sickness

On the first day of the new year, at two o'clock in the morning, Lin Bochuan returned to his room exhausted.His left face was red and swollen, and the vest outside his shirt was torn. He looked extremely distressed.

"What's the matter?" Zang Bai also looked anxious.

"I took a sedative and fell asleep." Lin Bochuan said while taking off the torn vest outside, "Your mother isn't scared, is she?"

"She's okay. I told her about your mother's situation before, and I'm mentally prepared."

"That's good."

Lin Bochuan casually threw the vest on the corner of the sofa: "Go to bed first, I'll take a shower and go to sleep."

Without the cover of the vest, the bulging figure under the fitted shirt is also shown.Lin Bochuan habitually pulled his tie, unbuttoned it, and took off his shirt.Just as he was unbuttoning his belt, he suddenly found Zang Bai looking at him in shock.He immediately stopped, picked up the clothes on the sofa, squeezed the waist of his trousers, a little embarrassed: "Sorry, I'm used to it."

Zang Bai rolled his eyes: "It's okay, you go quickly, it's already very late."

They were watching fireworks at the beach just now, when Uncle Hua called them back.Mother Lin didn't know if she was stimulated by the sound of cannons outside, or if the sound of the Spring Festival Gala evoked some memories in her.Originally, she was happily playing cards with everyone, but she suddenly turned over the table and started making noise.

All the other helpers in the family went home for the New Year, and Uncle Hua couldn't control her, and he didn't dare to ask the other two old ladies to help, fearing that something would happen again, so he had to call Lin Bochuan.As soon as Lin Bochuan came home, his mother seemed to be even more irritated, not only making a scene, but also beating others.As soon as Lin Bochuan stepped forward, she slapped her hard.

Not only that, but on this big night, she ran outside in her pajamas.I don't know if it's because when people go crazy, they always have extra strength, quick movements, and extra energy.Lin Bochuan chased him out of the house, but he couldn't catch him even after going around the backyard several times.Zang Bai wanted to help, but he didn't know where to start. Lin Bochuan asked him to take Bai Yuzhen back to the room, and he would deal with it.

It took most of the night to settle his mother down, and it is estimated that he will send her back to the mountain tomorrow.

Zang Bai lay sideways on the bed, his cheeks sunk in the soft pillow, secretly thinking about Lin Bochuan's feelings.How did he get here after all these years.

Mental illness is different from other diseases. It erodes a person's intelligence. No matter how good he is to his mother and how hard he takes care of her, the moment she goes crazy, all of this will return to zero.He is not her son, not her relatives, she will use the dirtiest words in the world to humiliate and scold him, she will do things recklessly, and she will wish to kill him...

It would be better if Lin Bochuan didn't have any feelings for his mother, and taking care of her was just out of an obligation.But in fact, Lin Bochuan loves his mother very much, and will call her when he is most helpless.Zang Bai thought about it a little bit, if Bai Yuzhen was like this, he would already feel so uncomfortable that he was about to suffocate.

In the darkness, the mattress behind him sank slightly, and a scent of fresh bath liquid approached, Lin Bochuan lay quietly on his side, and did not move.

Zang Bai hesitated repeatedly, and couldn't help but want to comfort him: "Lin Bochuan, your mother..."

"Go to sleep." Lin Bochuan turned his back to Zang Bai, obviously not wanting to talk about it, "It's late, good night."

Zang Bai gritted his teeth and said nothing more.

I don't know how long he slept, Zang Bai was disturbed by a burst of shortness of breath and trembling, he was extremely reluctant and forced to experience the process of gradually waking up.When he woke up seven minutes later, he woke up suddenly.

His own quilt has long been missing, and he is wrapped in Lin Bochuan's quilt, with his arms across the other's chest, his palms under the pajamas, touching his chest muscles, and his legs, straddling Lin Bochuan's. The center of his crotch, the center of his crotch rubbed against the outside of Lin Bochuan's thigh.

Zang Bai was so startled that he almost jumped up, or yelled, but he tried his best to restrain himself calmly. If Lin Bochuan was woken up at this time, how would he explain the scene.

According to the heartbeat that was beating too fast, he gently and slowly retracted his arms and legs, then gently and slowly rolled back to his half of the bed, and then gently and slowly picked up the quilt that had been kicked to the ground and covered it.After finishing this series of actions, I finally breathed a sigh of relief and was sweating from exhaustion.

But just as he relaxed, the shortness of breath and trembling that woke him up reappeared, and this time he clearly heard the movement coming from Lin Bochuan next to him.

What's up with him?Zang Bai held his breath, pricked up his ears, and heard a series of humming sounds, which seemed to be extremely painful, moaning from being restrained, unable to open his mouth and break free.This feeling is surprisingly familiar to Zang Bai, it must be a nightmare.

"Lin Bochuan, wake up, you are dreaming..."

Zang Bai knew that the person in the nightmare would be frightened if he woke up suddenly, so he tried to wake him up gently, but it was obviously useless. Lin Bochuan hummed louder, and his whole body trembled, as if he was in extreme pain.

Zang Bai couldn't care less, he first turned on the bedside lamp in the room, under the warm yellow light, he could see Lin Bochuan's distorted face and sweat-soaked forehead even more clearly.

