sickness

"Get out... get out... ah..."

"Help...help...Nie Zi...kill you...kill you..."

"Ah... ah... someone help me... save me..."

"Lin...all those surnamed Lin...will die...ahh..."

As the door slammed shut, cursing, pleading, and heart-piercing voices were all locked in the room.

But soon Mother Lin broke free from Xiaohong's shackles again, with disheveled hair and distorted face, clutching the steel railing of the window, blood-red eyes bursting with horrific hatred.

She spat at Lin Bochuan through the railing, stretched out her hands to grab him, and cursed him to die.

Dr. Tian hurried over with a sedative, and Xiao Hong pressed her on the bed, binding her hands and feet.It wasn't until the sedative went off that the cursing and struggling gradually subsided.

Doctor Tian came out and closed the door, and saw the bruise on Lin Bochuan's right cheekbone, which was caused by his mother who suddenly grabbed the thermos cup on the table and smashed it: "I'll take some ointment for you to apply."

"No, it's fine."

"Madam has been like this for a while, most of the time she is not sober, actually it is not recommended to meet people."

Lin Bochuan nodded: "I'm going to leave Haicheng for a while, you and Xiaohong need to worry more about the next few months."

"You don't have to worry about your work, Ma'am has us watching."

This time, the quick meeting ended in such a frivolous way, without saying a word.

It was the first time that Zang Bai saw Mother Lin fall ill with his own eyes.Knowing that this incident was completely different from what he saw with his own eyes, he was also a little frightened.On the way back, the atmosphere in the car was particularly stagnant.

At the foot of the mountain, Zang Bai found Hua Xiaohao's car on the side of the road, and was surprised, Lin Bochuan said: "You go home in Xiaohao's car first."

Once again, after visiting his mother, Lin Bochuan drove away.Fortunately, they didn't make them wait this time, and they knew to call Hua Xiaohao over in advance.

Zang Bai got into the co-driver: "Follow Lin Bochuan."

"Ah?" Hua Xiaohao hesitated, "Brother knew he would get angry."

"Look where he went."

"The young master just wants to be alone. Sir, let's go home first."

Lin Bochuan's car was almost out of sight, Zang Bai was a little impatient: "Then you go back first and give me the car."

……

"Where is he going?" Hua Xiaohao followed Lin Bochuan's car all the way from the edge of the city to the old city, shuttling through unfamiliar alleys, and always kept his hands on his back so that he wouldn't be noticed.

"Come closer." It can be seen that Lin Bochuan is very familiar with this territory, and almost lost it several times.

"I'm afraid of being seen by him."

"As long as he doesn't do something wrong, it doesn't matter if he is seen."

"Brother Bai, you look like you're going to catch a rape."

"Hua Xiaohao!" Uncle Hua yelled loudly from the back seat, and the child quickly shut up.

Finally, Lin Bochuan stopped on the side of the street, entered a pet shop, came out after a while, picked up two bags, and went directly into the community opposite the pet shop.

"Go back first." Zang Bai also got out of the car and followed.

When Zang Bai found Lin Bochuan in that old neighborhood, he was sitting on a bench with peeling paint, four or five dirty big and small cats circled around him and rubbed against his legs. go.There was even a "daring" long-haired orange cat that jumped onto his lap and tried to lie down, but was immediately pushed to the ground by this cruel man.

Zang Bai walked to the other end of the bench and sat down, grabbing a handful of cat food from the bag beside him.The cats here are not afraid of people. As soon as he opens his palm, his wet mouth will come up to eat food.

"Where are Uncle Hua and Xiaohao?"

"I sent them back."

"What are you doing here?"

After feeding one handful, Zang Bai grabbed another handful, and while the cat was eating, his other hand was not idle, and he purred a bunch of fluffy heads next to each other.

"Xiao Hao said that I look like a traitor."

Lin Bochuan smiled: "Then I have let you down."

The orange cat that was pushed to the ground didn't give up, resting its front paws on the edge of the bench, meowing and pushing its head against Lin Bochuan's arm.

"Like cats?"

"It's dirty and shedding hair." Having said that, Lin Bochuan still reached out and rubbed its head.

"I remember you said that there used to be a cat at home, named Feifei."

"It happened when I was a child. My mother fell ill and threw it from the fourth floor. It's in this yard. I don't know how many stray cats here are its offspring."

The cat was full, and gradually lost interest in food. It sat down on the spot, licked its mouth, and licked its fur.

Zang Bai took out a wet towel to wipe his hands, and took a look at Lin Bochuan: "When you were young... your mother was ill, would she beat you?"

The cat surrounded by his feet gradually walked away, Lin Bochuan bent over, carefully twirled the cat hairs off the trouser legs one by one, wiped it carefully with a disinfectant wipe, took off his coat and shook: "Let's go. "

Seeing that Lin Bochuan didn't want to talk about this topic, Zang Bai didn't delve into it any further, and followed Lin Bochuan back to the car.

This place is the same as Qiurong Road, where the tall banyan trees that have grown for decades block out the sky, and the early summer sunlight casts mottled shadows through the leaves.

