[Tomorrow's Ark] Escape from this stranded world, Doctor

Put the gun down.

Dazai?

Even if I am like this, is there something you need?

Great...

The knocking sound of bullets hitting the barrel of a gun.

Do not! ! !

——Small recording equipment filled with a lot of noise

"""

Uncover the surface of reality and witness the story from the perspective of an upper-level observer.

Today, let's talk about Neng Jun, a patient with dissociative amnesia.

Just by surviving, the memory will continue to be lost, and all the past has nothing to do with him.

The soft emotions brought about by the blankness of lost memory will make him suffer deeper harm, and the occasional fragments of things recalled cannot save him.

As Oda Sakunosuke said, the balloon that is cut off will continue to climb until it ends.

Nokun and Oda Sakunosuke met for the first time, the man's idea was correct, when the boy was about to jump into the river.

Part of Mr. Neng’s message can also confirm that his family took him to the river bank in the morning and told him to stay where he was and not to move around until they came to pick him up, and took the note card from him by the way.

At that moment, Nengjun's feeling of falling to the bottom is self-evident.

I was undoubtedly abandoned.

With great sorrow and the idea of ​​not causing trouble for his family, he gently agreed to them and watched his family go away.

It's a pity that Neng Jun, who was blindly waiting for his family to return, lost all his memory again at around 12:00 noon.

Although the painful memories have been forgotten, the remaining despair still remains in my heart and cannot be dissipated.

Unable to comprehend this heavy feeling, the penniless Neng-kun stared blankly at the warm surface of the water under the sun.Then he was briefly attracted by the entrant who was floating in the water.

Yes, he was inspired.

Neng Jun, who has no friends, no family, and no fetters, has no nostalgia for everything in the world.

For him, long sleep is just a possibility of closing his eyes and waking up from the world.He has experienced it countless times in the past.

Neng Jun, like a rootless duckweed, decided to learn from his predecessors, walked into the water, and embraced attachment——

At this time, Oda Sakunosuke appeared.

Although he approached him with the idea of ​​driving away the danger, like the fate promised in the past, someone finally appeared to take Neng Jun away.

Neng Jun looked at the person who was the first to talk to him, and sincerely told him the simple fact that he had lost his memory.

This has nothing to do with Oda Sakunosuke, the man didn't care, and instead invited Nokun to have dinner together.

Since noon, Nokun, who was suffering from hunger, left with Oda Sakunosuke without hesitation for a bite to eat.

That night, Neng Jun was invited to stay temporarily.The kind-hearted red-haired man who took care of the meals hoped to become the juvenile's guardian and invited him to live with himself and his adopted children.

How lucky and wonderful it is for a wanderer who has nothing!

After being taken in, Mr. Neng lived with his five children, and the man occasionally visited them during his spare time at work.

Neng Jun is extremely gentle in treating other children, which may be related to his missing past.

As if he was begging others to treat his blank self like this, he who lacked warmth was more soft to others.

And Oda Sakunosuke, as the person who caught the balloon, has a very important position in Nokun's heart.

Even so, his mental state is very dangerous.Impatient words and driving attitude will destroy his spirit and aggravate his psychological problems.

Mild manifestations of avoidance, severe manifestations of self-destructive tendencies.

Why am I saying this?

Well, don't you think, the act of grabbing the balloon...was futile?The more unfortunate things are, the more likely they will happen, don't you think?

Balloons, are made to hug the sky - just a nudge and it's all over.

"Neng Jun?"

look what i saw.

Osamu Dazai noticed with great interest that the little pawn that Rhodes Island placed next to Oda Sakunosuke appeared in front of him.

What a surprise, he took this road on a whim today.

Is it a warning or a threat?

Or, finally couldn't bear it anymore and wanted to attack him?

Don't say it's just a chance encounter, bad and uninteresting lies will always make people laugh out loud.

Let's see if I can catch your little tail today... Osamu Dazai thought about groping in his arms, and opened the hidden recording device.

"Ah? Excuse me, are you calling me?"

Neng Jun held something in his hand, turned his head in the alley ahead, and looked suspiciously at the stranger at the entrance of the alley.

After putting a white note into his pocket, he picked up his own badge and compared it with Osamu Dazai's face.

