Ji Guang

The two of them stayed in the reeds until the sun went down. Lin Ji lay on the reeds and closed his eyes without making a sound. The golden sunlight cast mottled shadows on his face through the fine and uneven reed flowers and leaves. , the paleness on his face gradually faded, and a layer of delicate color was warmed up, and the trace of embarrassment and fragility that had been exposed before was also wiped out.

Xiang Huai sat next to him at first, but seeing that Lin Ji was lying comfortably, he also lay down with his hands on his pillow.It was rare for him to stay quietly for such a long time, but now he felt that it was good to lie with Lin Ji like this and do nothing.

"Lin Ji," Xiang Huai called softly after a long time, "what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay." Lin Ji said.

Xiang Huai looked at him for a long time, but finally didn't insist on asking.

When the two returned home, it was almost dark, and Xiang Huai still remembered to be considerate of his parents. After finding Lin Ji, he sent Song Lingran a text message. He didn't say anything, but said that he and Lin Ji had lunch outside. I have to go play after eating, and go back later.

Song Lingran didn't think much about it, thinking they were just playful, and there was nothing unusual after the two came back. Lin Ji apologized and said that he forgot to bring his mobile phone and didn't check the time. After washing his hands, he sensibly helped to serve the dishes in the kitchen. Only Xiang Huai was a little silent, but During this period of time, this situation was very frequent, not abnormal.

After dinner, Lin Ji went back to his room. Lying on the bed, he felt as if his body was soaked in acid water, limp and painful.He lay there without moving for a long time, and just fell asleep like this, but his sleep was also very restless, and he woke up suddenly after ten minutes.

Lin Ji touched his forehead and felt that he might have a fever, but it was still early and everyone at home was still awake, so Lin Ji didn't want to go out to get medicine.

He forced himself to sit up from the bed, turned on the English tape next to him to play English listening, and then leaned against the head of the bed and closed his eyes.He forced himself to focus on the English playing, expel those memories from a long time ago, but his mind was dizzy, he couldn't concentrate, and soon his consciousness fell into a dim chaos. When he reacted again, those memories were already in chaos Crazy flashes in the middle made him tremble all over.

Lin Ji's hand was on his arm, and he pinched it down as if venting his anger, using the pain to wake himself up.

Forget it, Lin Ji thought in a cold sweat, when the time comes, find an excuse to tell Aunt Ran that I can't take pictures, or just admit that I'm useless and I dare not take pictures, forget it, I won't take pictures, that's it...

No!Absolutely not!The thought of weakness only flashed for a short time before being resolutely expelled by Lin Ji.

He couldn't compromise and admit defeat, and he was never willing to reconcile with himself.When he was in junior high school, he once heard a boy say behind his back that Lin Ji is so powerful, play games with his buddies, he can't be tortured to death.When he got home that day, he bought some of the most popular games among his classmates. He only slept for two or three hours every night for more than a week. But he forced himself to become a master, only in this way can he be satisfied.Just like he doesn't like piano, painting, sanda, or photography, he's not interested in most things, but he doesn't want to be left behind.

When chatting with their nanny, Jiang Yue once said that this child is good at everything, but he is too strong.There is nothing wrong with being strong, but it may be more difficult than others, because there are always some things in this world that are not satisfactory. People will experience pain and difficulties in their lives, but those who are strong refuse to rely on others. Rely on yourself to carry it hard.

Lin Ji didn't care much about these things, good education gave him good upbringing, he was always indifferent and polite in dealing with people and things, but in his bones he was extremely proud, and there was some impolite condescension hidden in his nature.

Pride makes him and breaks him.

Xiang Huai absent-mindedly played games in the living room for a while, and finally waited until after nine o'clock. Song Lingran and Xiang Qi went back to their room to sleep, and told Xiang Huai to go to bed early as well, not to wake up until noon tomorrow.

Xiang Huai said impatiently, "Got it", and when his parents' bedroom door closed, he jumped off the sofa, pulled the medicine box out from under the TV cabinet, and went directly to knock on Lin Ji's door.

