Drift [Gone with the Wind Drift Doujin BL]

After Scarlett got married, the good old days of wearing beautiful dresses and dancing and flirting with men seemed to be gone forever.

She complained about the injustice of fate countless times.When a little girl spent all her energy learning all the wrist tricks to charm men, it took only a year or two to stop using them. What a pity, what a waste!Married, put on dark dresses, had children, ruined the waistline, sat in the corner with the married wife at the ball where the young girls were having fun, and danced You can only dance with your own husband, or with an old man who can only step on your feet.

If you don't follow this set of established rules, other women will talk about you, bad your reputation, and your family will lose face.

But when she found that Charles didn't care at all, Petty couldn't control her, and Ellen was far away from Tara, Scarlett immediately returned to her pre-marriage behavior.In the hospital, the helpless and helpless wounded could not resist her charm, and fell under Scarlett's light green dress.

She didn't care what Aunt Pitty's dead-headed friends were berating her behind her back, behaving like she was before marriage, dancing when she should, partying when she should, riding with the wounded, flirting with men, flirting with girls. The tricks are not wrong, and the dress is so fashionable and gorgeous that the ladies are jealous.In addition, without the protracted formalities and maddening red tape, she still dominates the group of unmarried girls... Scarlett is in a happier mood.

Despite the constant gossip, Scarlett's body is still immature, and the most intimate gestures between her and the courtiers under her skirt are nothing more than hugging during dancing.She never thought of betraying Charles, she just enjoyed the admiration of men and satisfied her vanity in the process of hunting men.

Even though Scarlett never really went out of line, Aunt Pitty used to wring her fingers and say tearfully, "What would dear Dolly say..."

Before she passed out or tried to look like one, Melanie would comfort her: "Oh, don't mind, Aunt Pitty! Scarlett is a little girl! Besides, she is so lively and charming! Even I was taken aback." She charms, and how can helpless lads resist her charms?"

The days of indulgence and joy have passed for nearly three years.

This day was no different from every day before, but Scarlett suddenly got tired of it.

This boredom gradually accumulates with every dance, flirt, flirt, and drive, and finally surfaced quietly today.

A vague idea slowly flashed in her simple mind: What is the meaning of everything I do?What would it matter if I captured all the men in the county, in the city, in Georgia?Even if they love me like crazy--like Stewart and Brent did--won't they end up marrying other girls and having families?Not to live your own life, not to...

Scarlett had limited education, and she couldn't think of the advanced vocabulary "parted ways".

What is the meaning of such a day, such a life?

According to Scarlett's simple and shallow mind, it is absolutely impossible for her to have such thoughts and emotions.

Scarlett's change is all due to Scott.

Scott's thoughts are too complex and profound, even more incomprehensible than Ashley's, as if no one in the world can understand what he is thinking.But he always used the simplest, most obvious, and most popular terms to let Scarlett understand many truths that she never thought about, and she couldn't even think about it.

So, she went out with a doubtful mood, went for a ride with her male partner in a happy mood, refused the male partner's invitation to dance with a tangled mood and returned home, and recalled the details of today with an empty mood .

—she couldn't remember anything.

She couldn't remember her boyfriend's smile, his gracious compliments, or even his appearance...

Scarlett returned to the brick house sullenly, and as soon as she opened the door, she heard a gentle voice excitedly saying: "Aunt Pitty, look, what the Courier said about Charlie!" Brave and ingenious sneak attack'; 'Colonel Hamilton took thousands of prisoners, flour and bacon countless'; Complaining about captive Yankee warhorses fresh off the plow!' God, Aunt Pitty, this is our gentle and timid Charlie! I'm so proud of him! I'm so excited I could jump up! "

"I hope you don't shake the bricks off, Melly." Scarlett took off her shawl and threw her gloves on the sofa, not sharing in her joy at all.

"Aren't you proud, dear?" Melanie put down the newspaper, stood on tiptoe, and wrapped her arms around Scarlett's neck from behind the sofa, "Oh, I see, the wife of a Confederate hero is so humble, How can this hero's sister be complacent?"

