Pain at minus 7 degrees Celsius

The unbelievable anger in Cheng Han's eyes hit Cheng Yue's body and made him stagnate. He slowly moved to the hospital bed, hung up the medicine bottle again, connected the infusion set, and raised his hand to hold it. his sleeves.

"Don't touch me!" Cheng Yue's raised hand froze in mid-air, his pale and slender fingers slightly curled up, Cheng Han's disgust as if avoiding the plague god made his heart throbbing.

"You heard that, Ah Han, you have a fever, and it will be worse if you don't take antipyretic injections and turn into pneumonia." The obviously hoarse voice with traces of fatigue and weakness heard Cheng Han's ears, but there was another feeling in his ears. An impatient tone.

"I said, don't touch me, I think you are dirty!"

Cheng Han waved away Cheng Yue's persistent hand and glared at him. Cheng Yue pursed his lips and swayed involuntarily. Indeed, he also felt that he was so dirty that he couldn't wash away the sins of the past. .

"Ahan, be obedient!"

It is rare for Cheng Yue to say a word with a much stronger tone than usual, but it made Cheng Han dimly forget to resist. From childhood to adulthood, Cheng Yue spoke to him in a harsh tone very few times. When the tingling pain of the needle was felt, Cheng Han belatedly realized that such a scene was a bit unreal.

Cheng Yue casually pulled the chair that had been kicked to the side and sat down slowly. His body was sweating profusely again. He raised his hand to wipe it without any trace, and then stroked his chest with the lowered hand. Feeling of palpitation and chest tightness.

"Why are you looking for me in such a hurry?"

"Who asked you to transplant bone marrow to me? Cheng Yue, every part of your body makes me feel disgusted and disgusted. Why are you my brother? Why do you have to match me? I am you, don't you?" Let me die? That's not exactly what you want, you can keep He Chen, Zhang Chen...you can do whatever you want!"

Cheng Han's hysterical roar became louder and louder each time, hitting Cheng Yue's painful heart a little out of breath, how could he say that, how could he say so irresponsibly to let him die?How much did Cheng Han hate him, that it would be a shame to live?

Cheng Yue's dizziness increased when he raised his head, and Cheng Han's expression was not visible due to the darkness in front of his eyes, but the disgust and anger that passed through the eardrums were still clearly discernible.

The new nurse on duty today thought that Cheng Han was asleep, so the voice of talking on the phone was naturally a bit loud, but Cheng Han just closed his eyes and fell asleep because he hadn't slept all night. The opened door in the quiet ward came from the nurse. The voice, even the loud voice on the other end of the phone, was heard by him verbatim.

"You mean, Mr. Xiao was caught by the dean for cheating on him, and Mr. Xiao showed his will with death? How is this possible?"

"It's absolutely true. I went in with Dr. Feng to perform Mr. Xiao's surgery. He almost couldn't be saved because of too much blood loss."

"No way, I remember that Dr. Yan called the dean that day and said that his brother's condition had changed and he needed to undergo a transplant operation in advance, and he was hospitalized that night."

"How do I know this, but I heard that there was an endless stream of people who came to see Mr. Xiao during that time, but the dean was nowhere to be seen, and the nurses who went to help him give him injections and change his dressings were always feeling distressed every time. .”

"According to what you said, the dean not only hid the transplant surgery from his brother, but also from Mr. Xiao. No wonder Dr. Yan told us not to mention a word about his brother, but I always thought that Mr. Xiao knew about it. Yes, the dean was even hospitalized alone. You don’t know, the dean is doing a bone marrow transplant, which is much more risky than a normal hematopoietic stem cell transplant, and, moreover, I heard that it’s enough to do the surgery. Been in a coma for three days."

Cheng Han quietly hid under the quilt, held his breath and didn't say a word, but he coughed a little because he was stuffy for too long.

The little nurse who was talking on the phone outside suddenly silenced and hung up the phone.

Cheng Han curled up in the bed with various emotions intertwined. He always thought that it was a gift from God that he was lucky enough to survive. It was because God was reluctant to take away his mother and take him from his father's side. Looking at Cheng Yifan's rapidly graying hair and aged expression for a while, he wished he could live to be a hundred years old. He had never longed to live as much as he did a few months ago, but he never imagined that this The extended life was obtained from Cheng Yue's body, how humbly should Cheng Yifan beg?

What exactly is Cheng Yue doing?Why should he act as an innocent victim again and again in his life, and even be so pitiful as a Virgin that everyone loves?Why can't others see the harm he has done to this family, why can't they see how dad walks alone in this world?

He threw off the quilt desperately and got up, knocked over the equipment beside the bed in a stagger, and tore off the pipeline connected to his body. He couldn't calm down anymore.

Why did Cheng Yue hide all this? Is he being a virgin?Is he doing it for redemption?Did he think he could write it off by doing all of this?

"Cheng Yue, why are you always so self-righteous? Have I agreed to accept your bone marrow? Who are you playing tricks on? Or is it this way that you have a high-sounding reason for He Chen to come back and you won't feel guilty anymore? ? Let me tell you, it's impossible, it's impossible!"