Lin Ji didn't tell him not to tell Song Lingran and Xiang Qi, but Xiang Huai's one tendon that can't turn a corner has recently split into many twists and turns, and his thoughts have become more delicate. He intuitively felt that Lin Ji didn't want others to know Yes, Lin Ji is absolutely perfect, and Xiang Huai has never seen anyone as stubborn as him.

Lin Ji had already slept in a daze for several times, but he couldn't fall asleep all the time. He woke up after a few minutes in a daze. The night of this season was already very cold, but he felt hot, his back was full of sweat, and his internal organs seemed to be released Roast on the fire.

Hearing the knock on the door, Lin Ji first asked who it was, and then heaved a sigh of relief when he heard Xiang Huai's voice, and got out of bed to open the door for Xiang Huai, with a calm and indifferent appearance, without any signs of distress.

Xiang Huai squeezed through the door and showed Lin Ji the medicine box in his hand: "Treat those injuries on your arms."

Lin Ji had long forgotten about those minor injuries, but Xiang Huai would always remember them.

Xiang Huai didn't know much about those wound medicines, so he rummaged through the medicine box for a long time in depression, found a bottle of alcohol and a tube of erythromycin ointment, turned his head and asked Lin Ji, "Are these two okay?"

Lin Ji sat on the edge of the bed, glanced at his arm indifferently: "Don't worry too much."

Xiang Huai remained silent, closed the medicine box heavily, and poured alcohol on the gauze, his movements mixed with anger.Lin Ji looked at his appearance, didn't refuse any more, and let Xiang Huai pull his arm away.

When Xiang Huai saw the blood-stained wounds, he couldn't help but soften his movements, and asked, "Does it hurt?"

After asking, he remembered Lin Ji's indifferent attitude, and blocked Lin Ji's words angrily: "Forget it, it's useless to ask you, you deserve it if it hurts."

The alcohol on the wound caused pain, Lin Ji frowned, and immediately stretched it out. After the pain, there was a coolness, which made him, who was so hot now, yearn for more.But Xiang Huai seemed to be afraid of his pain, so he didn't rub more alcohol, and quickly applied ointment on it.

Xiang Huai suddenly felt a little distracted, before he was purely worried about Lin Ji's injury, he couldn't tell what else was on his mind, now neither of them spoke, Lin Ji's arm was obediently placed in his Here, let him smear the medicine on it one by one... Xiang Huai suddenly became so nervous that he didn't dare to breathe, and his subordinates' movements became slower and slower, and the meaning changed a few times.

Lin Ji looked at Xiang Huai who suddenly became dazed for a long time, and finally moved the arm that was held and wiped endlessly by Xiang Huai: "It's almost there?"

"Ah?" Xiang Huai was startled, he woke up from his distraction, and let go of Lin Ji in a hurry.

Xiang Huai felt ashamed to stay any longer, and without even looking at Lin Ji, he was about to rush out the door with the medicine box in his arms, but was stopped by Lin Ji: "Put the medicine box here first."

"Huh?" Xiang Huai looked Lin Ji up and down strangely, "Do you still want to use it?"

Lin Ji hummed perfunctorily, without further explanation: "Just put it on the table."

Xiang Huai looked around twice, but didn't see anything unusual about him, so he put the medicine box on the table and left Lin Ji's room.

Back in his room, Xiang Huai was lying on the bed, his face was still hot, and the two fingers that applied Lin Ji's medicine were even hotter. It was useless for Xiang Huai to spurn himself from the bottom of his heart, he asked himself a little strangely , Am I such a horny pervert? I don't know what happened to Lin Ji, so what else can I think of?

He suddenly remembered the medicine box that Lin Ji asked him to leave behind, and he got up from the bed in doubt, always feeling uneasy. After thinking for 2 minutes, he still decided to be a man of action, and rushed into Lin Ji without knocking on the door. s room.

Lin Ji was standing at the table drinking water, when he heard the sound, he turned his head to look at Huai, and frowned.

