godless day

Si Qing sat against the wall, still gasping for breath, wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Li Fang sat next to him.

"Yes," he said, "the archangels are dead."

Si Qing hummed, took a breath, her voice was still trembling.

Li Fang reached out to wrap his arms around his shoulders, hugged him in his arms, and patted him to express his comfort.

His hands have turned back into ordinary hands, with pale and slender fingers.

Si Qing obediently fell on him, leaning against him and asked: "You... Are you familiar with them?"

"I'm not very familiar with them. Because they are in charge of the good gods, and they have been ordered by God to stay away from me." Li Fang replied, "But they are all very good. Sometimes they happen to come to the evil prison for something, and they will help me. Talk and fight with the devil, because the devil is always torturing me."

"..."

"Don't be sad," Li Fang patted him, "That's the path they chose."

"I know. I just... how should I put it, I feel like I'm useless."

Li Fang was stunned for a moment, then smiled helplessly: "Where are you..."

"I'm a waste." Si Qing said, "I depend on you for these two levels. Without you, I would have died a long time ago. I haven't used my divine power a few times, and it's useless. The divine power of the first level It shouldn't be mine... I'm useless, I... I'm trash."

He held Li Fang's other hand, rubbed his slender fingers, and murmured: "At that time... I couldn't save you either."

"You remembered."

Li Fang's voice was calm and heavy, which he seemed to have expected.

"Ah."

There was no big reaction when Li put it down.He stretched out his hand and scratched Xia Siqing's nose.

"What does it have to do with you?" He said, "In that case, even if you are a policeman, you may not be able to save me. You are not wrong, and you are not a waste. When I first came here, I didn't dare to move. I knew how to cry, but in the end I cried and cried and found that everyone else was dead, and in such a big castle, I was the only one left.”

"... Are you the first level?"

"Well, angry Samuel." Li Fang said, "Si Qing, you have saved me many times, although you didn't know it."

The second half of his sentence was nonsensical, and Si Qing didn't quite understand it.

Li Fang didn't explain, just smiled and said: "Go and see others, they have to see that I'm all right."

"...Okay." Si Qing said, "What do you mean I have saved you many times, even though I don't know?"

Li Fang said: "My life is not good, I am always tossed about."

He stood up, didn't answer any more, pulled cheese and walked downstairs lightly.

He didn't want to say more, and Si Qing didn't ask further.

Downstairs, the stove in the front hall was lit, and Fersh sat cross-legged in front of the stove without saying a word, with a lonely back.

All the other chosen ones stood around.

Yu Ruiyu saw the two of them and greeted them: "Hey, are you finally awake?"

Li Fang replied: "Yes."

Hearing his voice, Fersh finally moved and looked at him.

Li Fang had never seen his expression so gloomy before.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

Fersh frowned, turned his head sullenly, and didn't answer him.

The whole room was silent, only the fire in the stove was crackling and sparking.

"My family is a royal family," Furch suddenly said slowly, "It's true, I didn't lie to you."

"But I forgot what my family does in the imperial family. My father seems to be highly valued by the emperor, but he doesn't seem to be. I just remember that when I was young, I had to read a lot of books, and I was dragged by the etiquette teacher to learn to dance. I grew up a little bit. Afterwards, I was dragged by my father to various banquets. The war was chaotic at that time, but we lived very well and our family was rich—it was only at that time, a very short 'time'."

"At that time, I had a younger sister." He said, "She was called Anfly, and like me, she had to read a lot of books since she was a child, and she was dragged by the etiquette teacher to learn to dance. She was very young, seven years younger than me. age."

Zhong Tang walked slowly to his side, silently watching the dancing sparks in the stove.

"Everything was normal until one day... my father accidentally said a wrong sentence at the banquet. Because of this wrong sentence, my family fell into ruin overnight, all the money was paid, and all the servants They also left one after another, and finally only some old servants who were loyal to my family remained. Later, I don’t know who passed the news to my father, saying that all the servants would be forced to leave early the next morning, and all the servants in this family Everyone will go to jail."

"Father was in a hurry. He was reluctant to let Anfly and I go to jail, but he couldn't do anything. After worrying for half the night, he thought of a way."

Fuerxi raised his eyelids and looked at Zhong Tang with dark eyes.

"I dressed up as a maid and ran with Anfly." He said softly, "Anfry is still young, no one has seen her at the banquet, and no one knows what she looks like. Although I have attended many banquets It is known by others, but it is difficult to be discovered in the form of a woman."

