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Ji Qingchuan thought that he would never forget Qi Xuan and be alone for the rest of his life.

He was never afraid of being alone.

Countless times, Xu Xinran persuaded him to let go of Qi Xuan, let go of the guilt in his heart, and find a loved one to live a good life, but he always refused with a smile.There is even a kind of martyr-like belief in my heart, as if I am a devout Lunatic believer, for the happiness of the fifteenth month, for the perfection of that night, I can survive the darkness and loneliness of 29 nights.

Unexpectedly, it's not just fleeting years that change time, but also the person in my heart.

Unknowingly, Qi Xuan has been away for seven years.

Looking back now, those willful and noisy youth are like dreams, illusory and short.

Qi Xuan was in his thirties when he entered the industry to make his first film "24 Bridges". He has already won Best Actor awards at various film festivals along the way. Everyone says that he is an unrivaled genius in the century-old film history.

To be able to cooperate with such a talented actor for the first time in filming, even if it is only the third male, is enough to make Ji Qingchuan, a newcomer in film and television, tremble with fear.Having heard too many stories about seniors bullying younger generations in the industry, he can almost imagine what kind of arrogant and arrogant Qi Xuan is.

Who knows, that's not the case at all.

If Qi Xuan was born in ancient times, he must have been a knight-errant, drinking the strongest wine, riding the fastest horse, meeting the most wonderful people, and seeing the most beautiful scenery.The angry horse in fresh clothes, with a smile on the horizontal sword, the forests are dyed and the mountains are red.

He always had fun on set.

He secretly picked a wild flower and put it in the serious and noble director Jiang Shanghan's hair. When he was doing makeup, he picked up the eyebrow pencil and added two sexy mustaches to the makeup artist. I’m so scared of cockroaches.” He hid a bunch of chocolates in the heroine’s bag and waited for her agent to inadvertently inform her when she came to visit the set. He put his arms around Ji Qingchuan’s neck and said, “My brother is so handsome, I’m so excited”...

With him on the set, even Director Jiang, who has always been strict and harsh, couldn't bear to criticize the actors, and always filmed him in an angry and funny way.

Every time, when he raised his head slightly and laughed heartily, everyone's eyes on the set would be drawn involuntarily.

Ji Qingchuan is no exception.

Qi Xuan is forthright and enthusiastic.

Ji Qingchuan and Xu Xinran, two first-time film rookies with rough acting skills, were lucky to receive a lot of pointers from him.

Ji Qingchuan received the most attention from him, he almost taught Ji Qingchuan how to read the script thoroughly and how to comprehend the characters.At this time, he would appear to be extremely serious and professional, not letting go of a single detail, and striving for perfection to the point that Director Jiang would feel ashamed.

Therefore, the word genius, after all, ignores Qi Xuan's diligence.

I don't know when, Ji Qingchuan began to peek at him cautiously but full of joy, watching his unrestrained joy, watching his eyebrows flying, watching his extraordinary demeanor, watching his squandering youth.

Seeing myself, I almost felt ashamed, so I avoided it.

But Qi Xuan likes to tease him the most.

Every time he saw Ji Qingchuan blushing and turned his head away, he would laugh so hard that he would lean back and forth, like a big ingot falling from the sky.

After the filming of "24 Bridges", he and Qi Xuan seemed to be close friends.

He is the funniest "little friend" in Qi Xuan's mouth. He watched Qi Xuan walk around Ma Zhangtai, surrounded by Yingying Yanyan.

But no matter how the people around Qi Xuan come and go, what remains the same is that in the four seasons, every time the scenery is picturesque, Qi Xuan always invites him to look at it together.

Two or three years passed quickly, Ji Qingchuan looked up at Qi Xuan, and followed behind Qi Xuan faithfully.

Qi Xuan has nothing to do when he has nothing to do, and he likes to guide him in acting; he has benefited from this, and his acting skills are improving by leaps and bounds.

Driving was also taught by Qi Xuan.

The first time I heard that Ji Qingchuan couldn't drive, Qi Xuan laughed at him for a long time, and taught him how to drive.

