[NCT] Caramel Macchiato

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She heard a voice in the dark, telling her that I need you, can you come to me quickly.

She came late enough, didn't she, let him suffer so much pain alone, no matter whether it was a secret or a lie, he was always only in the closed circle of three people, and never revealed half of it to the outside world.

Li Donghyuk took her upstairs, and after opening the door, the scene was not as uncontrollable as she had imagined, but Li Dinu, who was held by Luo Jaemin, looked very bad, his hands were trembling slightly, and his eyes were fixed on the table. bottle of medicine.In terms of strength, Luo Jaemin was barely enough to grab him. Seeing Li Donghyuk was like seeing a savior: "No, he still needs to take medicine. He has overdosed today. You should take care of it quickly. If you can't, take him to the hospital for a tranquilizer." ...No, why did you bring Liao Nanyi here?! Are you crazy?!"

He dodged at the right time, Liao Nanyi quickly entered the room and ran to Li Dinu's side.When the other party heard her name, she suddenly became quiet, her eyes were clear but empty, her hands were still trembling uncontrollably, but she hid them behind her back almost subconsciously.

Luo Zhemin was furious: "What are you doing here? Outsiders will irritate him... Li Donghyuk, you told her, right? Who told you..."

"Let's go." Li Donghe dragged Luo Zimin and led him to the door. Naturally, Luo Min refused, and he was afraid that Li Dinu, who was too loud to startle his state, could only stare anxiously, not daring to move away too much: "What's wrong with you? Yes, Liao Nanyi is very special to him, but how can you tell others about this kind of thing casually? What will happen after you let Li Dinu..."

"Trust me once, trust her once." Li Donghyuk let go of his hand, with a calm expression, looked at him again for a while, and stepped out of the threshold.Luo Zhemin's words stuck in his throat, and he looked back at Li Dinu who had become extremely well-behaved. He fought three hundred rounds with heaven and man in his heart, finally gritted his teeth, followed Li Donghe out, and gently closed the door.

In the room, Li Dinu was calm and calm, but his head was slightly lowered, as if he was unwilling to look at Liao Nan, like a wronged puppy who was wrongly punished by the master, drooping his head.As soon as Liao Nan entered the room, he saw some violent marks, such as the overturned water glass, his wrinkled collar, and the unscrewed medicine pots that were poured on the table. White pills come.

Liao Nan held his face with both hands, and refocused his gaze on himself: "Why don't you look at me? Are you guilty because you lied to someone?"

"Nan Yi..." He was breathing fast again, and the corners of his eyes were a little red, but she interrupted him slightly: "Shh, be quiet, look at me, and relax."

Just look at me and relax.

The irritability burning in Li Dinu's heart gradually faded away, and the girl in front of him had clear eyes, and his shadow was reflected in her eyes.The maddening tinnitus also gradually disappeared, and the world became quiet. He seemed to be sheltered under a barrier, and he could only hear her even breathing.

He wanted to stretch out his hand to help Liao Nan straighten his broken hair, as if he had been running for a long time, and he didn't even have time to take care of his image, his bangs were blown in a mess, and the slightly longer hair was blown up extremely fluffy by the wind, like fermentation A good brownie, like a jellyfish floating up and down, is the most beautiful and lovely collection in the world.But the outstretched hand stopped in mid-air, and when she was about to take it back, she grabbed her again: "Why did you take it back? Does Xueba not like me?"

"Nan Yi, didn't you see it too?" Li Dinu looked dazed: "I... I am a patient, I am not a normal person, I have lied to you before, so..."

"Who said you are not a normal person!" Her eyes suddenly turned red: "Is this your fault? Is this what you think? You are already suffering more than others. What do you have to feel inferior? You are obviously stronger than others. But why didn't you say it? Why didn't you tell me?"

"What you see is only a part of me, Nan Yi. I am not a top student who studies obediently. I almost killed myself once. When I lost control of my emotions, even Luo Jimin couldn't recognize me. When you know what I was like Then, you won't...wouldn't be willing to stay by my side." Li Dinu gently wiped the corners of her eyes: "Isn't it grand when you know this today? I'm sorry, I scared you."

Liao Nanyi threw him away mercilessly: "Li Dinu, he's just a bipolar disorder, and he's not about to die. Why are you like this? Why do you think I'm such a superficial person? I like Li Dinu , I don't care if you are a school bully or a school bully, no matter if you are sick or not, I like whatever you look like, and I don't feel anything about it myself, so why do you feel wronged for me?"

