Did the same table use the beauty meter today?

Cheng Mo's voice trembled slightly, Sheng Yan's heart tightened, he had never seen such a fragile side of Cheng Mo.

Regarding the "death" in Cheng Mo's words, Sheng Yan certainly would not think that this meant that Cheng Mo killed his grandma, not only because Cheng Mo's mother said just now that Cheng Mo's grandma committed suicide, but also because he loved Cheng Mo. Therefore, Cheng Mo said this only because he attributed the cause of his grandma's suicide to himself.

No wonder Cheng Mo's reaction was so intense after hearing what Cheng Mo's mother said, this was Cheng Mo's knot in his heart.

After thinking about this point clearly, Sheng Yan's anger towards Cheng Mo escalated several times.

Suppressing the anger in his heart, Sheng Yan unconsciously clenched Cheng Mo's hand, and said softly: "At the same table, she committed suicide, right?"

After Cheng Mo said that, he fell silent again. He had been avoiding recalling the situation that day, but the harder he suppressed, the more violent the rebound was. that ward.

The snow-white walls, the pungent smell of potion, the sound of footsteps coming from the corridor, and... the smell of blood lingering in the nostrils.

Cheng Mo would have a nightmare for a long time, and the scene in the dream was like this, but there was no other person holding his hand in the dream.

So Sheng Yan's consolation was effective. Cheng Mo closed his eyes and forced himself to focus on Sheng Yan. Hearing Sheng Yan's words, he nodded slightly.

"So it has nothing to do with you..."

Cheng Mo shook his head before Sheng Yan finished speaking, he interrupted Sheng Yan: "I can stop it..."

At the end of the speech, Cheng felt the pressure in his heart suddenly loosen. This matter has been pressing on his heart. He has tried to resolve himself many times, but he has no way to convince him other than experiencing the inner torment over and over again. put yourself down.

Rationality and sensibility, he completely favored the latter in this matter.

He actually needs someone to confide in.

"I was at school when she tried suicide for the first time. If Aunt Zhang hadn't just visited my house that day, she would have succeeded that time..." Cheng Mo's lips were very pale. Tell others.

At that time, the end of the term was approaching, and all subjects had entered the review stage. Hengzhong had very strict requirements for learning, and it was even tighter as the end of the term approached, so when the head teacher told him to go to the office when he was still in class, he had a bad feeling.

Hearing the news of Ms. Hu's suicide from the head teacher, Cheng Mo's first reaction was disbelief. In his heart, Ms. Hu is not a weak person, but the head teacher would not joke about such things with him, and then Aunt Zhang called The phone call also confirmed this.

Cheng Mo hadn't digested the news on the way to the hospital. He didn't believe the fact until he saw Ms. Hu pushed out of the emergency room with his own eyes.

Fortunately, Aunt Zhang found out in time, and she came back from the first rescue, and Cheng Mo stayed with her in the hospital for the next few days.That was probably the longest time he and Ms. Hu had spent face to face. Most of the time in the past, they were busy with their own affairs in their own rooms, tacitly not disturbing each other. Knowing that Ms. Hu actually didn't want to live long ago.

It was the first time he saw such a crazy Ms. Hu.

In the hospital, Ms. Hu did not give up suicide. She went on a hunger strike, ripped off the drip, secretly hid the ceramic tiles and cut her wrists... As long as Cheng Mo didn't pay attention, she would try her best to harm herself.

Those Tian Chengmos watched her almost every step of the way, no matter how sleepy he was at night, he would only dare to squint for a while, and would wake up immediately, and then just to make sure that Ms. Hu did not harm herself while he was asleep.

Ever since she was a child, Cheng Mo has always been very serious about what she wants to do. It may be the first time for Ms. Hu to intuitively feel Cheng Mo's seriousness and perseverance, as well as the "excellence" she has heard countless times from others.

With Cheng Mo around, she couldn't find a chance to commit suicide at all.

"That afternoon, she took the initiative to speak for the first time since she committed suicide." Cheng Mo didn't know how bad his face was now. He paused for a moment before continuing, "She begged me...to let her go..."

At the end of these six words, it was extremely difficult. He hadn't slept well for several days at that time, and his energy was already extremely weak, but he encountered the most difficult problem.

He wondered if he had done something wrong.Ms. Hu didn't want to live, but he forced her to live.

He thinks that life is precious, even if he wants to give up the pain for a while, but no one knows what will happen in the future. Maybe the pain at that time is just a trivial matter in retrospect, so at least keep the possibility of leading to the future, at least when it happens to him. In front of him, he will do his best to stop it.