While calling his name, he stretched out his hand and pushed his arm, but couldn't wake up several times, and his voice and movements became louder and louder.

Lin Bochuan opened his eyes suddenly, a pair of bright red eyes covered with bloodshot eyes, like an evil spirit, and then he got up and threw Zang Bai violently.Zang Bai, who was kneeling, was staggered by him. If he hadn't fallen on the bed, his arm might have been crippled.

"Hold……"

"..." Lin Bochuan obviously hasn't recovered from the nightmare.

Zang Bai got up, rubbed his sore wrist, frowned, and didn't ask a question: "You're having a nightmare."

Lin Bochuan blinked slowly, blinked again, and then let out a hoarse "hmm".He buried his face in the palm of his hand, rubbed it vigorously, and when he spoke again, he was completely awake.

"are you OK?"

"Fortunately, nothing."

"...I'm sorry, I thought you were still..." Lin Bochuan stopped talking before finishing his sentence, pinching the space between his brows wearily.

"then what?"

"It's nothing."

In fact, he wanted to say that he thought Zang Bai was still the same Zang Bai in his dream.

"Go to bed if you have nothing to do, it's only past four o'clock."

Zang Bai didn't delve into it, and lay down again after talking. When Lin Bochuan lay down, he turned off the light.

He intuitively felt that Lin Bochuan would not be able to sleep for a while.He was very clear about the feeling of having a nightmare. First he woke up in a cold sweat, but when he closed his eyes, the scene just now would reappear again, falling into the abyss of dark dreams again.At such a time, something needs to be done to interrupt it completely. What Zang Bai usually does is not to sleep, but to get up and draw a picture or something.

"What did you dream about just now? Tell me about it and then go to sleep and you won't dream again."

"...I can't remember." Lin Bochuan's voice was hoarse. This was a nightmare he couldn't tell, especially when facing another protagonist in the nightmare, the person who killed him over and over again in the dream.

"Then you think of something else, it's happier, I'm very experienced."

"Do you often have nightmares?"

"...Well, I do it occasionally. Everyone has nightmares."

Lin Bochuan didn't dare to ask Zang Bai what his nightmare was, he was afraid it was the same nightmare as himself, this was an answer he couldn't bear.He was silent, filled with fear and guilt in the darkness, he was extremely tired, but when he closed his eyes, it was the face that hated and resented him in the dream.

The edge of the quilt rustled and moved, a hand stretched in, and the soft palm reached into Lin Bochuan's cold and sweaty palm.

"Will this be better?" Zang Bai asked softly, facing him sideways.

"...Mmm." Holding Zang Bai's hand, the eyes that were open in the dark were sore and swollen, and a soft and warm feeling like warm water filled Lin Bochuan's chest like never before.

"Then sleep like this." Zang Bai inserted his fingers into Lin Bochuan's and held it firmly.

Maybe Zang Bai in reality doesn't hate him like he did in his dream, Lin Bochuan thinks so, and feels shameful.But he decided to continue shamelessly: "Can I... hug you. I think that would be better... just hug from outside the quilt."

Zang Bai was a little embarrassed, he nodded, but remembered that it was at night, so he hummed again.

He was like a wrapped rice dumpling, stuffed into Lin Bochuan's arms, filling his arms.

When hugging Zang Bai, Lin Bochuan thought of a word - complete.

The chest is the most fragile part of the human body, as if it was born to wait for another equally fragile chest, and when they become one, they guard each other's fragility, and they will become complete.Lin Bochuan in the dark was both satisfied and sad, he didn't know what to do with this feeling.

After dawn, Dr. Tian and Xiaohong came to pick up Mama Lin.Lin Bochuan felt a little sorry that they hadn't had a good year this year.Dr. Tian was very reasonable, and said that when his wife's condition stabilized, she could change shifts and rest.

After seeing Mrs. Lin off, Lin Bochuan took Zang Bai to his father's cemetery, and then took Bai Yuzhen to Zang Qingshan's cemetery together.Normally, Zang Bai should take Lin Bochuan back to his natal family in the second year of junior high school, but now Bai Yuzhen lives in Lin's family, so this is saved.The family went shopping in the second day of junior high school, and Lin Bochuan paid a lot of respect to the old lady.

In the third day of junior high school, it is time for relatives and friends to visit each other.The Lin family has rules, the order of visits is from relative to relative, from elder to younger. Since Lin Bochuan's father passed away, the third day of junior high school has always been the day to visit Lin Guangyue.

Zang Bai didn't want to go at all, because he didn't like Lin Guangyue because he didn't like Lin Guangyue, and because he really didn't feel ashamed after the trouble last time.But he was embarrassed to say that this was the first Spring Festival he came to the Lin family, if he didn't go, he would definitely be said to be unruly, and he didn't want to embarrass Lin Bochuan.

"If you don't want to go to my second uncle's house, then don't go." Lin Bochuan had already seen it.

Zang Bai twitched his lips: "I don't want to go, but those of your Lin family are not allowed to gossip about you."

"You think I'm afraid of gossip?"

"Why don't you go too, just your second uncle." Zang Bai pointed to the various high-end gifts that Uncle Hua carried in the car, "It's better to give him a dog."

"You can't say that, he treats me very well in some ways." Before going out, Lin Bochuan adjusted his clothes, "Besides, there are some things that I should talk to him about."

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