[Entertainment Circle] The Road to Rebirth as a Star

ten years

Xu Yanxi is 14 years old this year, which is the age of "a teenager who doesn't know how to feel sad, so he is forced to express his sorrow for new words", so his temperament is as sensitive as a little girl at the moment, so he was the first to find out that something was wrong with Yin Qianran.

"elder brother!"

In the past few days, Yin Qianran could not be found. Finally, when he saw Yin Qianran in the study, Xu Yanxi yelled and rushed forward, hugging his brother from behind.

Yin Qianran was sitting at the desk reading a book, the boy's chest was pressed against him suddenly, and before he could react to the side of his neck, he felt his younger brother's warm exhalation.

"Brother..." Xu Yanxi's voice sounded in my ears, with a little downcast, "You haven't seen anyone lately? Do you... think it's annoying that I keep pestering you..."

Yin Qianran turned his head slightly, the handsome young man's side face in the sunlight was in front of him, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, and his heart trembled when he saw it.

"I..." Yin Qianran opened his mouth, and then he didn't know what to say, what should he say?Say I'm really avoiding you?Because every time I get so close to you, I can't help but want to kiss your forehead, your eyelids, your lips... I want to hold you tightly in my hands.

Lowering his eyes to hide his expression, Yin Qianran replied calmly: "What are you thinking about? Can't you read more when you are in the third grade of junior high school? Go back to your room and read."

In the process of Xu Yanxi's growth, Yin Qianran was not only an elder brother, but also replaced the roles of father and mother. Feeling that Yin Qianran's last words were a little harsh, Xu Yanxi let go of her hand a little awkwardly, and whispered: "I Let's go to study... Brother, don't be angry."

It was not until the sound of closing the door that Yin Qianran let out a barely audible sigh.

After a while, I heard the door of the study room being gently opened, the child Xu Yanxi poked his head in, Yin Qianran turned to look at him, the child pulled out a flattering smile, and raised the textbook in his hand.

"Brother, I won't bother you, I'll just read by your side without making a sound."

Xu Yanxi came over and did not allow Yin Qianran to refuse, so she sat cross-legged on the side of Yin Qianran's chair, opened the book and seemed to memorize it seriously.

Yin Qianran has never been hard on Xu Yanxi since he was a child, let alone now that he has thoughts that he shouldn't have, seeing the child so pitiful, he blamed himself first, and then let Xu Yanxi do what he did.

Time passed silently, and Yin Qianran felt that his younger brother leaned his head on his calf at some point, and after a while, his whole back leaned up. He said in his heart that he would push people away, but he could not bear it in his heart. I couldn't help but feel happy to be able to have such close contact.

The sun was getting west, and the sunlight was not as strong as before. She rubbed her eyes tiredly, Yin Qianran closed the book and lowered her head: "Xiao Xi..."

The second half of the words were hidden in his heart. He saw the young man's face was peaceful, and he was half asleep on his calf.

The light-colored sunlight shrouded this scene through the window lattice, and the time was so quiet at this moment, the older boy watched quietly, even breathing lightly.

Yin Qianran thought, keep it a secret, don't say anything you like or love.

It's like I never found out that I like him.

That way, you can always, always, always be by his side.

But "love" seems to be a sin in itself.

When this person is around, it is no longer enough to just have you by my side.

Xu Yanxi has always been entangled with Yin Qianran, and there are countless petty gestures between the two brothers. Why is Xu Yanxi subconsciously lying in her brother's arms while sitting on the sofa watching TV, sleeping with her brother during holidays, and also likes to hug her? Looking at his brother, these actions that he didn't care about before now seem to Yin Qianran, who has just fallen in love with someone, a painful and sweet torture.

He wants more, when this person is around, he wants to hug, when he can hug, he wants to kiss, when he can kiss—

I hope that you like me too... okay?

The boy's liking is clean and simple, but it also becomes more intense in getting along day after day. At first, it seems that he just likes you, but every second he likes you more than the previous second. So many little likes accumulate together , Yin Qianran was already on the brink of collapse.

At the end of the summer vacation, Yin Qianran finally couldn't bear it anymore when his younger brother's classmates left home.

"I saw that girl in the back garden just now."

Xu Yanxi sent her classmates away, and subconsciously wanted to sit next to Yin Qianran when she came back, when she heard her brother say this.

"That girl..." Xu Yanxi understood as soon as she thought about it, the child didn't understand anything and explained with a bit of complacency and showing off: "Brother, that's the class flower of our class, she actually just told me in the garden Confession~"

Yin Qianran's pupils were dark, he turned his head to stare at Xu Yanxi, the child's brows and eyes were growing day by day, although he was still childish, most of his handsome face had been revealed, no wonder...they would like it too.

But it's really annoying... It's as if my treasure is being coveted by others. He is obviously the first one I like, and I grew up with him. He is my Xiao Xi...

Xu Yanxi didn't know what his brother was thinking, and was still chattering, but Yin Qianran interrupted: "Do you like her?"

