Do not hesitate

Shen Lue Extra Story (San Zhi's monologue to Xu Shao)

Whether my life is long or not, it is not short at all.

The legend of ghosts and gods in Liao Zhai, I heard my father tell me about it since I was a child, and I felt scared at that time, but after experiencing it, I was afraid?

What is it!

I don't know if this counts as reincarnation or God's punishment for me.

I can't die, I can't live like a walking corpse, walking in this small cage.The most common thing I do is to stick to the wall and listen to the small and broken sounds outside. If the thunder is louder, I will be lucky enough to hear a "boom".

There, is the place where I stay until disgusting.

I don't even remember when I wrote a line of characters in the crevice of the stone. Later, I learned to record codes, distinguish the seasons with the sound of thunder, and occasionally ask the current year number when I see Wuyan.

These tiny records became my only pleasure at that time.

At last……

When the lady said I could get out of that dark room, I dug out those things, and I laughed.

I know I laughed, a sneer from the bottom of my heart.

It turns out that I have been here for more than 100 years.

Looking at himself in the mirror, who is this child?What kind of world is it outside?

As I grow older, those horrible memories keep pouring out.

Branding, knife cutting, acupuncture, swallowing Gu.

Why did Madam save me?

Why should I live to be an animal in her hands.

To be exact, I am not even as good as an animal.

In that accident, I thought I would die, but I was saved by a couple.

Looking at the clothes covered in blood, I don't know how to treat me like a monster in their eyes.But they took me in, fed me, and clothed me.

And gave me a name.

name?

I forgot that I still have a name.

During the few years of living with them, I have felt the love of father and mother, and I wish I could live with them forever.

However, whenever I have hope, God will take it away.

I know that I am like an ominous person, wherever I go, it will affect the people around me.Since then, I have been afraid of being with people, and those who care about me will leave again.

Meeting her was just a coincidence.

I have lived for so many years, and what I see are either medicine people, Gu people, or those weird creatures raised by Mrs. Wu.

And what is in front of you is not those things, but the birth of a real new life.

Her cry was so loud, as if no amount of thunder could match it, her eyes were still tightly closed and her limbs were moving desperately, as if she was trying to catch something.The pink skin was wrinkled and fragile, as if it would be broken if touched lightly.

dong dong -- dong dong --

What does it feel like?

I raised my hand to hold my heart, it was beating so hard.

original……

My heart will beat.

It can also jump!

All because of this new life.

Xu Tai told me that she was the third lady of the Xu family, named Xu Shao.

Shao, Yu Shunle also.

I remember what Lan once taught me, it is a good name.

Looking at her, I thought I would have a little friend to play with.At that moment, I forgot that I was an ominous person.

Soon, she left the Xu family because of some things.

In the other courtyard of the Xu family, I was left alone, and there was Xu Sen who was lively, dancing and giggling all day long.

Looking up, there are snowflakes falling from the sky.

In such a cold day, where could she and that woman go?

As I was thinking about it, three or four years passed without knowing it, and one day Xu Tai's people said...they had disappeared.

Who is missing?

After careful questioning, I found out that Xu Shao and her mother had disappeared.

I don't know why, but her disappearance is so unacceptable to me. I obviously don't have any worries in my world, just because she gave me a heartbeat?

I'm worried about her, but... I can't leave the Xu family.

Fortunately, I have learned Wu Yan's disguise technique, and with the skills I have been hiding, it is not difficult to leave the Xu family.But... the sea of ​​people, where should I go to find her?

When they came back in despair, they saw the person who had followed them to protect them the next day, and only after asking did they learn some of the ins and outs.

Waiting quietly for Xu Tai to go out to work, I pretended to be sick and asked for leave to escape from Xu's house, and started searching along that line.

In three days, I am used to doing many things without eating, drinking or sleeping.

But four or five years have passed, will I remember her appearance?Just as I was thinking, I saw a figure squatting under a tree, carefully staring at a row of moving ants.

Is it her?

Why looked at her, as if she was very familiar, the girl in front of her was no longer that wrinkled baby.

"They're moving." I looked up at her and said.

She leaned on her chin, looked at the ants without blinking, and said, "But it's going to rain, where can they move?"

I was stunned, I knew it was going to rain at such a young age?

Looking up at the sky, yes, it is indeed going to rain.

"They will have a place where they live." I don't know if I tell her that, will she understand?

"I guess so." She raised her head, her hair was disheveled against her pale and translucent cheeks, and she was looking at me steadfastly.

Then a row of small white teeth that were not even in place were exposed.

I admit that her smile warms me, and I ask her name.

She looked at me with clear eyes, and said with a smile, "Wang Shaoke." Then she turned and left.

At this time, it started to rain, I stood where I was, looked at the figure from behind, and finally the corners of my mouth curled up.

I know, I found her.

Her mother's surname is Wang Mingke, and Shao is the same as Shao.

Wang Shaoke, very good.

In the following time, whenever I have time, I will appear beside her in a different form, as if she is the child I watched grow up.

child?

In front of me, this slim, heroic man with the corners of his mouth raised when he speaks, doesn't he look like a child anymore?

Over the years, I have used many identities to appear by her side. The longest time I left was because I was sent to study outside by Xu Tai, although I sneaked back several times in the middle.

