[Comprehensive] Silver Glory

- Now you intend to return to your desert.

- I am not a quick thinker. I have to wait a long time for myself - the water is always slow to flow from the fountain of my ego, and I am often impatient with thirst.My retreat into solitude was so that I might not have to drink from a communal trough.When I live among men, I live as they live, and my thoughts do not resemble my own; and after living among them I always feel as if all were trying to make me Take away from myself, take my soul - I am angry with all people and fear them.So I had to go into the desert so I could get back to normal. — Nietzsche

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Use chemical liquids.Drain all the water in the person's body, and then decompose it little by little, but there is no rush to seize the person's consciousness.

Seeing that the policeman's hue became cloudy and finally became crazy, Makishima Shenggo sighed.

He stood in the corner, looking at the shocked and sad face of Kouya Shenye.

sad?pain?A friend whose crime coefficient has reached 500 was wiped out by yourself...

resent me?You who have been chasing after me because of the death of a friend who did nothing wrong...how interesting.

X month 15

Makishima Seigo looked at Masao Midou's embarrassed look, and was a little disappointed: "I am very familiar with the personalities of various avatars, and I can perfectly imitate them. I am very interested in what your personality is like if you can become anyone, so I will lend it to you. Man, I lend you strength, but I can almost see the end! You, who can act as anyone, are no one in the end, and the personality that makes up your core is nothing, empty, and you have no face of your own, just as no face Strange, so it can wear any mask."

A person without a mind of his own cannot be called a human being.

Somewhat disappointed.

X month 30

Makishima Shenghu stood in front of the mirror and arranged his clothes. Today he had a class to teach. He looked at the corner of the shirt caught in the belt in the mirror. At that moment, he suddenly stopped, this action seemed to open a door, and the memories of the past suddenly surged out.

Who is it, the joke in the brown eyes has not been put away, and a brilliance has been brightened.

He was silent for a while, then silently tucked the shirt into his belt, turning into that unruly image.

Wangling Lihuazi looked at her beloved teacher Makishima, and said emotionally: "Liar, everyone here is like this, don't notice anything, don't tell anything, don't think about anything, just think about it living as an empty shell that will disappear like melting snow, an infectious disease that brings the innocent to death,"

Students are much cuter than adults, because they have not been completely assimilated, and they still have the possibility of discovery.That's right, everyone is just living a life without thinking and numbness according to the distribution of the priestess system. Such creatures are not worthy of being called human beings at all.

They're not alive, they're just not dead.

Not aware, not thinking, walking dead, ignoring justice, ignoring the existence of evil.

Makishima Seigo looked at Wang Lingli Hanako who was standing in front of the huge landing suit. The girl's appearance was extremely delicate, and the girl's school uniform always gave others a special feeling.

I don't know what that person will look like in school uniform. It looks like that person has never been to school, but he knows a lot of things, which are more vivid than any girl's acquisition, leaving a lasting impression on his life. After seeing the strong and vivid colors, he looked at the extremely beautiful girl, the faceless person, no matter how beautiful the shell is, it is useless... He was a little tired.

He was walking on the campus, looking at the students passing by, the smile on his face was always hanging habitually, giving people a gentle and harmless feeling.His facial features are extremely good-looking.Many female teachers and female students secretly handed him love letters.He also received a lot of bento, but they were all made automatically. The food was perfect, but it was boring to eat. He had to feed it to the stray cats and dogs on the side of the road.

He is much softer towards animals than those creatures called human beings.

"Makishima-sensei... If it's Makishima-sensei, you can do anything." The girl with the ponytail said to him with a flushed face, and slowly took off her clothes.

"..." He was reading a book quietly in the drawing room, and then he realized the scene in front of him. Even Makishima Shenghu suddenly felt speechless.

"...White Chi, I'm sorry, you are still young." Makishima Shenghu could only put down the book, got up helplessly and walked to Wade White, picked up the clothes on the ground, and put them on the girls, "When you grow up Let’s talk about it later, the teacher doesn’t want you to do things that you regret.”

The girl's body is very beautiful, and the concave and convex curves combine the youthfulness of a girl with the charm of a woman. This kind of beauty in the growing period exudes a sweet taste.

It can be called a work of art, and its skin is as white as jade.