It's so strange, what does the bandaged boy have to do with the "be careful of bandages" written on the card, doesn't it mean be careful of getting hurt?

not understand...

"Well, it says, I'm called 'can't'." Neng Jun put down the badge, "If you know me, 'Neng Jun' is indeed more friendly to shout? Great, to meet someone who knows me!"

"Sir, since you can call me by my name, we must know each other."

Neng Jun was a little embarrassed to ask others for the first time, but he still insisted: "Are you free now? I want to ask you for a favor."

"The route here is so complicated, I seem to have forgotten something, and now I'm lost. Can you take me to [----] this address? Thank you."

It's a pity that Osamu Dazai didn't care about the thoughts of the chess piece, but wanted to force something out of his mouth.

[The time is just right, if you want to keep Oda Sakunosuke, arresting the spy yourself is undoubtedly the best way to remove the suspicion. 】

"...This is really shocking. Amnesia is here again? This time I don't have Odasaku to help you, No-kun~"

Osamu Dazai laughed, but his hands were not friendly at all.

I saw that he took out a gun from his pocket.

Open the safety catch.

Casually, aim at Neng Jun.

"It's best not to move around~" The bandaged weirdo shook the gun. "If I'm not careful, I might miss my shot~ Neng Jun, you don't want to lie on the ground for ten minutes before you die, do you?"

Neng-kun looked at the black muzzle of the gun with an expression of disbelief on his face.

【gun? 】

[Aim at me. 】

【why? 】

"Why... Have I offended you before?!" He thought and asked the same way.

"Well, good question. Why?" Osamu Dazai tilted his head, "Many people have asked me this question, so my answer is—"

"This is reality, Neng-jun? Don't run away~"

[Can't speak. 】

[Gun, so scary. 】

[I don't know him, but he knows me? 】

[I obviously have nothing, even this life is about to be taken away by someone I don't know, I really can't be reconciled...]

[Wait, my card has the phone number, name, and home address of the caregiver.If he gets it, will the family be in danger? 】

[Just try to delay it a little longer, maybe someone passing by saw it and would call the police for me? 】

In Neng-kun's little head, chaotic emotional sobs erupted.

But he knew, but he knew almost desperately that in front of a bullet in front of him, everything he struggled with seemed meaningless.

"Be careful of the bandages, I probably understand, but it's a bit late."

"There's no need to prepare presents. Maybe we can really surprise or frighten the caregiver then?"

Feeling nostalgic, he touched the card on his chest.

"Forget it, don't take yourself too seriously. Without the burden of me, people's life might be easier."

"Who is that, you shoot."

Neng Jun still couldn't hide the fear on his face about what might happen next.

"By the way, I hope you have better craftsmanship and aim at the heart. Also, don't slap your face, it will probably make you die ugly, right?"

"Hmm." Dazai listened patiently to Nokun's nagging, and asked pretending to be curious.

"Aren't you afraid, or are you confident? If you beg for mercy now, maybe I will kindly let you go?"

"Hehe, maybe." Neng Jun sneered, "Are you kidding me? I don't know anything, and I can't say anything. I don't have anything you want from me."

"Good~" Osamu Dazai whistled, "The answer is very good, how should I reward you? By the way, do you want to choose yourself?"

"The prize should only be a gun." Neng Jun really thought about it.

He went on to say: "Even if I close my eyes now, I don't have any regrets. I just feel sorry for the parents who raised me. All the money was wasted."

When the weirdo heard this, he put down his gun instead.

"Are you threatening me?"

Neng Jun was at a loss, and he complained: "Is there a ghost in your heart, everyone has a heart!"

"Neng Jun is right, why did he appear here?"

"Even if you ask me that, I don't know the answer? In other words, why do I have to answer you?" The long chat gradually wiped out Neng Jun's hope.

No one can help him.

Neng Jun's tense nerves gradually became numb.

[I have persisted for a long time and worked very hard.Perhaps, death has become less scary? 】

Dazai Osamu confirmed a few more important matters through the dialogue with Neng Jun: "There is no ambush, and you are alone here? You have been abandoned~"

"Sorry, please speak in human language, I can't understand riddles." Neng Jun frowned, looking at the bandage star opposite.

