beautiful patron

Lin Weinan drove the car to the small square in front of the hotel and parked it, leaning against the car body to smoke.The flavor of women's cigarettes is lighter than that of ordinary cigarettes, with a slight mint fragrance, which he likes very much.

After the interview in the afternoon, he went home first, ate something casually, took a shower and changed his clothes, then went out and drove to the hotel by himself.He and Zhuang Yan are not very familiar yet, so he doesn't plan to take Zhuang Yan home to do it for the time being.

Perhaps because he ate too much sweets yesterday, his throat was a bit uncomfortable today, so he planned to buy a box of lozenges on the way to the hotel.

But he never thought that he would meet the person he never wanted to see again in his life.

Lin Weinan clearly remembered that when he entered the store, the person in charge of the cashier at the counter was clearly a young female employee, but when he finished taking the medicine and came out from behind the shelf to check out, the cashier turned into a man.

After 11 years, he saw Shen Yuting again and was caught off guard.

Memories that had been dusty in the depths of my heart rushed to my heart like a tide.

Lin Weinan thought he had almost forgotten those things, but it turned out he hadn't.

11 years ago, Lin Weinan was 17 years old.

When he was young, he was a bit rebellious, because in junior high school, his classmates secretly told him that he was able to enter a key middle school because of his family background, so he refused to listen to his mother's advice and go abroad to study high school. He insisted on staying in China and took a public high school by himself , is still a dormitory system, and has been hiding his family background from his classmates since entering school.

In the second year of high school, a transfer student named Shen Yuting came to Lin Weinan's class.As the class monitor and his deskmate, Lin Weinan gave Shen Yuting a lot of care.

Shen Yuting is a sports student. He is already close to 17 meters tall at the age of 1.9. He has handsome features and a humorous personality.

The boys also have their own small circles.

Lin Weinan has a good relationship with the male students in the class, and often gets together with them to study the solutions to competition problems. Shen Yuting is in his favor, and also becomes friends with the top students, and has since become the only one in the small circle of top students. A "stupid", but the job is also guaranteed.

Lin Weinan knew that Shen Yuting was not really stupid, but just a little hyperactive, and it was always difficult to concentrate, so he couldn't learn it, so he spent a lot of time and energy helping Shen Yuting exercise self-control, and also gave him tutoring, and forcibly passed this result. The guy who was always below the average score in the class was dragged into the top two hundred in his year.

But straight men are very uncontrollable creatures, without exception, they have no sense of proportion, especially when it comes to physical contact with the same sex.Lin Weinan can often see the boys in the class sitting on each other's laps, or leaning on the railings of the corridor, looking at the playground one by one.He feels that straight men are scary, so he has been trying to keep a safe distance from them and reduce physical contact.

But the bad thing is that Shen Yuting happens to be a straight man who has no sense of proportion.

Sometimes when Lin Weinan stood on the edge of the playground watching his classmates play, this guy would suddenly appear from behind him and wrap his arms around his shoulders, laughing and starting to analyze the situation on the field, getting very close.Sometimes when Lin Weinan finished a question patiently, this guy would hug him and rub against him, expressing his gratitude to Lin Weinan exaggeratedly.There are many more such moves.

Lin Weinan is in adolescence, no matter how much he concentrates on his studies, it is impossible for him to be completely calm. He will feel a little throbbing more or less, and he will have some blush dreams like boys of the same age.It's just that the person he dreamed of in his dream was a man.

Since Shen Yuting appeared by his side, Lin Weinan had significantly more dreams like this, and the man in the dream finally no longer had a blurred face, but had a specific and clear face.

——Shen Yuting's face.

This is not a good sign.

Falling in love with a straight guy is the worst thing that can happen to a gay man.

Realizing that something was wrong, Lin Weinan began to alienate Shen Yuting, and even went to the head teacher, making up a lot of reasons to ask the head teacher to transfer him.But such a deliberate alienation made Shen Yuting think that he had done something wrong to make Lin Weinan angry, so he became even more attached to him, and kept apologizing to him.