Qi Xuan handed over his sports car with a speed of [-] per hour to him to drive, but as a novice on the road, he slowly kept at [-] yards, and Qi Xuan laughed for a long time.

Those days were happy and beautiful, but Ji Qingchuan's heart became more and more restless.

That restlessness was suppressed in looking up cautiously, not daring to vent.

When Ji Qingchuan played the leading role in "Running the Tide" for the first time, Qi Xuan took Ji Qingchuan to find a fishing village and let him learn to fish to experience the role.The two went out to sea with high spirits, and came back with the boat capsized on their backs.

When lying side by side on the beach in a state of embarrassment, Qi Xuan suddenly turned his head, pointed at the hermit crab on Ji Qingchuan's head and laughed wildly.

Ji Qingchuan had never seen Qi Xuan's smiling face so closely before.

Qi Xuan's face was next to his own, and the sound of laughing drove the air to blow over his face.Ji Qingchuan heard a "poof" from his heart, like a branch of magnolia blooming instantly in spring, hitting the heart with its rich fragrance; or like a fruit ripening in an instant in summer, suddenly falling to the soil and bursting the sweet juice.This is the sound of the heart breaking due to unbearable ecstasy.

Like a demon, Ji Qingchuan closed his eyes, leaned slightly, and kissed Qi Xuan.

The kiss was short, with desperate piety.

Even after a kiss, Qi Xuan treated him as a scourge and shunned Wanli, he didn't regret it.

No regrets at all.

Qi Xuan didn't push him away.

Qi Xuan just stared at his devout eyes for a long time.It was so long that Ji Qingchuan was so uneasy that he almost fled, that he broke into a smile.

That smile is like the spring breeze in March, and everything is warm.Qi Xuan pointed to Ji Qingchuan's young fisherman's costume and said, "You really look like Nuo Song. I played Nuo Song before."

Ji Qingchuan was puzzled and uneasy.

Qi Xuan poked Ji Qingchuan's forehead: "No, no, this expression is not Nuo Song, but Cui Cui. Well, you are Cui Cui, I am Nuo Song, and Nuo Song goes into the water and catches white ducks to give Cui Cui."

Nuosong and Cuicui, who fell in love at first sight?Ji Qingchuan couldn't believe it, and suspected that his ears had misheard.

"Like me for a long time? Then should I reluctantly accept it?" Qi Xuan kissed Ji Qingchuan with a cheeky and exaggerated expression, "This is a kiss, feel it well."

Fireworks exploded in my heart.As if you are on the top of the peak, the lights of thousands of families under your feet are all lit up, and the prosperous world is bright.

Ji Qingchuan unexpectedly thought of the love letter written by the creators of Nuosong and Cuicui to his lover: "I have traveled bridges in many places, seen clouds many times, and drank many kinds of wine, but only loved one who was just the most beautiful. A man of good age."

Qi Xuan is the best lover.With Qi Xuan, every moment is so happy that I can't bear it.

Ji Qingchuan thought that he met the most beautiful scenery in the world and the most beautiful time in his life.

But he forgot that the ending of "Border Town" is that Nuosong finally leaves Cuicui and walks away to the horizon, and Cuicui waits for her life by guarding the fishing boat.

On the day of "Enchanting the Tide" finishing wine, he was full of joy and wanted to share it with Qi Xuan, but Qi Xuan couldn't get through on the phone.

The next day, the headlines of all the entertainment newspapers coincided with "Qi Xuan and Shen Qian hand in hand to meet hotel manager in secret, details of engagement banquet revealed".

Even if the paparazzi's words are sensational, there are still big photos attached.In the photo, Qi Xuan walks into the hotel with Shen Qian on his arm, with an affectionate and gentle expression on his face.

A piece of burning charcoal was suddenly poured with a basin of ice water, and Ji Qingchuan called Qi Xuan again with trembling hands.

The phone went through unexpectedly.

"Qi Xuan, I saw the news, it's so funny, I will never doubt you." Ji Qingchuan's voice was so brisk that even he didn't believe it himself, and the moment he opened his mouth, he was justifying Qi Xuan, "I am also an insider. People. Yuji, I’ve always been used to speculating on rumors, and if I went to the hospital to see a stomachache, it would be written as pregnancy, hahaha.”