Xu Yanxi was asked this way, after all, it was the first time he was confessed by someone, and his brother asked him so directly, so he blushed slowly, he glanced at his brother's handsome face, somehow felt that Banhua was not as good-looking as his brother , there was no time to answer Yin Qianran's question.

Yin Qianran misunderstood, thinking that his younger brother was acquiescing, and said sternly almost uncontrollably: "What kind of mess do you go to school every day? Do you just think about it if you don't study hard! Do you know what liking is?"

Xu Yanxi, who was completely confused by the sudden criticism, was stunned for a moment, Xu Yanxi was only 14, she was sentimental, and she was more bloody as a teenager, the child immediately went back: "This holiday you let me learn, Learn, learn! Do you think I can’t feel it! You are obviously avoiding me! If you think I’m annoying, tell me, I don’t want to stay with you! I’m going to Europe to find my mother! She’s the only one in the world. The one who loves me the most!"

As soon as these words came out, Xu Yanxi was stunned for a while, and he immediately regretted it in his heart. He looked at his brother with some hesitation, but he saw an expression in his brother's eyes that he couldn't understand when he got up.

Yin Qianran turned around and left, with deep tiredness and sadness in his eyes, Xu Yanxi took two steps forward, stretched out his hand, and when he was about to grab the corner of his brother's clothes, he heard his brother's voice: "Go to Europe, don't stay In the country."

The edge of the hem of the clothes flicked, until the figure of the elder brother disappeared, the little boy was still standing there, staring blankly at his empty palm.

He didn't catch anything after all.

Xu Yanxi has always been well-behaved, many times she would take the initiative to apologize to her brother if she really made a mistake, anyway, she would forgive her if she acted coquettishly.But after all, it is a boy, and the stubbornness and stubbornness that a boy should have can't be stopped no matter what.

He felt that what he said was wrong, but Yin Qianran was also wrong... He didn't have a father, and his mother wasn't around since he was a child. He was more sensitive than anyone else, and his brother was indeed avoiding him.

There is no reason other than boredom.

What Xu Yanxi didn't expect was that Yin Qianran actually contacted his mother. At the end of the month, he would pack his luggage and go to England to study.

On the day of boarding and leaving, Yin Qianran didn't go to see off the children. They haven't said anything since that day, and the occasional words are also cold and without substance.

Early in the morning, Yin Qianran saw Xu Yanxi pulling the suitcase to leave, but he still couldn't hold back. He had a lot to say, but in the end he just silently said: "Go there and take care of yourself."

Xu Yanxi paused, but there was no response. He wanted to hear his brother say - can he stay?

Xu Yanxi thought, I have already thought about the answer.

Well, then I will reluctantly stay with you.

But he didn't ask that, but he said that, isn't it just that he is being affectionate...

And what Xu Yanxi didn't expect was that he had been away for five years.

When I first arrived in the UK, my mother was very close to me for the first few days, as if I was missing and wanted to make up for it. But later in the new family, Yin Shenggang’s stepfather, younger brother Yin Qianfeng, my mother became more intimate with my younger brother, and the relationship between the three With tacit understanding and inseparable family affection, Xu Yanxi found that he was already an outsider, even though it was his mother, but this was not his home.

Reluctant to live at home anymore, he went to boarding school because he wanted to improve his English and make friends. As a result, the cultural difference and his lack of proficiency in English made this 14-year-old boy understand loneliness.

In less than a month, Xu Yanxi finally couldn't bear to call Yin Qianran in the middle of the night. He wanted to apologize and tell his brother that he loved his brother the most in this world. He wanted to return to his brother. I want to go home……

The young man let go of his obstinacy, and made this transatlantic phone call full of sadness, loneliness and profound four years, but when he was talking about it with all his heart, what he heard was the man saying, "What were you talking about just now? I'm very busy now. , I will call you back later."

Such a reply was followed by a hung up call.

Xu Yanxi pulled out the phone card and broke it off. When he did this, his eyes were deep and heavy. The 14-year-old child looked at him with a sense of sadness and determination.

Five years later, Yin Qianran received a call from Xu Meiqi, who wanted to send Xu Yanxi back to China, and hoped that he could discipline her.

Yin Qianran was still puzzled at the beginning, why did he say the word "discipline", when he went to the UK and was led into the nightclub by Xu Meiqi, when he saw the boy's sloppy smile in the clouds, he silently walked forward and told the boy he had only seen in five years The younger brother dragged him back home several times, and beat Xu Meiqi severely in front of her.Although the method was rough, Xu Meiqi agreed, and when she returned to China, the child Xu Yanxi was sitting next to her.

He wanted to say something to Xu Yanxi, but the young man was only wearing earphones, and heavy metal rock music faintly leaked out, which showed that the other party had no intention of communicating with him.

Yin Qianran was in a daze, vaguely remembering that it was only yesterday, that little child was still timidly hiding behind his father, shouting in a low voice——

brother.