It was hard to sort out his thoughts, but before Cheng Mo could speak to persuade him, Ms. Hu's next sentence nailed him in place.

"If it wasn't for you, I would have committed suicide the year your father left. After so many years, I'm really tired. Please let me go..."

Cheng Mo was stunned, and he immediately understood that the meaning revealed in this sentence was that he caused Ms. Hu to live in pain for so long.

It turned out that Ms. Hu begged him to let her go, not only because he prevented her from committing suicide these days, but also because he had tortured Ms. Hu for so many years before he knew it. Should he continue?

It turned out that in Ms. Hu's heart, he was torture and pain.

"I didn't guard her that night..." Cheng Mo said.

Sheng Yan immediately understood the meaning of this sentence, he hurriedly interrupted Cheng Mo, and did not let Cheng Mo continue: "At the same table, no one can stop a person who really wants to commit suicide, you can't keep guarding her Yes, even if you guard her that night, she can find other opportunities, so this matter has nothing to do with you, don't attribute the reason to yourself, understand?"

Sheng Yan was a little anxious when he said this, and he was even a little incoherent. Now he couldn't tell whether he felt more distressed or more angry. After going through this kind of thing, it was too cruel to Cheng Mo, except for emphasizing this matter over and over again. Except that it's okay, he has no idea how to comfort Cheng Mo.

Cheng Mo is an extremely rational person. He actually knew what Sheng Yan said, but the negative emotions at that time had too much impact on him. What's more, he really "watched" Ms. Hu's life helplessly. Lost, he couldn't do it without blaming himself.

"That night, I didn't fall asleep..." Cheng Mo forced himself to recall the situation that day.

He was lying on the accompanying bed in the ward, less than one meter away from Ms. Hu's bed. At that time, he was actually exhausted, and his body was so sleepy that he could fall asleep by sticking to the bed, but in fact his spirit was so tense. extreme.

He knew what was coming.

Cheng Mo kept paying attention to Ms. Hu's movements when he closed his eyes and curled up under the quilt. In fact, the hospital was not very quiet at night, but Cheng Mo felt that it was terribly quiet that night. He seemed to be thinking about a lot of things. He seemed to be thinking about nothing, his thinking was unprecedentedly chaotic, he didn't even know what he was doing.

What woke him up was the smell of blood that began to diffuse at some point. When Cheng Mo began to notice that it was the smell of blood, the smell was already terrifyingly strong. He opened his eyes suddenly and was completely stunned. He didn't know What should he do, but when he realized it again, he hurried to press the call bell.

The nurse rushed over quickly, and Ms. Hu was pushed into the emergency room again. Cheng Mo did not follow. He stood where he was, staring at the blood-soaked hospital bed in a daze.

"It was not rescued that time." Cheng Mo said, he didn't realize that he was shaking slightly.

Having already guessed the result, Sheng Yan sighed in his heart, and lightly patted Cheng Mo on the shoulder: "You have tried your best, so you don't need to blame yourself."

It was too cruel, whether it was what Cheng Mo's grandma said, or letting Cheng Mo witness the suicide of his relatives, it was too cruel to Cheng Mo.

Words became pale at this moment, no matter what he said, he couldn't undo the harm this incident brought to Cheng Mo.

No wonder Cheng Mo's insomnia was so severe.

Sheng Yan closed his eyes and gently hugged Cheng Mo.

"Hello, Brother Sheng?" Sun Xiaofei immediately put up a flattering smile when he received the call from Sheng Yan, pointed to the mobile phone, and then quickly broke out from the encirclement of the uncle and aunt, "Don't worry, Liang Zi and Da Qian have already gone Find other places nearby that are suitable for confession, and conduct a field investigation, this time there will be absolutely nothing wrong!"

"No need for now." Sheng Yan rubbed his brows, thinking of the scene he saw in Yuehu Park before he came to find Cheng Mo gave him another headache. There was a sunset red dating agency, and a holy place for grandpas and aunts to exercise. I can't even imagine the scene of confession accompanied by the bgm of the square dance.

But the most important thing now is not confession. Sheng Yan glanced back at Cheng Mo's door and asked Sun Xiaofei, "Are you still in Yuehu Park?"

Seeing the situation in Yuehu Park, Sheng Yan was so angry that he called Sun Xiaofei to come and see by himself. At that time, the grandparents were going to move out the equipment for square dancing at night, so he simply asked Sun Xiaofei to stay there to help up.