A burst of laughter mixed with guilt came to Scarlett's heart.

She finally understood why the fool Melly could always see the virtues in others, and these people never dreamed that they would have such virtues——

Definitely overcompensating, Meili!

While silently laughing at Melanie's simpler mind than her own, her cheeks were burning with guilt.

Scarlett had never been proud of her husband's meritorious service on the battlefield.She hates war.

The eloquence of politicians is not as good as the "heresy" that her younger brother occasionally confides in a sigh, which makes her feel more reasonable.As Scott said, General Lee, General Stonewall Jackson, Old Joe and even Charles were all talked about by people in the South because of this war, but at the same time, too many young girls became widows, There are too many elderly parents who have lost their children, too many sweet lovers separated from each other forever... For the unattainable "slave and state rights", the southerners have paid too much sacrifice, just to satisfy the desire of a few fanatics ambition.

Scott said we were bound to fail, Scarlett.

Scott said, I left home and went on a rampage across the Atlantic, and all I did was fight against the future of that lost South.

Don't mention these things to others...

Melanie's soft little hands gently stroked Scarlett's cheeks, and for a moment Scarlett had the illusion of returning to Tara and facing her mother.The shadow of the war receded gradually, and the busy rhythm slowly stagnated, as if everything had returned to the years before the war, the carefree, sheltered, never-to-be-feared years...

Melanie...

At this time, Scott and Rhett are in Bell's "Red Hat" office, drinking brandy and chatting with each other.

Their offices were on the second floor, while the ground floor was so packed with effusive patriots that Bell had to visit the widows of some down-and-out Southern heroes for help on Saturdays, the busiest weekends.

"After the war is over, I plan to build a lumber factory and open a brick factory. This is undoubtedly the most profitable occupation, when there is nothing to do!" Scott slowly sipped what he could buy in the whole South The best brandy, with a hint of smugness in the smile.

"I never mind the transfer of money from Southern pockets to mine." Rhett opened another bottle.

"Come on, Rhett, don't always act like you have an irreconcilable feud with the South. Even if you don't repent, at least..."

"I really don't want to repent, baby." Rhett grinned, a row of neat teeth against the background of a dark face, the danger of being forever white, the white is shining, "Why should I reject me for a person?" Saying good things and singing praises to the system outside the gates? It makes me happy to see the system fall apart."

Scott snorted: "Then I'll wait for the day when you witness the collapse of our southern system."

"I'm definitely looking forward to that day more than you do. Come on, Scott, though your sweet little pale mouth is always shut tight, I dare say you don't like our system as much as I do. You I should have known why I was the butler's son of a bitch. There was only one reason, and that was that I didn't follow the rules of Charleston, and I didn't want to. Charleston is the epitome of the South. I think you've noticed, follow What a boring set of rules that were laid down hundreds of years ago. Everyone has to do a lot of things just because it's always been that way. Because the rules don't exist, there are many harmless things that people are not allowed to do. Such absurd things So much that I couldn't bear it. Remember that young girl? They made sure I married that lady and ignored the poor white girl I was rumored to have 'raped'. Finally I couldn't stand it Well, why do I have to tie myself to a nasty fool? Just because the carriage broke down on the road and didn't take her home before dark? If I'm so good at marksmanship, why let her fierce brother Kill? Of course, if I wasn't a selfish rascal but a decent gentleman like Ashley Wilkes, he'd have shot me and saved the Butlers' name. But I think Alive. You see, I am alive and well, and enjoy the pleasures that the "gentlemen" can't even dream of. Just think of my younger brother who inherited the Butler family in my place. Just think of him who has been guarding rice fields and agriculture all his life. In the society, I thought it would make sense to break with the system. Baby, you know better than I do that the way we Southerners live is as outdated as the well-behaved nobles of the Middle Ages. It's a wonder it's survived, the system It must be smashed."

"I'm very curious about the duel that completely changed the trajectory of your fate."

