Warm sun under the leaves [rebirth]

Chapter 27

The door was slammed shut, and Ye Ping's heart trembled involuntarily when he heard the voice he made.

He stood in the entrance, his head turned towards the door.He was the only one here, his eyes dimmed and his spirit was gone.

Why is it so sad?It's ridiculous, no matter who you tell it, you won't believe it.

He, he is Ye Ping.To be so sad for one person to the point of being rude.

His legs were still shaking, and the thing in his ass reminded him of what had just happened in this room.He lowered his head and laughed out loud, walked to the bedroom, looked at the messy bed, his scalp was numb.He closed the door firmly again, returned to the living room and threw himself on the sofa.

Be silly, who made you compromise.

Knowing that children's words are irresponsible, but still believe it.

Ye Ping felt that his eyes were suddenly blurred. He took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes. The water in his hand turned out to be tears.

Oh, I'm crying, Xia Tian.

It's a pity you didn't see it.

Ye Ping began to miss that man, the summer when he grew up with his childhood sweetheart.No matter what happens, I will stand by my side.He would also scold himself, but he would not change his position no matter what.

Only with him can he continue to be self-willed.

It's ridiculous, he's not him at all.

Why do you have to come to this world?To make up for regrets?

Ye Ping didn't think there was anything wrong with him. In his previous life, Tian's father and son's methods were even worse. His father almost had to spend a lifetime in prison. Now he is just preemptive.

Xia Tian blamed him.

No, he is not Xia Tian.

Ye Ping hugged his knees and buried his head between his arms.He said that he knew what kind of person he was in his heart, but in fact he didn't understand at all.It turned out that in his mind, he was such an unbearable person.

Tears can't stop.

Ye Ping thought with a smile, maybe Xia Tian was right, he should be that kind of person.The feeling of being despised under someone's feet for the first time is quite fresh.

Not used to explaining, whatever others say, he doesn't care.

He thought of Xia Tian's confession in his previous life, his belated confession after his wife died.

"I want to see you cry in my arms."

What a stupid confession.But Ye Ping was shocked at that time, and wanted to blame him for being late, but he had no ground left.

He fled in a hurry, but the other party did not catch up for a long time.

Why didn't he catch up?

Ye Ping thought, if he hadn't lost his composure at that time, he wouldn't have had a car accident, wouldn't have closed his eyes and woke up to a strange world.

Said strange, because he has no energy to do it again.But when he saw his father, saw his father taking care of him, and thought of the embarrassing relationship between father and son in the second half of his previous life, he wanted to repair him.

However, there is no summer here.

Xia Tian will stick to himself, but the child with the same name and surname will not; Xia Tian will fight because of him, and that child does not seem to be able to; Xia Tian will force his mother to go to S city with himself, and he will not either.

He is not Xia Tian.

Ye Ping warned himself like this.

As soon as I arrived in S, I met Feng Lu.Ye Ping remembered who this person was almost immediately, the boy who left disgusting memories in his memory.Ye Ping scratched his hair irritably, he remembered that guy again, always following behind him saying that he liked him, and then doing some disgusting things that made people go crazy.

But when Ye Ping saw him, the first thing that came to his mind was the scene where he was about to jump off the roof of the hospital.So poor and innocent.

So I deliberately avoided and didn't want to meet each other, but it seems that fate can't escape the established reality.

But he still confessed to his family, and followed him to the capital desperately.It was a bit like the previous summer, so Ye Ping had to pay attention to his existence.

He didn't force himself crazily in his previous life, but he was more noisy and desperate than in his previous life.

The world is not the same as before, maybe because of his butterfly effect.

Ye Ping hardly had any hope for Xia Tian, ​​he just felt that he could make one more friend in the capital.But that person ran away in a hurry when he saw him, knowing that he would go abroad in the future, and even remembered that he was allergic to ultraviolet rays.Ye Ping tested whether he liked music, but the other party gave him that answer.

Sure enough, it was too naive.

The things that happened to him were unimaginable, how could he still be the same as himself?

However, while pushing back, he was attracted again.He is like that person in so many ways, he even said that if there was no Feng Lu, he would be following behind him.

Ye Ping was shocked, there were many shocks, he said that he knew who he was in his heart.

He is him, although his personality is indeed too different, but his impulse to do things is exactly the same.

Ye Ping is good at calculating and has a cold nature, but he is not as bad as he said.

He wanted to protect him, because he found that Xia Tian was squeezing in desperately.A person's ignorance of good and evil can't be changed.

It wasn't until he met Ji Caiying that Ye Ping realized that he really cared about her.

Their encounter with the Ji sisters was definitely not like this. This sudden appearance made Ye Ping panic, and it was impossible for him to agree to his courtship right now.If you set a goal, you must complete it. If you cannot avoid going to Beijing, then you must preemptively strike before the Tian family makes a move.There are some things that he has to do, if he complies with his feelings, there are many things that he can't get rid of in Xia Tian.

This person is so impulsive, he will definitely get hurt.

Why bother?

Ye Ping raised his head, his face was covered with tears, he looked at the dishes on the table, and walked over slowly.

Pick up the bowl and serve the rice.

It's already cold, but he can't seem to eat it.He learned to cook for his children, but never cooked for them.

He loved his wife and children so much in his previous life, but he always kept a soft smile on them.

"I cried, Xia Tian."

He said softly, "But where are you? You liar."

The dish was stuffed into his mouth, and Ye Ping chewed bit by bit. He ate the hardened rice, filling his entire mouth.

