Hubi, Taopu and I

I developed the habit of occasionally not replying to messages three years ago. After I sent the message I wanted to say, I started playing and disappearing.At that time, it was to avoid Chen Wenqi. I was afraid of seeing her replying to some of my messages, so I put the phone aside and tried not to think about it.

It took about three hours of mental preparation before I could go to the chat dialog.Because of this, I often miss some things, but I am really too afraid, afraid of seeing information that I don’t want to see, and even more afraid of being blank.

I woke up at seven o'clock the next day, because Lin Rui always crawled over me at this time. If he slept late the day before, he would lie on top of me and get up again.

It stands to reason that I should go back to sleep, but after watching the ceiling with my eyes open for a while, I woke up and couldn't fall asleep.I took out my phone from under the quilt, and saw that I had received a message on WeChat among the many advertisement push mailbox reminders on the phone screen, and clicked on Lin Rui to send three messages.

I'll first look at the information sent to me by Dafan on this thread.In the past few days, most of the messages sent to me by big fans are to feel sorry for Lin Rui, and if they scold the organizer, today's messages are to celebrate Lin Rui's happy birthday.

"Qiaoqiaozi, why didn't you have a date?" She madly poked me with an emoji, "The sisters are asking if you are missing, where are you?"

It's over, this time I really forgot about Lin Rui's birthday, I used to get stuck in posting on Weibo, but I forgot today.This time, the Haiyan Chocolate website was a big dereliction of duty. I took the time to read the chat group, and Aite asked me what was going on.

"It's not powder, is it?"

Almost, I thought.

After a few minutes of delay, I turned on Weibo and started writing a copy.

The photo has been prepared, it must be a photo that has not been published before. The photo I left for the birthday copywriter is a picture taken last year. Lin Rui gets off work at the variety show at night, surrounded by fans. He is wearing a school uniform-like coat , his hair was cut short, his eyes were bright under the flash, and he stuck out his tongue at my camera.

In the past years, it was easy to write birthday copywriting, just write it in a luxurious way, such as the wind in April, the flowers in spring, the galaxy shining in the universe... But if I have a brain, I can write two catties a day.This year it won’t work, because I have lost my kidneys, and I have lost my heart, so I can’t write lies.

I want to write about the beauty I love you, but I am afraid of being chased and killed by purge fans; I want to write about my kitten, but I am afraid that my possessiveness is too obvious; He made me suffer.

Worrying, I thought about it until eight o'clock, and finally held back a sentence:

"@海粉酷酷格站: #林瑞0621生日快乐# I’m always here. [Picture]”

I texted Da Fan back, explaining that I worked overtime too late yesterday and forgot, and she didn't reply to me.

Finally, after I had replied to all other people's messages one after another, I had to face the news from Lin Rui.

He sent me three messages, and the first one replied quickly, saying good night to me.The second one is at eleven o'clock, with only three words "sorry".The third one is at twelve o'clock, ask me "Then will you come to see me tomorrow?".

To be honest, I don't know, I haven't thought about how to face him, and Sister Feng and I have both asked for leave.

I sent him "I forgot to prepare a gift for you", and Lin Rui actually called me back.I was stunned for a few seconds and connected. He didn't speak, so I repeated the text again: "Sorry, I forgot to prepare a gift for you."

"It's okay." Lin Rui's voice came from the microphone, and I could hear a bit of flattery in a burst of electricity, "Are you coming?"

I fell silent, I heard his breathing, and he called me again: "Zhang Fan...are you coming? Are you coming..."

Reason told me not to go, this man is very dangerous, he still hangs on me if he doesn’t fall in love with me. How pitiful.

In contradiction, I reply: "I don't know."

"I'm having an operation in the afternoon, can you come to see me? Come at four or five." I can almost imagine his expression when he said this, he would definitely hold my hand and rub my face like a small animal rub.

Probably because I was silent for too long, he took a step back: "It's fine later...anytime."

I sighed: "Lin Rui, do you know that I like you?"

He cautiously gave an "um", as if humming from his nasal cavity, lightly.

"You turned me down, right?" I asked, "Then how can you still invite me to your birthday? What's our relationship?"

"friend……"

"When are we friends? We are friends with benefits, celebrities and fans, employers and employees, pursuers and suitors..." I said in one breath, "Not friends, I'm chasing you, If you reject me, we will be fine."

Good guy, I'm shocked that I can say such unfeeling words, neither I nor Chen Wenqi have ever said that.

This time Lin Rui was silent. It was so long that I thought he had died before I heard him ask tremblingly, "Are you going to resign?"

I didn't answer directly, just said: "I don't lack the salary you give me."

"I don't have any other assistants..." His voice was trembling, "You don't have to come, I don't want a birthday present, and you don't resign."

I couldn't bear to listen to him pitifully: "Let's talk." I hung up the phone.

Why does Lin Rui not let me go? He is not even willing to say that he misses me, because he is relying on my soft heart.My suspicion became more and more severe with Chen Wenqi's return to China. I even wondered whether Lin Rui was also trying to play with me, and whether the trembling and crying voices on the phone were premeditated pushes and pulls, waiting for me to fall into the trap.

what to do?I asked Dafen if I was a masochist, who likes to raise cats and gives everything I have, but he treated me as if he didn't leave me.When he likes me, he clings to me until he gets under the quilt, when he rejects me he is decisive, and when he sees me sad, he droops his ears to comfort me. This is too difficult to figure out.

The gift left by his parents is still with me and must be sent over.

I found another excuse for myself to go to see him, and if there is any trick, I will admit it.

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Happy New Year!