"My father said that he and my mother can run away tomorrow morning when the guards are counting the servants. That night was a mess, we had a quarrel, and I was slapped... I have never been spanked since I was a child, Anfry was frightened and cried."

"In the end I disguised myself as a woman. I am the daughter of my old servant, and Anfri is her second daughter. We just passed through the eyes of the guards and ran out."

"Before leaving home, my father made an appointment with me. He will wait for me in a remote town. We will meet and think about what to do in the future. The carriage bumped for two days before I brought Anfly there."

"He didn't come," said Fersh. "I waited for him all night in the snow, and he didn't come."

"Then the next morning, I picked up the day's newspaper on the road and found that he had been taken away the morning we left... the night I was waiting for him, he died."

Zhong Tang: "..."

"Anfry and I are wanted in the newspaper, we are finished."

"I didn't dare to take off the skirt afterwards, and kept wearing the skirt tightly on my body. I didn't dare to take it off because it was torn, dirty, and the corners were worn out. I got rid of the old servant who followed us, and brought Anfu Li is running around. We are wanted, and the old servant has taken care of our family for so long, so she shouldn’t continue to suffer with us, she is very old.”

"Anfry never complained to me. I lied to her a lot, but she must know everything. No one is stupid."

"I took her to wander in many towns, and finally found a church in a small town. The priest of the church is a very good person. He told me that he can't take me in. I don't match my gender. Being a nun is against the Lord. Disrespectful, but you can take Anfly into the monastery, but she is a wanted criminal, I'm afraid she has to find a way with this face."

"I knew what he meant, so I took An Fuli and left. I would not do this to An Fuli."

"But Anfry did it herself," Fulsh said. "Where did she get the knife, where did she get the courage to scratch her own face with that knife, to scratch her face with that knife?" It's such a long scar."

He let out a long and soft sigh towards the fire.

"At that time, Anfri's face was covered with blood, but she smiled happily. She told me that there would be bread in the monastery, and she would not have to dig through the garbage in the future. She would eat food with the stench, and she would have a stomachache after eating. .”

"What can I say."

"I couldn't say anything, I sent her to church."

"After she went to church, she would come out with bread every three or four days to help the poor. At that time, there was war and famine outside, and people often came out to dig through the trash cans. Sometimes I couldn't grab the trash. She would come every time she came out If you come to me, half a basket of bread will be stuffed for me."

"I used to believe in God very much." He said, "I thank him for taking in Anfri, giving her a home, giving her a place to live, giving her a fairly stable life, and giving us bread that doesn't rot."

"Until that nun took a gun and shot her in front of me."

"...the nuns in that church, I don't know when they started to doubt."

"She followed An Fuli with people, and found her to see me. We were still wanted at that time, and the superiors were already furious. We had to take the corpses. He wanted us to die, and anyone had the right to kill us."

"That nun just killed her, right in front of me."

"As she was handing me the bread, she shot her in the head."

"There were so many people who came with her, I forgot what they all said, and I forgot how I died," Fursh said. "I don't even remember."

Zhong Tang squatted down and sat beside him.

"I don't even remember." Fersh repeated.

"Yeah." Zhong Tang replied, "If you don't remember, don't remember."

Fersh fell silent, the light from the fire cast a fluffy warm color on him.

Li Fang scanned all the people present, and asked, "Hey, do you want to go to bed?"

God's Chosen: "?"

"Tomorrow is the final battle, so it's not suitable to stay up late," he said, "Go to sleep, they still have some power to keep the mansion from collapsing, and it will be fine to sleep until tomorrow."

Everyone knew what he meant, so they left in a sensible way.

Milton looked strange, but he didn't say anything, and walked away with his hands in his pockets with an ugly expression like he was constipated.

Zhong Tang didn't leave.

"You should sleep for a while too," Li Fang said to Si Qing, "Let's go, pick a room?"

"Then let's go to the second floor." Si Qing said.

Li Fang nodded and said yes, and pulled him away.

All left.

Furch raised her eyes: "Go to sleep for a while too, don't accompany me."

Zhong Tang said, "You don't look like that."

"I'm used to it," said Fersh, "it really doesn't have to be."

"I'm also used to staying up late, so don't worry about me so much."

Fercy fell silent.

The two of them faced the stove in silence for a long time.Fersh kept staring at the stove, as if what was burning inside was his past.

"Hey," Zhong Tang asked, "Do you want to live?"

"I don't know." Furch said, "I really don't know. I never thought about the option of living."

"But you like me, don't you?"

