BOSS always asks me to promise

Chen Yang woke up just in time for breakfast, and everything was as usual. He felt that Situ Jue might not have told everyone what happened during this period, and he himself was unwilling to mention it.

"Have some porridge. I drank wine last night." Situ Jue served Chen Yang a bowl of porridge very naturally, as if they had never had any unpleasant experiences between them. "Yes", Chen Yang nodded. In fact, he didn't drink much at night, and he still remembered clearly what he said to Jue Situ, and he felt better after saying it, but he didn't know how much Jue Situ listened to.

How could everyone not know about this superficial peace?Ever since Chen Yang asked Uncle Bai if he and Gu Xi were really similar, everyone had a vague perception in their hearts.

This time, Jue Situ called everyone back nearly a week in advance. Although he didn't say that thoroughly, he guessed about seven or eight points.

"Do you want to go for a walk? The weather is nice today, let's go and bask in the sun!" After breakfast, Situ Jue proposed to go for a walk.

Before Chen Yang could refuse, Hao Ren started to push, "You guys go to the racecourse for a few laps, now that the weather is getting warmer, Chen Yang, your concubine Yu is afraid that she can't bear it anymore."

Concubine Yu?That's right, the horse that Situ Jue chose for himself is also a pair with his Li Chi. Unfortunately, the horse is a pair, but this person is destined to be separated. Situ Jue carefully led Chen Yang's hand, "Go?"

"Go!" Chen Yang didn't want to be hypocritical, didn't he just go for a ride, what else could he do.

Along the way, Situ Jue tried to talk to Chen Yang without saying anything, but Chen Yang didn't pay him much attention.

It was boring to say, so Situ Jue could only sigh.

"Can't we talk like we used to?" Situ Jue stopped, hooked Chen Yang's shoulders, and pulled some distance away, "I thought about what you said last night, you said...you are not happy, I know, and I don't want to, but I really can't do it if you ask me to let go, you can call me selfish, you can do anything, I, Situ Jue, have done a lot of bastard things in my life, this time I will do more Even if you hate me, I won’t regret it, it doesn’t matter if I imprison you or not, Chen Yang, I won’t let you go.”

Sure enough, within his expectation, even if Situ Jue was hit in the heart by what he said, he would still cling to it.

"Then we have nothing to talk about." Chen Yang broke his hand and continued to walk forward. After a few steps, he stopped. "We can't go back to the past. You know it very well in your heart. Years, it is impossible for you to tolerate my self-willedness again and again, and it is impossible for your irritable temper not to do something to me." Chen Yang paused, "Don't you think it's sad to live like this?"

sad?It's quite sad. My Situ Jue's life is a tragedy, but who can I blame? At the beginning, I blamed the gods and Buddhas in the sky, and I voluntarily never be detached, but what I got in exchange was absurd after all.

Situ Jue sneered a few times, "Yes! It's sad, I'm already like this, how could it be worse?"

"Baby, you're right, I can't stand you and do nothing, I'm just a fuckin' bastard, I'm a scumbag, but you love me, don't you? Now I love you too, why can't we forget How about starting the previous unhappiness again? You also said that in the long years, many people and things will change and disappear, but we will not. Who else in this world cares about you more than me, and can last for a long time? What about being with you? Can you trust me again?"

Long years... long... these words are what Chen Yang grasped at once.

For a long time, yes, if the contract is in one day, he is not a normal person, he is not even allowed to die, he is a monster, and monsters should be with monsters, he does not deserve the happiness of ordinary people.

Does Situ Jue love himself?love?

"I don't want to worry about love or not anymore."

"Then what are you struggling with?"

Chen Yang looked into Situ Jue's eyes. Although he didn't want to admit it, they were indeed a pair of pious and hurt eyes.

"The first time we had conflicts, it was because you didn't understand me, didn't respect me, treat me..." The shame and physical pain of being forcibly asked, "Then you told me it was because you loved me so much , you can't control yourself, I believe it, when I knew that you were going to propose to me that day, I even blamed myself, until I knew that I was just a substitute, what I saw and heard before, Believe me, everything collapsed in an instant, Situ Jue, do you understand that feeling?"

Chen Yang wiped away the tears falling from the corners of his eyes, and it took less than a second. This inadvertent movement made Situ Jue's heart tense, and his outstretched hand froze in mid-air.

"It turns out that the kindness you treated me in the past was all fake. The reason why you saved me, raised me, and let me come to you was because of Gu Xi, but you forgot that I am not him. You Living in a lie, living in my own dream and unwilling to wake up, but why should I act with you? Why can you hurt me like this? Uncle Bai, they all know the truth, only I am a fool , how ridiculous and sad am I?"