"Yes, yes," Sun Xiaofei wiped the sweat from his forehead, "Volunteering activities deeply implement the good qualities of socialist successors."

"Are you done with your work?" Sheng Yan asked.

"It's coming, what's the matter?" Sun Xiaofei faintly felt that something was wrong with Sheng Yan, he almost messed up Sheng Yan's confession, he was always terrified, thinking that Brother Sheng would dislike him for several days, In the end, Sheng Yan didn't seem to intend to argue with him anymore?

"Don't worry about the confession, let Liang Zi and the others stop busy, are you free? Go to the pharmacy and buy some antipyretics for me, and then go to the supermarket to buy some vegetables." Sheng Yan said.

"Stop confessing?!" Sun Xiaofei asked in surprise.

"Let's talk about it in a few days." Sheng Yan felt that this matter needs a long-term plan. He was out for a long time, and he was a little worried, so he didn't explain much, "I'll send you the things I want to buy and the address later, first of all, hang up gone."

After returning to the room, Sheng Yan was relieved to see that Cheng Mo was still sleeping. He gently sat down beside the bed and continued to watch over Cheng Mo.

The matter of Ms. Hu's suicide has been on Cheng Mo's mind for too long. After talking with Sheng Yan today, the tight string in Cheng Mo's heart finally really loosened.

After Sheng Yan listened to Cheng Mo's words, he didn't say anything to comfort him. He just hugged Cheng Mo quietly, which was the most powerful comfort for Cheng Mo. Leaning on Sheng Yan, the spirit slowly relaxed.

When Sheng Yan found out, Cheng Mo had already fallen asleep leaning on his shoulder. His first reaction was to breathe a sigh of relief, and then he couldn't laugh or cry.

Sending Cheng Mo to the bed, Sheng Yan sat on the side and watched over him. He didn't really understand the cause of Cheng Mo's insomnia until today, so he didn't dare to leave Cheng Mo alone.

I don't know if it's because I forcibly turned out the memories I've been unwilling to face today, Cheng Mo slept very restlessly, her brows were tightly furrowed when she fell asleep, and she also had the problem of kicking the quilt.

It's not the first time that Cheng Mo sleeps with Cheng Mo. Sheng Yan knows that Cheng Mo often sleeps restlessly, but it's the first time he sees Cheng Mo sleeping so dishonestly that he almost fights with the quilt.After pulling Cheng Mo's quilt for the fifth time, Sheng Yan stretched his hand and tried Cheng Mo's forehead.

Somewhat hot.

Sheng Yan frowned suddenly. He searched the room but found no medicine box. He was worried about leaving Cheng Mo at home alone. Thinking that Sun Xiaofei was in Yuehu Park nearby, he got up and went out to give Sun Xiaofei On the phone, they haven't had dinner yet, so they simply asked Sun Xiaofei to buy some food by the way.

Sitting beside Cheng Mo's bed, thinking of what he knew today, Sheng Yan couldn't help but sigh, feeling unspeakably distressed.

Those ghosts and monsters should stay away from his deskmate.

Sheng Yan asked himself in his heart, if the person who will accompany Cheng Mo for the rest of his life is not him, is he really relieved?Before today, what Sheng Yan asked was "whether you are willing or not", but after today, he cared more about "whether you can let go".

the answer is negative.

He was worried.

There are enough bad people and bad things he has encountered at the same table.

He doesn't worry about anyone but himself.

Cheng Mo didn't sleep for a long time. When he woke up, Sheng Yan had just soaked up the anti-fever medicine. Seeing that he woke up, Sheng Yan's eyes lit up, and he immediately sat down with the medicine: "At the same table, are you awake?"

Cheng Mo woke up at just the right time, otherwise Sheng Yan planned to wake Cheng Mo up to take medicine.

Cheng Mo was still burning, his mind was a little confused, he just looked at Sheng Yan without blinking, a little dazed.

Sheng Yan couldn't help laughing: "Sleep after drinking the medicine."

His thoughts were in a mess, Cheng Mo was thinking about when he fell asleep, but before he could figure it out, after hearing Sheng Yan's words, the thinking in his mind was interrupted, and he sat up and took the medicine in Sheng Yan's hand and drank it.

The taste of the medicine was not much better, Cheng Mo just frowned, the cup in his hand was taken away, and then something was stuffed into his mouth, he opened his mouth to take it, the sweet juice overflowed in his mouth, the smell of medicine Without it, he realized that Sheng Yan stuffed him with peeled oranges.

