The white moonlight that makes us cry

After five o'clock in the afternoon, the sky turned cloudy and it rained lightly.

The air was damp and cold.

On campus, students passing by in twos and threes holding the oden they bought at the school gate.

classroom office.

Xia Rubing packed her things and prepared to leave work.

The days of working at Chongnan University are very leisurely, with only two classes a week.Most of the time, he is free to sit in the office and read a book, deal with official emails, or drink a steaming cup of Americano coffee on a rainy afternoon.

Snapped.

He turned off the light.

Then the phone rang.

Xia Rubing frowned slightly, took out her mobile phone from her pocket, and saw that the caller ID was the school leader of Nantah University.

"Hey?"

The school leader said in a gentle tone: "Professor Xia, I want to inform you today that the female professor who was teaching your sports psychology just gave birth yesterday and is expected to return to work in September next year. You won't have to go back to work next semester." Help with class."

Xia Rubing said, "Okay."

The school leader asked: "Would you like to consider joining our school? The salary is guaranteed to satisfy you."

There is a shortage of excellent psychology teachers in colleges and universities. It was Nantah University who had to spend a lot of effort to get Xia Rubing to come here.

He was originally in the criminal investigation psychology of Archbishop X, and coming to Nanjing University to take classes is equivalent to a part-time job.

To be honest, the school leaders are not willing to let this talent go.

Xia Rubing didn't directly refuse, but said: "Let me think about it."

"Okay, okay." The school leader thought for a while, and then asked concerned: "How are the students in the class? Are they all obedient?"

Xia Rubing: "There is a classmate who has not come to class before, and may have to fail the course."

The school leader snorted and said, "Students are getting worse and worse nowadays! They don't want to come to class, so what are their parents doing for paying the tuition? Just let him go home. This really needs education. Professor Xia, don't hesitate to give it to me. He failed the exam, if anything happens later, just come to me."

"..."

After hanging up the phone, Xia Rubing walked out with an umbrella.

The distance from NTU to the community is very short, so he usually chooses to walk.

When a few students saw Xia Rubing on the way, their eyes couldn't help but brighten.

Such a good-looking male professor is simply a sight for the school.

Xia Rubing's expression remained unchanged, only when the students in the class took the initiative to greet him, they would slightly nod their heads.

When you walk out of the school gate and turn left, you will pass through a garbage street selling snacks.

Xia Rubing habitually went to buy croquettes.

The boss asked: "Handsome guy, how much do you want?"

Thinking of the child who could eat too much at home, Xia Rubing said, "20 yuan."

After paying, he crossed the road with a croquette.

Warm oil stains slowly penetrated through the brown paper bag and touched the fingertips.

As soon as the door was opened, there were messy gift boxes all over the floor.

Xia Rubing was stunned for a moment, almost thinking that her house had been burglarized.

But his eyes passed over the pile of debris, and soon fell on the person sitting in the middle.

Probably because he had just returned from training, the young man was only wearing a white vest and tight sports shorts.

The fit is so snug...that the raised muscles are defined.

There was a strong smell of male hormones in the air.

The young man's black hair was also wet, his hair was curled up, and he was looking at him in bewilderment.

Xia Rubing suddenly felt a little thirsty.

He unconsciously rolled his Adam's apple twice, looked away and walked towards the kitchen.

He wants water... no, wine.

At this time, only high alcohol can numb the illness that seems to be about to move around.

Cui Youji put down the half-opened presents and said to him embarrassedly: "It's all from fans. I'm sorry Professor Xia, I will clean it up later."

"As soon as possible." Xia Rubing frowned, walked around the boxes and put the paper bag on the dining table and said, "Here are croquettes, eat them if you are hungry."

"Yes! Thank you, Professor Xia."

Cui Youji craned his neck to look around twice, and the glutton in his stomach began to gurgle.

Coke also smelled the smell of meat, and frantically stretched out its claws to pull on the balcony door.

Cui Youji turned to stare at it, "Quiet!"

Coke sat down obediently upon hearing this, but the saliva on the side of his mouth still hung in a thread.

Xia Rubing opened the refrigerator door, unscrewed the mineral water bottle, and swallowed the spicy sake inside.

The cold wine slipped down his throat, making him a little dazed.

But... the strong emptiness deep in the lower abdomen has also eased.

But Xia Rubing knew very well that this would only have a short-term restraint effect.

If it is not solved by physical means, it will not be long before the disease will erupt like a raging tide that has been released from the flood.

At that moment, he will completely lose consciousness.

He would kneel down on the floor and bed, and instinctively use all the rectangles around him like a primitive animal.

Xia Rubing put the wine back, thinking that she must hurry back to the bedroom alone and lock it.

It's better to dismiss Cui Youji again.

Xia Rubing turned her head and said, "Can you take Coke out for a walk with the dog now? I have something to deal with."

"...Oh, good." Cui Youji stood up.

Does Professor Xia mean that he wants to be alone?

Cui Youji could understand, because Xia Rubing's personality seemed to be somewhat solitary and withdrawn.This is his home, and it's normal for him to need some private space on a regular basis.

"That's right." Cui Youji took out the box containing the pen and handed it to him, "Here it is for you."

Some doubts surfaced on Xia Rubing's face.

Cui Youji explained: "The pens given by fans are still famous brands."

Xia Rubing originally planned to refuse, but for some reason, she reached out and took it by accident.

