[Entertainment Circle] The Road to Rebirth as a Star

Chapter 21 because I like it

He just stood up silently and turned on the bathroom light with a "click", then walked back to Xu Yanxi's side, bent down and stretched out his hand, trying to pull Xu Yanxi up.Xu Yanxi was unmoved, and Yin Qianran forcibly dragged the young man up. In terms of fighting and strength, Xu Yanxi was never Yin Qianran's opponent. Being pulled up like this forcibly, Xu Yanxi raised her head to face Yin Qianran with anger face, then froze.

On Yin Qianran's face was a deep exhaustion mixed with sad weakness.

Xu Yanxi only felt that his heart was clenched together in pain, Yin Qianran dragged his younger brother up but pushed him under the shower, turned on the water heater and rushed towards the boy.

The gentle hot water washed away the coldness on his body, Xu Yanxi's stiff mind also responded, he let the hot water wash down from his body, recalling what he said just now, he finally couldn't help but tremble all over his body, Yin Qianran He was silent all the time, feeling the temperature of the boy's body began to rise, and wanted to turn around and leave, but Xu Yanxi noticed that the boy stretched out his hand and hugged him tightly as if he hadn't had time to think.

"Sorry……"

Xu Yanxi buried her head in her brother's shoulder, just like when he was a child, she would do this trick when she made a mistake, buried her head in her brother's shoulder and apologized pitifully next to her ear, and then Yin Qianran would do something All forgive him.

Yin Qianran was unmoved, but just let the boy hug him tightly.

"I'm sorry." Xu Yanxi spoke again with a trembling voice, "What I want to say... What I want to say is not at all! No!"

His voice was stained with tears, and the boy anxiously explained——

"What I want to say is why did you send me abroad! Why did you send me to my mother? Is it because I am not good? Is it because I have caused trouble for my brother? Or is it because I think it is more appropriate to stay with my mother?"

Xu Yanxi spoke faster and faster, as if he was afraid that the other party would not listen to him, he cried loudly what was in his heart, on this night that was the same as every day, in this cramped and small bathroom come out--

"But even though I was afraid of being left behind at the beginning, because my mother had a younger brother, I clinged to my brother tightly, but then...but finally..."

Tears fell like a broken thread, Xu Yanxi's voice was choked up, Yin Qianran took a step back, raised his younger brother's face, and saw the young man crying like a child and said the second half of the sentence with tears——

"But in the end, brother, you are, you are the most important person! You are more important than mother. Anyone can leave me behind, but only brother can't leave such an important person as me!"

The young man cried and spoke out his heart so loudly, Yin Qianran felt a lot of self-blame in his heart, and a deep sympathy came from his heart, he stretched out his hand hesitantly and hugged his younger brother back to his arms, Xu Yanxi also calmed down, quietly Weeping softly in his brother's arms.

The hot water from the shower in the bathroom was still bubbling, and after a while, a large, white steam rose up. Yin Qianran's eyes were filled with pain, sadness, and self-blame. In the end, maybe this silent night bewitched people's hearts or something Buried for too long he can no longer hide.He remembered that dream again——

In the dream, there was endless green grass, the sky was blue and sunny, but he lowered his head but was holding flowers in his hands. In the dream, he walked forward as if being guided, and then stopped in front of the tombstone.

That is, whose tombstone?

Who is he visiting?

Who are you paying homage to?

The heart began to twitch, and when he bent down to put the white flowers in front of the tomb, when the flowery smile of the young man on the tombstone and black and white photos came into his eyes, he woke up from the dream, but he woke up like this every night and then closed it Eyes can no longer fall asleep.It seems that he has not woken up from the dream, and he is always trapped in the world that no longer has the boy he loved.

"Xiao Xi..."

Yin Qianran's eyes were as black as ink, he called out the boy's name tremblingly, Xu Yanxi froze for a moment, then raised his head, he wanted to know what explanation the man would give him.

"Why should I...send you abroad?"

Yin Qianran smiled sadly, he bent down, Xu Yanxi felt Yin Qianran's breath getting closer, until there was no gap between him and him.

Yin Qianran didn't close his eyes, and neither did Xu Yanxi, so Yin Qianran saw his brother's wide-open eyes showing an incredible look, and the long eyelashes trembled slightly. Yin Qianran stretched out the tip of his tongue and gently touched his brother's soft lips. Scanning, the taste is what he has longed for countless times, sweeter than he imagined, like a poppy to him, it just bites into the bone marrow with just one touch, it is also... full of despair and hopelessness.

"That's why I sent you away..." Without leaving, he murmured ambiguously between the young man's lips, and the heat from his lips blended with the young man's, looking at them as if they were close lovers .

After Xu Yanxi was surprised in her heart, she also reacted at this moment. First, his face turned pale, and then he realized that the lips of the two were still sticking together, so his face turned red again as if his face had changed. The brain reacted first, and quickly took two steps back. Such an aggressive reaction made him see Yin Qianran's face turn pale, and deep hopelessness appeared in his eyes.

"I... I am your brother..."

Xu Yanxi knew the reason why Yin Qianran alienated him as he wished, but it was really shocking, he pursed his lips, and only said this sentence.

"That's why... that's when I chose to send you away."

Yin Qianran took one last deep look at the boy he loved, and turned to leave. This time the boy didn't reach out to hold him.

When the sound of closing the door outside the house sounded, Xu Yanxi sat down on the ground stupidly, and poured hot water on her body with the shower. His gradually warming body made him feel better.