The 17-year-old Lin Weinan was very soft-hearted, and in the end he still gave vague reasons for alienating Shen Yuting, and promised Shen Yuting to continue to be good friends with him. Until the college entrance examination, the two of them lived in peace.

The turning point happened after the college entrance examination.

On the night after the last exam, friends who had a good chance of winning proposed to go to a KTV party to relieve stress, and Lin Weinan and Shen Yuting also went.

Someone ordered a case of wine and called everyone to fight together.

Lin Weinan's family education is very strict, and he is also very self-disciplined. He had never drank alcohol before he was an adult, and he didn't know how much he could drink, so he didn't dare to drink too much.Knowing that he has always been gentle, his friends didn't force him to drink more, but they all ran to feed Shen Yuting, a fool with a big food addiction.

Shen Yuting couldn't drink, but he tried to drink, and soon he became drunk and stupid. Later, when everyone played truth or dare, his brain was always blank and at the mercy of others. Someone even asked him to kiss Lin Weinan. Ask him to do the same.

Lin Weinan, who had no time to react, was pressed by Shen Yuting on the corner of the KTV sofa and blocked his lips.

Even pursing his lips was useless, the teeth were forcibly pried open, the mouth was stirred wantonly, and the strong smell of alcohol from Shen Yuting's body filled the lips and teeth.

The friends around applauded and booed enthusiastically, laughing and joking.Lin Weinan closed her eyes, feeling so uncomfortable that she wanted to cry.

He thought Shen Yuting was drunk and couldn't recognize him, so he kissed him so brazenly.After Shen Yuting sobered up, everything was still in vain.

Unexpectedly, although Shen Yuting was drunk, he still recognized him.

After the deep kiss was over, Shen Yuting hugged Lin Weinan's slender body, rubbed his lips twice with some reluctance, then whispered into his ear and asked with a smile: "Weinan, are you secretly eating? Is it too sweet? It's so sweet."

For this sentence, Lin Weinan decided to confess his love.

Because he didn't want his first love to leave regrets, and because Shen Yuting clearly recognized him but still kissed him, which gave him great hope.So he wanted to give it a try.

So Lin Weinan asked Shen Yuting out to watch a movie together the day before the results were released. After the movie ended and the other audience members left laughing and talking, she said "like" to Shen Yuting a little shyly and clumsily.

Shen Yuting was silent at first, and then asked: "Why did you tell me these things?"

It's a questioning tone.

Lin Weinan froze for a moment, the anticipation and joy in his eyes faded and turned into confusion.He didn't know what to say.

Shen Yuting clenched five fingers, punched the armrest of the seat with a fist, and said through gritted teeth: "I almost forgot what happened that night, why did you tell me these things?!"

"Because..." Lin Weinan felt a little numbness in his fingertips, and an indescribable soreness in his heart, "Because, I..."

Because I presumptuously thought that you also like me in your heart.

"Forget it, don't say it." Shen Yuting lowered his head, his voice was a little heavy, "...it's really disgusting."

"Lin Weinan, if I knew from the beginning that you were gay, I wouldn't be friends with you."

"...Weinan." Shen Yuting didn't seem to expect to meet Lin Weinan by such a coincidence, and was a little at a loss for a moment, and subconsciously explained, "I am helping my sister get off work, so that's why..."

"I don't want to know." Lin Weinan didn't look at him, and directly scanned the code to pay according to the price on the price tag, then picked up the medicine and was about to leave, but was caught off guard by Shen Yuting's wrist.

"I was ignorant before, and I said such exaggerated things to you...I'm sorry." Shen Yuting looked into Lin Weinan's eyes without waves, "Actually, actually I..."

"Are you married?" Lin Weinan interrupted him lightly, "Trouble yourself."

Shen Yuting wore a diamond ring on his left ring finger.

Lin Weinan broke away from his hand, left the pharmacy without looking back, opened the door and sat in the driver's seat, and drove the car on the spacious road.