It was a delicately packaged smoky gray cardboard snap box.

The pen inside is really valuable, and it is the same brand as another one I often use.

But their series are different.

The length is the same, but the one in front of him is at least twice as thick as his.

The fat steel pipe looks a little cute.

Looking at it, Xia Rubing's breathing became inexplicably short.

Cui Youji's eyes fell on the man's slender and slender fingers, and he couldn't help but say, "Is it too thick?"

Xia Rubing turned her head suddenly, her voice trembling slightly: "Too rough?"

The interrogative sentence from the other party almost made him break out in a cold sweat.

Fear and shame mixed in my heart.

"Yes." Cui Youji nodded, and said seriously: "Your fingers are too thin, I'm afraid you won't be able to hold this pen."

Xia Rubing: "..."

Xia Rubing stuffed the gift into the young man's hand and said coldly, "Then I'll give it back to you."

"Don't..." Cui Youji hurriedly said, "Even if you don't write, you can use it in other ways."

other aspects?

Xia Rubing was expressionless.

If he didn't know very well that Cui Youji didn't know his secret, he would really feel that these words were connoting him.

"for example?"

Cui Youji grinned, and said, "Keep it in your collection and watch it, or play with it when you're bored. Hey, Professor Xia, have you ever played with that kind of pen twister when you were in school..."

Xia Rubing pressed the tip of her tongue against her palate, as if trying to restrain herself.

The young man's warm and clear voice penetrated into his ears like being kissed on the ground.

Has it developed to this point now?

Not only the smell, but even the sound is unbearable.

Xia Rubing regretted letting Cui Youji live in.

Feel like asking for trouble.

He turned his eyes to the dog sitting obediently on the balcony, and said:

"Coke seems to be in a hurry to go to the toilet, take it down quickly."

"is it?"

Cui Youji had no doubts at all, and quickly ran over to hold it.

He originally wanted to use an iron chain given by a fan, but it didn't feel right to put it on.

The iron chain is too rough, and if the cola bursts, it may hurt its neck.

As soon as Coke saw him, he jumped up excitedly.

Tongue licking.

Cui Youji threw the chain on the sofa and hurriedly took the dog down to defecate.

He didn't know that not long after he went out, Xia Rubing returned to the bedroom holding the pen he gave him, and locked the door.

......

The bedroom is large, but also very empty.

The black, white and gray color scheme makes the room look very lonely.

Xia Rubing opened the drawer on the opposite side of the wall, and looked down at the "medicine" neatly arranged inside.

It was a tool used to ease his condition.

Countless lonely and unbearable nights, he relied on them to get through.

Flicking one by one with his fingertips, he chose a carrot-shaped one, plugged in the charging cable and charged it for a while.

In the past, Xia Rubing thought that she could rely on these things for a lifetime.

Change it when you are tired of it, and buy the latest model when the novelty is over.

Modern technology is advanced and there are many tricks.

Isn't this better than a man?

At that time, Shen Hang advised him: "We still have to find a boyfriend, even if it's a warm hug or a lingering deep kiss, it's far more satisfying than these buzzing and vibrating tools."

Xia Rubing remembered retorting: "I don't have skin hunger or thirst."

He just wanted to solve the disease.

It is normal for human beings to have the seven emotions and six sensory desires. Animal estrus is engraved in DNA and is a common physiological phenomenon.

Xia Rubing felt that she didn't need a man.

yP without emotion, don't care.

But this idea changed on the day he met Cui Youji.

There was an indescribable magic about this man.

Let him change the bottom line again and again.

The windows were slightly open, and the sound of the pattering rain was like a symphony.

Xia Rubing lay on the bed and closed her eyes, the scene of that night subconsciously appeared in her mind.

It also rained that night.

He spent the time in the sound of rain, the breath of young people close at hand and the warm embrace.

Xia Rubing's body was tense, her lips were tightly pursed into a straight line.

It's obviously my favorite thing, but now I don't feel anything.

Even turning on the heating function is useless.

The familiar soreness and tingling feeling in the limbs, like being bitten by ten thousand ants in the lungs.

Like an empty and lonely room.

icy.

It just left him with a huge sense of emptiness.

Anger, self-blame, futile powerlessness.

Xia Rubing gritted her teeth, pulled out the thing and threw it out.

With a bang.

It was slammed against the wall, rebounded and fell to the ground, rolling around a few times.

Xia Rubing looked at the ceiling, feeling a little desperate.

After that one-night stand, he found it difficult to satisfy himself recently.

As a psychologist, he can perfectly find a term for his behavior, "ratchet effect".

It means that people's consumption habits are irreversible after they are formed.

As the saying goes: It is easy to go from thrifty to extravagant, but difficult to go from extravagant to frugal.

Xia Rubing bit her lower lip until the smell of rust and blood filled her mouth.

Is he really going to find a man?

It was raining heavily.

Rain and mist drifted into the window.

Xia Rubing got up and wanted to close the window.

At this moment, he saw the pen that he had left on the table.

The thick pen body is just right.

The important thing is...

Xia Rubing picked it up and sniffed it lightly, and could smell the scent of the young man.

In an instant, the cold barrel of the pen seemed to become hot to his touch.

......

After half an hour.

Xia Rubing suddenly woke up.

He stared at the pen with complicated eyes for a long time, then called Shen Hang.

He said hoarsely: "What should I do, something seems wrong with me."