soul resonance

Before Xu Heqi came here, if he wanted to say that he was not angry at all, he would be lying.

The boyfriend disappeared inexplicably, the phone calls were not answered, and the messages were not returned. If you want to put it aside, it is time for an ordinary couple to have a big fight and break up.

But when Xu Heqi really saw Zhou Duo, the anger in his heart dissipated instantly.

The other party's tired body and haggard look only made him feel distressed. He knew that the other party had not had a good time these few days. Regardless of the reason why the other party avoided him, he now hoped that the other party could have a good rest.

Most importantly, those affectionate eyes told him that love has never changed.

that's enough.

Zhou Duo lay on the bed and licked his dry lips. The several days of insomnia made his head swell and ache, his heart beat abnormally, and he even felt weak all over.

Seeing Xu Heqi coming, he was nervous. At that moment, even his blood seemed to freeze, making him unable to move, and he could only look at Xu Heqi at a loss.

Afraid of what he will say, but also afraid that he will say nothing.

Silence is sometimes scarier than questioning.

"Xiaoqi...I..." Zhou Duo tried to explain.

"Boss Gu said you didn't go to bed until after four o'clock last night?" Xu Heqi interrupted Zhou Duo. He wanted to get closer to Zhou Duo, but he was still cold when he came in from the outside, so he took off his coat Take it off, "Let's talk later if you have anything to say, now you can rest for a while."

"Can't sleep." The body is sleepy, the mind is obviously drowsy, but the spirit is very active, and the whole person is awake after closing the eyes.

Xu Heqi tucked the corner of his quilt, and gently stroked Zhou Duo's face with his hand, "It's hard to be sick, right?" He still remembered what Gu Yiyun said about Zhou Duo's illness when he entered the door, but he thought it was an ordinary thing. disease.

"Have you taken any medicine? I'll get you some water."

"Eat, don't go."

When he didn't see Xu Heqi, Zhou Duo avoided him. When he saw someone, he never wanted him to leave his sight. He wanted to look at him, even if he stayed by his side for a second longer.

"Okay, don't go!" Xu Heqi walked around to the other side of the bed, took off his shoes and climbed into the bed, "I'll rest with you, okay?" He put his arms around Zhou Duo's waist.

"Okay." Zhou Duo closed his eyes, locked Xu Heqi tightly in his arms, and buried his head in the other's neck. A large part of his anxiety now comes from the fear of losing Xu Heqi. After he had Xu Heqi's breath in his arms, he became relieved and relaxed.

Xu Heqi hugged him, patting his waist lightly with his hands, coaxing him like a child, and kissing his hair from time to time.

Xu Heqi's intuition told him that the current Zhou Duo was like fragile glass, extremely fragile!He tried his best to appease the other party, using all his tenderness.

His breathing gradually sank, and Zhou Duo finally returned to the embrace of sleep. Compared with the light sleep that could wake him up with just a little sound, it is obvious that now he can be regarded as real sleep.

"Buzz-"

The phone that was thrown on the bedside table vibrated twice, Xu Heqi stopped his hand that was patting Zhou Duo's waist, and touched the phone over.

Message from Gu Yiyun: [Can we talk about it? 】

【Can. 】Xu Hexi immediately replied.

He was too anxious to find someone just now, and he overlooked one thing, that is, Gu Yiyun is also Zhou Duo's elder, and the matter of the two of them has been exposed to the elders.

But judging from his attitude towards him just entering the door, the other party seemed to know about the two of them early on.

It seemed that he had no objection, which reassured Xu Heqi a little.

【How much do you know about Zhou Duo. ] Gu Yiyun asked.

Xu Heqi pondered for a moment and confessed honestly, 【I thought I understood it quite well, but recently I feel that I don’t understand it that well. He has something to hide from me, right? 】

[There are indeed many things that are hard to say, if you want to know, I can tell you. 】

[No, let him tell me when he wakes up, if he doesn't want to, I have a way to make him speak. 】

In Xu Heqi's view, according to Zhou Duo's feelings for him, the other party must have told him early in the morning, and what he couldn't say must be something that the other party would find it hard to say.

He didn't want to know this from other people's mouths. Apart from fearing that outsiders' opinions would be biased, more importantly, he hoped that Zhou Duo could be honest with him.

[Okay, then wait for him to tell you. 】

[However, I still have to tell you that Zhou Duo is ill, so I hope you can tolerate him more and try not to irritate him. 】

【What disease? 】

Xu Heqi's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and his typing hands trembled. Gu Yiyun repeatedly emphasized that Zhou Duo was ill, which made him realize that Zhou Duo might not be suffering from a cold as he thought.

[Manic depression, mental illness, not easy to treat. 】Gu Yiyun wanted to vaccinate Xu Heqi, and by the way, wanted to test whether he really liked Zhou Duo.

Children of their age are not strong psychologically, and these diseases are not very common now. When many people hear about this type of disease, they classify them as neuropathy.

Who the hell wants to fall in love with you mentally ill.

[How long, is it serious? 】

[I... what can I do? 】

[I have never been exposed to this kind of disease, is it like depression, can you show me his case? 】

[How is he usually treated, how do you take care of him, can you please tell me? 】

Mental illness is not common in daily life, or it is not uncommon, but most people don't know it when they are sick, and it is not so popular.

In recent years, depression has been mentioned more often. Xu Heqi has never learned about it, and when he heard that Zhou Duo had suffered from bipolar disorder, he panicked.