"Yeah." Furch said, "but I... I don't know, I'm sorry. I just thought, anyway, when I die, when I kill God, no one will remember this, so before I die I want... I want to experience it, I have never liked a person so much. Anyway, in the end, he will erase all the parts related to this from everyone's memory, and you won't remember me anyway. "

"To be honest, I really don't know what to do now, I don't even know what it is to be alive."

"I have been wandering for too long, and God always makes me dream about these things. I have been digging through the trash, even snatching food from the dog, breaking it from its mouth, because my sister hasn't eaten for a long time. When I arrived, I was also bitten by a dog, and I didn't dare to go to the doctor for fear of being killed. The wound on that hand was left alone, and then it became inflamed. I was afraid of contracting rabies, so I took a knife and shaved the flesh. Lost."

"At the beginning, when I looked at the water in the mirror, I would think in a daze that I was dreaming, and I didn't know the woman in the mirror. But then one night when I saw no one around, I took off my skirt quietly, and I didn't recognize the woman in the mirror. The man in the mirror."

"After I sent An Fuli to the church, I lay alone in the alley and slept for three days and three nights. Later, I woke up hungry and didn't want to move. I lay in the alley and looked at the narrow sky. I didn't understand it when I thought about it later. Why didn't you seek death then?"

"On the night of the accident, my father said that if you want to live, you have to play the role of a woman. Everyone knows your face, and you must be a woman." The chosen one, after running away from Shantian, was stunned for a while in the end of the world, and he didn't know when he put on a skirt and became a woman."

He seemed to want to talk to Zhong Tang about this for a long time, and he talked endlessly, saying whatever came to mind.

"I actually remember how I died, very clearly." Fersh lowered her eyes, "The people brought by that nun came to laugh at me. They counted how much money I could exchange, saying that I was actually pretending to be a woman... They wear Christian clothes and do satanic things."

"Amphree's blood splattered on me, all over my face. I was crazy, I rushed up to kill the nun who shot it, but I've been wandering for years and I'm as skinny as a skeleton and I can't beat that A few people. They pulled off my upper body skirt to laugh at me, and finally shot me in the head."

"Actually, I really can't remember when I just died. I was going crazy at the time, and I couldn't remember things at all, but in the past 800 years, I would always dream about these things. I even remember when the nun shot the sky. A crow flies past, and I know how many times the crow calls."

"I've been wandering for 800 years," he said. "I believed in God so much, but he killed Amphrey in the end."

"Killed me too."

"...But it doesn't mean that there have been no good things in these years."

"Those archangels are all good. They each have their own ways to care about me. Gabriel will tell me some stories. He is the eye of God, and half of God's intelligence is shared with him. Michael In order to make me happy, he said that he learned to braid his hair, and braided the hair that I have grown very long year after year, but sometimes he got anxious when he was braiding and braiding, and wanted to give it to me with scissors. Cut it off."

"Ufele always stood by me without saying a word. He didn't like to talk, and he didn't know much. He just sat on the side without saying anything and lowered his head without looking at me. Once God left, I asked him Why don't you look at me, he said if I look at you, God will look at you."

"Sandalphin will play the harp, blow the horn, and make me muffins." Furch muttered softly, "Raphael is a healing angel, he will heal my wounds; Uriel is very noisy, He always conjures up a bunch of weird things to amuse me."

"A wise angel likes the world very much. He will tell me about the world, and he always chooses good things to talk about."

"...I never felt like they were spying on me," Fersh said. "I never felt like they were watching me."

At the end, his voice trembled.

Zhong Tang looked at him, saw that his eyes were trembling, and he pursed his mouth lightly, as if he was holding back something.

"Are you crying?" he asked.

"I don't know," Fersh said, "is that crying."

"Forget it, people are creatures that cry when others leave or sacrifice." Zhong Tang said, "This proves that we are still alive."

Fersh looked at him.

He felt an emotion tearing him apart, he felt something cracking in his chest, he felt like he wanted to cry out in pain.

He doesn't know if this counts as wanting to cry, he has lived for too long, and he has forgotten the feeling of living too much.

Zhong Tang reached out and hugged him.

"Folsh," he said, "if you're going to live, I can take care of everything behind you."

He gently rubbed Fersh's long platinum hair.Fersh grabbed him forcefully, breathed in his arms continuously, and let out a choked up wail.

But God has no tears.

The author has something to say:

These two chapters are engaging in emotional drama~ The next chapter is to take it easy~ Thank you for your support~

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