"Qingchuan, stop laughing." Qi Xuan's voice was somewhat hesitant and apologetic, "The news is true."

On a night intoxicated by the spring breeze, Ji Qingchuan felt that the courtyard was full of snow and came through the window.It was like walking in the desert for a long time, and finally arrived at the legendary oasis, only to find that there was already an empty city there.

Noticing Ji Qingchuan's silence, Qi Xuan hastily explained: "I have nothing to do with Shen Qian, but we each take what we want. You and I have been too close recently. Although every meeting is very secretive, there is no guarantee that we will not be discovered by interested people. Once the homosexual relationship Exposure will definitely destroy you and me, we can't take risks. Shen Qian was with a married man recently, and that man's wife noticed something. She needs a shield, and I need it too."

Qi Xuan did not betray himself, Ji Qingchuan was relieved, but also disappointed: "Qi Xuan, you should at least tell me before making this choice, right? I saw the news of your engagement in the newspaper, do you know how I feel?"

In addition to being disappointed, he felt even more sad.

Although he doesn't want this emotion to be exposed, he also thought that if there is a day when it is exposed, he will resolutely quit the circle, as long as he is with Qi Xuan.He thought that Qi Xuan, who has always been free and easy, would care less about exposure than he does, but in Qi Xuan's eyes, this relationship will not be visible after all, and they can only secretly be secret lovers.

Reason told him that Qi Xuan did the right thing; but emotionally, he was disappointed and sad.

"Qingchuan, "Running the Tide" has finished, right? I'll come to see you tomorrow, what gift do you want? I'll give it to you." Qi Xuan said anxiously, "But not tonight, tonight I want to meet Shen Qian Attend a reception together and make a public show for the media."

Ji Qingchuan never waited for Qi Xuan again.

That night, when Qi Xuan sent Shen Qian home, a gravel truck rolled over on a curve, and five cars rear-ended in a row, killing one and injuring seven.

Qi Xuan was the one who died.

When Ji Qingchuan found out, all the vehicles had been towed away.He is not even qualified to take care of Qi Xuan's funeral, so he can only stare at the funeral for a long time until the years become blank.

If Qi Xuan is still alive, with Qi Xuan's personality, maybe they will break up one day.However, death freezes everything, Ji Qingchuan only feels: I will never lose my love.

He blamed himself to the point of almost self-harm.I always feel that if I am not in love with myself, Qi Xuan would not have to act with Shen Qian, and would not have to die young.

It’s because I’m too greedy. When I first looked up, as long as Qi Xuan smiled at me, I would be happy; later, I became friends, hoping to be the most special one in Qi Xuan’s heart; The person who has been with him all his life occupies all his sight and enjoys all his emotions exclusively.Such greed must be like the fisherman in "The Fisherman and the Goldfish", who has nothing.

Because of love and self-blame, for so many years, Ji Qingchuan guarded his emotions almost like an ascetic, not daring to be tempted, and unable to love anymore.

Qi Xuan loves acting so much, so he vowed to study acting and keep acting for Qi Xuan.

He pulled out the little tiger teeth, the little tiger teeth that Qi Xuan had said more than once were cute.Just be buried with Qi Xuan.

He made the audience cry by acting in a drama that he couldn't ask for, and he told his emotions in other people's stories.

He started having trouble sleeping all night.

I can't see the way I came from, I can't see the way back, it's like a skylight, lost in the years.The room hadn't been cleaned for a long time, and the spider was spinning a web outside the window, and a gust of wind blew it apart.

Life is just like this, weaving a net over and over again, and watching it be torn apart.

Ji Qingchuan thought it would be like this for the rest of his life.

Who knew, who would have met Fang Zheng.

The author has something to say: Nuosong and Cuicui are the characters in Shen Congwen's "Border Town".

"I have walked bridges in many places, seen clouds many times, and drank many types of wine, but I have only loved one person at his best age." ——Shen Congwen's love letter to Zhang Zhaohe