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He didn't see Liu Yan when he walked out of the school gate, Cheng Mo's high-suspended heart slowly sank a little, he sent a message to Li Chengfei, telling Li Chengfei not to come to school, and go directly to the community where his home is located.

Sitting on the bus home, Cheng Mo was still wondering why Liu Yan insisted on seeing him.According to Li Chengfei, Liu Yan might not even have time to deal with her own affairs recently, how could she still have the energy to trouble him in this situation?

Cheng Mo subconsciously thought of the sentence that Liu Yan had repeatedly said in the message he sent him, "Why are you angry at your brother?"

Could it be Li Qi?

Cheng Mo frowned, at this moment he suddenly felt a little stuffy in his head.

The smell in the car is always unpleasant, and it is even more unacceptable for people with motion sickness. Cheng Mo squeezed the space between his eyebrows, took out a mask from his school bag and put it on.

In the smelly compartment, the mask actually had little effect, and the unpleasant smell still lingered in the nose, but there was some comfort in my heart, at least it wouldn't make Cheng Mo feel unbearable to breathe.

If Li Qi said something in front of Liu Yan...

Cheng Mo and Li Qi are actually not close friends, and Li Qi is only two years younger than him. Although Cheng Mo has known Li Qi's existence since he can remember, he has learned most of the news about Li Qi from Ms. Hu.

When I met Li Qi for the first time, Cheng Mo was already in the third year of junior high school. At that time, Li Qi had just entered junior high school and was admitted to the same school as him.

Cheng Mo's personality has always been relatively cold. Although the relationship with other classmates in junior high school was not as rigid as it is in high school now, it was also very ordinary. He was used to being alone. The first time he met Li Qi was on his way home.

In the past few days, Cheng Mo always felt that someone was following him behind him. After making sure, he took a detour to find a way to lure that person out. The first time he saw someone, he recognized that it was Li Qi.

They look alike.

When they met for the first time, they just looked at each other without speaking. Li Qi stared at him for a long time, and then ran away.

Cheng Mo didn't really care much about this younger brother who only existed in Ms. Hu's mouth and in the phone calls Liu Yan called him, but obviously everyone believed that he would care a lot. During that time, Ms. Hu talked to him a lot. , It’s all about Li Qi, ask him if he has met Li Qi, whether he admires Li Qi, and whether he wants to have his mother by his side like Li Qi.

Cheng Mo answered truthfully.

seen.Not envious.In no mood.

Ms. Hu is actually dissatisfied with this answer, but she won't show it. She just talks to him less than before.

Cheng Mo was particularly sensitive to Ms. Hu's attitude. He became more silent than before and talked less.

After Li Qi and him studied in the same school, Liu Yan called him more and more. Sometimes she just cared about his life, and sometimes she asked him how he and Li Qi got along.

At that time, Liu Yan was not too crazy, the call just made Cheng Mo feel a little annoying, not to the extent that he wanted to block the number as soon as he saw Liu Yan's call.

The change probably started from the second meeting between him and Li Qi.

He accidentally ran into someone fighting in the corner of the street and was about to leave when he suddenly saw Li Qi among the fighters.

At that time, Li Qi was very thin and not tall, and his nose was bruised and his face was swollen by a group of gangsters.

Cheng Mo stopped when he was about to leave, it was the first time in his life that he was nosy.

It was his first time fighting, and he didn't know the skills at all. He learned how to punch from observing the movements of those gangsters on the spot. Probably the strict exercise plan that Ms. Hu made for him since childhood was still useful. He didn't let him fight this time He was too weak in the fight, but his injuries were not serious. He was worried about what to say if Ms. Hu asked me when he got home, when he heard someone shouting "Brother".

Cheng Mo realized that it was Li Qi who was taken aback when he called him, but before he could feel a little warmth belonging to his relatives, what Li Qi said next was like a gust of cold wind in the severe winter, blowing straight to him .

"I really hate you," Li Qi showed a disgusted expression, "It would be great if you died."

That was the first time Cheng Mo directly felt the distortion and madness of Li Qi and Liu Yan.

He stood there in a daze for a moment, the waves in his eyes caused by Li Qi's "brother" gradually dissipated, then he turned and left without saying anything.

Cheng Mo's worry was unnecessary, Ms. Hu didn't ask anything when she saw the wound on his face.

In fact, Ms. Hu has always been like this. She raised Cheng Mo as if she was completing a task, earnestly, but not emotionally involved.It's like she will formulate a scientific education plan for Cheng Mo, but she doesn't care about the effect of the plan's implementation. She does what she should do, and doesn't care about the extra things.

