Four years of crisis [entertainment]

The next day, Guan Mingsong walked into Zhang Mo's ward as scheduled.

Zhang Mo sat opposite Guan Mingsong, and after listening to Guan Mingsong's description of the scene in Heweizhi's home, he said to Guan Mingsong: "The study of Heweizhi constitutes an environment conducive to hypnosis. .There is a pendulum clock on the wall of his room. During the hypnosis process, he made the pendulum clock establish a connection with 'timely stop loss', which is a hint. He gave you a wrist watch for you to wear all the time. It makes you think of the pendulum clock every time you see the hands turn, and also think of 'stop loss in time'. Repeatedly, his hint will be strengthened."

Guan Mingsong thought that he had fallen asleep on He Weizhi's sofa, so he asked, "I fell asleep on his sofa. Could it be that he gave me a hint at that time? I was hypnotized by him, and I actually Without realizing it, hypnosis is really so magical?"

"First of all, you think you are falling asleep on his sofa, but you are not. The brain waves during hypnosis are the same as when you are awake, and you just enter a special state of consciousness; second, hypnosis is not actually As in the movie, the hypnotist hypnotizes the person and gives a series of orders, and then the person will execute the hypnotist's order like a machine. What is awakened under hypnosis is actually one's subconscious mind."

Guan Mingsong murmured: "Could it be that 'timely stop loss' is my subconscious mind?"

"If you want to remove the hint, you need to enter the hypnotic state again." Zhang Mo said.

Guan Mingsong clenched his hands tightly, and he asked Zhang Mo: "Doctor, I am very distressed now. I have a fear of feelings, which makes me hurt myself and the people I love. I vaguely know that the fear comes from my childhood, But I dare not face those memories.

Zhang Mo listened carefully, "It took you so long to find me because you were afraid of facing the past?"

"Yes." Guan Mingsong showed a painful expression, "Doctor, I sometimes feel like a white mouse running around in a black box. I can't see anything and I can't find a way out. Doctor, what should I do?" Do?"

Zhang Mo sat upright, and calmly said to Guan Mingsong: "Mingsong, the psychiatrist will not tell you how to do it. This is not the psychiatrist's responsibility. In fact, no one can guide other people's lives. What to do is up to you Something to think about."

After listening, Guan Mingsong nodded slowly.

"Now, let's break the hypnosis." Zhang Mo said.

Guan Mingsong once again fell into that state between sleep and awakening. This time, he relived his suffocating childhood.

In fact, Guan Mingsong's childhood was not always so suffocating. Before Guan Mingsong was seven years old, everything was very beautiful.

Guan Mingsong's father, Guan Xiuqi, is a mathematics teacher in the junior middle school of the No. [-] Middle School in the city. The No. [-] Middle School in the city is ranked among the top three all the year round. Which teacher who can go to teach is not a young talent and a leader among teachers?Guan Xiuqi not only has a good education, but also has a high level of teaching. He also has a face that is prettier than a star. He is a star teacher in No. [-] Middle School and is very popular among students.

Guan Mingsong's mother, Su Wenru, was the chief dancer of the Municipal Song and Dance Troupe when she was young.When Su Wenru was young, she had many suitors, including the second-generation rich and second-generation officials, but she didn't like the rich and powerful, she liked Guan Xiuqi.

The love story between Guan Xiuqi and Su Wenru back then is not an exaggeration to describe it as "the mountains have no edges, the sky and the earth are in harmony, but you dare to be with the king", it is really a vigorous love.Although Guan Xiuqi is a young talent, compared to the second-generation rich and second-generation officials, his status as a teacher is not very competitive in the eyes of Su Wenru's parents, so the two elders prevent Su Wenru from meeting Guan Xiuqi.Su Wenru and Guan Xiuqi were brutally beaten with clubs, and immediately became rebellious. They eloped and threatened each other with death. They tried everything, but Su Wenru's parents finally let go.

