What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Little milk dog 39

Su Lixu never thought that Fu Xingran would want to marry him.

They had been together for less than two months, and even he was still slowly falling in love with Fu Xingran, but Fu Xingran had already made up his mind to get married to him, even designing the wedding room.

And obviously, this is what Fu Xingran was already doing before they got together.

But why is it that Fu Xingran is so firmly prepared to be with him, but always inadvertently expresses his uneasiness towards him? What is Fu Xingran still worried about?

"Scared?" Fu Xingran saw that Su Lixu stopped talking immediately, and laughed out loud: "You forced me to say it, and you stopped talking after I finished speaking. Why, I don't want to take responsibility after teasing me?" Without a trace Withdraw the measuring finger.

"Are you sure about that?" Su Lixu asked.

Fu Xingran didn't hesitate: "I'm sure."

"So when did you start thinking like this?" Su Lixu thought to himself that Fu Xingran was so sure about something that he was not even sure about.

"Ever since I bit you four years ago, I've wanted to be responsible for you." Fu Xingran said: "Who knew you ran away, I thought you were scared away by me, you know, I can Sad."

"You knew you'd definitely catch me?" Su Lixu felt incredible, and of course he also felt incredible. He never thought that his significant other would be a boy, or someone who was completely opposite to his personality.

"I don't know." Fu Xingran rested his head on Su Lixu's shoulder, looked sideways at his side face, and focused his gaze: "But I haven't tried, how do I know I can't catch you, I pretend to be pitiful Pretending to be innocent, pretending to be well-behaved, shameless, shameless, and shameless, this will catch up."

Su Lixu glanced at him: "You know yourself very well." Then he got off Fu Xingran and leaned casually against the table.

"I know that I have problems, but after I met you back then, I really wanted to get better for you. Although I still have many interpersonal relationships that I can't handle well, I can only face you like now. This is normal, but as long as you are by my side, I am willing to work hard to get better." Seeing Su Lixu leaning against the table, Fu Xingran moved forward, rubbing his fingers tentatively on the back of his hand.

Su Lixu saw that this guy was about to cling to him again, and the corners of his lips were slightly sunken. He had never seen such a clingy boy, so he grabbed Fu Xingran's hand rubbing the back of his hand and responded.

"After seeing you again, I have thought about following you and staring at you. If you don't like me, I will lock you up. I really dare."

Su Lixu laughed out loud: "I know."

"I even thought that as long as you reject me once, you will definitely be unable to play g. I really dare."

Su Lixu looked at Fu Xingran with aggressive eyes, but he didn't avoid it, and said with a smile, "I know."

"When I dreamed of you for the first time, I knew very well that I liked you. All my sexual fantasies originated from you. Now, you are with me, a person with psychological problems and bad records, and I completely understand mine. Fantasy will stop at you." Fu Xingran patted his left heart.

Su Lixu's eyes flickered, and he understood that what Fu Xingran was touching was a tattoo.

"I started with you, and I will end with you." Fu Xingran grabbed the corner of Su Lixu's clothes, tugged at it, and made him bend down towards him.

"What to do?" Su Lixu didn't know why, but he also bent down.

Then I saw Fu Xingran kissing the tattoo on his left heart through his clothes.

Su Lixu's body trembled, the newly tattooed tattoo still hurt a little to the touch, but no matter how painful it was, it was not as strong as Fu Xingran's words.He lowered his eyes and met Fu Xingran's gaze.

"Without you, I would not miss this world. I wanted to leave without any worries that day, but you caught me and made me want to try to love this world." Fu Xingran put his hand on Zu Li On Xu's knee, looking up at him: "The day you left, I did something stupid, but I was not reconciled, because I haven't told you that I like you, so I chose to live."

"I want to survive and tell you that I like you because you saved me, because you are willing to wait for me, coax me, and be with me. It is this idea that keeps me going, to get better, and to work hard to get rid of it. My temper, don't lose your temper casually, and wait for you to come back in the best condition."

