both you and me

"I...I don't know..."

"Asshole! I don't know if you fucking did it or not!?"

I stood up emotionally and yelled at the phone, and everyone's eyes fell on me.

"I have no impression!"

"Fuck off!"

In a fit of anger, I dropped my phone. The phone was too weak, and I was smashed to pieces. I picked up the phone on the ground and threw it into the trash can, and threw the SIM card into the sewer. I refunded the ticket and went back to my mother’s old place The house, except for the hourly workers who come to clean it every week, no one else comes here.

I locked myself in the former bedroom, I didn't know what I was thinking, my mind was blank, I only knew that tears kept flowing.

Three days later, I had a long sleep, got up to wash up, and after I cleaned up, I came to a well-known volunteer group. Xiaoxu was the head of the group here, and she wanted me to be a volunteer for a long time. , I signed up as a volunteer, and then they told me that in three days I would go to a remote mountainous area in G City to do some charity work.

After leaving the public welfare organization, I went to my mother to see my mother and my sister. Then I told my mother that I would join a volunteer group and would not be able to come back for a long time, and told my mother my new mobile phone number.

"Wang Yunxi came to look for you in the past two days. I saw the report. I didn't expect such a good girl to like girls. But as a friend, you shouldn't stay away from her because of this."

My mother tried to persuade me while feeding my sister. In my mother's eyes, Wang Yunxi and I are just best friends.

"Mom, it's not because of this. I can't explain it to you."

For the first time, I felt that I couldn't continue talking with my mother. I stayed with my mother for two days and then I boarded the plane and flew to G City with the team.

We got off the plane, transferred to a bus, and then walked over a mountain. We brought a lot of teaching equipment and medical equipment donated by companies. Our group had to keep changing people and carrying these heavy equipment to climb the mountain. At this moment I feel a kind of power, everyone is covered in sweat and soil, but everyone has a smile on their faces.

"Obviously, drink water."

Climbing to the halfway up the mountain, the team leader found a flat place for us to take a short rest. At this time, the deputy head and our team leader handed me drinking water, and I took the water and drank it in big gulps.

"It's very tiring. I'll get used to it. That's how we are. Sometimes we even have to camp in the mountains. Once we were going to a mountain for a free clinic. When we were camping on the mountain, we were besieged by wolves. We could only light a fire." Save yourself until the villagers come to rescue us."

"I'm okay"

I never knew that being a volunteer would be so hard, but this kind of life is fulfilling, and it allows me to think less about what I have and what I don't have.

"I heard that you and our team leader are college classmates?"

A group of people rested for a while and began to chat in a mess.

"Well, we're roommates."

"Do you know how powerful our team leader is? Once we went to support teaching for a short time. During the period, a student was bitten by a local poisonous snake. Our team leader sucked out the poisonous blood with his mouth without saying a word. Otherwise, the child will..."

One of the boys who did charity work with Xiaoxu told me about Xiaoxu’s glorious history with a face of admiration. This is very in line with my understanding of Xiaoxu. She liked to help others when she was in college. The whole class and even everyone who knew her No one said anything bad about her.

"What I admire the most is that the head of the group originally had a very happy family, and her husband was handsome and good at work, but on the day she was about to give birth, her husband drove her to the hospital, and there was a car accident on the way. She was under her body, she and the baby were rescued, but her husband left. We thought she would be devastated, but she insisted on sending her husband for the last time three days after the baby was born, and then she carried it alone. A home."

There are a lot of senior volunteers in the team, so they know a lot about Xiaoxu. I seldom contact Xiaoxu after graduating from university, but I know that she is married and even I drank her wedding wine, but I don’t know Her husband died.

After a brief rest and replenishing our strength, we continued to move forward. Going up the mountain is not the most difficult thing for us. The most difficult thing is going down the mountain. The equipment is heavy and the gravity of the person leans forward, so every step is very careful, because the consequences of a careless It is unimaginable.

Finally, the equipment was transported to the village. At this time, it was already dark, so we had to rest temporarily and then make preparations. The conditions of the fellow’s house were not very good, and the whole family slept on a kang, so we had to borrow the yard of the fellow’s house. Set up a tent.

"let me help you!"

One of the volunteers tied up his tent and saw that I had no idea what to do, so he came to help me set up the tent.

Everyone fell asleep at night, only I could not fall asleep with my eyes open, and the sound of snoring came from various tents in my ears. Maybe everyone is too tired today.

I took out my mobile phone and wanted to call home, but I was afraid of disturbing other teammates. I opened the tent and looked up at the sky. There were stars here that I hadn’t seen for a long time. The moon here was also very bright. I raised my hand and glanced at the watch. The luminous pointer told me that it was only a little past eight o'clock in the evening. What was I doing at this time before?This thought was cut off by myself at the beginning, because I didn't want to remind myself of that person.

The next day we were divided into two groups, one group went to the school as a one-month teaching support, and the other group sent medical equipment to the clinic first, and then rebuilt a small clinic.

When I walked into the classroom and looked at the pair of clean and penetrating eyes full of desire for knowledge, this is something I can't see in the eyes of urban children. When they think about how to play truant all day long, the children here What I think is how to get out of the mountains with knowledge.

"Didn't we prepare a lot of equipment? Why not give it to the school?"

After school at noon, I sat down to eat with several other volunteers. Before entering the mountain, we bought a lot of instant noodles, some dried noodles and finished meat sauce. Some experienced volunteers told me that these things are usually inconspicuous. But in the mountains, there is absolutely delicious food. If we eat the same food as fellow villagers, let alone a month, we won’t be able to stay for a day.

"The big stars who put on the show haven't come yet. Wait for the stars to come, and then they will come forward and give it to the school in their name."

One of the volunteers said sarcastically, I think it should be requested by the company that donated money, in this way to add popularity to the star.

Just as we were chatting and laughing, my mobile phone rang. When I took it out, I saw that the caller ID was an unfamiliar number. Sometimes there was no signal in this village. It was all luck that the call came in.

After thinking about it, I decided to answer the call, because not many people knew about the call, but the moment I answered the call, I regretted it, because the call was from Yunxi.

"Obviously..."

Hearing her voice, I hung up the phone subconsciously, then turned it off and put it in my pocket.

"Are you ok?"

A volunteer patted me on the shoulder with concern, I adjusted my mood, turned my head and smiled at her and said it was all right.Then we continued to sit down and eat with them. At this time, a volunteer took out his guitar and played it. This is also our self-entertainment in this backward and closed mountain village.

"Can you teach me how to play the guitar?"

I have always liked playing the guitar, but I have never had the time. I was busy with my so-called career and love a few years ago, and now I have to let go of everything and live for myself.

"Yes you can!"

The boy who played the guitar readily agreed and handed the guitar to me. I took the guitar and learned elementary fingering under his guidance, and then he gave me a CD for getting started with the guitar. What I gained the most here was understanding There are many like-minded friends, and I can do my best to help so many people. I feel that I have been improved here, not only my body, but also my soul.

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