"... Makishima-sensei..." The girl cried, but she still stubbornly threw herself into his arms and insisted on continuing what hadn't happened.

What is sexuality|desire to Makishima Shōgo?

While continuing his movements, Makishima Seigo was distracted in thinking. He did not deny the comfort brought by the girl's tight body, and the warmth of the package made people want to sigh.

Sexual intercourse refers to the process in which male and female reproductive organs contact and rub to generate pleasure, and finally one or both parties reach orgasm.The difference between human beings and animals in pure reproductive function is that human beings spend more time in sexual intercourse in order to obtain psychological and physical pleasure and achieve a certain degree of sexual satisfaction.Makishima Seigo lives in his heart what he saw a long time ago... Maybe it's because men always focus on enjoyment.The girl below shed tears automatically because of the physical feeling, "Teacher...teacher..."

Perhaps it was this address and what she was doing that made the girl feel a distorted pleasure in her heart. She tried to get up from the table and hug the person she was thinking of.

"I prefer to see you as you are now." Makishima Seigo said when he saw the girl's movements.

He buried himself completely, and the warm moisture wrapped him, and he relaxed instantly.He read from the book that after a man is released, he will feel a sense of emptiness for a while.Sure enough, that's right.

He tidied up his clothes, helped the girl put on her clothes, and removed the white turbidity between the girl's legs, during which time he saw the female reproductive organs.

There was a faint nausea in his heart, not beautiful at all.

It's not that he doesn't have desires, it's just that he's not very obsessed with that kind of thing, but after all, he's still a normal man.He suddenly remembered a hot summer day, the girl's fair and slender legs, and the skirt fluttering as she walked.The smell of green grass...slowly blooming, warming the whole summer.

At that time, he was 17 years old, and he didn't meet many girls. At the age of 14, he was like a flower that was about to bloom, and its fragrance entangled him. It was an absurd and almost crazy dream.

It is said that adolescent boys will subconsciously regard the girls they often come into contact with as the protagonists in their dreams, which has nothing to do with themselves, but just a secretion of physiological hormones.Just like some boys may dream of their sister, or a female classmate who has only been in touch for a few days.

When he woke up the next day, he just looked at his swollen other half with a headache, and stretched his hand under it. There are some things that you don’t need to be taught by others. The hidden nature of boys will guide you how to do it.Even boxer pants will outline the lines clearly.

He likes to hold her during the day, and sees her little one, staying by his side like a cat.She is very warm, just her existence is like the most genial sunshine, not dazzling, but it will make people feel at ease like never before.

Maybe it was because the dream was so crazy that he was in a trance for a few days.

But now he seems to be able to recall only that dream.Whether it's memory or something else, when people are gone, everything is like a faded picture.And she only appeared once in the dream.

In that absurd, crazy, depraved, corrupted dream.Tightly encircling her in his arms, imprisoning her, naked body, underdeveloped chest, soft and elastic skin at fingertips, broken groans, crying face, violent breathing , the murmur in the ear, the legs wrapped around the waist, the tight union of the private|parts||, the crazy and intense lingering between the two, his endless demands, the tight and warm absorption that wraps him, and the fusion After one body, it seemed that the soul of the leader was trembling... The scene of the dream and the waking up in reality gave him a strong sense of guilt, and the distorted pleasure brought by the unrequited love made him sleepless for several nights.This kind of morbid desire makes people feel unspeakable excitement at the same time as sinful.

During the day, she only wears suspender skirts, and boxers are exposed because of the owner's carefree movements. Because she is not well developed, she does not wear a bra.Occasionally drawn lines... She treats him as a child not a man.His fingers slid across her thighs, staying on the inside, looking at her stupid face, and took out a birthday present from behind her.He hugged her intimately, he knew what was a dream and what was reality.He just wanted to hold her carefully, because she might shatter in the next second.He never does anything he regrets.

Leaving the female student who had just had a physical entanglement with him, he immediately took a shower when he got home.Far from enjoying the dream, he wiped his body and sighed helplessly.This kind of sex that only has physical pleasure | love can only relieve the body, but the spiritual emptiness can never be satisfied.The scene in the dream suddenly reappeared in his mind, he looked up at the white ceiling, his hands slid down and then tightened.