"I've waited, and I've done the stupid thing, prepared for the worst, I thought you'd hate me, but I didn't regret it. But no, you didn't hate me..."

"You still like me that much."

Su Lixu was very touched at first, his nose was sore, but when he heard this guy's cheeky narcissism, he couldn't help laughing, looked down at the hand on his knee, reached out to hold it, and clasped his fingers tightly.

"And it made you fall in love with me. It's great that we're still together and ready to get married." Fu Xingran rested his head on the backs of their clasped hands, and rubbed his head contentedly: "I survived That's right, thank you baby for saving me."

Su Lixu heard Fu Xingran's words getting more and more aggressive, and helplessly pushed his head: "Who said that, who is going to marry you."

Fu Xingran raised his head abruptly, and looked at Su Lixu in amazement: "If you don't marry me, who are you going to marry?! There is no such thing, I won't give prostitution for free!" As he said that, he felt a little wronged: "I cry for you."

"You cry." Su Lixu raised his chin and smiled.

Fu Xingran frowned, put his head back on the back of his hands, and hummed twice in displeasure.

Su Lixu looked down at Fu Xingran who was resting on the back of his hand. His silhouette was gradually fading away. He was handsome, but when he lost his temper and was wronged, he still had an indescribable childishness. He is 30 years old, but Fu Xing Ran only 21.

It is still an age full of expectations and fantasies about love.

And he has completely passed this expected age. Before meeting Fu Xingran, he never felt that love needs to be deliberately arranged.

But when he met Fu Xingran, he deliberately arranged to get close, deliberately arranged to be well-behaved, but this ingenious and deliberate arrangement made him understand that love will not just stand still, love at first sight is just a moment, a deliberate and long-term life Love may collide with sparks of love, and he also has expectations and fantasies.

Although that room frightened him for a moment, in the end he chose to accept it.

He also understands now that it wasn't all about his patience, but that it had been there from the start.Fu Xingran always said that he saved him, but after he knew where they met for the first time, he believed that some things were arranged in the dark.

If he had gone to other places that day, if Fu Xingran hadn't met him that day, they wouldn't have met in heaven either.

It was the day they met and saved each other, and a few years later he became Fu Xingran's psychiatrist, accompanying the boy who was always squatting by the window for a year and a half, watching him cry and collapse , have seen all sides of him, and heard Fu Xingran crying to him:

——Doctor Su, you must save me, okay?

He never let go of this idea.

Until today, he has become Fu Xingran's other half, as his teacher said, "The best psychiatrist in the world is a patient lover." ', since he is no longer Fu Xingran's doctor, he will become a patient lover.

"At least let me love you for more than four years too." Su Lixu rubbed Fu Xingran's hair, and smoothed it down: "Otherwise, you are thankful, you have loved me for so long, wait for me, wait for me I love you a little more, baby."

Fu Xingran was stunned, he straightened up in a daze, as if he was a little surprised that Su Lixu would say this: "That, that means we will get married, right?"

"Well, let me like you a little more." Su Lixu lowered his head and held his face with a gentle smile, "As long as we're together, it's not too late to get married at the age of 80, isn't it?"

Marriage is a form of romance, but being together all the time is the most romantic ceremony.

He thought that since he had started, he would not give up.

Because he is also a stubborn person in his bones. .

It was snowing, and the tombstones in the cemetery were covered with snowflakes.

Su Lixu, who was dressed in black, put away his umbrella and bent over to clean the tombstones of his parents and younger brother. He used his hands to sweep away the snowflakes on the top of the tombstones and the snowflakes on the photos. The cold snow made his fingers red Head, but don't care.

Today is the anniversary of his parents' death.

He wiped off the photos on the three tombstones lined up one by one, put the fresh bouquet he bought in front of the tombstone, stepped back a little, looked at the three relatives who were separated from each other, and then smiled.

"Dad, Mom, Li Yang, I haven't seen you for a long time. I miss you very much. How are you doing recently? I'm doing well recently, very happy, and I'm in a relationship."