Xiang Huai smirked twice: "Let me see if you've used it up."

Lin Ji clenched his other hand that was not holding the cup, and put it down calmly, but Xiang Huai's eyes were extremely sharp, and he immediately asked, "What are you holding in your hand?"

Lin Ji spread out his hands to show him, and said naturally, "Anti-inflammatory medicine."

He tilted his head slightly and took the medicine, drank two more sips of water, and said to Xiang Huai, "It's used up, take it away."

Xiang Huai looked at Lin Ji for a few seconds, took two steps forward and picked up the medicine box, but did not go outside the room, but sat on Lin Ji's bed with the medicine box in his arms, and took the same medicine that Lin Ji had just taken. Take out the same thing, take the same thing and look at Lin Ji, there is no smile on his face.

Lin Ji's face also turned cold: "What do you want to do?"

The eyes of the two were glued together, and the air became a little suffocated. After a long while, Xiang Huai's eyes suddenly softened, and his stiff shoulders relaxed. It was tit for tat just now.

Lin Ji sighed in his heart, he lost his temper at all by Xiang Huai's sudden change of appearance, he already knew that Xiang Huai was actually a coquettish monster, he was really muddy when he was muddled, and he was really soft when he acted like a spoiled child. Every time Song Lingran was pissed off by him and coaxed to death, Lin Ji just didn't expect that one day Xiang Huai would show such an appearance to him.

"Didn't I care about you?" Xiang Huai moaned angrily and aggrieved.

Lin Ji was defeated, turned around and sat next to Xiang Huai. The soft bed took the weight of his body, allowing his lead-filled body to relax briefly.

"Thank you." Lin Ji said.

Xiang Huai tentatively stretched out his paw and touched Lin Ji's arm, it was scorching hot. He didn't notice it when he was applying medicine to Lin Ji earlier, so Xiang Huai moved his ears annoyed.

Lin Ji saw it, thought it was fun, reached out to touch Xiang Huai's ear, his hand was also very hot, Xiang Huai grabbed it, and looked at Lin Ji with a frown: "Have a fever?"

"Maybe it's too windy today," Lin Ji said, "I'll be fine after a night's sleep."

"Then you go to sleep!" Xiang Huai jumped up, actively lifted the quilt for Lin Ji, pushed him onto the bed, covered him with the quilt, and then pulled the small stool and sat beside Lin Ji's bed.

Xiang Huai had never taken care of anyone before, so when he became anxious, he acted rudely. Lin Ji was stuffed into the bed by him, with only his head exposed, which was dizzy from his shaking.

He squinted his eyes at Xiang Huai who was sitting beside the bed, and said strangely, "What are you doing sitting here? Go back to your room."

Xiang Huai rested his chin and looked at him seriously: "I'm here to watch you."

Lin Ji was overwhelmed by his passionate concern, and with complicated emotions, he choked out two words: "No need."

"Use it." Xiang Huai said, "Go to sleep."

After he finished speaking, he turned off the light with a snap, and the room fell into darkness for a moment. After a few seconds, his vision gradually became clear. Lin Ji looked at Xiang Huai in the darkness, helplessly feeling a slight soreness in his heart.

While looking at Lin Ji's silhouette in the dark, Xiang Huai carefully captured Lin Ji's clear and shallow breathing. Sitting alone for so long without doing anything, he didn't feel bored at all. His heart seemed to be wrapped in a soft and warm... Dancing comfortably in the hot air bubbles.

After more than half an hour, Xiang Huai got up, opened the door lightly, and went to the bathroom.Lin Ji opened his eyes and looked at the ray of light leaking in from the corridor at the door. After 2 minutes, Xiang Huai came in again, and sat back on his small stool with catty steps.

"Xiang Huai." Lin Ji suddenly called softly.

Xiang Huai was taken aback, he thought Lin Ji had fallen asleep.

"What's wrong?" Xiang Huai asked.