In fact, Cheng Mo already knew what Ms. Hu's attitude towards him was, but this was the grandma who raised him and the only relative he recognized, so even if he knew, he tried to make himself no longer have expectations for Ms. Hu , he can't really do it.He just made himself appear not to care about Ms. Hu's attitude.

That night Liu Yan called Cheng Mo and asked him why he beat Li Qi for the first time.

Liu Yan repeated nervously: "It's your mother who is sorry for you. You can blame your mother or you can hate your mother, but don't blame your brother. What's wrong with your brother..."

A trace of disgust welled up in Cheng Mo's heart, and then he controlled it again, explaining to Liu Yan in a calm tone that he did not hit Li Qi.

But Liu Yan has decided that Cheng Mo will vent her resentment towards her on Li Qi, and she doesn't listen to Cheng Mo's words at all.

Cheng Mo hung up the phone directly.He didn't care at all what Liu Yan thought of him. If Liu Yan didn't cause him more and more troubles later, in his heart, Liu Yan was no different from any stranger whose name he only knew.

After that, those gangsters stalked and harassed him from time to time. At first, Cheng Mo thought that those gangsters were making trouble for him because he helped Li Qi that day, but only later did he faintly realize the connection between those gangsters and Li Qi...

The bus swayed forward, Cheng Mo's eyebrows tightened little by little, his mind was stuffy and dizzy, he let out a light breath, took his thoughts back, and no longer thought about the past.

There must be an end to these things.

He raised his hand and pressed the center of his eyebrows, but this action did not relieve Cheng Mo's discomfort at the moment. When he was in the car, he would consciously control himself not to think too much. After all, he was influenced by Liu Yan today.

Empty his mind, Cheng Mo turned his head and looked out the window.The bus stops and goes from time to time, and the carriages gradually become crowded. The already stuffy environment is now even more suffocating.

Cheng Mo finally couldn't bear it when he was two stops away from the destination station. He rushed out of the car and stood by the side of the road, trying his best to suppress the nausea rising in his chest.

After finally recovering slowly, Cheng Mo raised his head to look around, identified where he was, and then walked in the direction of home unhurriedly.

He bought a bottle of water when he passed the convenience store, and after drinking a few sips, the nausea in his chest was really gone.

The first thing he did when he recovered was to take out his phone and send a message to Sheng Yan, saying that he might be late.

The phone vibrated, and Sheng Yan replied quickly.

"It's okay, don't worry, I have some things to deal with here."

Cheng Mo was relieved, stared at Sheng Yan's head portrait for two seconds, took out a candy from his schoolbag, tore open the package and stuffed it into his mouth.

The tip of his tongue swept across the surface of the toffee, slowly oozing sweetness, Cheng Mo took out his phone, clicked on the map, and searched for the restaurant Sheng Yan told him about.

But the distance of 500 meters is really close to his home.

At this moment, he suddenly felt lucky that Liu Yan came to him on this day, because he would be able to see Sheng Yan soon after chatting with Liu Yan.

Cheng Mo was not in a hurry after telling Sheng Yan that he would arrive later, and just walked home slowly.

Walking on the road, he recalled Liu Yan's appearance in his memory, and then a slightly strange expression appeared on his face.

He hasn't seen Liu Yan for a long time. In fact, when he calculates carefully, he has hardly seen Liu Yan at other times, except when Liu Yan came to see Ms. Hu and was accidentally bumped into by him. Yan will also leave in a hurry.

Because of this, Cheng Mo's mind was very vague about Liu Yan's appearance, and his most impressions of Liu Yan were those phone calls.

Irritability, madness, and mental illness, these are the words that Cheng Mo would associate with Liu Yan, so that he had subconsciously thought that Liu Yan was a frightening crazy woman, but now he seriously recalled Liu Yan's real appearance Come on, there is a sense of separation.

Cheng Mo and Li Qi look very similar, and this part of the resemblance is naturally inherited from Liu Yan. Apart from the coldness caused by temperament, Cheng Mo is actually very beautiful and clean, belonging to the very non-aggressive category, Liu Yan The same is true for Yan. If you haven't been in touch with Liu Yan's sick side, others will definitely think that she is a kind and quiet person.

The difference between appearance and behavior is too big, so when Cheng Mo thinks about it, he feels uncomfortable for a moment.

He remembered what Liu Yan looked like, and it just so happened that Cheng Mo was about to arrive in his neighborhood at this moment. He looked around while walking, trying to find someone who was similar to Liu Yan in his memory.

He searched very carefully, and even took a closer look through the glass windows of the shops on the street, so it took him a lot of time to walk for a short distance.