"You have a fever, take the medicine and sleep again. I'll cook first, and I'll call you when I'm ready." Sheng Yan's slightly cool palm pressed his forehead when he said this, and the temperature directly spread to Cheng Mo's heart.

Cheng Mo was still a little confused about the situation, but he was instinctively willing to listen to Sheng Yan, so he pulled the quilt and lay down.

But she didn't close her eyes, she still stared at Sheng Yan intently.

Sheng Yan helped him pull up the quilt, then pulled a chair and sat down beside him: "I'll cook after you fall asleep."

Cheng Mo nodded belatedly, then closed his eyes.

When he woke up again, he felt much better, his mind was no longer in chaos, he remembered Sheng Yan's words, and guessed that his fever should have subsided by now.

Sheng Yan was not in the room when he woke up this time, Cheng Mo remembered the past and froze all over.

It was very late now, but there was a small light in the room, which was the one Sheng Yan gave him before. With this light, the room was not too dark, which inexplicably made Cheng Mo feel at ease.

He stared at the lamp for a while, recalling what Sheng Yan said before falling asleep, the uneasiness in his heart subsided a little.There was a glass of water on the bedside table, he didn't put it there, so it could only be Sheng Yan, Cheng Mo picked it up and drank it, and went directly downstairs, he heard the voice from the kitchen, made up his mind, walked to the door, and sure enough I saw Sheng Yan busy inside.

Cheng Mo didn't go in, he rarely had the opportunity to stand and watch other people cooking, every time he saw Sheng Yan busy in the kitchen, he would feel a different kind of warmth, this feeling is very comfortable , I couldn't understand it before meeting Sheng Yan.

At this time, Sheng Yan also noticed him, and looked back at him with a smile on his lips: "It's so late, are you hungry?"

Then he came over and touched Cheng Mo's forehead with the back of his hand, relieved: "The fever is gone."

Cheng Mo shook his head, walked over, and stood beside Sheng Yan.

He likes to be next to Shengyan.

Sheng Yan still remembered Cheng Mo's attitude of wanting to be as far away from the pot as possible when he cooked dumplings for Cheng Mo in the past. Now that Cheng Mo took the initiative to rub over, he found it very interesting and smiled deeply in his eyes, but he didn't say anything. Still reluctant to tease Cheng Mo.

For dinner, they simply cooked two home-cooked dishes. They said very little today, but they didn't feel embarrassed. They ate, cleaned up the dishes, and sat on the sofa to watch TV. They showed a self-contained tacit understanding in every move.

Sheng Yan randomly tuned a station as the background sound. He sat next to Cheng Mo and took out his mobile phone: "At the same table, do you remember what you promised before the exam?"

Cheng Mo looked back from the TV and saw that Sheng Yan clicked on the class group, and the news in it flashed quickly, Cheng Mo watched it for a while before realizing that the class group was correcting the answer.

He remembered what he had promised.

Looking at his eyes, Sheng Yan knew that he remembered this, and the corner of his mouth curled up: "It was agreed at the beginning, if I do well in the exam, Teacher Cheng will give me a reward, as long as it is not too much, any reward is fine. Didn't come out, or Teacher Cheng first set a standard of 'good test'?"

Cheng Mo didn't think about going back on what he agreed to, but Sheng Yan cared so much about this reward that he was a little uncertain, and he always felt that Sheng Yan was holding back.

Sheng Yan took out a pen and paper, wrote down six subjects, and generously pushed the pen and paper to Cheng Mo: "Teacher Cheng decides how many points are considered good in the exam."

Cheng Mo took the pen in a daze, followed Sheng Yan's words and began to estimate Sheng Yan's results in this exam, and rewarding him would not be a bad thing anyway, even if Sheng Yan was trying to tease him, it was actually nothing.

Cheng Mo was actually very clear about how Sheng Yan was doing. He recalled the exam questions, and he could roughly estimate Sheng Yan's grade range. He hesitated for a while, and wrote down a few more conservative scores.

Sheng Yan raised his eyebrows slightly, and couldn't help being in a good mood: "Mr. Cheng, are you underestimating me or are you deliberately letting me get a reward?"

Cheng Mo's mood today was actually not very good, and now he listened to Sheng Yan's gags and finally got rid of some heaviness in his heart. He knew that Sheng Yan did it on purpose, and his heart was slightly warm, so he also hooked the corners of his mouth, which is rare Made a joke: "Our family prefers encouraging education."

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