He couldn't understand the weird interest in the other party holding a gun and forcing himself to chat.

[It doesn't matter anymore, I'm sorry, I really... worked hard——]

"boom!"

Osamu Dazai, suddenly fired.

"""

Behold, angels of rejoicing and celebration.

Who will pay attention to the beggar who falls in the corner?

Jubilation overwhelmed everything.

Let's celebrate.

Let's celebrate.

Let's celebrate.

The birth of a great tragedy!

—— Neng Jun's final words

"""

The gun went off.

Neng Jun shivered slowly, covered his stomach and squatted down slowly.

"it hurts."

Drops of liquid fell to the ground.

Osamu Dazai laughed: "I missed you, Neng-kun, don't touch porcelain!"

"It hurts, my stomach is cramping from fright, it's all your fault..."

【I'm alive. 】

Neng Jun, who knows where the bullets flew to, sniffed pitifully. Being so frightened by the gunshot, he held back tears for a long time, but still couldn't hold back.

He cried.

"My stomach hurts...don't scare me anymore, just give it a good time!"

"Crying again? You really shed tears easily, just like last time."

Osamu Dazai threw away the gun in his hand like throwing trash, walked up to the little chess piece and squatted down, looking curiously at Nokun's crying face.

"You were abandoned by them, how pitiful."

"I don't understand again, stop talking! Is it fun to play the piano to a cow!" Neng Jun was confused and sad.

"Such a horrible thing, why did it happen last time! Why did I meet someone like you?!"

"Mr. Neng really knows how to beat him up."

Osamu Dazai sighed softly: "It's obvious that I sent it to the door by myself, but now I still want to escape? Don't you want to escape?"

"However, I'm a kind person. As long as No-kun writes a letter right now, severing ties with the person who adopted you, how about I send you out of Yokohama intact?"

Osamu Dazai made an unbelievably fantastic request.

Do you think I'm a fool, Neng Jun thought bitterly.

Reluctantly holding back the remaining tears, he sobbed several times: "It's the corpse, what's the matter with you! Can this be called kindness? And just now, it was you who called me first of..."

"It's too much to be a gentleman, this is one of the few kindnesses I have—"

Osamu Dazai was exactly the same as his teacher, pretending to be sad on the surface, and forced out two crocodile tears.

I don't remember anything, and my stomach cramps and hurts again.

The tears dried and stuck to the skin, uncomfortable and hot.

There was also a psycho who claimed to be a good-hearted man and held a gun squatting next to him.

[Am I abandoned by my family? 】

"Why on earth did you kill me? Isn't it too unreasonable?" Neng Jun asked in a low voice, wiping away tears indiscriminately.

"Well... there is nothing in the world that can only be done with reason, Neng-jun, please remember~"

Osamu Dazai found a little happiness from bullying the little chess pieces.

[I still don't understand.By the way, did he drop the gun on the ground just now? 】

It's an opportunity!

Neng Jun didn't even dare to take a second look at it, the pistol left on the ground was his only way of life.

He slammed forward to push the assailant away, stumbled and grabbed the gangster in the corner.

Osamu Dazai dodged the impact.

It doesn't matter, his target is not people, but sex!

Caught!

Neng Jun grasped the nipple tightly with both hands, stood up scrambling, and distanced himself from the weird bandage man.

He held the gun in a strange way, his index finger tucked into the trigger, and he raised it tremblingly to aim.

Switching of perpetrator and victim.

nobody.

No sirens.

How long has time passed?

[No one... cares about me. 】

"Don't come here! Don't come near me! Stay away from me! Go away!"

Neng Jun trembled, and finally woke up from the numb self-deception, and expelled the source of Tao's uneasiness hoarsely.

[What am I afraid of?Immediate death, or just... homelessness? 】

Osamu Dazai stood up leisurely, and patted the dust off his body.

"That's not how you hold a gun, Mr. Neng. You can't hit me like this."

Osamu Dazai smiled, pointed to his heart and said.

"Here, shoot right here, bad boy."

"Shut up! I tell you to go away! I just lost my memory and I'm not stupid!" Neng Jun yelled in a broken voice.