Well……

Leaning against the wall weakly after the detoxification is over... A layer of water vapor floated from the golden eyes due to the bathroom, and the heart was empty, and the bitterness spread from the heart, flooding instantly.

In fact, if I had watched it more closely at the beginning, I wouldn't have lost it so easily...

I am sorry.

[I never thought you would become a teacher. ]

[Ah, because I always feel that children's thinking may be easier to tap and more interesting than adults. ]

[I didn't know you would use such a gentle method. ]

[No, the matter is not that serious yet.And you also know that the experiment I am conducting will cost a lot of human beings, no, they cannot be called human beings, they are just puppets with human shells but no thinking of their own.It's not enough that you didn't stop it when the time came. ]

[Because I...] What am I doing?The memory of the past is too far away, he can't remember clearly.

He returned home after talking with Wang Lingli Huazi, and without knowing what to think, he pushed open the door of her room.Three years after Makishima Ryo's death.

A long time ago, he had been to her room and saw the luggage placed beside the bed.He seldom went home after that incident. He wandered around in different places, communicated with different people, observed the humanity of various people, and observed whether they were truly valuable as a human being.

Heck, I originally planned to leave... I really left now.

By the way, she came to borrow from his house, and he had expressed various dissatisfaction with her moving in at the beginning.Now, he is a little used to it. He sat on her bed and scanned the small house.

Very girly, clean, simple and tasteful.At least the decoration in the house, he had seen it in the appreciation of European classical decoration, but this house has a Greek atmosphere.

You have enough time to decorate a small house ==

She basically packed the things in the house but left some decorations behind, so he got up and opened her bag.

Anyway, you are dead, and the things belong to me.

A few notebooks, a few bags of candy, a hair tie, and a pot of cactus, and the rest are just some clothes, ahem.

He put her notebook on the desk, neatly arranged.There are a few books between the book stand, which are brand new.The same is true on the bookcase. There are brand new books of many types, modern ones, classic ones... involving many fields.

There were a few black gel pens in the pen holder. He glanced at it, and then a small letter caught his attention. The location of the letter was very hidden. If you didn't look carefully, you wouldn't notice it at all.Next to the envelope are scattered lots of post-it notes, red, green, blue, nothing more than washing clothes, not soaking them for too long, cleaning the kitchen every few days, how to cook XX meals...

[Dear nephew:] Makishima Shenghu's eyebrows twitched, and then he laughed again. After all, he never called her by her name.

[By the time you see this, I'm already gone]...that's right, you're already gone.

[Actually, you know, I was just staying at your house, and now I think it’s okay, so I decided to leave Oh, how, I know what you must be talking about, you finally left, finally left or something, I don't want to say goodbye to you face to face, so allow me to leave quietly by myself, it suddenly feels like a plot in a TV series (covering my mouth and laughing).You have changed a lot now compared to when I first met. You can cook, wash clothes, and wash clothes by yourself. Of course, the most important thing is...you live freely and enjoy life.In your words, it looks like a human being.In this way, I can leave with peace of mind, otherwise I will not starve to death after I leave because of your eccentricity and only eat handmade food.

Excellent people will always feel lonely, I hope you don’t get confused, don’t hesitate, as long as you want to do it, then do it, I will support you silently in other places (shoulder clap)

All the books in the bookcase are new, just as a parting gift.

By the way, in fact, I have been wanting to say...] This letter was not finished, and everything came to an abrupt end just like the master's unpacked luggage.

What do you say?Stuck here, it really makes people want to beat someone up, the more you don't know, the more you scratch your head and want to know.

Now Makishima Seigo felt that there was a cat in his heart, and he was so annoyed that the cat's paws scratched his heart.

For some reason, he couldn't help laughing. He laughed for a long time, and the laughter gradually died down. His golden eyes sparkled, and the moonlight outside was cold, and his golden eyes were gentle and messy.

Good people feel lonely.I am lonely but not because of excellence.

He folded the letter and placed it on the bottom of the cabinet.

Sure enough, if he wanted to sneak away but failed, didn't he stay here?He took out all the books she packed from her bag, replaced the new ones on the bookcase, and put on the old ones that she had read, left annotations, and were full of her traces.