After marriage, the young couple lived a sweet life. Su Wenru's parents were also happy when they saw their daughter was happy.Guan Mingsong still remembers that when he was very young, his family visited his grandmother's house. Guan Xiuqi thoughtfully peeled an orange for Su Wenru. When his grandparents saw them, they immediately teased them with the story of their elopement when they were young. Su Wenru was so ashamed that she hid in Guan Xiuqi's arms, and Guan Xiuqi was also smiling there.

But later, I don't know what went wrong. In the ordinary daily necessities, the relationship between the golden boy and the jade girl went wrong.What started out as blaming each other turned into a cold war and ended up in a horrific argument that involved slamming doors and dishes.

Parental quarrels are tantamount to catastrophe in the eyes of young children.The young Guan Mingsong squatted in the corner and cried when the two smashed things, but no one paid any attention to him.

You see, a vigorous love will not forget to be vigorous at the end.

Guan Mingsong was very confused when he was a child. He thought so much. Wouldn't it be better to get a divorce?After growing up, I have experienced a lot, and I also read the stories of the people around me, and I finally realized that if it is two people who don’t love, it’s okay, but two people who really loved each other, it’s psychologically impossible for them to separate from each other. So easy, not everyone is so strong and decisive.

Guan Xiuqi and Su Wenru struggled in this state for several years until Guan Xiuqi cheated.

Guan Xiuqi's cheating partner is a clerk who has just graduated from college. His name is Zheng Yunyun. He has a delicate and cute appearance, but he can't compare with Su Wenru.

Zheng Yunyun was almost obsessed with Guan Xiuqi, and there was an undisguised fascination in her eyes watching Guan Xiuqi.Moreover, Zheng Yunyun is pregnant.

When Su Wenru heard the news, she yelled hysterically and almost went crazy on the spot.She was the chief dancer of the Municipal Song and Dance Troupe, and she was such an arrogant person. Her husband cheated on someone who was not as good as her, which undoubtedly dealt a huge blow to her.

That night, Su Wenru was alone at home, she was lifeless, like a dead body.Marriage problems with Guan Xiuqi made her sick both mentally and physically. She became thin, lost a lot of hair, and became silent.

When Guan Mingsong came back from school, he saw Su Wenru sitting there, walked over, and called out: "Mom".

Su Wenru turned her head mechanically, and she looked at Guan Mingsong with disgust, even nausea.

Guan Mingsong shivered, but he didn't speak, he knew why.Children look stupid, but in fact they are far smarter and more sensible than adults think, just like now, Guan Mingsong clearly knows that his father did something wrong.

Will mom hate me for half of dad's blood?Guan Mingsong thought.

Su Wenru stroked Guan Mingsong's hair, and said to Guan Mingsong, "Let me wash your hair for you."

"I can wash my hair myself." Guan Mingsong said.

"Mom will wash it for you this time." Su Wenru was very determined.

Su Wenru led Guan Mingsong into the bathroom, where there was a large bucket of hot water.Su Wenru asked Guan Mingsong to sit in front of the small bench and lowered his head to the surface of the water.

"Why don't you use a shower?" Guan Mingsong asked.

"Because when you were young, when you were too young to use the shower, that's how I washed your hair for you." Su Wenru said lightly.

Guan Mingsong lowered his head, at this moment, Su Wenru's hand suddenly grabbed Guan Mingsong's back neck, and suddenly pushed Guan Mingsong's head into the water, Guan Mingsong choked several times, he was extremely panicked He struggled desperately, but the hand holding the back of his neck would not let go.

Just when Guan Mingsong thought she was going to drown, Su Wenru let go of her hand suddenly. She pulled Guan Mingsong up, and then looked at him in horror and nervousness.

Mom tried to kill me just now.Guan Mingsong thought to himself.

And Su Wenru, after a few minutes of daze, suddenly yelled and ran out of the bathroom in fear.

Guan Mingsong didn't tell anyone what happened that day, he wanted it to rot in his stomach.After that, Su Wenru did two things, one was to go to the hospital to see the psychology department, and the other was to go through divorce procedures with Guan Xiuqi.