He knows that people with severe depression tend to commit suicide. If it is bipolar disorder, will they have this tendency?His arms around Zhou Duo's waist gradually tightened, and a panic rose in his heart in vain.

Gu Yiyun watched Xu Heqi's messages one by one, and heaved a sigh of relief. He glanced at Zhou Duo's bedroom, and thought, "The little bastard has been unlucky for so many years, so it's back to shit luck, at least look at it." The object on it is still good.

He crossed his legs in the living room and replied: [I have been ill for almost two years. It was quite serious before but has improved a lot recently. Don’t worry too much. As for what you can do, wait a minute. A psychiatrist recommends it to you. 】

Although Gu Yiyun has taken care of Zhou Duo for two years, he is basically in a free-range state, as long as he doesn't get sick, he can do whatever he wants.

And when the illness happened, he actually just watched the other person not to go to extremes, and mainly relied on Zhou Duo himself for the treatment, and he didn't help much.

One is because the relationship between them is really not that deep, and the other is that he and Zhou Duo have not very good personalities, so how can they have so much patience to accompany and treat them.

Song Zhiyi had this patience, but Zhou Duo's illness had his part in it.Let alone treatment, what if it gets worse?

So in the past two years, Zhou Duo's illness has been so mediocre. Gu Yiyun can't die, but he can't be cured.

It wasn't until he met Xu Heqi that he gradually got a little light.

"Damn it, bitch!" Gu Yiyun thought about it and kicked her foot on the sofa. The good-natured Kyoto didn't wait, so she came here to fuck!

To make the little bastard fall ill again, isn't this to torture him? !

When Gu Yiyun complained about Zhou Mantong, Xu Heqi was adding Zhou Duo's psychiatrist's WeChat account.

After chatting with the doctor a few words, the sense of panic in his heart got better.

Originally, he was thinking of educating the other person after he woke up, but now he didn't dare, so he put his arms around him and kissed the other person's forehead, sighing inwardly: Boyfriend can still lie beside him panting It's already very good, let's talk about other things later!

Then he asked the psychiatrist about some precautions for the treatment of bipolar disorder, and the other party gave him a lot of information, and while Zhou Duo was still sleeping, he quickly browsed.

After one o'clock in the afternoon, Zhou Duo woke up, and after finally having a good night's sleep, he felt relaxed all over his body, the pain in his head disappeared, and his mood improved a lot.

He felt that Xu Heqi's hand was still tightly around his waist, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and he raised his head buried on the other's shoulder and kissed him lightly.

Xu Heqi closed his eyes and fell asleep, feeling that the other party had woken up and kissed him, and opened his eyes with a smile.

"Have you rested?" he asked.

"En." Zhou Duo nodded, and remembered that the reason why Xu Heqi appeared here was because he had been missing for several days, and he felt a little uneasy.

"Baby." He looked away guiltily, "I'm sorry." He knew that his behavior was wrong, no matter what, he shouldn't make Xu Heqi so worried by not answering calls and messages.

Sickness is sickness, but this is not an excuse to escape.

And Xu Heqi has read the information and knows that bipolar disorder has no fixed attack cycle, and the duration of the attack is uncertain, sometimes two or three days, sometimes one or two weeks.

The doctor said that his last attack lasted for almost five days, with alternate episodes of mania and depression, but this time it is obvious that depression is the main body, and the duration may be longer.

During the onset of the disease, his emotions were out of control, and negative thoughts would inevitably arise. Xu Heqi didn't know that his negative thoughts did not include himself, but he still felt distressed and understood the other party.

Seeing Zhou Duo's self-reproach, he threw himself into Zhou Duo's arms, hugged Zhou Duo and rubbed against him, "Needless to say I'm sorry, I know, you're sick, if you're well, you won't be sick." Such."

Zhou Duo trembled when he heard this, and said in a trembling voice, "You...you know?"

He inevitably felt that it was over, even though Xu Heqi was in his arms at the moment, he still felt that the other party might leave him in the next second.

This is an uncontrolled thought, and the negativity in the heart cannot be resolved.

"It's okay, let's not be afraid. If you are sick, you can treat it. It doesn't matter." Xu Heqi wanted to coax him more, but then remembered what the doctor said, communicate more, respect patients, and don't treat each other special , This would make him feel uncomfortable, so he twisted Zhou Duo's waist again, "Why don't you believe me so much, am I the kind of person who will abandon you just because you are sick?"

"Of course not!" Zhou Duo said immediately.

Xu Heqi is perfect in his heart. This kind of perfection is not just superficial, but from the inside out, kind, tenacious, and brave. He deserves all good adjectives. The other party is certainly not such a person, but the problem It's because I don't deserve it.

Not only because of illness, but also because of embarrassing life experience and despicable behavior.

"What are you struggling with?" Xu Heqi held his face in his hands and asked Zhou Duo to look at him. He clearly saw the struggle in the other's eyes, "What are you going to tell me?"

"It doesn't matter what happens, you have to remember that I love you."

Xu Heqi didn't believe that Zhou Duo had really done something out of nature, as long as it wasn't something that violated the law and morality, he didn't think there was anything unacceptable.

"Wait for me, okay?" Zhou Duo looked at Xu Heqi with red eyes, "I dare not..."

He admitted his cowardice, and understood that sooner or later he would open his mouth and expose all his unbearable feelings, waiting for the final judgment.

"Okay, tell me when you want to talk."