He took out a copy at random, sat on the bed, time passed by, and when he looked up again, he found that it was already 12 o'clock, he yawned, and rubbed the center of his brows.Maybe he was too tired to go to the room, so he planned to spend the night in her room.

Lifting off the light blue quilt, Makishima Shenghu, who was about to lie down, was taken aback. Under the same blue floral quilt, there was a set of underwear, and the little strawberry was bouncing on Makishima Shenghu's nerves. Dance.

Makishima Shenghu was very complicated. He said that he was "clean and tidy" before and said that he would take it back.

He reached out and picked up the underwear on the bed, and glanced at the clothes in his hand, "Hey, I don't think there are any A cups." But she is only 14 years old, so where can she develop?Maybe it will grow and mature in the future, but there is no such chance, her body is like a green fruit, which was violently picked off before it fully grown, and what it brought was only indescribable bitterness.

Flowers stay at the most beautiful moment.

Her sudden appearance left an indelible mark in his life, and then she disappeared suddenly.

Tsk... really feel a little unfair.

He picked up the underwear...Looking at the faint traces on it, he frowned. I'm afraid she planned to wash it clean and take it away, but in the end...

He stared at the cotton underwear in his hand, pondered for a while, and put the underwear in a box.Put it under the bed.There was a faint smell of green grass on the quilt, and he couldn't fall asleep after lying down. He wanted to read a book but lost interest. Maybe what he read was more of her comments.

The moonlight streamed in, illuminating the room brightly, and the floor seemed to be covered with a layer of frost. The cold breath floated in the air, slowly weaving into a net. Makishima Shenghu firmly enveloped him, and his teeth would bear it even if he took a breath. Shaking uncontrollably.

"Ah Liang..." His voice was very low, like a soft sigh, "Ah Liang...Makishima Ryo...Ah Liang...".

He covered his eyes, and the crystal liquid flashed from the corner of his eyes.

The next day he got up, locked her room, and threw the key out of the window without hesitation.There is a garbage can outside, and there will be an automatic garbage truck to clean it every day.Three months after Makishima Ryo's death.

Y month 4

"You can't measure my sin. If there is anyone who can punish me, it can only be... a person who can become a murderer by his own will." Makishima Shenghu scraped Funahara Yuki's neck with the blade of a knife .

I know I am sinful.

You don't understand what you're going through, run through life like a drunk, stumble, roll down the stairs.Fortunately, you were not harmed because of your intoxication.Your muscles are weak, your mind is not clear, not so hard as we think the stones on the stairs!

Someone is innocent.

After killing the woman, he returned home. The beige windbreaker was splashed with traces of blood, and he threw the windbreaker on the ground, feeling a little headache.There is no way to make the right decision for a woman she is even slightly interested in.He has been busy with the layout today, and he didn't eat anything. He planned to finish reading the newly found book, but after thinking about it, he went to the refrigerator to get a glass of milk.

"Hiss..." The milk taken out of the refrigerator was cold, and the cold teeth in his mouth chattered a little.

He sighed, and was about to pour the milk away, but after a few steps, he saw a note on the wall: "Heat for 10 minutes before drinking the milk." He rarely came to the kitchen, and his allies (subordinates) , will prepare the food, and he is basically busy outside, rarely coming home, and even when he comes back, he just picks up some materials. This note is obviously old for some years, after all, the writing on it has turned yellow.

He rubbed his brows, glanced at the milk in the kitchen, his golden eyes turned to the note again, and saw that a big smiley face was drawn behind the sentence.

He didn't bother to heat it up, so he drank it all in one gulp, like drinking alcohol. Of course, the corners of his mouth twitched after drinking, which was another matter.

He knew that she was dishonest that day. It turned out that she had already planned to leave. Thinking of this, he felt a little depressed. He went into her room and saw the packed luggage.He tore off the paper sticking on the note and threw it into balls into the trash can. He walked upstairs quickly, but found her room and pushed the door to enter, but remembered that he had already locked the door. The keys were thrown, too, and he wished so much to put the past behind him.

"..." He raised his foot and kicked the door, and the door fell to the ground. After he entered, he lifted the door and closed it. Looking at his proficiency, it was obvious that he had done it more than once.

