The so-called starvation and food goodness

Walking into the bathroom, Xu Yude even forgot to take off his clothes. The water from the shower head wet half of his sleeves before he numbly took off his clothes and threw them on the hanger.

He turned on the hot water and kept running like this. He stood under the shower head blankly, unable to squeeze any body soap at all.

Not sure what... Then why did he say that he read those "love letters"? Was he frightened for no reason?Or do you actually know it and don't think so?Worrying vacillatingly over there, why didn't I push myself away from the beginning... To save myself from having such joyful hopes, only to find out that there was nothing of the sort.

He knew he should be grateful for not being hated.

He knew that it was a good thing that Luo Yinian did not lie or perfunctory.

He knew that Luo Yinian's attitude was actually very gentle, but he hadn't figured out how he felt about him.

But the other party can say such expectant words, but he didn't accept what he meant when he changed the subject, he...

Xu Yude closed his eyes forcefully.

He felt that he couldn't hold back any longer, and he didn't know how long he could last, whether he could make Luo Yinian like him before he couldn't help but confess his love.

Either accept me, or let me fall out of love──He really wanted to go out later and just say that, but once he said this, he really lost all hope, and forced Luo Yinian who hadn't figured it out yet. As a result, he will probably just refuse very gently.

I really want hope, but I also want answers.

There was chaos in his head, until the hot water ran out at some point, and Xu Yude shivered as he washed more and more coldly, turned off the water slowly, dried his body slowly, and then used the same trance and slow Dress like that.

Opening the bathroom door, the cold air came close to his face. Xu Yude shook the coat on the back of the chair before realizing something strange.

Luo Yinian left?

That's right, if you encounter such an embarrassing thing, you should run away.Besides, it's not like he can't go back to his room.

Xu Yude didn't cry.

He just locked the door and decided to sleep after drying his hair.But after blowing for a long time, the hot air was no longer hot, and the drenched hair couldn't be dried, which made Xu Yude completely lose patience, threw the hair dryer casually, and fell on the bed with wet hair.

Everything in this afternoon was nothing but the milk tea essence that was still in the air.

It would be nice if there were really nothing.If he hadn't overstepped the rules and just pretended he didn't notice anything, now Luo Yinian was still sitting beside his bed playing with his phone, while he was watching the news with music on in front of the computer desk, secretly rejoicing at the rare luck of living together.Then they chatted casually, had dinner at night, played games, whatever... Maybe when they woke up in the middle of the night, they could still see Luo Yinian asleep.

knock knock knock.

Xu Yude was not in the mood for a psychopath, so he turned over and pretended not to hear.

knock knock knock.

"Xu Yude, can you open the door for me?"

The knock on the door was neither urgent nor slow.Three times at a time, knock once and wait for more than ten seconds, and knock again if there is no response. Five minutes later, Xu Yude's cell phone rang, and he picked it up reflexively, but it was too late to hear the familiar voice on the other end.

"Xu Yude, you promised to take me in."

"..."

"Open the door, okay? I only have you to rely on."

Xu Yude sighed, and really felt that such a demagogic voice could not be heard.

But he wanted to return to his thoughts, so he walked over slowly and opened the door.

Carrying a bag of things, Luo Yinian walked in with a troubled but gentle expression.

I changed my pants.That is to go back to the room.

"Didn't you go back?" Xu Yude sat on the edge of the bed with his mobile phone, not knowing how to face him.

"Go buy mung bean soup," he brought it to the door, sat next to Xu Yude and passed the bowl over, "You said you wanted to drink it earlier."

Xu Yude just took it in a daze.

"Just eat it."

"Oh."

He should have a lot of things to say, but when he thought about it, he felt that it was meaningless to say it; he also felt that Luo Yinian had a lot to say, but the other party didn't seem to want to speak, just kept silent. Watching him quietly eating spoonful by spoonful, the red light of the setting sun shone on Luo Yinian's face, and the occasional thoughtfulness made this luminous body a little dull.

Xu Yude ate a whole bowl of mung bean soup, took it to the toilet and threw away the disposable dishes, the pure and silent embarrassment made him feel that he really couldn't continue to be relatively silent with Luo Yinian.

"That...it's okay, I'll go up first."

"Xu Yude."

He stopped.

"Xu Yude," Luo Yinian's voice was low, but clear in the quiet space, "I'm not... I don't mean that at all. But..."

"But what?"

"But getting along with you is always so easy and pleasant. I can hardly be sure if it's friendship or... or liking. I don't know what to do."

Xu Yude's breathing was stagnant, and he finally took a deep breath, "If you don't want it, don't say anything to me. But what you say now is like I really want to turn around and hug you tightly. It will make the atmosphere better, but the problem It’s still there, nothing has been resolved. When you make up your mind, let’s discuss this matter again.” He felt that his tone was extremely cold, but he couldn’t restrain the sharpness that came out of his heart.

Sure enough, he saw the dimmed expression of the luminous body and the hesitant expression again, so he had no choice but to pretend that he didn't notice it, and climbed up to the upper bunk on his own, leaning against the wall in a daze.

Maybe that's it, if you insist on finishing the talk today, that's the best it can be.

Do it, I really want to soften my heart.

That's the person he wants to hold in the palm of his hand. He clearly decided in his heart that he must cherish the person──I really want to go down and hug Luo Yinian and say, "I'm sorry, I'm crazy. Don't mind if we become friends. I'll treat you." Ok, I……

But if you give in casually and accept this ambiguous state casually, then there is really no future.

You can't ask for an answer now, because you will directly become friends or even fail to be friends; you can't reconcile before getting the answer, because then you will not be able to be a good friend, and you will not be able to be a lover.

