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Elisa's disappearance happened on December 1984, 12, when we were eight years old. On that day, we tried our best to avoid the groomsman who came to dress up and the nagging butler. The bodyguard, who never left, took all the pocket money he had accumulated and went to the street.

We bought sweet, tooth-losing candies that Dad never allowed us to eat, went to the so-called simple amusement park that the housekeeper always forbids us to set foot in, and bought a lot of flashy and cheap decorations. smooth and happy.

Then I proposed an idea that I still regret in retrospect: "Sister, sister, shall we play hide-and-seek? I will hide first, you catch first, and then change."

Elisa was also playing a little bit uncontrollably, and agreed to me without thinking much.

While she was counting down with her eyes closed, I ran to the playground I went to earlier, and hid in the small house at the top of some old slides over there.

I sat there, carefully observing the movement outside through the simple window, watching the sun in the west gradually change from light gold to orange, watching the reflection in the playground being stretched longer and longer, but Yili Sarah never showed up.

Being alone, I was disturbed by the increasingly dark sky. I had never tried to play outside so late at night before. I wondered if Elisa would go back first if she didn’t find me. He slipped down, and when he got up, he almost staggered and fell down because the blood in his legs was not circulating after sitting for too long.

After finally getting up straight, my whole body was shrouded in black shadows. I raised my head in fear, only to find that the person who came was the sweaty and worried Butler Spein: "Miss Linsa, I finally found you!"

He motioned for the bodyguard behind him to pick me up, and while I breathed a sigh of relief, I grabbed the bodyguard's suit jacket and asked softly, "Spein, has my sister gone back yet?"

"No." The worry on his face did not fade away at all, "We only found you, Miss Linsa."

"Oh......"

I thought it would only take a moment to find Elisa with the ability of Spine and the bodyguards, but I never thought that until the end, I would never see my poor fellow sister again.

My father used all channels to find Elisa for three years but there was no news. Then one day, he told me: "Linsa, your sister... may not be in this world anymore, Dad really I'm too tired to hold on..."

I looked at my originally high-spirited father who was tortured by these three years as if he was ten years older. I felt sorry for him, but I also felt sorry for Elisa. I insisted on my point of view: "Dad, Eliza... .Sister, she is still in this world, I can feel that she is still alive."

My father squatted down and looked directly into my eyes. He reached out to wipe away the tears on my cheeks, and then hugged me tightly: "Linsa, it is impossible for Dad to waste such a huge amount of money because of your unfounded feelings. Manpower and energy gone...sorry, sorry, Ellie."

Yili is my mother's name. According to my father, she had been in poor health since before, and passed away not long after giving birth to our two sisters.

I know that my father's pain is no less than mine, and I tried to bite my lower lip to suppress the grief in my heart. I no longer willfully ask my father to look for Elisa again.

One night in 1991, I suddenly woke up from my dream. The severe throbbing pain in my chest made me almost faint. I tried to sit up and curl myself up, but even this could not resist the overwhelming fear and loss. I suddenly had an inexplicable feeling that my sister, who was a compatriot, was no longer in this world.

For half a month after that, my consciousness has been on the borderline of clarity and fuzziness, and I can’t remember anything. A voice in my heart told me in a loop, if you didn’t propose to sneak out on your birthday, Elisa She wouldn't have died, and if you hadn't suggested playing hide-and-seek, she wouldn't have been left alone. It was you, Linsa, who killed Elisa.

If my father hadn't hired the famous female psychiatrist Lelute in the town at that time, I think I would have been tortured to death because of the condemnation of my conscience.

"Miss Linsa, let's go."

When he came back to his senses, Xia Ke had bought the bill and stood up and looked at me with a smile. Looking at his cute sunny baby face, it seemed that all the haze would be dispelled.

"Ok!"

On the way back, the sunlight nearing the end dyed the whole town of Khakistan in a warm orange-gold color. Just as I secretly sighed that the time alone with the knight was too short, I found a beggar at the corner of the street ahead begging.

It was a middle-aged man with unkempt hair and a scruffy beard. He was wearing a tattered cloak. He was sitting cross-legged with his head hanging down. There was an old bowl beside him. Passers-by were struck by the huge smell on his body. Take a detour.

"Wait a minute."

After I told the knight, I searched my body and found a few coins. I didn't look carefully at how many nuns there were, frowned slightly and resisted the strange smell, and I put the coins into his bowl.

"Ok?"

The man noticed the movement here, but his face after raising his head shocked me. The hair on his face can even make people confuse the boundary between hair and beard. Green eyes can make people remember deeply, is this a caveman who came out of nowhere?

"My dear lady, actually this bowl is not for begging..." His eyes were slightly helpless, "But you have solved my urgent need."

"Thank you for your help. If you have any difficulties in the future, please report to the Hunter Association to find Jin Fulishi. They will have a way to contact me."

This "caveman" said some words that made me feel a little puzzled, then he stood up, glanced at the knight not far away, and said: "Before I leave, I will give you a piece of advice, that young man The breath on his body is very dangerous, if possible, it is better not to get involved with him."

What the hell is this guy talking about?The aura on the knight is dangerous?He's a skilled hacker at best, how dangerous can he be?

I was about to refute him, when I looked up again, there was no sign of that strange "caveman".

"It's so strange..."

I muttered back to the knight, but I heard him say: "Miss, didn't you hear what he said just now?"

I tilted my head and looked at him: "What?"

"He said that the breath on my body is very dangerous, so please don't get involved with me."

I chuckled out loud, then tiptoed to poke Xiake's tender cheek: "How can Xiake be dangerous if he is so cute? And why should I trust a person who didn't even say a few words when we first met?"

He grabbed my wrist and lowered his eyes: "Miss, is this always the case? When you see beggars on the side of the road, you don't hesitate to donate their belongings?"

"Well, because they look pitiful."

"Poor?" He deepened the smile on his face, "You are really a naive lady, have you ever thought that if they are able-bodied and only know how to accept charity, then they are doomed to be the worst for the rest of their lives biology."

I couldn't help being dazed, it was quite different from his cute smiling face, what he just said was really ugly.

"But, but we are capable of helping them, aren't we? Obviously we can help, but we still don't care... What if the few precepts you give can save their lives?  … ..."

The more I spoke, the more I lost my confidence. I didn't even dare to look up at the expression on the knight's face. I was afraid that he would dislike my self-righteous remarks about the savior.

Unexpectedly, he lifted my hand to his lips and kissed it lightly, and said with a smile: "Miss is really kind, I believe that good people will be rewarded with good things."

I couldn't help but blushed. I had such a baby face, but I was inexplicably handsome when I did this kind of gentleman's action. I withdrew my hand a little uncomfortably, and said, "Let's go, if we don't go back, Speyne should In a hurry."

After the knight and I left, a slender purple figure appeared at the previous street corner. She stood there expressionlessly for a moment, and then disappeared without a sound.

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