[Entertainment Circle] The Road to Rebirth as a Star

"Xiao Xi, what's wrong with you?"

Yin Qianran was busy with the follow-up work of the draft until midnight. Right now, he just came out of the company when he received a call from Xu Yanxi.

"Xiao Xi?"

Yin Qianran asked again, and then he heard a "click".

It was the sound of tears falling.

It was the sound of crying.

"--elder brother."

Yin Qianran clenched the phone tightly with five fingers, and heard the boy shouting with trembling voice.

Under the midsummer night sky, at midnight when everything is silent, the streets are empty, only the street lamps are shining faintly yellow.The sound of "brother" came from the mobile phone.

I wonder if the sound transmitted by electromagnetic waves will be distorted?

But in the empty streets, the boy's voice seemed to be stained with the loneliness of midnight.Yin Qianran was a little dazed, he was thinking that it was just yesterday, the boy was still a little child and he called out "Brother" in a vague voice, but it was today again, his eyebrows and eyes were delicate but his face was alienated, he was no longer the one who was attached to his brother. child.

The heart seemed to be tightly grasped by a big hand, and there was bone-piercing pain, and he wanted to say something with difficulty, but someone hung up the phone first.Seeing that the light on the screen had gone out, the corners of Yin Qianran's mouth were tightly pursed, making his handsome face look as cold as a knife's edge, firm and stubborn.

At this moment in Weiyi's apartment, Xu Yanxi hung up the phone, wiped the tears off his face sullenly, sniffed his nose, ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror, the boy's face in the mirror was pale, with red eye circles Then, he turned on the faucet and washed his face with running water. When he raised his head, he saw drops of water dripping down from the boy's face in the mirror.

"What are you sad about? It's so ugly."

Looking at the young man's face in the mirror, she murmured to herself with a trembling voice, Xu Yanxi closed her eyes and wiped her face, then opened her eyes and there was water on her hands, and water on her face, so she wiped her face like this There are still drops of water on the face, one by one, some slipping from the corners of the eyes, so it looks like it is still crying.

Her heart couldn't stop trembling, Xu Yanxi nervously looked at the mirror and began to smile, simple smile, polite smile, gentle smile, naughty smile, naughty smile... Finally, the picture that was frozen in the mirror Laughing finally satisfied him deeply.

A decadent and lazy, empty and endlessly depraved laugh.

The boy's clean and handsome face became dangerous and depraved because of this smile. No one would think that he was a simple, pure and beautiful boy when he saw such a smile.

who is he?Xu Yanxi propped his hands on the pool, his stomach was already throbbing, but his face was still smiling, he thought, he is Xu Yanxi, Xu Ershao, a playboy, a nightclub addicted to racing, a depraved Xu who has no pursuit Yan Xi.

he is--

Xu Yanxi closed her eyes, slid down along the pool and sat down on the cold floor covered with white tiles.

The hopeless smile on his face faded away, the self-mockery, indifference, playfulness and decadence all faded away, Xu Yanxi tightly pursed her mouth while clutching her stomach that started to convulse, but her eyes were full of tears. Sadness.

He finally knows what he is.

He is a coward.He was a coward who looked at his mother and another man talking and laughing at Yan Yan, showed a soft expression to his younger brother and chose to pretend not to see and pretend not to be sad, and then pestered his elder brother.

He is a coward.The coward who relied on his brother as if he was saving his life was the coward who lied to himself that "it's fine to have only a brother without a mother".

He is a coward.Those cowards who want to yell at your brother so much, as long as you say "stay and I will never leave" but never dare to yell.

Xu Yanxi wanted to curl the corners of his mouth into a smile, but no matter how hard he tried, the corners of his mouth turned downward, he couldn't smile, his existence was really ridiculous, Xu Yanxi thought to himself.

I fell because I wanted you to see me.Because you are the elder brother who watched me and disciplined me growing up, so you will get angry when you fall, and you will bring me back to your side.With such thoughts in mind, he degenerates into self-deception, and finally loses his life in the end.

This is me, the ridiculous me, the cowardly me.

Xu Yanxi lowered his head. He felt that his body, which hadn't been addicted to drugs for a long time, began to ache and wanted to twitch again. There seemed to be hallucinations coming from his eyes and ears. He seemed to see the girl named Mu Ke on stage. The admiral buried his face deeply in his hands and wept.

In a blink of an eye, the one crying on the flickering and noisy stage became him.

Xu Yanxi blinked, and he suddenly sang in a low voice——

"Did the little girl in my dream grow up/

Is the world still a fairy tale/

Is the dreamer still there/

Time does its magic/

.../

You say the world is not a fairy tale/

always love to teach me/

Why don't you grow up/

......"

Yin Qianran took the electronic card from the dormitory manager, and when he entered the room, what he heard in the silent night was the boy singing in such a low voice with vibrato.