Half an hour later, he opened the door, with a helpless face, walked to the trash can, reached out and took out the balled-up note, flattened it, and then carefully pasted it back in place.

Z 9

Makishima Shenghu fought face-to-face with Koisha Shinya in the warehouse, "Have you finally abandoned the hypocritical justice and sprouted a real killing intent?" Makishima Shenghu hid behind the box in the warehouse, looking at Koya Shinya With eyes full of murderous intent, he spoke with great interest, "You really are the man who lived up to my expectations."

Such is the real human being.

"Really, but I have no expectations for you at all." Kouya Shinya held up his gun and cautiously searched for the location of Makishima Shrine, "Don't be too proud, you are not a special human being, you are just ignored by the world It’s just rubbish. You are the only one who is excluded from the group, and I think I must hate myself for being excluded.” Kou Shen also raised his gun straight, and carefully observed the surroundings, “You just can’t bear this loneliness. It's no different from the outsiders who are excluded by everyone."

"What you said is really interesting, loneliness?" Makishima Shenghu's tone was extremely sarcastic, "Is this aimed at me?" He smiled, "Who in this world is not lonely? The foundation of self The era of connection with others is long gone. In a world where all people live under the shelter and norms of the system, there is no need for groups. Everyone is just domesticated to stay alone in a small room, satisfying I can only count those who can rest in peace." Makishima Shenghu rushed out in an instant, and slapped Shinya Kouya's spear flying. mood.

In fact, I have always been a little proud of my eloquence that can fascinate and persuade people, and I have said a lot of words to that person that seem to be able to make people faint.

"Beautiful flowers will eventually wither and wither. This is the fate of all living species. It's better to want to stay in the dazzling blooming posture. But if you love her like your own daughter , will you be overwhelmed by the child's tears?"

After he saw her calmly coaxing a child, he suddenly said to her. She was silent for a while, her brown eyes looked at her quietly, and then suddenly jumped up, "Speak human!" Patted on his waist, the smile on his face could hardly be maintained.

After muttering for a while, I finally said "speak human words" helplessly, "If someone you care about gets hurt, would you deal with it so calmly? People always panic about things they care about."

"...You know and ask, is it uneducated to bully others if it's okay?" She crossed her arms and looked at him sideways.

"Books are not only used to read the words on them, but also a tool to adjust my feelings. When I am not in the state, I will not be able to read the content of the book. At that time, I will think about what is hindering me. There are also books that you can read without hindrance even when you are not in a good state, and then you will think about why. This is mental attunement, which is a bit like tuning, and the important thing to tune is to touch the paper The feeling of touching and stimulating the brain at the moment of turning the book"

"Suddenly feel a little discouraged"

"Ok?"

"As soon as I chat with you, I feel that my previous life has been lost"

Pfft, hahahaha, Makishima Shenghu looked at the man across from him and laughed inwardly. He had to stand up and face him with an unfathomable look. In fact, maybe this was what she wanted to say before , but in the last sentence, she might say, "It's okay to read the text, it sounds tiring, aren't you tired of talking, let's talk concisely!"

Puff ha ha ha ha ha...

I haven't been so happy in my heart for a long time, but after laughing, there is a huge emptiness in my heart, which makes people feel a little suffocated.

The whole world is so big, but it feels like only one person is alive consciously...

The whole world is black and white, without any color.

Unlike that person, the world in his eyes is always full of colors.

The eyes that conceive all light and darkness are beautiful just by thinking about them.

Brown, with a hint of childishness when laughing, curved... bright eyes...

"Isn't that the same for you, too? Shinya cunning. No one understands your justice, no one understands your anger, so you don't face trust and friendship, and even give up your only remaining home. Today, like this Do you want to laugh at my loneliness too?"

I am not alone.Because someone understands me, although she is no longer here, her crime coefficient is too high, and she was killed by the witch system.

He dodges Shinya Kochi's oncoming fist, and hits back.

She is different from me, I know what is evil, I walked into the evil, the color is pure white, struggling in human life and cannot extricate myself.

He jumped back, distanced himself from Qiao Nian Shenye in an instant, and took out a knife from behind.

She is different. She has a bad mouth and a soft heart. She is obviously in an unstable state of mind but still tries to restrain herself. She has made no mistakes or crimes, but she died.