In the dark, he could only see a silhouette of Lin Ji, with a straight nose, a handsome face, and curled eyelashes, making him look too good to be true.The handsome silhouette remained motionless, as if falling asleep again.

Xiang Huai murmured to himself, could it be that Lin Ji was talking in his sleep, he quietly straightened up, and leaned over to the bed, wanting to see if Lin Ji was awake.As soon as he got closer, Lin Ji suddenly opened his eyes, the two looked at each other very closely, Xiang Huaiqian smiled and retracted his head: "Why aren't you asleep yet?"

"Do you want to know," Lin Ji asked softly, his voice was a little faint in the silent night, "Why can't I take pictures?"

Xiang Huai pulled the small bench forward, lying on the edge of Lin Ji's bed, and lowered his voice: "Why?"

Xiang Huai had been wondering for a whole day, but in the afternoon Lin Ji obviously didn't want to talk about it. The two had a fight, and Xiang Huai didn't ask any more questions after that. Now Lin Ji suddenly brought it up. Xiang Huai should have been surprised, but he Find yourself not.

He seemed to be infected by the quiet night, and Lin Ji's voice was so soft, as if he wanted to reveal a secret that only belonged to the night, and he just needed to listen quietly.

Lin Ji's steady breathing suddenly became heavy. For more than a year, the memories that were suppressed deep in his heart and forcibly prevented from indulging in them made a comeback. It was unstoppable. Lin Ji clenched his fists, his palms were very hot. He knew very well that today's illness Rather than saying it was blown by the wind, it was better to say that those painful memories were pressing down on him like a tsunami today. After a long, long time since that accident, he was crushed again.

"Lin Ji..." Xiang Huai called him.

"Last year, the three of us drove and planned to travel to Linshi for two days," Lin Ji finally said, "When I was waiting for the traffic light, I saw the beautiful scenery outside, so I took out my camera and wanted to take pictures..."

Xiang Huai's breathing had almost stopped, and he stared at Lin Ji without blinking.

"Then..." Lin Ji's voice trembled, "The truck hit me, and the camera started to spin..."

Everything happened so fast, before he had time to put down the camera, fate had trampled him to death.The pain he felt on his body, the screams he heard in his ears, the flames he saw in his eyes, everything was condensed into that moment of the camera afterwards, and all his memories of the accident were stored in it, even if some It is not perceived through the lens at all.

A hug suddenly covered her, and Lin Ji shivered as if she had been burned.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid." Xiang Huai said, but his voice was trembling.

Lin Ji curled up in Xiang Huai's tightened arms. For more than a year, he had never said these things to anyone, nor had he shed a single tear in front of anyone, nor had he shown a trace of fragility. He was stubborn He desperately fought against all pity, but those pains might not be able to be dispelled in his whole life, and he had never been able to get out of it.

He didn't know why he suddenly wanted to say this to Xiang Huai. Maybe it was because he had endured for too long and finally reached the limit, or maybe he subconsciously felt that exposing these worthless things to Xiang Huai would not embarrass him so much. At that time, he couldn't help showing some.

But he still didn't say a lot of things, for example, when they were already driving to the suburbs of the city, he was the one who deliberately made things difficult for Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue, and asked to return home willfully and forcefully, and the accident happened on the way back...

After a long time, Lin Ji finally calmed down, and Xiang Huai's arm was firmly wrapped around his back, which made him ache.

Lin Ji forced a smile and broke the silence: "Why are you crying?"

Xiang Huai's eyes were red, stubborn and soft: "I didn't!"

With Xiang Huai's arm retracted, Lin Ji turned around and lay flat on the bed, spreading his body as if exhausted. He let out a silent breath, and suddenly said, "Don't pity me, Xiang Huai."

Xiang Huai was silent for a while, and then asked, "Can I go out with you to take pictures tomorrow?"

Lin Ji looked at Xiang Huai suddenly, and Xiang Huai made his own decision domineeringly: "If you can't do it, you have to do it, anyway, I'm following you."

Lin Ji put his arms across his eyes and laughed softly.

"Okay." Lin Ji said.