mr frank is faithful to love

(FR. Zuo Boyao)

I am the one who is willing to stay in Wuhan. Perhaps, many people have been affected by the epidemic to travel, which has affected their lives, but I am different. The disaster has made my shelter. No one else can get in, and I can't get out.

I don't need to spend the Spring Festival with my hated Wu Rui, I don't need to meet the lobbyists invited by my mother, and I don't need to break their sweet and harmonious life.

I just wanted to hide myself, partly because I took a gamble on someone and fell apart.

It was the German.

Feizi said: "How could he really like you? Even if he cares about you, it's okay. These are all straight men's tricks, do you understand?"

In the beginning, I lived in a hotel in Wuhan, but later, the hotel couldn’t be used anymore, so I lived in a house with a river view that was left unused by car friends. The gloomy gray-blue sky was like a stubborn umbrella, like that every day.

There are only scattered cars passing by on the bridge. What I do most is to sit in front of the window and stare blankly.I began to understand Feizi. She was broken in love and cried like that, and I laughed at her, but now, I am not as good as her.

My mom was worried about me, but I didn't answer her call once, only sent a message saying everything was fine.

I was wearing a sweater, and when I was tired from sitting, I threw myself into the bed. I believe that at this time, most people were depressed because of the epidemic, but I sadly hid in a quiet place.

Self-inflicted.

Feizi called me, and I answered. She lowered her voice and said, "Frank called me, and he asked me why you didn't go back to Beijing."

"Um...then what?"

"No, then, I scolded him, and he didn't have a chance to talk again."

"Good job." I grinned through gritted teeth.

Feizi sighed and said, "I know you hate him, and I know you love him, so it's even more painful—"

"Stop, stop, I don't love him," I got up from the bed again, smiling heartily, I went to the French window again, and said, "It's long gone, and then it's gone, there's nothing left."

"As long as you can figure it out."

"Study hard, goodbye, wait for me to go back to practice the piano."

The phone that I hung up dropped to my feet, and my fingertips touched the cold glass, and my exhaled breath scattered a small moist mist.

I looked at the roof of the building in my sight, breathing more and more slowly, and then I closed my eyes.

Feizi has seen through me thoroughly, and I resent this kind of seeing through.

But I hope that when I leave Wuhan and return to my original life, I can completely forget about him.

Going out to buy things, but now it should be called stocking up, I have to buy a lot of things that I need, and things that I may need.

The car passed through the empty road and drove into the early morning mist. When I saw that the occasional people on the road were all armed, I suddenly felt a little worried.

This is the first time I think, what if I get infected?

But I am not afraid of death at all, even though I haven’t held concerts in the Bird’s Nest, Little Arena, or New York, even though I haven’t won a racing championship, even though I haven’t kicked Wu Rui out of my house.

I know that Frank sent me hundreds of messages on WeChat, but I didn’t reply at all, and I didn’t even open it. Now that he knows I’m in Wuhan, he’s asking Feizi about me.

In fact, it's getting more and more interesting.

I still remember that night, October, neither hot nor cold.

After brewing for many days and nights, I seemed to be not me. All the inferiority and cowardice came to my heart. I tried my best to look at him calmly. At that moment, my heart was filled with nothing but love.

I said: "I don't know why I started to like you... I don't know why."

He said, "You really don't make jokes like that."

"Really, I'm not kidding, really," I've never been so humble before, looking at him, speaking humblely like a small animal, "Really..."

When the voice fell, my eyes were sour in disbelief, but I tried my best to hold back my tears and said in a very low voice: "I hope we can be together, okay?"

I have all the appearance of people being dazzled. I have accepted that I am in love with a man, convinced myself that I am proud of having love, and finally said my confession.

The wind made the leaves very noisy. He lowered his head again, took a deep breath and looked at me. Like a serious parent, he told me: "Sorry, Ethan, you need to calm down, I think...we are not suitable."

"Then think about it again." I said this in a crying voice, and tears came out involuntarily. I walked over a few steps, picked up my helmet from the ground, and then stood in front of him with the helmet.

When I lowered my head, tears fell from the tip of my nose.

"You should know that I once had a blind date with your sister."

"Yeah." I dare not look up at him.

"So, do you think I will like you? You are a boy." He spoke in an extremely gentle voice, and raised his hand to help me brush my hair.

That night, before I rode my motorcycle away, I said, "Then, let's forget it."

For the next week, 24 hours a day, almost two-thirds of the time I was crying. I didn’t dare to cry at home, so I went to a house near Jingang and lived alone.

Feizi went over on the weekend and drank wine with me for two days.

She doesn't know how to comfort people and likes to tell the truth. She told me: "Don't provoke a straight man. A straight man is a disaster. If he teases you and doesn't give you a chance, these are all his capital to show off in the future."

"I'm straight too!" I said while crying, "I won't say it now, at least I used to be."

"How about it, it's not easy to be gay, right? You don't always understand me."

For the time being, I can't beat her with such words, so I can only continue to cry, I have no strength to cry, I can only "woooooooo", I asked Feizi: "Am I a bitch now?"

"I just like your sissy look." Feizi said with a smile.

She also asked me: "I heard that foreigners are very powerful on board, what about the Germans?"

"Go away, how do I know!"

She approached my ear mysteriously again, asking questions in a low voice meaninglessly.

I answered her: "Damn, of course I didn't sleep, what are you thinking about!"

The days I chatted with Feizi were all brothers chatting together, and I told her that she was a good T.

She smiled, poured me a glass of water, thought for a long time, and said: "Some feelings come and go quickly, maybe after a few days, you suddenly let go."

After a night of sleep, I woke up and learned that the community was prohibited from entering and leaving. I was tested for nucleic acid again, and my empty stomach churned for a long time.

I received a pack of vegetables delivered by the community, but I don’t know how to cook, and I was in a hurry when I fried vegetables, and they were salty and unpalatable. Tomato Egg And Potato Beef.

I sighed, thinking that I was really useless, not even as good as a foreigner.

It seems that it has become my instinct to associate him with certain things, although every second I remind myself to forget him.