From the very beginning, I knew that I would lose a lot after walking this path, but I thought she would walk side by side with me. She is younger than me, only 14 years old. Even if I die, I will definitely be before her... …but he turned to blood right in front of me, and there was nothing left.

This is something I never thought of.

The weapons collided and sparked.

She has no friends, except in my house, she did not leave any traces, she rarely goes out, basically stays at home, even if she goes out, she will let me accompany her, basically she turns around me.

She's the human being I'm most interested in, but I couldn't even find a picture of her in the house.

She knew the indifference and extremes in my temperament, she didn't stop her, she just showed me a lot of interesting things, and kept watching me, although I didn't need it, human beings will be lonely, this is nature, no one can change it.

She thought I would care, but I really don't.

She's pretty good, except for the occasional mischief.

She was still a child, but she died because she was judged guilty.She hasn't turned 18 yet, she hasn't grown up, she's still very young.

No, only she shouldn't die like this.

"However, on the contrary, I think highly of you like this. To the person who is not afraid of loneliness, to you who uses loneliness as a weapon."

You are not afraid of loneliness, is it because you have not tried the warm feeling, or you have been deceiving yourself.

Maybe justice must prevail or the BOSS will be pushed to the ground after all, he fled in the field holding his wound in embarrassment.

This is his second time here, and the person who was with him the first time is no longer there.

Not sad, not sad, but I often think of her, and my heart is filled with a touch of regret.

It's really stupid to run around on the road with such a high crime coefficient, can't you control your own crime coefficient well?

If possible, he really hoped very much to see her again.

[Actually, you are quite suitable for wearing white clothes, you look pretty. ] Makishima Shenghu tilted his body and knelt down on the ground. He glanced at his blood-stained white clothes and frowned. The deep wound on his chest was hideous and ugly.

He covered the wound with his hands, got up and staggered forward again, the waist-high wheat field was rustling by the wind.

"Everyone is lonely, everyone is empty, no one needs another, every talent can find a substitute, any relationship can be replaced, I am tired of this world, but why What? I can't describe the scene where I was killed anyway."

Finally, he knelt on the ground exhausted, raised his head, closed his eyes, and listened carefully to the sound of the wind blowing the wheat waves, and the wind blowing the clouds rolling around. He opened his hands as if to embrace the sky.

"Hey, what's the matter, Shinya Kochi, can you find someone to replace me in the future?" Makishima Seiko said to the man who was chasing him.

"No, I don't want to meet someone like you again." Makishima Shenghu's expression was quiet and soft, and the breeze blew his hair gently dancing.

Sure enough, no one can replace anyone, death is death.Even if the flower blooms again, it is not the same flower as before.

People cannot step into the same river again, even the most interesting people are different.

The question that has been identified for a long time has finally changed the answer because of the relationship of time.

If the flower stays in the most beautiful time, it will only make people more sad. If it is possible, I hope that the flower can bloom in front of me until it withers, instead of disappearing so abruptly, it really stays in her The most beautiful time.

That part of the past that whizzed by his side, so missed, really can never come back.

Who is smiling sweetly by your side, blurring those most beautiful years.

I……

With his back facing Shinya Kochi, a gunshot rang out, and the bullets flew across his head quickly, and he fell to the ground due to the huge impact.

Before brain death, there is always some time left for people to look back on their lives.

Makishima Shenghu spent the first 16 years in a daze, and followed the instructions of the priestess system, repeating the same life every day. On the rainy day at the age of 16, his world began to be full of colors. At the age of 18, the colors faded, and it has been in other human beings ever since. Find the deep will of human beings in the body.

He felt a little tired, the world in his eyes became blurred, the world was hazy and dim... His eyes suddenly lit up, the golden pupils burst out with dazzling brilliance, his bloodless lips squirmed, and then the brilliance in his eyes It quickly darkened, but the corners of his mouth curled into an almost imperceptible arc, his face was unprecedentedly relieved and at ease, that expression of no worries, no regrets, as if satisfied, made happiness unbearable Live want to cry.

What did he see before he died?

Is it the figure of the girl named Ryo Makishima?

What else did he want to say?

It's "Hey, don't joke like that."

Still, still...

"It's great that you're still alive..."

that is really good……

Volume Five: Future Diary