"That duel was nothing new, baby, and it didn't change the course of my fate. It was the last straw that drove me to betray the South."

That duel...

Although 12 years have passed since the past, the gunshots of that duel seemed to have sounded yesterday.

The three-acre pasture was used by them as a duel field, surrounded by dark pine and cypress trees... Rhett's assistant poured the ammunition powder into the oily and smooth mahogany pistol, and stuffed the lead bullets with an oilcloth The barrel of the gun... the pistol was tightly grasped in the hand, like holding a viper tightly...

"Making a country girl pregnant with a bastard is not worth a duel with the young master of the Butler family, let alone a girl who came back a few hours late?"

"If you don't keep your stinky mouth shut, Butler won't have a dueling assistant."

"I'm not like you, scared to pee my pants without an assistant by my side."

"Shut up! If you beg for mercy, maybe I will consider letting you go."

"Come, sir, you suggested the duel. Let us prepare."

... the moment the sun leaped over the horizon, he and the young girl's stupid brother each took 25 steps forward ... the sun left the river bank ... "Gentlemen, turn around and shoot!" ...

"I partially agree with you, Rhett villain Butler." Scott said with a wry smile.

This soft call brought Rhett back from the ridiculous nightmare of the past.

"It breaks my heart that you don't agree with all my insights, baby."

"Who told you that your new boots will always be more elegant than mine." Scott gritted his teeth.

Rhett was taken aback for a moment, raised one eyebrow, and seemed to want to say some witty words to tease him, but he couldn't hold back the laughter that broke out from the depths of his throat. Scott had never seen Rhett so unscrupulously loud. Laughed, he looked like a little boy who succeeded in pranking.

"It turns out that the reason why my green-eyed hypocrite didn't appreciate my brilliant arguments turned out to be because of my amazing taste. This makes Rhett the Betrayer Butler very happy." Rhett finally finished laughing, It seems as long as laughing for 100 years.

Scott said sullenly: "I know, Rhett, if you can be as well-behaved and simple-minded as most of the good people, and make a perfect reputation as the highest achievement in life, maybe you and the South The relationship will not be as incompatible as it is now."

"I tried, baby, I couldn't do it, I couldn't force myself to do it."

"I know, Rhett, understand and sympathize." Scott raised his head and said quietly, as if speaking to himself, "because I am the same as you. My view of the world, of myself Positioning is also incompatible with what our class requires. It’s just that I hide this idea and need, and you make it public. I always believe that in the family and society, people should be more free to find their own Location. I believe that more than ten years ago, you must have tried again and again to escape the fate of the southerners, unwilling to be reduced to a symbol of "Butler", only caring or forcing yourself to only care about cotton, slaves and state Quan. I am like you, unwilling to live a life of conformity, unwilling to commit ourselves to a rock-solid absurd reality, and even less willing to give up ourselves. Everything is prepared for us, but no one ever asks us what we want. Not only do we have no right to the pursuit of happiness, but if we try to do so we are branded selfish and irresponsible, and we have to try our best to hide our love and desire for life."

Scott stretched his waist like a cat, his slender legs also stretched out, and folded together in a relaxed manner.He continued: "There are so many possibilities in life, why do you have to go down this road? It's just that rebellion has a price, because freedom means a certain kind of break - with family, with tradition, with The whole of the South. Of course, it's no big deal to you, because every choice has a price, and you've paid the price of the choice, and I'm sure you're strong enough to take it."

Rhett didn't laugh, move, or speak.After a long time, he laughed at himself and said: "To put it in a more elegant way, I just don't want to continue acting, I don't want to be coy, I don't want to make hypocritical greetings, in short, I don't want to deny a real person all the time. ego. Funny isn't it, baby?"

"It's not funny, Rhett, I'm sorry."

Because it would be too costly to break a system that does not allow free choice.

Not only the father's rage, the mother and sister's tears, the eyes and cold words of others, but also...

And the destruction of the whole South, as a price.

The author has something to say: the midterm exam is coming soon... Although the midterm exam in college is relatively poor, there are still several exams anyway!