The more Chen Yang said, the more excited he became, "You say you love me now, are you sure?"

Situ Jue replied without thinking, "Yes, I am sure."

"But I'm not sure if I still love you, or what's the point of loving you. I'm really tired. I just want to live a normal life. Without you, there is no Courtyard No. [-], no Those ghosts that can be seen from time to time."

Chen Yang turned around, not knowing where to look, his eyes gradually became hollow, and there was no wave in his eyes.

After saying so much in one breath, as if draining all his strength, he squatted down slowly and sat on the grass.

After hearing the grievance in Chen Yang's heart, Situ Jue realized how stupid he was.

It's not that he doesn't know that Chen Yang hates him, but when Chen Yang speaks out all his inner thoughts without reservation, he really feels that the person in front of him is getting farther and farther away from him.

It's right in front of your eyes, even if you can still cooperate with me to do the most intimate things, it's almost impossible to grasp it.

Situ Jue sat next to Chen Yang, stretched out his hand to pull him into his arms, and caressed his arm gently. He smelled the familiar smell, and there were thousands of words, but they were stuck in his throat.

It's not that he has no heart, it's not that he doesn't feel pain. He has heard too many ruthless words from Chen Yang during this period of time. The heart has been cut to a bloody mess, as if it would stop beating at any moment.

He also hesitated and struggled, or just let it go, let it go!But every time he thought of Chen Yang leaving, he couldn't bear it.

"I'm sorry" was silent for a long time, and the words in my heart were blocked for a long time, and finally it became the sentence I didn't know how many times, "I'm sorry", he kissed Chen Yang's forehead, warm tears fell on Chen Yang's eyelids Gently slide down the eyelashes.

Chen Yang felt unspeakably uncomfortable, it was too tormenting, if it was just a matter of love or not, maybe it wouldn't hurt him so much.

What makes him sad is that when he gave 100% sincerity, what he got was the love Situ Jue bestowed on another person, while he was just a similar skin.

He felt that no matter how useless he was, no matter how unbearable he was, he would not allow his love and dignity to be ruthlessly trampled on.

Why should he bear this for a person who has been dead for an unknown amount of time?

Why does Situ Jue want to control everything about him?

Why can I only live in Situ Jue's palm like a pet?

This feeling really sucks.

He will be sad, in pain, heart-piercing pain.

What's more, because of his terrible life like a joke, he somehow involved his roommates, which made him very guilty.

love?Hehe... Isn't it the same when you didn't have it before, you won't die if you lose it, even if you feel uncomfortable once in a while, it doesn't matter, isn't life better than death in today's life?

Situ Jue didn't say anything, he just hugged Chen Yang and wept.

Chen Yang didn't push him away, and didn't talk to him anymore, the most familiar stranger should be like this!

The phone rang, it was Dan Zi calling, Situ Jue let go of Chen Yang, and lit a cigarette.

"Hey, Danzi, are you okay? Your phone..."

"Stop talking, my phone will be confiscated when I get home, and I won't be allowed to go out. I'm almost out of control at home."

The originally bad mood was a little better because of Danzi's gray humor as always, "Then you are now..."

Danzi sighed, "I'm going abroad soon, and now I have to go back to school to complete the formalities. I begged my dad for a long time, and finally got a chance to say goodbye to you. He gave me the phone. Why don't I call you right away, before we leave, let's get together!"

"Okay, let's talk about how to get together!" Chen Yang felt very uncomfortable when he heard that, Danzi should be considered the most innocent, and he was sent away without doing anything.

"I've already called Awei and their couple," Danzi fucked on the other end of the phone as he spoke, and was amused again, "Hey, I called Awei just now, and the sound seemed to be doing something unspeakable What a good thing for people! My heart is completely cold here, and the two of them are fighting fiercely."

Chen Yang chuckled, thinking about the scene was quite funny, Chen Yang glanced at Situ Jue, thinking that the two of them used to do these things shamelessly.

"Are you in the dormitory or where?" Danzi asked.

"I'm not in the dormitory right now, but at..." Home?In the past, he would say this, but now he won't, his home is gone again, at least, he thought in his heart, "It's outside."

"With Brother Duke?"

"En." Chen Yang nodded, although he couldn't see it on the other end of the phone.

"Oh, my dad is going to go through the formalities for me in the afternoon, so let's make an appointment for dinner! It's the same restaurant as before, I've already told Ah Wei and the others."

"Okay! See you later."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Yang looked at Situ Jue who was hesitating to speak and also looked at himself.

Before he could speak, Situ Jue said, "Go! I'll take you there later."

"no need."

"Then I'll ask Amu to drive you."

"it is good."

"Tonight... come back?"

Chen Yang didn't know how to answer, "I said I don't want to go back, is that okay?"

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