"You have such a bad attitude, how could I trust you! If you even shoot you, I will be sent to the police station the next day!"

【Is there really a tomorrow...】

"Although you are so angry now, Mr. Neng will soon forget these things, right?"

Dazai sighed sincerely.

"Even if you hate me to death, next time I hook my fingers, I'll still run over? It's so cute, Neng Jun."

malicious.

"You have strong malice towards me, why?" Neng Jun shouldn't reveal the truth.

[Maybe, I'm already broken somewhere. 】

"I have nothing, only this breath of life, and this—" He let go of one hand and grabbed the card on his chest tremblingly.

【Home, family, place to live, a place to fill my stomach, someone who raised me, Oda Saku, Nosuke? 】

"When you met me, you called him Odasaku at first? It's a strange name, I didn't realize it, but it's so familiar..."

Neng Jun sorted out the connection between the two little by little.

"Ah, that's right. You know me, of course you know me, you're here to exclude me, you're here to—eliminate me."

【I am alive, will it bring any disaster? 】

"Is it because of me that I brought them danger?"

Neng Jun is still holding the gun, but he is unarmed and unprotected mentally, and he foolishly seeks answers from the murderer.

"That's right, I understand." He looked at Osamu Dazai's gloomy expression and said to himself.

"Maybe, after escaping from here, I will return to where I came from. But that is not correct for you and needs to be corrected."

"Do you want to lead me to the right path? Should I disappear? If so, can they be happy?"

"You are a variable that should not appear, at least you should not appear by his side at that time."

Osamu Dazai falsely raised the corners of his mouth and made a smiling expression: "I gave you a chance, but haven't you already made a choice?"

"But, I want to live! Even if I can't survive, even if I try my best to escape, I think—"

"I said, No-kun, what happens after you live? What is there for you to live for?" Osamu Dazai became impatient.

"I've been causing trouble for others, Neng-kun, can you be a little more conscious?"

"The whole person is an empty shell, there is nothing inside, what do you remember?"

"Ah-shut up...shut up! Me!"

Mr. Neng wanted to pull the trigger to make this annoying guy shut up forever.

want to live.

【No, nothing worth living for, right? 】

I want to go home.

【Look, they don't welcome you, you will only bring endless trouble. 】

want family.

[His friend, for the safety of his friend, he wants to get rid of you. 】

"Isn't it, it's completely meaningless... Hold on to me, please hold on to me, I don't want to..."

A placebo for self-numbing, which loses its efficacy.

After escaping, after forgetting, where will I wander?

Nowhere to go.

[This world is not friendly, there is no place for you anywhere. 】

Fluffy.

Or is the world becoming lighter?

Anger, grievance, sadness, despair, reluctance, all emotions float into the sky like weightless feathers.

Mr. Neng finally realized that he focused on looking at the final apocalypse in his hand. Any fool would know how to activate it. It was the last stop that Blank ego finally found after a long journey.

"I want to fly into the sky, I want to leave the city, I want to have a sweet dream, I want to remember the faces of my family, I want a hug, I want a warm bedding."

"It's all delusional."

float up.

Floating desperately.

The balloon floated desperately high into the sky.

"I want a lot, but I can't find anything here, and I can't give me anything. I have already lost everything, so the last remaining point must not be left to you."

Without hesitation, he turned his gun and pointed it at himself.

"I wasn't turned away...yes, I was, I made my own decision to leave! I'm going to a better place than anywhere—"

Ignoring the third person rushing into the alley, Neng Jun pulled the trigger tremblingly in fear.

Here is the end of the road.

The bell struck.

Doves flew by.

Blank fantasy.

to darkness.

It started to overflow.

Spread rust.

A scream swallowed by the wall.

The twisted daily life ends here.

It's over, Osamu Dazai thought hard, it's a joke.

That bullet can't...impossible!

Back to the origin, everything is over.

The note fell to the ground.

I found out about Oda Sakunosuke's birthday today!Prepare a gift quietly and surprise him!Must remember!Gift shop address.

The paper is wet.

The writing melts away.

worthless.

The author has something to say:

Chickens talk to ducks, and play the piano to cows.

Don't joke with people you hate, and don't joke with people who hate you!