After driving to the entrance of the hotel and parking the car, I found a wet tissue from the car, and wiped the place on my wrist just touched by Shen Yuting several times with all my strength, almost rubbing the whole wrist red.

"...sick." Lin Weinan cursed in a low voice, "crazy...!"

Because of Shen Yuting's "disgusting" sentence, Lin Weinan experienced a long period of decadence.In order to escape, he finally did not stay in China to study, but accepted his mother's arrangement to study in England.

In the beginning, Lin Weinan mixed with those rich second-generation foreign students with mixed diplomas. He stopped being a top student who followed the rules. He learned to go clubbing, smoke and drink, and also flirted with handsome British men who came to strike up a conversation. When the atmosphere is up, go to the room and go to bed, roll around happily all night, and say goodbye when the sun rises.

I also talked about a few boyfriends, but I didn't care too much. After I had enough fun, I broke up peacefully, and even continued to be friends after the breakup.

After living such a free and unrestrained life for almost two years, Lin Weinan finally got rid of all the depression and depression from his body.He restrained himself a little in his private life, and began to seriously plan his future, wanting to start a career.

He knew that it was impossible for him to escape abroad for a lifetime, and he would return to that land after all.If you keep escaping, it is impossible to move forward in life.

It happened that he was influenced by his cousin when he was young, and he was very interested in the film and television industry, and he happened to get acquainted with the major shareholder of Xinyi Film and Television in the UK. Lin Weinan planned to return to China after graduating from university and enter Xinyi for development.

Although in the eyes of his parents and friends, he seems to have changed a lot these years, but Lin Weinan knows in his heart that he is still the weak self he used to be.

He was afraid of getting hurt again, so he didn't want to give his heart to anyone anymore, and he didn't accept anyone's heart.He was stabbed to pieces by the phrase "disgusting", and he was afraid of being hated by others, so he wanted to go to a higher place by himself, hold power in the palm of his hand, so that others could not easily express their disgust for him.

However, he is also a person who is very afraid of being alone.So he kept a lot of lovers by his side, and used money, contacts, and resources to buy the hypocrisy of one person after another, and let them accompany him.

He doesn't need to be sincere, all he wants is to be obedient and obedient.

...that's enough.

Lin Weinan leaned against the car and finished smoking a cigarette, only to realize that the time agreed between him and Zhuang Yan had passed, so he picked up his mobile phone and called Zhuang Yan.

"Sorry, something happened on the road, it's a bit late." Lin Weinan put his other hand on the car hood, bowed his back slightly, lowered his eyes, and said in a low voice, "I'm here, go up right away."

He set the time, but it turned out that he himself was late, so Lin Weinan apologized very simply.He has always maintained the proper humility, which is one of the reasons he gets along well with the company's subordinates.

"Well, I know." Zhuang Yan's voice from the phone overlapped with a voice not far away.

Suddenly, a pair of feet appeared less than one meter away from him.Lin Weinan froze for a moment, raised his head and looked forward.

Zhuang Yan was standing in front of him, wearing a black mask on his face, holding the phone to his ear with his right hand, with a shy smile in his exposed eyes.

I also know that wearing a mask is more self-conscious than Tan Si.

"...Did you see me?" Lin Weinan straightened up, "Didn't you already go in and wait, and what did you run down again?"

Zhuang Yan stuffed the phone back into the pocket of his coat, and scratched his face with his fingers through the mask a little embarrassedly: "I see you have been smoking downstairs, and I was worried that you were unhappy, so I came down to see you..."

Lin Weinan could tell that Zhuang Yan's words were very sincere, and he didn't intend to flatter her, so she was in a slightly moody mood.

"I'm fine." Lin Weinan smiled, "I'm not a child anymore, and nothing will happen if I'm not happy."

Zhuang Yan said "Oh", shook his head, and said seriously: "You have been unhappy for several days, this is serious!"

Lin Weinan couldn't help but burst out laughing.

Zhuang Yan tilted his head slightly, as if he didn't understand why he was smiling.

The author says:

Very bad first love, Mr. Lin never wanted to love again.

Shen Yuting is afraid of homosexuality.

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