mr frank is faithful to love

(FR. Hilde Frank)

After so long, I learned many things from Ethan, and I said: "I want to see you, I'll go to Beijing to find you."

"Don't come," he rejected me hastily, and said, "Don't come, I'm really busy, even if you come, I don't have time to see each other, next time, I'll call you next time I go to Shanghai."

The phone call ended hastily, and even the farewell was hasty. I booked a plane ticket to Beijing a day later on the same day, but I didn't have any plans, and I didn't think about what I was going to say.

All I know is that Ethan is blaming me, and this blaming all comes from the relationship between me and Nozawa. I am also more and more aware that the pain Nozawa brought to him is not just a little, but a lot, not only much but also profound.

I feel Ethan hating me.

One day later, when we landed in Beijing in the afternoon, the weather was still not clear, and the sky was covered with filamentous clouds.

Called Ethan in the car, he called three times before he answered, and asked: "What's wrong? I was taking pictures, so I didn't receive the call just now."

"I've come to Beijing," I said, "to see you."

His breathing was obviously stagnant for a few seconds, and he said, "I'm not at home, I'm still shooting things in the studio, I don't know what time I get off work, and I told you not to come, but you didn't listen."

I said, "I can't wait for the next time. I have a lot to say and questions to ask. Next time... I don't know when it will be."

"What are you talking about?" Ethan asked coldly.

I replied: "There are too many misunderstandings between us."

"I think differently from you," he said slowly, "I don't think there is any misunderstanding, everything is quite clear, and I have said everything I wanted to say, are you the same?"

"No." I said.

"I may not be ready to talk to you face to face again. You don't understand. Every time I talk about that, it is another pain for me. Now, I have said everything I have to say."

"Can I see you tomorrow?" I thought for a while, and then said, "Or, I'll wait for you downstairs at your house tonight, and I can pick you up from get off work."

Ethan spent a long time thinking about it, and finally, he said, "Tomorrow, I'll go to your house and drop by for work."

After the phone call, the car was still driving in the not-so-smooth traffic flow, I closed my eyes in the back seat, and I was thinking that during this period of time, I have become very friendly with Ethan, but whenever we talk about the past, everything The rapport is all gone.

But why, he and I are still talking about the past?

It was already dark when I got home, and I walked on the only way I used to go to and from get off work. The past and present scenes overlapped, but what I was thinking and experiencing was completely different.

The house is still the same, I simply cleaned it and put the bought food in the refrigerator. The original plan was to return to Shanghai tomorrow evening, but I thought that Ethan would come tomorrow, so I still prepared some food.

The next morning, before eight o'clock, Ethan called me, and he said, "I'm in a hurry, so I came early, have you woken up yet?"

"Get up," I replied, "was up after six o'clock."

"Okay, then you open the door."

After seeing Ethan today, before deciding what to say, the words he said at the concert that day were all in my mind——

He said: "...Love is very good, and all the bad things are human beings."

No matter how dull I am, I can still understand the meaning of his words. After the song that night, his memories and feelings are related to me, and his complaints and disappointments are related to me.

I said: "Good morning, I'm making breakfast, you can have some."

"After eating, just say what you want to say." Ethan leaned against the door frame of the kitchen, slightly tilted his head and looked at me. Perhaps, he was in a good mood.

I turned off the fire, turned around and looked at him, and said, "I've been thinking about it for a long time, I don't know anything about what Nozawa said to you, but I didn't ask you at the time, so I didn't do well, I should Clarify everything, including why you said you broke up."

Ethan may have understood what I meant. After a brief surprise, he didn't have a big mood swing. He said, "I always bring up the previous things. Are you annoyed?"

"No."

"Think about it from another angle, I dumped you, we always have to look forward, everyone will have an ex. Do you know, I dreamed about Nozawa last night, maybe it's because I've seen you too much recently." Ethan He was still smiling while talking, but I couldn't smile at all, and I looked at him.

He looked at me after he finished speaking.

His eyes are so red, he must have been busy late yesterday, he is almost 24 years old, but he still looks like a 19-year-old, cute and agile, the shape of his mouth is very full, and the lip line is gently drawn, so he looks like Zuo Lin As said, he looks like a girl, he is usually cool, but he has a pretty smile.

"Improbable when you think about it," I said. "We've known each other for over four years."

"It's been a long time," he said.

I took out the warmed milk and asked Ethan to have a drink too. He didn't sit down, but stood by the dining table and drank the glass of milk, saying, "Now you can marry a Chinese girl, you used to always Say you want to marry."

"Just say it once or twice, not always."

"Anyway, you can marry."

He put down the empty cup, then looked at me, I was standing half a meter away, I handed him a tissue and said, "Wipe your mouth."

"Don't change the subject, don't you want to wait until you are 50 or [-] to get married?"

"Nothing bad." I replied.

I don't know why Ethan curled his lips, and I don't know what he was wronged. I was not wronged when I was asked a strange question. Instead, he made a strange expression. After a while, he answered the phone and said he was leaving .

When I left, I walked him to the door and waited for him to change his shoes.

Ethan put on his coat slowly, looked at me, was silent for a moment, and suddenly said: "Let's hug today, in fact, we have been reconciling constantly, and I hope everything will get better and better."

I opened my arms, and he took a small half step forward, walking towards me.

I hugged him very tightly, without thinking about the reason for this hug, I only knew that I was very happy at the moment I hugged him, and even for a long time afterwards.

However, it is more bitterness and distress.

Ethan put his arms around my waist and put his face on my shoulders. He suddenly asked cautiously, "When I said we broke up...were you a little bit reluctant or sad?"

"Yes, more than a little," I said, "I was so dazed at the time, and now I dare not recall that day."

"I'm sorry," Ethan said, his voice tinged with tears, "It took me so long to face up to what I did wrong. Anyway, I was impulsive. Although I don't want to admit it, it's wrong. It's too late to apologize, I hope you accept it."

Like an aggrieved kitten, he nestled in my arms and spoke cautiously. Later, with red eyes, he said that it was time to go to work, and asked again: "Is there a flight tonight?"

I said: "Yes, I have to go back tonight, there is still a lot of work tomorrow."

"Ah."

Ten seconds later, Ethan left my house. The moment the door closed, the surroundings fell into extreme silence. Only then did I realize that I was crying.