Because I like it, I stay away from it.

When Xu Yanxi thought of this, a smile slowly appeared on his face, a simple, pure smile without any negative emotions.

Stretching out his hand, his eyelids drooped slightly. At that time, he thought he couldn't grasp anything, but it turns out... There is really a person in this world, you are different in his heart.

The memory of the previous life appeared, why Yin Qianran showed such a desperate expression also has the answer, because——

Xu Yanxi stretched out her hand to cover her heart.

Because, I like it.

Here, Yin Qianran is driving the car, the corners of his mouth are tightly pursed, and his mobile phone is being dialed, and in an apartment in the urban area——

Anya looked at the pair of siblings sitting opposite her. Qin said that he was polite, while Qin Buer's face was full of disdain.

"Human beings are always stupid."

Qin Buer said coldly, Qin said that he turned his face silently, and said weakly: "It's been like this since last month, has it started to be autistic again?"

"Autism?" Anya sneered twice, very dissatisfied with being woken up in the middle of the night, she looked at Qin Shuoyi, and finally came to a conclusion: "I think the kid has reached the age of suffering from the second illness!"

Qin said: "... I'm sorry, sister Anya came to disturb you so late."

"Forget it~" Anya rubbed her head, "I don't blame you, are you worried about my brother?"

Having said that, the mobile phone on the table rang, and after looking at the caller ID, Anya connected: "What do you do at this point—"

"Are you awake? I'm going to find you now."

The man's voice on the other side of the phone was full of forbearable coldness, Anya was stunned, but the man on the other side hung up.

"In the middle of the night...!" Anya rubbed her head with both hands, "You little brats!"

Qin Shuo was also puzzled: "Yin Qianran?"

"It's him..." Anya sighed, "I told you he's not sick, it's just that he's too depressed!"

"Brother Qianran, what's wrong with him?"

It's rare for Yin Qianran to gossip, but Qin Shuoyi couldn't help asking out of curiosity.

"I'm...professional." Anya brushed her hair and gave the little girl an unpredictable smile.

Qin said that she would not leave at all, and she pressed Qin Buer to signal to sit here. Qin Buer didn't listen to anyone but his sister, so she sat on the sofa with her mouth pursed until Yin Qianran arrived.

"Brother Qianran."

Qin Shuoyi shouted obediently, Yin Qianran knew what was going on when he saw Qin Buer was there, but Qin Shuoyi was surprised to see the large water stains on Yin Qianran's body, and his eyes revealed deep exhaustion , it was the first time she saw Yin Qianran in such a mess.

"What's the matter with you?"

Anya held her chin, looked at Yin Qianran and asked.

Yin Qianran looked at Qin Shuoyi, who made a zipper movement with his mouth: "I have a very strict mouth."

Yin Qianran didn't drive the little girl away. In his opinion, Qin Shuoyi was smart, and now she is Xu Yanxi's manager. She would know sooner or later, so he didn't avoid Qin Shuoyi, and told what happened in a calm voice. come out.

Anya was quiet for a while after listening, and then said: "I said, you are not sick, I think it is a good thing for you to explain things thoroughly like this, and..."

Anya looked at Yin Qianran and frowned: "Your brother is not healthy!"

"What do you mean?"

Yin Qianran also frowned, but Qin Shuoyi answered the words. The little girl's eyes were dark, her voice was cold, and she said calmly: "Slightly split personality, slightly paranoid, Xu Yanxi talked to the brother you mentioned in front of me , the performance is basically two people!"

"I..." Yin Qianran sat down on the sofa. This man who has always been steadfast, but at the age of 25 is sitting in the position of a big man in the entertainment industry, has a heartache that can no longer be concealed on his face. so."

"Father died young, mother remarried, and then had a new child, and she was not around all year round." Anya began to calmly analyze, "This kind of environment is easy to create paranoid personality, violent tendencies, or other extremes such as low self-esteem. , depression, etc., but obviously Xu Yanxi's growth environment broke this situation because of your appearance, so she grew up relatively normally—"

Anya paused when she said this, "Although it looks normal on the surface, he was only 14 years old when you sent him away. He was immature both in heart and body, and we generally agree that boys mature late, so You... You pushed Xu Yanxi away while playing the three roles of father, mother, and brother in his life, breaking the child's cognition, and even burying him in his subconscious' sense of insecurity. Inspired, it's no wonder... he lived in such a mess afterwards."

Yin Qianran was silent, Anya looked at the painful breath exuding from the man, thought for a while and then said: "But according to his performance later, I don't know if it was a sudden thought or something happened, anyway, he has almost recovered, but 'Why were you sent away' has always been a thorn in my heart."

"What can I do? What should I do?"

Yin Qianran raised his head, his eyes were deep, and his emotions could not be detected.

Anya smiled: "Love can change everything. Since he is sad because you don't love him, then you can go and love him."

"He only sees me as a brother."

Yin Qianran calmly told the truth.

"Brother?" Anya shrugged, "Lin Shaoyu only regarded Lin Shaofeng as his younger brother at the beginning, and Lin Shaofeng only regarded Lin Shaoyu as his elder brother at the beginning."

"It's man-made." Qin said as soon as he spoke, the girl smiled lightly, but her eyes were slightly foggy, "As long as you are still alive, don't be so useless."

Only death is the deepest despair.

"Four words, draw them slowly." Anya finally concluded, and then got up to see off the guests, "I wish you good luck, and don't come to me at this point in the future! Please make an appointment if you have anything to do!"