He likes summer, even he loves summer.

From the previous life.

If there is no accident from the father, maybe they can be together.But that man knows himself so well, he has always behaved properly, without losing his status, and always blesses himself at a suitable distance.

That hateful smile that was as dazzling as the sun will remain in Ye Ping's heart all his life.Why did you have to confess in that environment?

Like a fool.

I too, why didn't I see my heart clearly earlier?

Never said love, except his wife; never really panicked to anyone, except Xia Tian.

Not speaking does not mean not loving, because speaking out is responsibility and responsibility.

He has always believed in this.

Ye Ping thought, if he had just said that he loved him, would he not have left.

Can't say it.When I can't give him any guarantee, I can't make such a promise.

Also, he's still a minor.

It's really shameless to not let go of a minor.He restrained himself, he thought he could understand, but it turned out to be just wishful thinking.

Ye Ping put down his chopsticks and looked at the empty plate.He ate it all by himself.

Standing up to clean up the dishes, my feet trembled and I almost fell down.Holding the chair and standing up straight, Ye Ping moved slowly. The sun outside the window had already set, and it was time for school to end.

The water was rushing down, Ye Ping cleaned the bowl, and the dishes were stacked one by one.He walked back to the bedroom, looking at the messy bed, his heart ached even more.

Now he is the only one to face all this.

Fortunately, he is strong enough.

Taking a deep breath, Ye Ping walked into the room and drew the curtains, opened the windows, and let the smell out of the room.

He tore off the sheets and quilt covers, even the pillowcases.

He looked at the bedding all over the floor, threw them all into the washing machine, and pressed the wash button, as if everything had been cleaned away.

Ye Ping continued to fall on the sofa, listening to the sound from the washing machine.

He stretched out his hand, looking at his palm.

When he promised to be with Xia Tian, ​​it was from the heart.He didn't think about it that much. At that time, he just felt that no one would treat him like him.

Just like it.

Even if homosexuality is still mentally ill now, it won't be in a few years.

Just like what Xia Tian said, Feng Lu dared to face this kind of life. He lived two lifetimes, why didn't he dare?

Ye Ping looked around this house, he chose it for a long time, and finally settled here, he thought they could get along like a family, but it's not.

This place is so empty, there is no popularity at all.

Without any clothes or items in Xia Tian, ​​he would leave without packing anything.

He never thought of it as home.

What are you thinking, he is just a child, don't expect it.

Why have I lived in this world for so long but still have no sense of reality?

Ye Ping looked out the window and thought, because of loneliness, because Xia Tian is not around.

That person had never been separated from him, but suddenly he arrived at a place where he would never find him.

I really hope I don't wake up, the pain is only his.

See, he is so selfish.

The washing machine stopped, Ye Ping drained the water, let go of the faucet, and started to clean the foam.

The water boiled very high, Ye Ping couldn't care if it splashed on himself.While washing, he thought, it was always summer to do these things, he didn't need to do it at all.

However, it is rarely done in summer.

They are two years apart, and they can't always go to the same school, but even if they don't go to the same school, they still feel inseparable.Almost everyone knew that Ye Ping had a pestering younger brother.

Maybe it's better to transfer the yearning for Xia Tian to Feng Lu.

Feel guilty about him after all.

Find a time to make it clear to Feng Lu, it seems that this is really hurting him.

Didn't you know it hurt him?It's time to kick people away after using them.Ye Ping thought to himself mockingly.

It was more difficult to clean the quilt cover, it was too big, and the water almost drenched all over the body.

After they were all cleaned, Ye Ping put them through the water again and put them into the drying bucket.

Twist to dry.This sound is louder than the sound of cleaning, but fortunately, the time is very short.

He took out the almost dry bed covers, hung them on the hangers one by one, and dried them.

Clean up is over.Ye Ping let out a low sigh.

Recognize the fact that you are alone here.

The phone rang suddenly, and Ye Ping hesitated before answering.

"Xiaoping, are you going home for dinner today?"

"I won't go back. I will sleep in the dormitory tonight."

"Well, the weather has been hot and cold recently, so be careful not to catch a cold."

"Okay, Mom."

Ye Ping passed it with a smiling voice, no one would think that he was unhappy.After hanging up the phone, Ye Ping stood in the middle of the living room.He turns on the TV and watches the news.

What is the news saying?The anchor's lips opened and closed, but Ye Ping couldn't hear a word.

His mind was in a mess and he forced himself to calm down.

Turn off the TV and wash yourself off.

Even if he is strong enough, facing this side of himself is somewhat unbearable.

Sprinkling warm water on his body, he looked at the man in the mirror - mottled all over, hunched back, legs slightly bent and slightly separated, he couldn't stand it.

He has always been high-spirited, and when he was in such a mess, it would be demeaning.

Sitting down on the ground, tears flowed out for the third time.

Ye Ping, you are so weak!You are useless!

"I have cried for the third time, but you are still not here. How can you make me believe you!"

If possible, he hoped to return to that bar, and when Xia Tian said that sentence, he threw himself into his arms and cried loudly.

What are you kidding.You are still Ye Ping.

Ye Ping wiped away his tears, the water and tears mixed together, even he couldn't tell the difference.

He washed carefully, even the inside of his body, put on his pajamas, and changed into sheets.

This is only his place, no one is allowed to enter again.

The author has something to say: I finally wrote Mr. Ye's monologue, and I'm a little excited when I think about it.

Mr. Ye's panic and pain.