conversation between Jiang Chao and Gogol is naturally an important reason for maintaining the relationship.

At first, it was Gogol who was curious about why his friend suddenly changed his schedule, so he used his ability to sneak into the room while he was away and saw Jiang Chao.

When Jiang Chao revealed his identity as a god and was dealt with coldly by Fyodor, Gogol became even more curious.

Perhaps there was also Fyodor's tacit approval of the temptation. Gogol's first conversation with Jiang Chao was a question with a strong taste of provoking discord.

"Don't you feel that you have lost your freedom? You are obviously a god when you are trapped in the house by A Tuo?"

Gogol, who said "Master God" in his mouth respectfully, did not behave with the corresponding respect at all.

The young man with silver hair and blond eyes is dressed like a clown in a circus, and his actions and speech also have a clown-like escape and sense of drama.

"I don't think so." Jiang Chao replied, "It's cold outside anyway, even if Fei Jia asked me to go out, I probably don't want to go out."

I don't know what kind of joke this answer hit Gogol. He used his supernatural ability to smile prettily in a weird posture with only his head in front of her.

"Are you really a god like this?"

He said so, but didn't want her answer.

Because he decided to disappear before Fyodor came back.

Jiang Chao, who was left behind, didn't even raise his eyelids, but when Fyodor entered the door, he said that he wanted to read a literary work, preferably a writer who had recently emerged, and asked him to buy it for her.

Fyodor probably didn't expect that she would dare to make a request, so he looked at her in silence for a long time before nodding indifferently.

——Then Jiang Chao received a new work from "Mr. Xinyuan".

Of course Jiang Chao recognized who Teacher Xinyuan was.

She also didn't expect that Fyodor would bring her Akutagawa's book.

It's hard to tell if this isn't yet another unspoken probing.

But it doesn't matter.

Jiang Chao has a good experience with these things.

Don't worry about food and clothing, read novels and comics, and admire their looks from time to time.

If there is anything imperfect, it is that there is no computer, no mobile phone, and no internet, so she cannot see the first-hand resources.

But these problems are not big.

Didn't she not have these when she was still in the new block?

At least there are still books and comics to read.

Also taking that short conversation as an opportunity, Gogol liked to run to Jiang Chao more and more, and every time he liked to pick when Fyodor was not around.

"Aren't you his friend?" Jiang Chao thought his habit was weird, so he couldn't help but raise his mouth, "Is chatting with me something that he can't know?"

"But you have to agree with A Tuo to come and chat with you, it's too unfree!"

"...but this is Fedya's residence."

"As a guest, is it polite to get the host's permission before entering the room?"

"Then, ask questions!"

"Who initiated such a rule and how did it come about?"

"Is this really your own idea?"

Jiang Chao didn't know what to do.

But this inadvertently raised question opened up Gogol's chatterbox to her.

"I'm a clown who implements 'freedom'!"

"Enemies will persecute each other, and friends will be harmonious and friendly. Isn't this customary relationship the same as your thought just now, a manifestation of being brainwashed by others and losing your will?"

"Master God who is bound by 'common sense', haven't you been assimilated by human beings and lost your free will?"

Jiang Chao was almost fainted by him.

But as a writer, Jiang Chao is the least afraid of arguing with others.

"Then how are you going to achieve 'freedom'?" she asked.

"Put all common sense in the opposite direction?"

"When you encounter an enemy, you will help, and when you face your friend, you will deliberately trip it?"

Gogol opened his eyes slightly because of her words.

As if he didn't expect her to give a positive response, the young man's eyes suddenly lit up after a brief moment of daze.

"Of course you can do whatever you want!"

"But as long as one is in human society, 'complete freedom' cannot be realized."

"While you are exercising complete liberty, another man can hinder you with his liberty."

"Just kill the person who hinders me."

"is it?"

"But isn't the idea of ​​'resolving those who are in the way' also 'common sense'?"

"Aren't you trapped in the vicious circle of 'freedom' and still trapped in the 'convention'?"

Few people can talk to him to this extent.

Gogol was silent for a moment because of her rebellion.

But soon, this Mr. Clown, who was looking for freedom, looked at her with a crazy smile as if he had discovered some interesting toy, full of interest.

"I suddenly discovered that I like to chat with you."

Jiang Chao was stunned.

Although he didn't know why he suddenly mentioned this, Jiang Chao still responded, "...Thank you?"

—This may also be an influence.

Gogol thought in his heart.

The trust with a close friend, the pleasure of talking with her.

For him who pursues freedom, these emotions that affect his thoughts are not a kind of "brainwashing".

Gogol raised an idea that he had thought about a long time ago.

——If you kill them?

——If you kill them, you can get freedom from "brainwashing". Doesn't this prove that he is really a free bird?

And now, he had a ready-made plan to take advantage of.

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The author has something to say:

The title indicates that the meaning is actually very heavy.

Believers and Angels, Fei Jia and Angel, want to write the feeling that although people with faith do not believe in gods, they have special beliefs because they see angels.

It is also the so-called "believers who pretend to admire and gods who pretend not to know".

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The Fool is of course Gogol.

People who long for freedom are also bound by the word "freedom", and angels give it a new meaning, this kind of alternative relationship that cannot be called salvation or enlightenment.

I didn't write the ideal state, but I don't know how to change it, so let's write it like this first.

Even if they knew they would not die, not everyone would do what Angel did.

Death is a momentary pain for her, but Angel has done much more than that - saving children, educating them, telling them to go to the good side, and willing to listen impatiently to the lost Scream and give them a hand when they need it.These "causes" can create the "effect" that the death of her alone led to the rebellion of the entire block.

And Jiang Chao, who is wearing Angel's skin, is not a perfect virgin, but actually has something in common with Angel.

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Still the same sentence, if Jiang Chao really lived in those environments, she would become the people she wrote (but if she was really Angel, when she went to die, she would probably plan a fake death with Dazai that only the two of them knew ).