Li Dinu stared at her intently, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, love and joy spread from the bottom of his heart to his limbs, but he remained silent and did not speak.

But she didn't mean to stop: "Don't you also like me to death? Otherwise, how could you even stabilize your emotions when you see me? What can't you do? When you are at the same table as me I've never seen you being moody, why can't you do it in the future? Are you so cowardly? Let me tell you, I have plenty of people chasing after me. There is no such shop after this village. If you don't catch it now, it will be too late. Hey... um... ..."

Li Dinu suddenly approached, and clasped one hand on the back of her head with a strength never shown in front of her. He lowered his head and completely blocked the other possibilities she had mentioned.The moment his lips touched, Liao Nanyi felt unprecedented peace of mind, and obediently put his arms around his neck, allowing him to complete this green kiss.

This is his answer, Liao Nan thought, the one he was most reluctant to part with was himself.

She still won the bet.

At the same time outside the door.

Luo Zhemin, who wanted to stick to the door, was very puzzled: "Why is there no more noise suddenly? There is no sound? Did Li Dinu knock Liao Nanyi unconscious?" Seeing that Li Donghe didn't respond, he tugged on his sleeve: "Come here Listen."

Li Donghyuk pulled out his arm and ignored him, still with an expression of nothing to do with him, he leaned against the wall and turned the car key a few times, his expression pale in the dark night.

[Li Dinu episode 1] Green onion youth

Li Dinu grew up in a very ordinary family. His parents were ordinary white-collar workers who worked from [-] to [-]. He was obviously one of the many people, but he hoped that his son would become a dragon and phoenix in the world.In fact, looking back now, they seem to be too harsh on their young selves, but they are not bad to him, nor are they without love.

It's just that that love was too harsh and heavy, and it weighed him down at such a young age.

Kindergarten children, what can be distinguished?But Li Dinu's parents asked him to be a perfect child in every aspect, to be the class monitor, to not miss every little red flower, to get full marks in his studies, and to digest the knowledge that other people only learned in the first and second grades.Li Dinu has always been a very obedient child. Since he was a child, he has followed the track laid by his parents in an orderly manner. Whenever something goes wrong, not only they, but even he thinks it is his fault.

The first accident happened very quickly. After hearing that Li Dinu had a fight with other children at school, the parents who rushed over couldn’t help but say that they slapped him. Only after hearing the teacher’s description did they know that their children’s behavior has long been a problem. It's abnormal.He is obviously the most well-behaved student in the class, but sometimes he can't control his temper at all, knocks over tables and chairs, and quarrels with others.

They were dubious at first, but later they found that their son who was doing homework would suddenly crumpled a piece of paper, his hands were shaking so much that he couldn’t hold the pen, and he hugged his head trying not to scream. Finally, they took Li Dinu to the hospital for an examination. Got bipolar results.

Bipolar affective disorder, Li Dinu still does not understand the meaning of this professional term.His vaguest concept of his childhood was that he had to work hard to do his homework and listen to his parents to do his homework, and then there were countless voices in his brain, including the noise of other students when he recited words during the daytime break, There were conversations where the teacher held his hand, and the doctor his parents took him to see.

The doctor's expression was very serious, unsmiling, as if he didn't like him very much, his eyes seemed to show pity, any trivial things were magnified and magnified in his mind, and his brain was about to explode.

He still remembers that on the way back from the hospital, his father drove the car seriously, and his mother sat in the back seat like him, clutching the medical certificate tightly in her hand, reading it over and over again, and then looking at him.

Li Dinu was very majestic at that time, he felt that he had tried his best to do everything well, why did his mother still look at him with such disappointed eyes, and then his emotions got out of control again, and he began to cry.

Crying and being afraid, he wiped it off with the back of his hand nervously. He has been taught that crying can't solve the problem, but he really can't control it, what should he do.

His mother hugged him, and she was weeping quietly, because he felt the cold liquid dripping on his head.That was the moment when he felt that he and his mother were closest. At least at that moment, she cared about him sincerely and loved him more than his studies.

Later, he began endless treatment, taking medicine, and repeated. He often had seizures at school. Everyone knew that he was a "sick child". Even the children didn't like his moody personality. As time passed, he was fine. Friends are always alone.Li Dinu is not a lonely type, and also longs for a group life, so he can always clearly feel that he is the one left behind.