sickness

"You are a typical PTSD mental disorder." The doctor looked at Zang Bai's test results and came to this conclusion.

"I know," Zang Bai was not surprised at all, "I have been treated by Teacher Wu Xiumin for a long time, but she retired the year before last."

The doctor also knew the famous Professor Wu, and he was a little surprised by his words: "How did you do then?"

Zang Bai said frankly: "I am recovering very well, and I have stopped taking medicine and consulting for a long time."

"Then why now?"

"I was exposed to stressors."

Hearing the professional term "stressor" come out of the patient's mouth, the doctor frowned, which is a sign of poor treatment. "You should stay away from the stressor in this situation. Some trauma patients are usually fine and in a state of healing, but they will never be able to overcome the stressor. For this part of the patient, our suggestion is not to be exposed to the stressor unless necessary. .”

"I know, but I have no choice, I have to reach out to him."

"Is the stressor personal?"

Zang Bai nodded.

The doctor got up and poured Zang Bai a glass of water, and adjusted a more comfortable posture when he sat down.It's not very deliberate, it's like chatting casually: "Did he cause you serious harm?"

But Zang Bai immediately realized that this was the doctor's beginning to understand his specific situation, but this time he didn't want to talk about it.

The doctor knew what was going on just by looking at his expression, so he said frankly: "You have become a doctor after a long illness, you have been treated, and you have been cured, and you know enough about our treatment method, the effect may be discounted if you do it again."

"I think so too." During this period of time, Zang Bai repeatedly used his previous experience to adjust himself. If Lin Bochuan was not present, it would still be useful, but as long as Lin Bochuan was in close contact with him, all the treatments would fail.

"Since you can do well when you are not exposed to stressors, the best way is to temporarily avoid stressors or slowly expose them to stressors."

"The reality doesn't give me more options."

The doctor spread his hands helplessly: "You don't want to talk about traumatic scenes anymore, and you know most of our treatments like the back of your hand, so you don't have any good choices for me."

Of course Zang Bai also knew this, but even if he was willing to try to heal step by step again, there was too little time.The wedding will be held next week, and when he thinks of the scene of kissing Lin Bochuan, he breaks out in a cold sweat.What he needed now was to get over this, to get through this last difficulty.

"Doctor, please prescribe me some antidepressant and convulsion medicine."

The doctor had no choice but to sigh, and while writing a prescription for him, he persuaded him: "Drug treatment is not fundamental. If you want, I can talk to Professor Wu and discuss a plan for you. The premise is that you cooperate."

Holding the prescription slip, Zang Bai only said, "I'll think about it again."

Because the treatment needs to recall the traumatic scene over and over again, from resisting the memory at the beginning, to crying and recounting the bit by bit of pain, to being able to retell the scene once, twice, and three times in an emotionally stable manner.Every time when describing the incident, Professor Wu would correct his non-objective cognition in response to his mental pain.This is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

In this repeated narration, he became numb and became an objective and rational third person, standing in the traumatic scene again, watching Lin Bochuan's atrocities against him calmly.Those injuries and pains only stay on the body, and as time goes by, they have already healed and no longer hurt.The bloody experience, the last thing left is just a dry memory like a dry leaf.

Zang Bai didn't believe that he would be defeated by this piece of memory. He paid attention to Lin Bochuan's movements. During the years when he went abroad, he followed the Lin family's movements.Knowing that Lin Bochuan returned to China, there was nothing special about it. He was a little surprised when Lin Bochuan asked him out, and accepted the appointment calmly, probably wanting to see how far he has recovered.Lin Bochuan proposed to get married by agreement, Zang Bai thought it was no big deal, he thought he could handle it, but in fact he needed someone to take him out of the quagmire he was in.

But he didn't expect that he couldn't bear Lin Bochuan's touch, the simple and straightforward physical contact without any emotion.His smell, his breath, his strength... are all alive, bubbling into the dead leaf, making it come alive, take root and sprout, and grow into a big tree.Zang Bai couldn't rationally stand on the sidelines of the third person, he became the body that was crushed under him, unable to resist, pierced and torn... and the anger and hatred were also awakened together.

Only then did he realize that he hated Lin Bochuan to death.

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"Bochuan, Zang Bai went to Haicheng No. [-] Hospital yesterday and stayed there for an hour," said Uncle Hua.

The wedding is coming soon, because of being surrounded at the airport last time, Lin Bochuan was worried about being photographed by other people, so he found someone to watch him in the past few days.

"Ah."

"Do you want me to find out what he went to? This second hospital is not an ordinary hospital."

The Second Hospital is a psychiatric hospital in Haicheng.When it comes to psychiatric hospitals, everyone subconsciously thinks that all the lunatics are imprisoned there.In fact, this is not the case. Only the psychiatric inpatient area is relatively closed, and most of the inpatients in it are schizophrenic patients.In other departments such as depression, bipolar disorder, addiction, and substance dependence, most of the patients in them look normal.