Lin Bochuan turned on the air conditioner, but did not start the car. Instead, he rummaged in the car and found a half pack of cigarettes.He lit one and opened the window.Seeing that Zang Bai was looking at him all the time, he handed him the lit cigarette and lit another one for himself.

He talked about those pasts in a very ordinary way, like chatting: "She seldom did anything directly, most of the time locked me in the cabinet, and once poured a pot of hot tea on my back."

"Your father..." Zang Bai wanted to say why it took so long for your father to find out what kind of father he was, leaving his wife and children aside and not caring about anything.

"It's hard for my dad to face her, so he tries to avoid seeing her as much as possible.

"Because my mother didn't like my dad, she was forced to stay by my dad's side by some means. After she was forced to conceive me, she hated my dad even more. In fact, my dad almost gave up in the next few years, and also After accepting Alpha and Beta, there was no good result after all, but now I found out that my mother has a mental problem."

A piece of soot fell from the cigarette in Zang Bai's hand, and he threw himself on his legs, so shocked that he didn't know what to say.

Lin Bochuan's few words, after thinking about it, the pain and tragedy mixed in it is simply frightening, and this pain and tragedy has also continued to the next generation, to Lin Bochuan.

"How do you know this?" Parents should never tell their children this kind of thing.

"After my father passed away, I probably pieced it together from relatives."

Lin Bochuan took a deep breath, remembering the time when his relatives and elders of the Lin family kept accusing him of his father's stains during his lifetime in order to fight for power and gain and justify their actions.

I also remembered that he couldn't bear it at that time, and indulged himself until he made a big mistake.

And the person who made the mistake was right in front of him right now.

Zang Bai bit the cigarette holder until it was full of tooth marks. He had experienced the so-called viciousness of his relatives.

Full of indignation and pity, it was only a soft sentence: "Do you hate your father?"

Lin Bochuan shook his head lightly, leaned his head on the back of the seat, and puffed on the roof of the car: "At first I hated my mother for locking me in the closet. Later, when I found out that she was sick, I forgave her."

Parents bring great pain to their children because of their own faults, but they know that they didn't do it on purpose, and they have resentment and hatred in their hearts, but they don't know who to blame.Zang Bai understood this feeling too well, at this moment he looked at Lin Bochuan as if he was looking at himself.

Lin Bochuan just leaned on the back of the chair, looked sideways at Zang Bai, behind him was the shade and sunlight outside the car window, but he himself was in the shadows, looking so carefree and sad.

"During the time my father passed away, I had a bad time and made many mistakes, the most serious of which was...forcing you.

"Afterwards I regretted it, but was more scared, so I ran away...

“It’s still hard to deal with today.

"Zang Bai, I'm sorry, really, really sorry, all of this..."

Through the gray mist of cigarettes, Zang Bai saw that Lin Bochuan's eyes were getting wet gradually, and tears accumulated, dripping from the corners of his eyes obliquely, dripping on the back of the leather chair, leaving a dark wet mark...

But why is Lin Bochuan crying?How could he cry?Shouldn't he be the one who should cry?

Zang Bai's mind was in a mess, and then his whole heart was in a mess.

Lin Bochuan didn't speak for a while, and there were only two small drops of tears, which stopped after a while, but he didn't move his eyes from looking at Zang Bai, and his eyes were still so carefree and sad.

Zang Bai staggered his eyes and cast his gaze out of the window.

Recalling that incident again brought him eternal pain again.He waited for guilt, apology and compensation, but are these enough?He didn't know, he just felt very sad, this time not only for himself, but also for Lin Bochuan.

"Zang Bai, I'm sorry..."

"do not talk."

"I regret it, but it happened..."

"I told you to stop talking."

"I don't expect you to forgive me, and I can't forgive myself..."

Zang Bai suddenly turned around, pressed the cigarette butt on the console, grabbed Lin Bochuan's collar, and glared at him: "I told you not to talk anymore."

"...Okay, I won't talk about it."

"do not be angry……"

Zang Bai's chest rose and fell, and the two looked at each other for a long time.

The despised illegitimate child and the child cursed by the mother, the perpetrator and the victim, they are opposite, yet so similar.They both saw the same unbearable past as their own through each other's eyes, and saw exactly the same pain and struggle.

They couldn't resist kissing each other, like the self who wanted to resent but had to force self-love.

They crazily exchanged breaths and sucked each other's lips and tongues. In the cramped carriage, they seemed to want to devour each other, wishing they could become one.

When he was about to suffocate, Zang Bai turned away his face and panted anxiously: "Shut, close the window."

The car window was raised, and the coated glass cut off a private space, and the two of them became more presumptuous.Lin Bochuan put down the car seat, tore off Zang Bai's tie and skirt, and buried his face in his chest, kissing and biting him, ignoring the broken buttons.

Zang Bai grabbed Lin Bochuan's hair tightly, and he couldn't stop trembling with strange feelings.He bit his lip to avoid leaking some sound, but his gradually emptying mind had only one thought.

crazy.

Lin Bochuan was crazy, and so was he.

That being the case, let's go a little further insane.

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Go crazy, hey!