Although Guan Xiuqi cheated and was at fault, Su Wenru was diagnosed with severe depression in the hospital. The court judged Guan Mingsong to Guan Xiuqi based on the principle of most benefiting minor children.

Guan Mingsong went to see Su Wenru once later, and Su Wenru, who was once as beautiful as a fairy, was so thin that she lost her shape.

Guan Mingsong hid behind the door, and whispered to Su Wenru in the room with a maturity that didn't match his age: "Mom, if you could know that love will disappear in advance, if you could predict the ending in advance, you wouldn't try your best If you love someone, you won't enter into this marriage, and you won't become like this."

Guan Xiuqi spent all his time drinking away his worries, but Guan Mingsong didn't want to live with him, so he went to grandma's place.Guan Mingsong's grandfather died early, and Guan Mingsong's grandmother lived alone for many years. Guan Mingsong lived with her until he went to college.Shortly after Guan Mingsong was admitted to university, his grandmother passed away.

Guan Xiuqi did not marry Zheng Yunyun.Zheng Yunyun was pregnant and kept urging him, but Mingsong kept procrastinating. Anyway, there is no law that stipulates that pregnancy must be married.After a long time, Zheng Yunyun's heart became cold.

The first time Guan Mingsong saw Zheng Yunyun was at his grandma's house. Zheng Yunyun and Guan Mingsong's children had reached their [-]th birthday, so they came to sit at the old man's house.Zheng Yunyun had a gloomy face, always unhappy, and later did not know what became the fuse, Zheng Yunyun cried while pointing at Guan Xiuqi and cursed: "I know what you are planning, you are still waiting for her to come back Haha, you can’t wait for her anymore, she married someone else, and that person is a rich second generation! She married someone else and left you drinking here alone every day!”

Zheng Yunyun was right. Su Wenru was chased after by a rich second generation after her divorce. It is said that this rich second generation has liked Su Wenru for a long time. After Su Wenru married Guan Xiuqi, he was very sad and never forgot.Su Wenru is lucky, the second generation of the rich have good morals in everything except their looks.Later they had a daughter named Zhou Yanyan.

Guan Xiuqi tightly hugged his head and curled up into a ball.

Zheng Yunyun wiped away tears and said fiercely: "You never loved me, I finally don't have to lie to myself."

Zheng Yunyun left Guan Mingsong and the city in despair.She didn't want to make trouble in the past. Although there is no law that stipulates that teachers cheat and break the law, after all, the profession of teachers has high requirements for morality. If Zheng Yunyun goes to Guan Xiuqi's school and makes a big mess of him, Guan Xiuqi will be very embarrassed.But Zheng Yunyun didn't do this, because after giving up on a person, he would no longer want to have anything to do with him.

Zheng Yunyun went to a first-tier city in the south to look for a job. She worked very hard, as if she wanted to regain the self-esteem lost by Guan Xiuqi at work.She has never met Guan Xiuqi, nor has she met her child Guan Xue again. She wished she could wipe out all the mistakes she made in her youth and ignorance.

Guan Xiuqi was in a trance all day long, and lost the energy he used to have. Once, he was admitted to the hospital because of drinking, and died with half his life.

Guan Mingsong was a child who thought a lot and talked a little since he was a child.After experiencing a series of things, he was very confused and often thought alone.He thought about why his father and mother fell in love, but separated so tragically?Why didn't the father love Zheng Yunyun, but had a child with her?Why did the so-called love make the three of them suffer so much?He began to disbelieve in feelings. He felt that the love stories written in fairy tale books were all fake and deceitful.

After thinking too much, Guan Mingsong's character changed a little.He became very introverted. He had just entered junior high school, and he didn't communicate much with others in class. He would just sit in his seat and think after class.The classmates thought he was a weirdo, so they nicknamed him "dumb", and they called him so loudly in the classroom for nothing, and then laughed.