At this time, his cell phone vibrated suddenly. Cheng Mo picked it up and looked, and found that Li Chengfei had sent him a message.

"Mo, there's a traffic jam on my side. If you find your mother, please help stabilize her. Uncle will come over as soon as possible."

Cheng Mo's eyebrows frowned slightly, he just wanted Li Chengfei to take Liu Yan away quickly; moreover, he wanted to have dinner with Sheng Yan; besides, he didn't know how to keep Liu Yan at all.

Letting out a breath, suppressing the irritability in his heart, Cheng Mo replied with three words: "I will try my best."

After replying to the news, Cheng Mo continued to walk home. His mood, which was not so good, fell to the bottom at this time, which made the expression on his face even colder.

At this moment, his footsteps suddenly stopped, his intuition was unprecedentedly sharp, and he turned his head and looked straight to the left.

A well-maintained woman was standing at the intersection over there, staring at him motionless, with countless complex emotions in her eyes, and the bag in her hand suddenly fell to the ground with a "click".

Facing the person in his memory, Cheng Mo met Liu Yan's gaze calmly.

If he remembered correctly, this was the first time Liu Yan looked at him directly.

Cheng Mo looked at his nominal mother expressionlessly for a long time, until the moment his eyes met Liu Yan's, he was slightly touched by the complex emotions in Liu Yan's eyes that couldn't be resolved.

The hand hanging by his side was clenched tightly, Cheng Mo frowned, and then slowly let go, the turmoil in his heart caused by Liu Yan completely dissipated.

His eyes returned to calm, Cheng Mo said in his usual indifferent tone: "Li Chengfei is looking for you."

This is just Cheng Mo's attitude towards everyone, perhaps because Liu Yan's eyes are eyes that Cheng Mo has never seen before. They are very complicated and he can't understand them, but he can feel the weight in them, so at this moment , Cheng Mo left behind all the troubles that Liu Yan had brought to him in the past, and treated Liu Yan with what he thought was the calmest attitude.

But Liu Yan was obviously stimulated by Cheng Mo's indifferent attitude. Her eyes were flushed, and morbid paranoia flashed in her eyes, and she said loudly, "I am your mother! Cheng Mo! This is how you treat your own mother!"

Cheng Mo immediately frowned, and looked at Liu Yan with doubts and disbelief.

In his opinion, Liu Yan has never been a qualified mother. He thought that Liu Yan was at least clear about this point, so why is Liu Yan accusing him so confidently now?

Cheng Mo couldn't understand, and he knew that Liu Yan had serious psychological problems, so he tried to change the subject, which happened to be his curiosity.

"Why do you have to see me?" Cheng Mo asked.

When Liu Yan heard this sentence, it was as if she remembered something, the expression on her face changed immediately, and all the injuries in her eyes were replaced by anger.

She pointed at Cheng Mo, trembling slightly, and said with resentment: "You hate mother and brother so much, don't you?! You just want us to disappear, don't you?!"

Liu Yan scratched her hair in despair: "I know I did something wrong back then, your father died, I shouldn't have left you behind, but what do you want me to do?! You think it's so easy for a woman to take care of her child alone Your grandma, Hu Xinlan, isn’t she amazing? Doesn’t she look down on me?! Then I’ll leave you to her, she takes you, she’s a university professor, so your grades aren’t always good Is it?"

Liu Yan suddenly squatted down, crying as she spoke: "I know, Hu Xinlan must have spoken ill of me in front of you, right? She hates me, she has always hated me, and when your father is around, she looks down on me, you After my father left, she couldn't tolerate me even more, that's why I left! But how could she be so bad, how could she be so bad... Do you remember what happened in that year, I just wanted to see you when I looked for her Ah, but she deliberately said some things that irritated me, so I can't choose what to say..."

Liu Yan looked at Cheng Mo with pleading eyes: "Mo, you have to trust mom! Mom didn't know you were in the room at the time. If mom knew, how could she say that? Mom loves you. What mother doesn't love her child..."

The scenes in his memory played back bit by bit in his mind, Cheng Mo's whole body was stiff, he looked at Liu Yan, his heart seemed to be filled with lead, so blunt and tense.

He didn't know if Liu Yan's words were true. He didn't really care about it. All he cared about was, what did Liu Yan and Ms. Hu think of him?A tool to attack the opponent?

In fact, he once had expectations for Liu Yan, but this expectation was shattered bit by bit by Ms. Hu.

Ms. Hu never said anything bad about Liu Yan, she just objectively described the process of Liu Yan abandoning him, calm, indifferent, even more cold-blooded and ruthless.