How can it be so annoying?

Xu Yude's mood on the upper bunk was so complicated that he was about to explode.Especially when he saw Luo Yinian browsing the web over there, and the sound of clicking the mouse was still heard, he really regretted that he borrowed someone's computer.

Afterwards, we had a hasty dinner and a hasty goodnight, and that was how the day passed.

That day started Xu Yude's peaceful life, two or three weeks passed, Luo Yinian didn't come to see him very much, and they were from different departments, so they wouldn't meet if they didn't make an appointment for dinner.

You won't be secretly happy because you met each other, and you won't be disappointed because of the other party's ambiguous attitude; you won't be happy that he brought some delicious surprises, and you won't feel angry and funny because you stepped on a landmine together.Most importantly, he doesn't have to resist the urge to hold someone's hand and touch their head.

Should this be a quarrel?still embarrassing?

Xu Yude sat at the desk, finishing the boring cold noodles by himself.

"Ugh."

The photo of the splashed milk tea was placed on the table now, and he was suddenly reluctant to throw it away, and would stare at it in a daze from time to time.

It’s rare that he didn’t throw away the photo with his ex-boyfriend, probably because the milk tea stained the characters blurred, only the dormitory building in the background is clear.

What should I do, because of Luo Yinian's relationship, I started to pay attention to the photo with my ex-boyfriend again, isn't that very heartless?

Xu Yude had to admit that his days were calm, but the ferment of missing was terrifying beyond imagination—at least it affected his IQ. He really didn't think it was a smart way to expect Luo Yinian to find him every day, but He was also afraid that if he took the initiative to find Luo Yinian, he would get the answer when he was caught off guard.

While swiping Feisibu, he felt more and more annoying, especially when he saw a bunch of garbage dynamics.

──As a result, in the next second, he immediately followed suit and typed only one line: "Yu De in the local area needs to be fed."

After taking a nap, and seeing that the palindrome was also a bunch of trash talk, Luo Yinian didn't respond, and the miracle didn't happen.

What am I doing?

Xu Yude began to feel that he was doomed, he was so worried about his IQ, he was almost out of his mind, and he could do such childish things as shouting from the air.

These days, he has visited the library, made an appointment with Sunrise to play basketball with a few friends, went to and from class, went to and from work, and the days went by day by day. Did the annual meeting simply forget to think about those things... or did he think about it but dare not tell him anything.

Xu Yude could only wait patiently, and the days still passed day by day.

Occasionally, very very occasionally, he would send text messages asking Luo Yinian if he wanted lunch.After being rejected twice, I finally made an appointment and agreed to have dinner together the day after tomorrow.

In this way, it has been a month since the last time we met.

How can you think of him like that?

Or how can you even think about the same kind of daily chores for so long?

Why don't you come soon the day after tomorrow?

These few question marks were hovering in his mind, making people sleepless than mosquitoes. Anyway, after two days of tossing and turning because he cared too much, Luo Yinian's usual steady knock on the door rang at lunch time up.

Still the same knock knock.

With a very gentle smile, Luo Yinian said: Long time no see, let's go out to eat.

Xu Yude nodded and followed silently, Xu Yude sat in Luo Yinian's back seat, Xu Yude's hand was pulled to Luo Yinian's waist and told to hold on tightly, Xu Yude and Luo Yinian finished their sumptuous lunch, Xu Yude was held by Luo Yinian Send back to the dormitory until the door of the room.

He called Luo Yinian into the room, but stared at the ceiling.

"Luo Yinian, don't pity me. You can say nothing, but don't pity me."

"I, I'm not..."

"...It's okay. We're still friends, and I won't force you anymore."

Xu Yude still raised his head and didn't dare to look at the other party, suddenly Luo Yinian's hand supported his face, and he turned down slowly at a very gentle speed, and even turned his gaze down, looking straight ahead.

Luo Yinian's entire face was red, his mouth opened and closed, but there was no sound.

Xu Yude suddenly felt his heart beating so fast.

"...I haven't chased boys before, I'm just..." Luo Yinian's hands even trembled a little, and the usually cheerful young man seemed very at a loss, "Xu Yude——Xu Yude, I like you, from now on, just let me feed you, okay? Will you be my boyfriend?"

Xu Yude suddenly couldn't make a sound, so he had to hug his dear new boyfriend hard.

The two idiots hugged each other tightly that afternoon, chatting or giggling, Xu Yude looked at Luo Yinian who was smiling so softly, wishing to seize the opportunity to kiss him secretly, but every time he had to muster up the courage, I always feel that my heart is about to burst and I need to slow down. In the end, both of them fell asleep, but nothing happened.

Everything is fine, as before, they will meet again to have lunch together, occasionally send each other to class, watch movies and play games in Xu Yude's room during the holidays, or invite someone to play basketball.

As for what is different, it is probably that they do not face each other when they are studying in the library, and they do not write notes. Instead, they sit next to each other and secretly hold hands under the table.Also, Luo Yinian applied for a room change, and their current night activities are more... colorful.

As for talking to people afterwards about how they dated, it's always a bit funny because of the embarrassment.

"Why do you emphasize feeding? Are you okay? I feel very complicated when you are together, so did I become a matchmaker without knowing it?" Little Princess.

"Didn't Xu Yude's dynamic call for marriage?" ex-boyfriend.

"That's an allusion to me. This classmate, can you stop making such a statement that violates sovereignty?" Luo Yinian.

"Hahahaha, did you come here often for ulterior motives?" said an office colleague who has been receiving public relations food for a long time.

"..." In love, Xu Yude was too busy enjoying the sweetness to complain.