He even forgot to turn on the light, and took advantage of the light from the window to run to the bathroom. The moonlight and light outside the house passed through a small window in the bathroom, allowing Yin Qianran to barely see Xu Yanxi who was sitting on the ground by the sink .

"Xiao Xi?!"

Yin Qianran was anxious, so he walked over and knelt down, the coldness of the floor instantly spread from his knees to the nerve-chilling wit, Yin Qianran stretched out his hand to touch his younger brother's cheek with distress and anxiety.

The hands were cold and damp, and Xu Yanxi also stopped humming softly. In the dark, Yin Qianran saw that the young man seemed to tilt his head, and asked suspiciously: "Brother?"

"It's me, it's my brother." Yin Qianran leaned forward, hugged his younger brother tightly, and said in a soft tone.

The boy in his arms froze, Xu Yanxi seemed to have reacted, and pushed Yin Qianran away, leaving Yin Qianran's embrace Xu Yanxi said hoarsely: "You—"

Xu Yanxi just said a word, but he didn't know what to say. He lowered his head weakly, and could only choose to remain silent.

"Xiao Xi, get up and go back to bed first." Sensing the abnormality of the young man's spirit at this time, Yin Qianran said cautiously.The air conditioner in the house was already turned on, and the temperature was adjusted to a very low level. The young man sat on the ground in thin clothes for an unknown amount of time. His body was icy, which made Yin Qianran feel distressed.

"hypocritical."

When Xu Yanxi opened his mouth, Yin Qianran opened his eyes wide. His eyes, which were used to the darkness, seemed to see a sarcastic smile on the boy's face, revealing that he hadn't seen him for a long, long time. That year Xu Meiqi called him to England in a nightclub. A lazy and decadent smile revealed in the confusion.

"You obviously hate me, don't you?"

With such a smile, Xu Yanxi spoke.

"The oil bottle brought by the stepmother made you only a few years older than me but you have to take on the chores of taking care of the children. You are obviously annoyed to death, but you still have to act like a good brother. After that, I was finally sent out. Guo, do you feel the relief of 'ah! It's so relaxing, the troublesome kid has finally been sent back to his mother', so..." Xu Yanxi laughed twice, "You just pretend What a good brother!"

The blood in Yin Qianran's whole body was like falling ice in an instant, he trembled his lips and wanted to explain something, he never knew Xu Yanxi would think like this, Yin Qianran moved his lips but in the end he didn't say anything.

He just stood up silently and turned on the bathroom light with a "click", then walked back to Xu Yanxi's side, bent down and stretched out his hand, trying to pull Xu Yanxi up.Xu Yanxi was unmoved, and Yin Qianran forcibly dragged the young man up. In terms of fighting and strength, Xu Yanxi was never Yin Qianran's opponent. Being pulled up like this forcibly, Xu Yanxi raised her head to face Yin Qianran with anger face, then froze.

On Yin Qianran's face was a deep exhaustion mixed with sad weakness.

Xu Yanxi only felt that his heart was clenched together in pain, but Yin Qianran dragged his brother up but pushed him down under the shower, turned on the water heater and rushed down towards the boy.

The gentle hot water washed away the coldness on his body, Xu Yanxi's stiff mind also responded, he let the hot water wash down from his body, recalling what he said just now, he finally couldn't help but tremble all over his body, Yin Qianran He was silent all the time, feeling the temperature of the boy's body began to rise, and wanted to turn around and leave, but Xu Yanxi noticed that the boy stretched out his hand and hugged him tightly as if he hadn't had time to think.

"Sorry……"

Xu Yanxi buried her head in her brother's shoulder, just like when he was a child, she would do this trick when she made a mistake, buried her head in her brother's shoulder and apologized pitifully next to her ear, and then Yin Qianran would do something All forgive him.

Yin Qianran was unmoved, but just let the boy hug him tightly.

"I'm sorry." Xu Yanxi spoke again with a trembling voice, "What I want to say... What I want to say is not at all! No!"

His voice was stained with tears, and the boy anxiously explained——

"What I want to say is why did you send me abroad! Why did you send me to my mother? Is it because I am not good? Is it because I have caused trouble for my brother? Or is it because I think it is more appropriate to stay with my mother?"

Xu Yanxi spoke faster and faster, as if he was afraid that the other party would not listen to him, he cried loudly what was in his heart, on this night that was the same as every day, in this cramped and small bathroom come out--

"But even though I was afraid of being left behind at the beginning, because my mother had a younger brother, I clinged to my brother tightly, but then...but finally..."

Tears fell like a broken thread, Xu Yanxi's voice was choked up, Yin Qianran took a step back, raised his younger brother's face, and saw the young man crying like a child and said the second half of the sentence with tears——

"But in the end, brother, you are, you are the most important person! You are more important than mother. Anyone can leave me behind, but only brother can't leave such an important person as me!"

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