"There's no need to check, I know." Since Zang Bai didn't want to tell himself about his abnormalities, it was right to talk to a psychiatrist, "He hasn't been photographed, has he?"

"No, the bodyguard is watching."

"Stay away, and don't let Zang Bai find out."

Uncle Hua nodded: "Also, regarding the pre-marital physical examination, Zang Bai said that he didn't want to go to the hospital under the Lin Group."

Lin Bochuan put down the banquet list in his hand, and asked sideways: "Then where is he going?"

"A private hospital called Yimei Zhonghe. He said that he was afraid of going to the hospital since he was a child. This hospital is where he has been seeing doctors since he was a child. He feels better."

"Who is the investor of the hospital?"

"An American investment company specializing in medical treatment invested, and it has nothing to do with Haicheng."

"Then go here and do it."

"But, Bo Chuan, you...you should do better in your own hospital."

Lin Bochuan waved his hand: "Why do you think my second uncle specifically ordered this matter?"

"Don't you care about you two?"

Lin Bochuan thought for a moment: "I can't say what is his attitude towards my marriage and towards Zang Bai now. What if Zang Bai finds out something and is caught by him? I'm afraid Zang Bai is also considering this point. I don’t want to be checked in my hospital.”

"But you..." Uncle Hua frowned slightly, with a look of worry on his face.

"You can just hide that little thing from me." Lin Bochuan also frowned, he was a little impatient, "Go and do it."

Everything is done.The wedding will be held on the 16th, and on the 14th, Zang Bai, Lin Bochuan, Bai Yuzhen, Lin Sanshu and Aunt Lin, the protagonists of these wedding ceremonies and the staff are preparing to go on the cruise ship first.

They flew directly from Haicheng to Hong Kong, and then boarded the ship from Hong Kong port. After the ceremony on the 16th, there will be a short-term sightseeing trip for seven days and six nights on this cruise ship. Guests can participate if they have time, and the cost is naturally covered by the host.

Early in the morning, Uncle Hua directed the two nannies at home to help pack up the things that were to be taken away later.

There are too many problems to deal with in the past few days, and Zang Bai also lives in Lin Bochuan's seaside villa, which can be regarded as preparation for life after marriage.He didn't sleep very well, and sleeping pills didn't help.

In fact, he was downstairs and Lin Bochuan was upstairs. Except for trying on rings and clothes together, they only saw two or three times a day.Zang Bai thought, as long as he stays at home after marriage, as long as he doesn't leave his room—the guest room he lives in is a suite, complete with bathroom, cloakroom, and study room, and the nanny will bring him in for meals, so he doesn't have to see Lin Bochuan at all. .This is more in line with his intentions.

Can't sleep at night, can't wake up in the morning, the sun not only dispels the darkness, but also dispels the fear in his heart. After dawn, Zang Bai will sleep more peacefully.

Here there is no Bai Yuzhen to wake him up for breakfast, and it is far away from the busy city, there is not even the sound of people and cars, so he can sleep until noon if nothing happens.

But this day I woke up, and there was a lot of noise outside.Zangbai pajamas were covered with a sweater cardigan, and when he opened the door, he saw a very young Omega with a bite ring around his neck.Zang Bai inexplicably felt that he was very familiar, but he couldn't remember when he would know such a young O.

That child is probably not yet 20 years old, Zang Bai saw that he was dressed in expensive clothes, but he looked very manic, and the expression on his face was distorted by anger.

He bulged his eyes towards the top of the stairs, and scolded neatly: "Lin Bochuan, come out, you bastard, scumbag, bastard..."

Uncle Hua couldn't help himself, so another nanny came.Only then did Uncle Hua take the time to persuade him: "Young Master Luo, calm down, my young master is not here."

"Who are you coaxing?" Luo Koukou's eyes were red with anger, and he continued to shout upstairs, "Lin Bochuan, you lied to my feelings, you dare not come out to see me? Tell me clearly..."

On the day Lin Bochuan's marriage news came out, if his family hadn't confiscated his mobile phone and locked him at home, Luo Koukou would have found him long ago.His anger, his grievance, and his sadness all continued to ferment in his heart. He had never been treated like this before, and he had never been unable to get something.

Zang Bai raised his eyebrows, he didn't expect such a drama before marriage, he leaned against the door of the room, folded his arms and watched with great interest.I don't know if Lin Bochuan is really not at home, if he is, it would be a pity.

As if God was reluctant to let him down, Lin Bochuan came down the stairs neatly dressed.There was no expression on his face, but his eyes stopped on Zang Bai for a second, then turned to Luo Koukou, and walked towards him.

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episode before the wedding