After finishing speaking, the smile on Su Lixu's lips faded away, and he stared at the photos on the three tombstones for a long time. In the photos, his parents were still so young, and Su Liyang was also a teenager. His close relatives had been fixed on the photos forever, Become a cold existence.

Turn your face away, your eyes are getting red.

The hands hanging by the sides gradually tightened.

He waited for a long time, as if he was overcoming the sourness in his heart, and then he raised a smile and looked at his relatives on the tombstone: "His name is Fu Xingran, he is a boy younger than me, and he is as old as Li Yang. You should Would you mind if I got a boyfriend? I don't think so, he's nice and I like him a lot."

"And I have a secret that I should never tell him in this life. If he knows, he might cry again. On the day I rescued him, Li Yang died on the spot. I really can't accept it. The two of you have already left me. Li Yang is my last family member, without him, I really feel nothing."

"I don't want to live anymore."

Su Lixu recalled that day in order to save Fu Xingran, he injured his own waist, which left sequelae, and couldn't help laughing: "In the end, I was still in the mood to save a boy, that is my boyfriend. Fu Xingran, I even hurt my waist because of this, and I gave up the idea of ​​whispering."

"But I think all of this is doomed. It is doomed that I will survive to miss you and meet Fu Xingran."

"Dad, Mom, Li Yang, so don't worry, I'm fine now." Su Lixu bowed deeply to his parents: "Next time I will bring him to you two."

He put away his mood and was about to leave, but a shadow covered his body. He raised his head suspiciously and found that it was a big black umbrella, and then he saw Fu Xingran.

Fu Xingran held an umbrella under the snowy goose feathers, looking at him with red eyes.

"...Why didn't you tell me?"

Su Lixu thought that he would not be discovered by Fu Xingran when he got up early, but he didn't expect this guy to follow him, and he was not angry, but he was a little helpless when he saw Fu Xingran was about to cry: "I want to find a chance Let me tell you, it's not that we just fell in love, and I don't want you to know that I'm sad."

As soon as the words fell, he was embraced in his arms.

Under the big umbrella, his boy held the umbrella in one hand and hugged him with one arm. His chest was broad and warm, but he was crying a little bit.

Fu Xingran hugged Su Lixu, looking at the three tombstones not far away, his vision gradually blurred.He never thought that Su Lixu's family members were gone, and this man never told him.Moreover, I didn't tell him that he also had this thought when he couldn't think about it that day.

"Su Lixu, you made me cry, you are miserable."

Su Lixu felt the strength of Fu Xingran's hug gradually tightened. Hearing the choked sobs in his ears, his eyes were moist, and he said with a smile: "What are you willing to do so fiercely?"

Fu Xingran wiped his tears on Su Lixu's shoulders, and said, "I'm going to see my parents and younger brother too."

Su Lixu frowned and looked at his shoulder, thinking about it or forget it, anyway, Fu Xingyan said: "You are quite self-conscious." He said and gently pushed his waist: "Go, ask them good."

Fu Xingran stuffed the umbrella into Su Lixu's hand, turned around and walked into the snow to the tombstone.

Su Lixu held an umbrella and stared at his boy.

The cold snow stained Fu Xingran's hair and coat, but his sincere heart seemed to be able to melt the snow.

Fu Xingran first bowed to his parents' tombstone: "Hello, Mom and Dad, my name is Fu Xingran, don't worry, you two, I will definitely take good care of Su Lixu, and he won't come here alone to see you in the future There are two, and I will accompany him, so he won't be alone."

Then he squatted down in front of his brother's tombstone, and greeted the tombstone with a fist bump: "Hi brother, I am your brother-in-law. I will protect your brother from now on, so don't worry."

After speaking, she turned her head and looked at Su Lixu: "Baby, is it okay to say that?"

Su Lixu smiled knowingly, and nodded: "Okay, let's go home."

From then on, the road of purpose has more personal companionship, and home is also a home from now on.

Because he has Fu Xingran.