Later, he did not regard Liu Yan as his mother as Ms. Hu wished, but he did not hate Liu Yan as Ms. Hu wished.

He noticed the strong purpose of Ms. Hu's every move.

As for Liu Yan, time and time again she speaks indiscriminately, time after time she seems to be suppressed, and the accusations and crying in front of the teacher so many times are really unintentional?Is it really all for his own good?

Cheng Mo is not a fool, Liu Yan really hopes that he is mediocre or even dull, so that he can break Ms. Hu's always superior, calm and self-possessed posture.

Liu Yan might really have a little sincerity towards him, but it's just that she hates Ms. Hu more deeply and is more important to her. Besides, she is not the only son of Cheng Mo, so she can be ruthless.

Never, no one, really cared about him.

Cheng Mo gently closed his eyes, and there were waves of dull pain in his chest. This was all he cared about all the time, he just cared about this, so what if he abandoned it, it would be great if he abandoned it cleanly, why? , Liu Yan has obviously lost him, but still tries to use him again and again?

Why, he would be abandoned if he didn't want to be a tool.He obviously did nothing wrong.

It seemed that there was that bloody ward again, and his emotions were on the verge of losing control. Cheng Mo tried his best to ignore the depression and darkness in his heart. When he opened his eyes again, he looked at Liu Yan with a cold gaze. Looking carefully at the bloodshot eyes in his eyes, he seems to be still calm.

"Go back when you're done, and don't come to me again."

Liu Yan's eyes widened suddenly, and she stared at Cheng Mo in disbelief. After a while, the expression in her eyes was replaced by madness and deeper resentment: "Are you really my son? You are exactly like Hu Xinlan now! You have no heart, you know Who am I? I am your mother! It was I who gave birth to you after ten months of hard work, not her Hu Xinlan! You, why are you so cold-blooded, you don’t regard me as a relative at all, right? That’s why you So cruel, you said I was sick! You told Cheng Fei that I was sick, you wanted him to send me away, you didn’t want to see me! You really hated me so much! You still don’t want to see your brother, you Hit him, that night, Qiqi's injuries were all caused by you, how could you do it?!"

The more Liu Yan talked, the more she broke down. She rushed over and grabbed Cheng Mo's shoulder: "Do you know that Qiqi and I are your relatives! Do you know that!"

"Deskmate!"

A familiar voice sounded, Cheng Mo turned his head abruptly, his eyes widened.

Sheng Yan ran towards him, and the next moment Liu Yan's hand clutching his shoulder was taken away.

Cheng Mo's heart trembled violently when he saw Sheng Yan, his whole body tensed up, and his mind went blank for a moment.

As long as it's not Sheng Yan, it doesn't matter if Liu Yan says any bad things about him in front of anyone, he doesn't care, as long as it's not Sheng Yan...

Only Sheng Yan cares about him.

But what to do now?

He felt that his clenched hand seemed to be gently held by someone, but Cheng Mo didn't look down, but stared at Liu Yan firmly.

Liu Yan was pulled away, but she didn't even look at the person who pulled her away, she just looked at Cheng Mo, her eyes were filled with madness and resentment: "You are here to beat me, why did I give birth to you in the first place! You don't recognize me, you hate me, you still hate your brother, you are not human at all, who would be like you, you, you...Didn't Hu Xinlan commit suicide? Hu Xinlan must have been pissed off by you too!"

Cheng Mo froze, and looked at Liu Yan suddenly, his eyes were almost bloodshot.

Liu Yan was also stunned after saying that sentence, as if being strangled by the neck, unable to make a sound, she was stunned for two seconds, and then carefully met Cheng Mo's eyes, seeing Cheng Mo pale Her face was filled with panic, and she waved her hands tremblingly: "No, Mo, mother is talking nonsense, mother is talking nonsense, no, Hu Xinlan died by herself, it has nothing to do with you, it's nothing to do..."

Liu Yan seemed to have calmed down at this moment. After the manic state passed, she became more aware of what she said. Regret and fear came to her heart together. She sobbed repeatedly: "Mo, mom is sick, mom is sick, you know Yes, mom didn't do it on purpose, and it has nothing to do with you. Hu Xinlan's suicide is none of your business. Don't take mom's crazy words to heart. Mom's Mo Mo is so good. Mom knows that Mo Mo never troubles the family. Our teachers all like our Mo Mo, Mo Mo is at the top of every exam, much better than Qi Qi, my mother always praises you in front of Qi Qi, let Qi Qi regard you as a role model since she was a child, Mo Mo is the best in the world The child..."

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