But I also gradually discovered that I am less and less afraid to approach her world.

She is very smart and sensitive, even afraid that she will find out the clues.In this way... Am I unable to protect her?

But for the person next to her, how can I safely stay too far away from her?

"I'm going to be a sophomore in high school soon, have you thought about what to do in the future?" I asked her.

"My biggest dream is to be a policeman. With my IQ, I can definitely catch all the bad guys." He raised his chin slightly and said.

"Yes, I hope to see that you have become an excellent policeman when I come back next time." My casual words caused her a slight uneasiness.

I thought about what I said carefully and found out where the problem was.This identity is for the time being, and I haven't left it yet, so how can I come next time.

"Well. I will work hard and not let you down." Her mood changed quickly, and she smiled.

I always remember that smile, because it is so confident.

It's just that I didn't expect that when I saw her again, I was studying psychology, and the person who appeared next to her was the person I was investigating.

Those clear eyes seemed to me to have a layer of mist.

What happened in the past two years?

What's up with her?

I really want to ask her, but...with my current appearance, how should I speak?

"You can't run away." She said confidently.

I smiled from the bottom of my heart. After college, my body often has problems. I didn’t expect to have problems again at this time. I just want to come and rest for a while.

But will she let me go?

"I'm not hurt, do you think you'll be able to catch me?" My complexion was not very good, so I pulled myself together and asked.

"There are so many reasons for doing something wrong? Tell me, what do you want to do here?" She asked with her chin raised slightly.

"I said to support the family, are you trustworthy? Have you ever raised the family?" I asked.

Obviously, she was listening carefully and thinking about what I said, and then shook her head in response to me.

I laughed secretly in my heart, this silly girl, how can she be a good detective like this?How terrible is this society, do you know?

I smiled and said: "You are very smart, you are much better than those policemen. But I am not convinced that you caught me like this. Do you dare to let me go and catch me after I recover?"

Her eyes fluctuated a little, and I knew she was moved.

It's not because she pities me, but because her arrogance makes her feel that catching me like this is invincible, which is different from her ideal direction.

"You've seen me before. I'm afraid it won't be hard to find me again. I'm the one who suffers." I couldn't help coughing twice as I said that.

"Okay." She said seriously.

I was taken aback for a moment, although I knew her well, I didn't expect her to agree so readily.

What a silly girl.

"I believe I have this ability." The left corner of her mouth was raised slightly, her face was full of confidence, reflected in the sunlight, my heart beat twice again.

Sure enough, in this world, there will be someone who will give you a heartbeat. I didn't expect it to be her all the time.

When I got home, I had to recuperate for a long time before my body recovered. I stood in front of the mirror, took off the mask on my face, looked at this face I hadn't seen for a long time, and the corners of my mouth slightly curled up.

I don't want to use a mask to face a person who gives me a heartbeat. For the first time, I really want to walk into her world.

With my true appearance, I approach her in a real way and protect her.

Take her away from that person and let her choose what she likes.

At that time, I really thought so.

But when I really approached her, I realized that she was panic and uneasy about me.

She said she was afraid of me because she didn't know me.

But she doesn't know how afraid I am that you will be even more afraid of me after you get to know me?

She told me frankly: she approached me because she was afraid that I would hurt her friend.

But she doesn't know, because of her, how can I be willing to hurt her friend?

Perhaps from the life experience at that time, I learned that getting along with people needs an uncut thread to involve each other.

Not too loose, not too tight.

That being the case, your worry is the only bond between you and me.

I know I'm betting, I'm betting all my painful experiences.If you lose, it will be more painful. If you win, you can get back the so-called freedom and a little happiness.

At that time, I thought, if one day, everyone has their own lives and you know about me, will you still get along with me like this?

This kind of thinking is more frightening in the later stage.

Because the closer she gets, the more she wants to get close to her, hug her, and kiss her.

I know I'm sick.

But want to come, with my character.That character that I have buried for a long time, how can the person I like be willing to share it with others?

That being the case, how could I let her go so easily.

It's just that you don't understand, in those years of life and death, I basically forgot what it feels like to have a heartbeat.If it wasn't for that glance... maybe I would have spent the rest of my life in the shadows. It was you who let me know what the meaning of rebirth is.

Hatred is actually not that important anymore.

When I realize this, everything, is there still time?

I once said to Yan that for one person is also for oneself.

So, for you, but also for me.

As long as you escape from that woman's clutches, the rest is not important to me.

Even death.

If you knew, would you blame me?

Or, are you still afraid of me?

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The author has something to say: I don't know how to describe this feeling.

I only know that when you are desperate, the person who gives you hope will make you unforgettable for a long time.

The deeper the despair, the deeper the hope.

Shen Lue is such a persistent person.

Perhaps Shao Ke paid very little compared to her, but...only she can give Shen Lue a heartbeat.So... here is the so-called fate.

In my eyes, there is no match or unworthiness in the world of feelings, because there is no reason for feelings.isn't it?isn't it? _(:з」∠)_

All four of them are my protagonists, so... I am very happy to end with Shen Lue.

Cough~~ I feel that all Shen Lue's repressed heart has exploded in this chapter. . . .

Well~~~ Those of you who like Shen Lue, do you have a feeling that you are not wrong, you love him even more? ? ?