"Who told you this?" Cheng Yue sat on the chair and bent over slightly. The painkillers could not suppress the cold sweat that passed over his body. The secret he tried so hard to hide was finally known to Cheng Han What's even more sad is that he didn't expect Cheng Han to be so opposed and disgusted.

"Do you feel that you are great now? Do you think that hiding all this is a great gift to me? Do you think that I should be grateful to Dade for treating you as a reborn parent after accepting your bone marrow, so everything you did to your mother is a great gift to me. Can you stop pursuing it? How good are you at making up your mind? If I knew it was you, I would rather die than accept your gift, because, I feel disgusting!! Because day and night in the future, I will There must be a shameful homosexual blood on my body, this will be the biggest shame in my life!!!”

Cheng Yue unexpectedly sat beside him quietly, and Cheng Han never turned his head to look at him from the beginning to the end, otherwise, he would find that Cheng Yue's pale face had turned green, and the cold sweat on his face could be seen At a visible speed, drops drop by drop flowed down the thin cheeks onto the white coat.

Every word and every word of Cheng Han is like sharp swords quenched with venom rushing to stab into his body. The strange thing is that he can no longer feel pain and sadness. Maybe, if he survives now, he can really freed.

The understanding that he once thought was nothing more than an unfulfilled wish. His dear brother, every time they met seemed to be filled with deep hurt and deeper and deeper hatred. for what?Looks like it's time to end.

"No matter what, it's good for you to live."

"Cheng Yue, what I don't like the most is your indifferent appearance. Could it be that you can pretend that Xiao Hao is indifferent in front of you when you are in love with your old love? You can even pretend that you are cheated on by someone. Nothing happened, do you have a heart?"

Xiao Hao's name floated in his ears, feeling a bit unreal and illusory, and the intense pain in his heart was like thousands of ants struggling to bite. It turned out that from the beginning to the end, his life was nothing but a It's a shameful joke, no matter what, no one would agree with such an unethical love.It turns out that his faults can be forgiven only because he is a heartless person.

How ridiculous!

Cheng Yue tried his best to open his eyes and look at Cheng Han's face through the thin lenses. He was still open and forthright as usual, but those peach blossom eyes, which were born extremely beautiful, were distorted a bit ferociously because of anger.

"Cheng Yue, you are born to be alienated and abandoned by everyone, from Lu Ziqian to Liang Mujin to Xiao Hao, they are all telling you the fact that rebellious people don't deserve to be loved right!"

alienated by all;

abandoned by all;

Lu Ziqian did say, Cheng Yue, why are you so disgusting?

Liang Mujin did say, Cheng Yue, you missed love and being cherished, but you are to blame.

Xiao Hao also seemed to have said, Cheng Yue, you are just a person without sincerity.

In this way, everything is traceable, and he is indeed a person who is not worthy of love.

"Ah Han, maybe you're right, I'm like this...Damn it, it's really me." Cheng Yue held on to the armrest of the chair and tried several times before standing up slowly, slightly hunched His figure looked extremely thin under the bright noon sun.

After all, there is still nothing to miss.

This life is inexplicably like a sad farce. He thought that there were too many people who could be cherished. Even though every step he took was like a dance on the tip of a knife, it was only because of those people who could support him to persevere. I am finally relieved to be tied to him, his existence is nothing but a shame, this lonely journey is too bumpy, and the reason to persevere seems to be no longer so sufficient.

In the instantly quiet ward, only two people could be heard breathing more quickly and disorderly than the other. Cheng Han paused for a while but did not see Cheng Yue talking. He slowly raised his head and looked at him. The faint smile on the man's face remained the same. , but his face was pale and blue, and the deep dark circles around his eyes stung Cheng Han for a moment.

Why did he see all hopelessness on Cheng Yue's face?

Why is he not happy or uncomfortable when he says such vicious words?

What exactly did he say?

Why are you insincere again?

He was obviously annoyed that this person was betrayed by Xiao Hao but did not fight back. He was obviously worried about his health after hearing the nurse say that he was not in good condition after the operation, but why would he still say such things every time he saw him?

Cheng Yue was against the sun, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and he couldn't see his expression clearly, "Ah Han, whether you hate me or blame me, I'm sorry about my mother. You won't forgive me, but it doesn't matter anymore, ahem...

However, you must remember that only if you survive, Dad will not be alone.

In the future, don't be willful and reckless, and don't do things impulsively. You can talk to me and do things like this, but when dealing with others, you still have to be careful. If you don't know the importance, you will suffer a big loss in the end.

In addition, listen carefully to Dr. Yan's doctor's orders and treat the disease as it is, brother please. . . . "

Cheng Han looked at Cheng Yue in a daze as he turned around, and at the same time he put one hand on his stomach, covered his lips and coughed lightly.

"What do you mean?"

Cheng Yue turned his head slowly, every slight movement affected the pain that exploded all over his body, his eyes had become blurred into a cloud of white mist, it was ridiculous that he didn't even have the chance to look at him for the last time, he shook his head expressionlessly Silently bid farewell to Cheng Han in my heart.

"Ahan...bye."

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